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just started noticing that I was
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starting to get like flashbacks and
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starting to have dreams about the
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incident every time I was hearing at
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that time was the fireworks I could just
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picture us back at the door staring at a
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very clear image of us back there
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standing at the door looking at a black
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space getting shot and at first I was
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like whatever it will go and classic
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just park it get on with it but it kept
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kind of going on for a couple of weeks
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and then I started noticing it wasn't
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just fireworks I heard loud bangs or a
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car backfire even seeing like at this
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point our second daughter was born Palms
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were getting sweaty that was kind of
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when it started to sink in that Fu I
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could have like been missing all of this
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if I can sort of encourage one or two of
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the men and women that are in the police
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my advice would be like the [ __ ] that
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they're having to go to and deal with is
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not normal if I was to go back I would
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have probably just catch up with a
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psychologist even if it was just once
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every 3 months just to see if there's
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anything that sort of needs to be dealt
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with