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I think too many people quit too early and we give oursel the options in the parachutes and things like relationships
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and work self-help and we pull at some when we could still be flying even though maybe rocky flight we pull it
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early and okay it's a safe move got down to the ground what I was building didn't last but most of the time it could if
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you'd hung in there but if you have any ambition resistance is going to come and so own that
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Matthew Matthew Matthew Mah you've been able to climb to the very top of the mountain again and again and
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again. Is this natural talent or is there anything transferable? First to look at what's in your DNA. Like I wanted to play basketball, but no
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matter how hard I worked, I was not the fastest nor the biggest. To look at what do you have an innate ability for? Then
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what are you willing to hustle for? And this is very important because some of us have innate ability, but we don't
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work for it. We grew up hardcore on hustle, hustle, hustle. Sleep was sin in
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my household and no TV. Mom would always say, "Why are you going to watch someone doing something when you can go out in the world and do it yourself?" And then
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number three, endurance. I remember this one time when I told my agent, "What I want to do is dramas, no more romcoms."
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And this $8 million offer comes in, comedy. I read it. I said, "No, thank you." I come back with a $12 million
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offer. No thanks. $14.5 million offer. I said, "Let me read that again."
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Ultimately said, "No, I just bought myself a one-way ticket out of Hollywood." About 20 months after offers came in, would those have come if id
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have never stepped out? No. No. Number four. If you do this, you're most likely going to have some success
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in life and that is you. And what about Admiral Bill McRaven? So he shared great wisdom with me when I
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was seeking out male mentors. We reached out to Bill and he wrote this
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letter for you. He said, "Dear Matthew, wow.
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Are you able to share what you were seeking guidance from him about? [Music]
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To my regular listeners, I know you don't like it when I ask you to subscribe at the start of these conversations. I don't like saying I
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button and we'll continue to build this show for you. That's my promise. Thank you to all of you guys that do subscribe. Means the world to me. Let's
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get on with the show. [Music] Matthew,
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you're a particularly surprisingly artistic, creative,
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wise, yet materially successful individual. And it wasn't until I dove deeper into
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your story that I started to understand why that was why you are to me in my mind such an anomaly because you are you
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seem to be several things that don't often appear in the same place. So my
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first question to you is what do I need to understand about your earliest context to understand
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who you are, the values you have and the perspective that you view the world with? Fun question.
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earliest on basic values
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of respect yourself, respect others, give a damn about yourself, give a damn about others. Combined with a mother
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that wherever we went in the world that we might have been a
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little nervous to take a risk at, she was like, "Don't walk in there like you want to buy the place. Walk in like you own it." So a a sort of boosting up of
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what you could say is massive ego but also you were not allowed to walk on
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your proverbial toes in our family. you were brought down. And if anyone
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in our family, if anything, I would say going back, I think mom, mom and dad maybe could have been a little more
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lenient with the successes that we had and let when we did parade, when my brother did win the the track meet and
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walk through the house like this to allow him to do that and and and you weren't allowed to. You weren't allowed to do that. You were immediately
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humbled. No matter if you were coming right off a victory or a win or a box office hit, you weren't allowed to. At
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the same time, you were raised up once you were humbled. Um,
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that balance. We were taught resilience. Heavy heavy duty resilience. Baseline
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gratitude. Quit asking me for new shoes. I'm going to introduce you to the kid with no
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feet. Well, okay. Like sobering. These were were these apherisms from my
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mother. Yeah, but they were pounded into us. All right. At the same time,
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I was spent 36 years thinking I was little Mr. Texas cuz my mom told me I
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was until 36 years later I look at the trophy and it says I was runner up and I go, "Oh, mom was like overselling us to
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ourselves at the same time. You better be humble." So, it was almost like that
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the out anything exterior should not give you your identity. Even
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though my mom's maliprop and fibbing to us going, "You're little Mr. Texas." Or, "Here, write this poem. I know you
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didn't write it, but it's really good. So, turn that in for the seventh grade poetry contest." Okay. And I win.
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It's true story. Um, so this outlaw logic of my mom and
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my dad also with work ethic. Hustle, hustle, hustle. Sleep was sin in my
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household. Sin. I saw my dad asleep one time in my life. I got up at 8:00 on a Saturday
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morning and looked pee went through the kitchen and peaked and I saw him sleeping. I went and woke up my brother's like, "Dude, what dad's still asleep?"
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He actually died 2 and a half months later. And connected that idea that, oh, if he
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slept in that late, he must have not been feeling well. If it was daylight, you couldn't be inside.
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There's a fierce sense of independence. Hour, 30 minutes TV a night max. Mom
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would always say, "Why are you going to watch someone doing something when you can go out in the world and do it yourself? Turn that damn thing off. Get outside." You had to be outside. Like,
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go get out in the world. Go hustle. Figure it out. Be home in the dark. That was just the understood rule.
