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you got leukemia. And I had no idea what
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leukemia was. I mean, even the word
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sounds confusing. What I did see was my
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mom just break down in tears. And that
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just tore me apart. I'm like, what the
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heck's happening? It was extremely
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difficult to try and navigate that time
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by myself. And as my dad's saying,
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you're not using all your strength
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unless you're asking for help. And I
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needed to ask for help, but I didn't
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know how. I had no perspective at that
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time. I didn't no tools. And then I
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thought, [ __ ] my mind's out of control.
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My body's out of control. What can
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control I do? what control can I take?
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And that was to take my life. Like
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really considering taking my life. So I
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walked to the balcony and I was there. I
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was like, this is it. You know,
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everything's out. You don't know what to
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do. And I stepped up and I felt the wind
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hit the side of my face, the right hand.
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I I remember it vividly and I turned
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around and I saw my mom's cup of tea
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there and just hit me hard. Hit me hard.
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I couldn't put the pain I was feeling on
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my mom. I couldn't put that on her.
