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I turned to alcohol. I turned to drugs.
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I turned to anything, you know, just to
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kind of numb that because I was hurting,
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you know, like I loved my family and I
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was going out and I was I was hitting
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people. I was looking for fights. I
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wanted to be this this big time macho. I
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wanted to prove that I was strong, that
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I was better than that. I remember the
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first time like not long after I had
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made the Black Boons and the Potato
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Rugby Club asked me to come back and be
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the guest speaker for their prize giving
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and I was like, "Oh man, I don't know
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about that." that like you know I've
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done some bad and I was like so I
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said yes cuz like you know they're
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they're good people and how I started my
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speech was by apologizing. I was just
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like you know what before I start saying
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anything about my rugby career and what
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I've done I just want to apologize. is I
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want to apologize to everybody in this
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room that I've done wrong