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What about love? We always knew we were loved. There's never a question that we were loved as
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as loving our each other, loving mom and dad, being loved by mom and dad, and
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make and mom would always keep on to make sure you're loving yourself. I remember breakups, heartbroken. She'd
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let she'd let us mourn. She was a great ear, very sensitive ear to that kind of
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to pains like that, broken hearts. But only for a day.
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After a day, she'd crank up the AC/DC, man, and go like, "Now, get up. You're
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worth it." Her loss. Come on. Get out of bed. Uh-uh. Come on. Uhuh. Quit moping.
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Lift your head up. Come on. Come on, buddy. We got this. Uh-uh. Her loss. To give you the day. No more than that.
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Our love in the family was physical. My mom and dad
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married three times, divorced twice to each other.
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They fought. I got a great story in green lights of them fighting and my mom
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bashing and breaking my dad's nose with the phone, him getting angry, her
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pulling a chef's knife out, him dancing around, dodging these blades and then
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grabbing a ketchup bottle and like a matador going touche
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and splattering over with it and she's getting it out of us just getting so damn I'll cut you from your pocket.
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touch. And finally her getting so frustrated, throwing the knife down, crying, both of them crying, coming together, embracing, going to the floor
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on the lolium kitchen floor and making love,
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no grudges, no grounding.
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You get in trouble, which we did. one, we were always guilty when we got
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in trouble, but it was corporal. It was take your licks. Get it over with. Take your
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licks. We're not going to ground you because that'd be taking away your time and your time is the most valuable thing you got. So, take it. Take your licks.
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You're not going to get injured. It's going to hurt. And don't yell cuz if you yell more than licks, you're going to
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get another one. Licks. Licks with a belt. I can't, I hate, and lying were three
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things that you got in trouble for. If I said I can't, my dad's teeth would
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just start to go, "Excuse me? You sure you're not just having trouble?"
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I remember this one time I was going out to do my chores Saturday morning to mow the lawn and I I couldn't get the damn
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lawn mower to start. Checked everything, couldn't get it to start. I'm going inside. I said, "Dad, can you help me out? I I can't get the lawn mower
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started." And he turned around, saw his molders. What? And he got up, walked with me through
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the kitchen, through the garage, out the backyard, went to the lawnmower, messed around, pulled a couple things out.
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After about 10 minutes, boom, cranked it. And while the lawnmower was running
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right there, he came over to me and bent down and looked me. He goes, "See, son,
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you were just having trouble." I said, "I hate you to my brother." cuz
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I heard the word at school and I thought it could make me feel like I was older. I thought it was like a a teenage soap
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opera thing and I was only nine. So I threw it out there one day at my own birthday party. My own birthday party. I
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said to her, "I hate you." And my mom stopped the entire party. 40 kids my age
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in the backyard. Stopped it. My birthday stopped it. Pulled me around the side of
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the house and he said, "What did you say?" You don't ever use that word especially to someone in your family. Gave me licks on the side of the house
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and then went around dry your tears resume birthday party's back on. Don't ever use that word especially to someone
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in your family. So what did I learn from don't say can't that
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unable to do something you can even if you can't pull it off you can go find help which means you were just having
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trouble. What I learned from getting a butt whoop him for saying I hate you to my brother. Well, what I was learning is
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the antonyms to those words because saying I can't, lying, and saying I hate
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you were bringing me pain. So, the opposite must bring pleasure, right?
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Tell the truth, love, and believe that you can. Those were the values, how I
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remember them getting instilled in me. And to this day,
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I still have them. Trying to transfer to my kids as well in a different way than my parents did. But I still not even
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intellectually have them. I have they're in my they're in my being now. So the the the the love was tough. The love was
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phys. We hugged 999 times more than we more than the the
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the hands soothed much more than they hurt. 999 times out of a thousand. But
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it was a we were a physical hugging loving family. You always went to bed
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with an I love you and a kiss. Even if it was ritual, which it was,
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like a Sunday service, gotta wake up. Even if I'm not listening to the damn preacher, I'm being subconsciously
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reminded that you should take a day out of the week to be at the most number two. That you should go get humbled and
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say thank you to a higher power and thank you for the things that you have in your life and thank you for the people you have in your life and helping
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those people double down on those great attributes that they have. So the the love was all there that I'm
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happy to say that all the I have people, you know, after that story I told about my mom and dad with the knife and the ketchup. People come, "Oh my god, I'm so
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sorry about your childhood. Oh my god, have you had therapy?" I'm like, "No, and before you please, if you don't
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mind, don't you feel I feel like you're trespassing a little bit by giving by
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coming out of the gate saying, "Oh my god, you were abused." No, I wasn't abused. And I never felt like I wasn't loved
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again. I felt like I let my parents down those times. I did I fear my parents? Yep.
