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in the beginning it must have been like
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a scary Prospect thinking I'm never
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having another drink again in my life
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the two scary things for me was that
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because it was my fail safe if anything
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ever went wrong or if there's anything
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like any celebration or anything that I
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could just drink was always there and
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that crutch was always there the other
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thing that was the most nerve-wracking
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was the the lot of friends I thought
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nobody would want to hang around with me
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that was equally the scariest thing I
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didn't feel like people would want to
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know me that's the only life that I'd
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lived by was an alcohol driven lifestyle
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it was scary at the start but in the
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long term it's all up here it's not
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something that you really have to be
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that worried about yeah
