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I love Chris I felt a special connection
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to him because
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uh he had such a special connection and
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desire and
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love for my brother John yeah
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so uh when he would see me he would
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light up and I'd be like Chris I'm not
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sure
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you knew him
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so great
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I know I know I know anyway
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uh he kept going on about John you know
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I said I know I know he was beautiful as
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beautiful as talented man I know I said
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I know you got to stop you got to stop
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chasing him Chris he's gone he's gone I
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know I know I love him so much
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Chris you can't follow John you can't
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follow his track
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the guy did drugs
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he's dead
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you can't follow him with the drugs
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to find out who he was I mean I did it
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myself right after John died I kind of
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increased my intake to try to get close
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to what John must have been feeling and
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then one day what the [ __ ] am I doing
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and then I just kind of cleaned up and
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stopped but I told him that story too
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and I said you've got to stop
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you gotta [ __ ] stop Chris
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I know yeah he's always nodding his head
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yeah I know I'm going to I'm going to
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but it was seems so beautiful he was so
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beautiful and I just kept repeating it
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Chris
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he's dead
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stop it
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you've got to stop
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I know I know I know
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it wasn't a very successful yeah so I'm
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so obsessed with John
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it's like he he wanted to be John yeah
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Jim I don't know if you knew that when
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he would get the Wardrobe once he
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figured one of his pants said Belushi in
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him uh because they're the same size
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that he would wear even if
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first it goes these Belushi's I go I
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know it's Chris it is very exciting to
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be on that show and see someone from the
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shows before that we all looked up to
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and uh and then he would wear them under
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his regular pants during the show and
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just for luck for magic yeah no I
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actually the first couple movies I did
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after after that I uh you know one movie
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so when I took a little hat of John's
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and I wore it in the movie Just to kind
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of bring him along and another movie I
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wore a belt of his just to kind of bring
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him along
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but uh
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yeah you know addiction is an obsessive
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behavior and it just extended into
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obsessing about John yeah true
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was it was it something you know
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obviously you'd think well maybe he
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admired John because John was could was
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a pretty big guy and very physical
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and very spontaneous and I mean was it
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just relating to him you think oh is
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there something deeper just about John's
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personality that that Chris admired you
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know and emulated I mean who knows why
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we have certain Idols but clearly John
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was his Idol comedically yeah I don't
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know I I don't know what it was I mean
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you know he died at the same age he you
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know I I don't I don't know he just uh
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he got obsessed with the guy maybe it's
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because he's Chicago they were the same
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size they were spontaneous yeah I think
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he saw himself like growing up going oh
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there's a guy like me and he's like and
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he's from Chicago you know he always
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talk about like and he Bob his head like
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Aykroyd and you know listen we all grew
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up loving uh volusion Aykroyd and uh
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that whole everybody you know and um and
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when you're in it you think you're
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shitty and they're great and then it
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takes years to someone to say oh Chris
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You're great and uh
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I said you're as good as Belushi toward
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the end I said I sound crazy but
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as great as he was you're up there dude
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he's like no don't no never say that
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yeah and uh but the truth was he was
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great and uh again cutting it short for
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a crowd that could have seen a lot more
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and you're right there's no telling him
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no and if you say it too much we would
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have problems because no no you know if
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he he he goes away from people to do
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that and uh
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that's just normal yeah that's normal
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that's normal
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addictive behavior I mean even John in
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the end Danny said something very
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interesting and that was
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you know when John died the people that
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were around him Danny didn't know any of
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those people
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yeah none of them so you know Alex kind
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of create a community that will
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support them you know indulge them
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in what they want to do same lifestyle
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yeah