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Are there a lot of things I did not do as a kid that I should not have done for fear of the consequences? Yep.
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We knew we were loved. I knew I was loved. My brothers knew they were loved. My second brother's adopted. He knew he
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was loved. And it was hard love. And it was tough love. And my mom and dad's love was passionate love. Um, I mean,
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divorced twice, married three times is a pretty good example of can't live with you, can't live without you. The one
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thing I remember being crystal clear to me when I was 8 years old,
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shaking hands with these two guys that turned out now later in life, I know they were actually dad's collectors.
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I shook their hand. Oak Forest Country Club parking lot. Sun was down in my eyes. They had shades on. I asked her,
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"Nice to meet you, sir. Nice to meet you, sir." I remember my eight-year-old mind going, you know, everyone that my
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dad's making me say sir to. The one common denominator besides being older
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men is they're all fathers. And in my head, I went like, "Oh, that's what success is.
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If you become a father, you've succeeded." And that was in my 8-year-old, that was the math I did in my 8-year-old mind, and it stuck with
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me. So, the one thing I always knew was I wanted to be was a dad. I meet Camila,
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fall in love, we make three children. I got to 17, 15,
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12. There's nothing
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that I can put ahead of. There's there's let me put it this way. There's no time
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that I spend being a father that I do not feel like that is the absolute best time I could be spending.
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You've had that since you were eight. Yeah, I've never heard that before. I longed for that. I thought that was when you made it.
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Outside of wanting to be a father at 8 years old, which is fascinating to me and something I want I do want to talk more about because I think that's a lost
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uh goal in society unfortunately is at that age when you sort of in your
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adolescent years if ID asked you at the time what you want to be when you're older in a professional context, what
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what would your answer have been? 15 16 years old. Washington [ __ ] running back.
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But coming about 16, as I started to find out playing football that I was not the fastest nor the biggest, um, it then
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became probably I don't know if I really want to be this, but I sure am told I'm a I'm a I'm
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really good at debate. I'm a really good debater. I would win over arguments with the
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family when it would be like where to go or, you know, if I could go out and why. I would have a great presentation.
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Parents were like, "Geez." And they'd give us the floor. Go ahead. take the floor. Let's hear let's let's hear your argument. And I they'd be like, "Damn."
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And so the the word around 15 16 was like, "You got to go to law school, buddy. Go to go be a lawyer. Be be the
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family of lawyer, man. God dang, man. You're really good argue. You make great arguments." And if it's not a great
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argument, damn, you got endurance. You'll just outlast people. And that became the thing. So I started to enjoy
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that. And that's where I was headed toward towards law school. And I was um
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I was reading about your youth exchange in Australia and that you'd struggled a little bit in
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in class and you were skipping class to read poems. Yeah. By Lord Byron.
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Yeah. So I just I I had graduated high school
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at home in Long View in America. And at 18 I just turned 18. 18 in my family was
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freedom. If if you hadn't remember this, if you hadn't learned it yet, you ain't going to learn it. 18 was now
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no curfew. You've got it. You've got it. Come on when you want. Do what you want. D. And
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I was rolling. I I straight A's. Mom and dad are happy. I got a job on the weekends and after school. I got 45
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bucks cash in my pocket every day. I got a car. It's paid for. I'm dating the best looking girl at my school. Seeing
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the girl at the other school. Oh, I got to playing golf. I got a four handicap. I've had two holes and ones. I got no
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curfew. Talk about green lights. I'm rolling. I don't know what I want to do when I
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get out of high school exactly, but law school's coming up. But you know what? My mom goes, "What about Shane student?"
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Sweden and Australia were the two. And I chose Australia cuz said speak English
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and maybe El McFersonson's over there. 18-year-old mind, right? Thinking,
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right? So boom, I go to Australia. I was told I was going to be living on the outskirts of Sydney, which sounded
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exciting to me. It was not the it was the outskirts, but it was three and a half hours from there. And it was in a very small town of population 305 people
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of Warner Bale. And I remember pulling up that gravel driveway with that host family.
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And when the breaks, they're like, "Welcome to Australia, mate." I was like, "All right, not what I thought, but I
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can make this work." All of a sudden, I don't have my car. I ain't got my
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girlfriend. I want to go see on the other side of town. I don't have my golf clubs. I ain't got money in my pocket.
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And I got a 10 p.m. curfew even on Friday and Saturday night. I'm going to school again. So, I feel
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like I'm going in reverse socially. None of the friends at the school. They put me in my junior year over there because
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I went mid- semester and they wanted me to go first half of the year with the juniors so I could carry on the second
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half of my year with what would become seniors. So, I'm going I feel like I'm going backwards socially. No one's got a
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no one's got a car. Their interests seem to be different.
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The teachers are not they're I'm I'm failing. They're
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giving me Fs and everything. So I start skipping this class, going to the library and I find Lord Byron
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and I got my Walkman and I remember I had YouTube's Rattle and Hum on cassette. I had Maxi Priest. Maxi
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Priest, he's got a great Cat Stevens cover and an NXS album which was an Aussie band.
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Hutchinson as lead singer and those are my rotation especially Rattle and Hum. Rattle and
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hum very socially conscious album about oppression and and and silver and gold
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man that's what we're all after. Oh yeah. You think that's going to get you to the higher ground? Oh, the evils of
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of of you know, capitalism gone wrong and things like that and freeing Nelson Mandela and all and I'm worldly things
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that Bono and you two were talking about. We're like, "Oo, making sense to me. I'm outside of my home. I'm in a
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formal little island." You learn, you know, to have an object first objective look back at your own life. When you
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leave what you know, you find out a lot about what you actually know. And all of a sudden, I'm seeing what my life was
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as that kid who got the money and I'm flowing. And I'm start look back going, I miss that. But I'm also going like,
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you're kind of good time rolling, Charlie. You're you're you're popular. Everything's going great for you. I
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didn't have any resistance in front of me, which was fine. But boy, now I got a lot of resistance in front of me. I
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don't have my friends to talk to. I got questions coming up. This family's very have very awkward relationship with the
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family. They even wanted me to call him uh one night said, "From now on, you'll uh address us as mum and pup."
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Which was a siminal moment because many things
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had happened up until that point that were odd that I was going, "Okay, that's just a a cultural
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difference. That that's you, MCA. Hey, stay open here. That's a cultural difference." But I remember the night
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they said that and it was the first time and I needed it. It was 6 months into my trip. It's the first time I went.
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No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. I'm not doing that. It was clear. It's
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the first time I had clarity. Remember, at this time, I'm reading Lord Byron in the in the in the the the the library.
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The principles come to now see me and go, "Look, doesn't look like school's going good for you. We have this thing called work experience. Let's get you a
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job. You won't get paid." So, I worked at the A&Z Bank. I worked at the barristers's office. I'm taking these odd jobs as a carpenter and all these
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different things. And my home life is this over in Australia. I am getting
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home. We have dinner at 5. We eat from 5:00 to 5:30. I clean the dishes. I am
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immediately going back to my room. Take a bath.
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Listen to one of those three album and cassettes. Read Lord Byron in the bathtub.
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Work one out. Six nights a week this I'm running six
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miles a day I've become vegetarian. I'm eating lettuce freaking lettuce head
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with ketchup on it. I'm down to 135 pounds. I'm pretty dog on sure that I my
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job is to go to South Africa and I'm supposed to I'm going to be a monk and
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that's that's that's where I'm going. Now I look back now and I see, oh, I
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needed these disciplines to give me a sense of measurement each day of, oh, I've got my own thing going here because
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my home life, I was lost, man. I'm lost. I don't have any. I'm writing 16page
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letters to myself and I'm returning them with a 17-page letter.
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Socratic letters to myself about what? existential huge existential
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questions mixed in with oh everything is going great trying to talk myself into keeping my head up you know what I mean
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but I chose in hindsight I was like why didn't you come home early
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and I remember it very clearly when I said yes I'll go become an exchange student the ambassador the American
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ambassador said sign this contract that says you won't return till a full year
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unless there's a fatal ality in your family or you're majorly sick. And I said, I'm not signing that. I'll give
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you a handshake on it, man, cuz I'm going over there for the year. I'm not pulling the parachute.
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And I remember that handshake. And I remember what my dad told me about what it happens when
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two men shake a hand, that you don't need a contract, that that is the contract. And I had a certain honor with
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that. There was no way I was coming home. If I had come home, I'd have felt like I did my dad wrong. So, while I'm
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over in Australia going inside out, imploding,
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I start to find a little power in the fact that, oh man, the harder this gets,
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the greater the reward there's going to be on the other side once I get out of here. Cuz because it was non-negotiable. I was staying the year. So, I never gave
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my mind the the chance to go, well, you could go home. Uh-uh. That was never on my my proverbial mental table as a
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choice. So I start to get identity off the strength of making that choice. The
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rest of the year became much easier. At least some of the troubles I was having,
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I was laughing at. I wasn't going to the bathtub at 5:30 doing what I was doing many years near many times a week, if at
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all. All of a sudden, I'm kind of starting to live a little life and dancing with it going, "Yeah, man. It's
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just not easy." But this is how it is. We got it. got I'm writing writing first poems in there that I
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wrote. And then life brings you back to Texas to study law. Yeah. Which um
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doesn't end up working out for you because in your sophomore year you start questioning yourself. I think based on
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this little book. Yep. That book right there is a gift. So you're studying law and you start
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questioning yourself because of something you read in this book. So, this book between my was the end of
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my sophomore year. I'm headed towards law school going to take my finals.
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I was a study bug. I made A's across the board. And all of a sudden, for the first time
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in my life, I go, "Dude, you got this. You don't need to study this anymore." And I shut my books. Had never done that
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before. And now I got two hours before my first exam. I look over and there's a stack of magazines over here. Sports
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Illustrated, Playboys, Penthouse. I'm like, I don't like sports. I like women, too. Let's check these out. I get them.
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I flip through. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing. After about the seventh magazine deep, I look down
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and this book is laying there. And this is what's facing me in this. It was in the middle
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of the stack of the magazines. And I look at I go, "The greatest salesman in the world." And I said loud. I go,
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"Who's that?" I pick it up. And I start reading first chapters about
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forming good habits and becoming their slave. And I remember thinking, well, if you're going to go against yourself and
00:26:12
go to law school, you're just going to say, "Yeah, I think I'll do it." That's not that's not a good habit, man. Hey, that's not a good habit for you. You
00:26:19
might be missing out on something. You better create a new habit of just doing what you think you were expected to do.
00:26:25
That was the thinking in my mind. And I said, "All right, well, I'm going to
00:26:30
I want to go to film school. I don't want to go to law school. I want to go to film school
00:26:37
simply because the book mentioned that having the habit of doing something just because you think you should or can is
00:26:43
I even that part I I verbalized that doesn't even say that directly just saying I will form good habits and
00:26:49
become their slave and I was like if I go to law school that's making me a
00:26:55
slave to a bad habit and the bad habit being bad habit being
00:27:01
you be good at it it's kind of what you're supposed to do. It's all you've ever kind of thought you were doing. It's what everyone expects you to do in
00:27:06
the family. But remember, I'm stay keeping me up at night. Ah, long 20s. I
00:27:13
don't know. I've also got this other thing. I've got a friend telling me your short stories are good, man. You can tell a good story. We film making. You
00:27:19
could tell that sounds fun. Then I go, my dad's paying for school.
00:27:26
I got to get permission from him first. So I go, okay, what's a good time to
00:27:31
call him? I remember I planned it out. I said it was Monday and I said, "I'll call him now." I said, "No, no, no. He's
00:27:37
at work. Don't call him now at work. He's he doesn't won't be able to compartmentalize. This is going to come out of left field for him. He's in the
00:27:42
middle of pipe sales, right?" I said, "I'll call him tonight." And said, "No, no, no. Monday back from work. It's a stressful day.
00:27:49
Tuesday night, 7:30, second day of the week, he's into the work week. He'll have eaten dinner. He's on the couch
00:27:55
having a beer with mom." Called him at 7:36 p.m. I remember the
00:28:00
number. Hey Pop. Hey, what's up monkey man? Listen, can I talk about something? Sure. I said, ' Dad,
00:28:08
I don't want to go to law school anymore. I want to go to film school.
00:28:15
And I'm like, little beat of sweat starts to go down the back of my neck. I'm like, here it comes. You want to
00:28:20
what? I thought he was going to go into all this stuff about my ass. You think I'm with that? You know, that can be a
00:28:26
hobby, but know that's not a drill job. I thought all this was coming. And after about a 5-second pause, he goes, I hear
00:28:32
this. Are you sure that's what you want to do? Yes, sir.
00:28:38
Another long pause. Then I hear, "Well,
00:28:46
don't halfass it." And I remember just beaming, hopping up
00:28:52
just like, "Yes, launchpad, man." And my dad not
00:28:58
only said okay in the way he said don't half ass. It was also okay. Let's go big
00:29:05
boy. Own that [ __ ] Get some leverage. Get some horsepower behind where you're going. Go do it. And I remember to this
00:29:12
day and I've learned this later I think from becoming a father. Part of what I
00:29:17
believe happened to him and why he said that to me that way on that call
00:29:23
was the way that I asked him how I just I wasn't really asking was I don't want
00:29:29
to go to law school dad I want to go to film school. I didn't stutter. He heard his son saying this is what I want to
00:29:35
do. And what I think happened to him in that moment is what I think any father, any parent loves is you you raise your
00:29:42
kids in a certain way. And you give them a guideline, a ladder to climb, and here's the guidelines, and if you do it
00:29:47
this way, you're most likely going to have some success in life, and it'll work out for you. And then when we do it
00:29:53
that way, we can be proud parents. But what do we really want to happen when our parents when our kids are out of the
00:29:59
house and they're on their own? We kind of want him to call one day and go, "I'm breaking out. I'm going my own way. I'm
00:30:07
going my own way." And as a parent, we go, as much as it may scare us, we're
00:30:13
going, "Yes." I gave my kid the confidence and the courage and the foundation to say
00:30:18
they're going to go their own way. And in a way, I think every parent honors and loves that moment. And I heard my
00:30:24
dad when he didn't hear me stutter, when he heard me directly say what I said. than that. I wasn't really asking him
00:30:30
even though uh I was out of respect asking him the way I said it. I wasn't asking him and I think he felt that. And
00:30:38
don't halfass it. Don't halfass it. As a philosophy for
00:30:43
life, how important has that proven to be since then? Because you've remembered
00:30:48
it and I've heard you reference it as being important. Look, I've it be it's become quite and again
00:30:54
not it's become more than intellectually important or more than something I don't you know I don't need to put it on my
00:30:59
fridge to remind me. Um it has become important in relationships. It has
00:31:06
become important in work. It has become important in self-help. It has become
00:31:12
important for my own spirituality. It's become important for me as a father, as a husband.
00:31:18
Relationship wise don't have asset. What's that's turned into me is another sort of theory I have and I call it own
00:31:24
don't rent. Going with an owner's mindset into relationships.
00:31:30
Most relationships that we make, hire an assistant or girlfriend, boyfriend, most of them don't last the whole life.
00:31:38
But I believe that if you go into those with the idea that I want it to be a
00:31:44
lifer, if this works out, hopefully this is forever. Usually they don't end up
00:31:49
being that. But the owner's mentality will give you that per you and that person the dignity and the power to go
00:31:56
they we can be everything we can be in this relationship. And if it doesn't work out, we say it didn't work out. But
00:32:01
if I'm going with the renters's mentality, I'll flip it. Yeah, I'll do this for a few weeks. Yeah. All right.
00:32:07
this. I don't know if this kid's going to make it. Maybe maybe a couple months. You're not going to get the most out of
00:32:12
that person. Well, it was like you in Australia, you went in committed to owning that full experience and not leaving. And there's
00:32:19
something really people tell me all the time, especially married people, cuz I ask them, I say, "What's why do people get married? Why don't you just, you
00:32:24
know, why do you need the contract?" And they talked to me about how going in with comm commitment itself
00:32:31
changes how you deal with the inevitability of the messiness. The messiness that you saw in your parents' relationships and the and and challenge
00:32:37
itself like challenge as you saw in Australia but also in your parents' marriage is like inbuilt into all things
00:32:44
meaningful. And if you go with that renter mentality the first red light you're out you know what you do
00:32:49
something happen you're like oh this is a sign of things to come. Oh this is only going to get wor. No, when you get married, you're like,
00:32:56
"We're owning this." Oh, my alarms, the spider sense, my alarms didn't start going off because we're going to work
00:33:02
through this. And if it does become a habit, we'll work through it. Or it's a one-off and I just got to put up with it
00:33:07
because they like to do what they're doing more than I don't like them doing
00:33:13
that, which is another good measurement. You know, I guess it begs the question about the
00:33:19
the role or the benefit of having plan B is because we're increasingly told to have plan B in a relationship or plan C,
00:33:25
D, and E. And and in work, a plan C, D, and E. And options, Yeah. can make us a tyrant. Too many options
00:33:32
can make a tyrant of any of us, man. You know what I mean? So can conveniences, you know what I mean?
00:33:38
Yeah. And you when you don't give yourself that option and mind you there's plenty of divorces out there
00:33:43
that were necessary and were good for both of them problem. But I think there's more
00:33:51
divorces because someone had a little gave themsel the
00:33:57
out had the renters mentality. First son of smoke I'm going to say
00:34:02
there's fire be easier to get out of here. Path lease resistance. Sorry. I
00:34:08
think too many people quit. I think that's that that's more of a problem than the divorces that are ones that
00:34:14
turned out to be good. So many people are at that stage in their life where they're they might have
00:34:21
that bad habit that you described. They might know that they're in a situation which isn't for them. Maybe their
00:34:27
parents gave them this idea. Society pushed them into that position. And uh I
00:34:32
think it's the uncertainty that keeps them trapped. like the certain misery is often much more appealing than the
00:34:40
uncertainty. Yay. And I I just want you you managed to to make that change which is quite rare.
00:34:46
Well, what that reminds me of is I started to become a little cynical which
00:34:52
is different than being skeptical. I believe it we go from innocence when we're born to naive to skepticism where
00:34:58
we're discerning and discriminate on choices. We have judgment. And then the next one is off the cliff.
00:35:05
what I think is cynicism. The misery of cynicism is a hell of a lot easier
00:35:11
than the optimism and belief of skepticism.
00:35:17
Hell of a lot easier. It's a ah easy. Bam. Put it down. Oh, that's hard. Bam.
00:35:22
I'm out. The individuality. Bam. No, man. If it's hard, if I sweat, don't do it. Uh-uh. Bam. Easier to put
00:35:29
him down. Hey, everyone just laughed at my joke. See, it was easy. I was a life of the party.
00:35:36
I think less respected once you leave that situation, but you you you now you're living in in in doubt and you're
00:35:42
let you're also doubting yourself that I don't want to work that hard. I don't want to see if I can make that work
00:35:47
anymore. I don't want to give that person the benefit of the doubt because it can be a lot of work and they're going to [ __ ] screw up and I'm going
00:35:54
to go told you so. Nah. So, let's not even try it. Or if I do try it, let's
00:35:59
just rent. Let's do more than just sign that prenup.
00:36:07
You know what I mean? Uh there there's there's parachute we give oursel the options in the parachutes in too many
00:36:12
places. We pull it early when we could still be flying even though maybe rocky
00:36:18
flight. Pull that some [ __ ] Okay. It was a safe move.
00:36:24
Got down to the ground. What I was building didn't last.
00:36:29
Sometimes maybe it shouldn't. I think most of the time it could if you'd have hung in there, both of you.
00:36:36
Before we started recording, we were having a little bit of a chat about a thought that's been on my mind recently about um how independence and I guess an
00:36:43
abundance of choice kind of links to that might be leading people astray because the most it appears to me the
00:36:49
most fulfilled people that I know generally have a lot of dependence. The culture we live in tells us to like be
00:36:54
our own boss, stand on your own two feet, more people are lonely than ever, less friends than ever, less likely to have kids, less likely to get married.
00:37:01
And it feels like independence. Uh, and those people often I I think are struggling.
00:37:06
I think of so many of my friends, one in particular that I've mentioned a few times, who 38 years old, living the life of
00:37:12
independence, like a picture of independence. Skyrise apartment, single, no kids,
00:37:18
freelancer, so not going to a team, working from his home. And then, you know, one of my best friends, 6 months
00:37:24
later, I see him in person, and he's flown to America, been baptized, and
00:37:30
tells me that for 3 or 4 months, he just couldn't get out of bed. There was no meaning in his life. And so now he's a
00:37:35
interesting, you know, strongly Christian man. And we're seeing this, especially with young men in particular, we're seeing more and
00:37:41
more of them turn to religion. Um, and I'm wondering what's going on there. Yeah.
00:37:47
Let's stay on young men for a while. And this does not exclude young women, but
00:37:53
for the sake of this conversation, I'm going to block it over here and say young men.
00:38:01
We want and need to be relied on.
00:38:08
We want and need to be depended on.
00:38:13
and a sheer independent individual lifestyle with nothing that you're responsible for outside of what you only
00:38:21
need. Nothing. No other gardens you have to tend to career relationally. No other
00:38:26
collective communal. Oh, thank you. I needed that.
00:38:33
Who who relies on us? How much do we need to rely on others?
00:38:41
There's another question and I don't know that answer. It'd be fun to discuss it. How much do we need to be how much
00:38:48
do we need to depend on others? I I one of my self-reliance is at the top of my
00:38:56
value system and I don't think it is contradictory to faith. I actually think
00:39:02
that free will and faith again are here. As a believer, I believe that it's all
00:39:09
been written. And at the same time, I believe God's going, I need your hands on the wheel, man.
00:39:15
Hey, you're steering this, okay? Don't just rely on fate. Too many people doing
00:39:21
that, man. I've had my agnostic years where I was not believer at all fully in
00:39:27
self-reliance. It's on me, everything. And I think it was such a valuable few years
00:39:36
because I did need to call myself on some [ __ ] I did need to say the buck
00:39:42
stops here with you McConn. I did need to become a quit becoming such a repeat offender.
00:39:48
You know, I was sinning which means to miss the mark. Miss have bad aim
00:39:53
literally where it comes from an archery term. To sin means to miss the mark. When you think about it like that
00:39:59
becomes more practical, especially for us agnostics and stuff. I was missing
00:40:04
the mark and it was time for me. I didn't want to keep forgiving myself on
00:40:10
Sunday and then repeat and do the same [ __ ] again Monday, Tuesday, Friday and then go, "Oh, now I can be forgiven." I
00:40:15
was like, "No, man. Forgive me, father. I know what I'm doing and I'm keep doing it.
00:40:22
Cut the [ __ ] MCA. Quit giving yourself that out. that parachute even though you may have it.
00:40:29
Even though word says grace of God will forgive you. Yeah, you need to I needed to strongarm
00:40:36
myself, put my damn hands on the wheel, look in the mirror and go, it's on you. Cuz it is. At the same time, when I came
00:40:42
out of that, I was like, "Oh, those two aren't mutually exclusive." The self-reliance and belief, I heard God
00:40:48
applauding going, "Thank you. I need more more like you that go, yes, I'm
00:40:54
responsible. The choices I make today have to do with where I'll be tomorrow. Yes, they have consequences. My choices
00:41:00
matter. Thank you. That's what I heard. But it wasn't exclusive of having faith
00:41:05
and belief again. What caused that period of your life in your late 20s where you you started to
00:41:12
drift? Because at that time you'd had your first success. Yeah. As an actor. Um,
00:41:19
I think I was living I was g I gave myself the luxury of living that fully
00:41:25
independent top of the penthouse. I got money. I decided to go check in at
00:41:30
the Chateau Marmo. I laid down $120,000 tab and said, "Let me know when that's
00:41:35
out." Me and my dog couple years bought a pair of leather
00:41:42
pants and a motorcycle. I told myself for the next two years, if you ever
00:41:47
think you've had too many, order another one. Next two years, you ever go, "Oh, maybe
00:41:53
I should have a single, order double."
00:41:59
I exercised it in as healthy way as I could, but I was sheerely independent.
00:42:05
And I did not I was swimming. I was transient. It was fun. But when every
00:42:10
day is a Saturday and every night's a Saturday night, started looking for a
00:42:16
little I need to break a sweat here. I need where's the resistance? Where's my I
00:42:21
need my Monday morning literally and I need it here and I need
00:42:27
it faith faith-wise. Did the loss of your father around um in
00:42:33
your 20s have a big impact on this sort of unanchoring? No. The loss of the father
00:42:40
dropped the anchor deeper and got more secure. That was 92. That was 5 days into
00:42:46
shooting my first film, Days Confused. The loss of him one, which was I didn't think he could
00:42:52
die. Obviously, he could and he did. And it was uh took my mother to kill him
00:42:59
as you know from the story. They made love on a Monday morning. He had a heart attack. That's not a bad way to go. I mean,
00:43:05
he called it. He called it. He told me my brothers, "Boys, when I'm going to go, when I go, I'm going be making love
00:43:10
to your mother." And damn it if he didn't do it. But him passing away
00:43:17
after the shock in the morning really woke me up
00:43:24
to go, "Oh, you don't have that." Talking about parachutes again. You don't have that one
00:43:32
being in your life that has your back. That in my mind was above government, above religion, everything. Oh, if I'm
00:43:38
really in a pinch, dad's got my back. You don't have that anymore, Matthew.
00:43:44
So, all the things he taught you that you kind of been acting like, it's time to become those and put your ass on the
00:43:53
line. Me. I remember that's around the time I carved into a tree. In the middle of the night, I woke up and these words
00:43:59
were just stuck. And I went and I was like, I be less impressed and more involved.
00:44:04
And my father passing on, the world got flat.
00:44:10
Things that I revered. Wow. Mortal things that I revered, people, places,
00:44:15
all of a sudden my eye got level. Things that I was patronizing and condescending
00:44:20
and looking down my nose at rose up to eye level and I was like, "Time to
00:44:25
become a man. Walk forward. Peripheral vision. Get it.
00:44:32
Own yourself. Walk forward with more courage and start becoming the man you want to be instead of acting like it and
00:44:38
putting it off. Be less impressed and more involved. More involved. Yeah. What What did you mean by that and where
00:44:43
did that come from? It came from we grew up hardcore on gratitude. I'm I'm a very thankful guy
00:44:49
and and being thankful and having gratitude is very important. But you can't stop there because too much just
00:44:57
oh I'm so happy to be here. You're so impressed to be here. Thank you for
00:45:02
having me, which we should have. But if you live only there, I can't even we
00:45:07
can't be present and be involved in whatever we're doing and do it as well as we want to do it. You got to go. No,
00:45:13
thank you for letting me be here and I'm supposed to be here. Now let's go. If I'm even talking to you, if I'm here going, "Man, I'm so happy to be here."
00:45:20
If I'm just happy to be here and go no further than that, I can't
00:45:25
have we can't have this conversation. I'm I'm not I'm not I won't be there yet. I can't be grounded enough to have
00:45:31
have it right here. I'd be like, I'd anticipate my thoughts. I', you know, say something that may is only the
00:45:37
pretty stuff and not the ugly stuff or oh, don't want to be mean. So, to be involved allowed me to be more honest
00:45:43
and have more courage. When we're involved, we're more honest and have more courage to do what we're fashioned to do how we're fashioned to do it. But
00:45:50
if we're only impressed, you know, and I've had these moments when I met the Cohen brothers, they're
00:45:55
my favorite directors. I revered them. Had dinner with them. I
00:46:01
blew it and I fumbled over my wife. Oh, damn it. Get back because I was nervous.
00:46:08
I was so happy to be there. I was so impressed to be sitting down with the Cohen brothers and not involved enough
00:46:13
to sit there and have a conversation and I look back that night and I go that's why they never cast me in anything. I
00:46:18
blew it that night and I've since seen him and I was like that night we met I want to do over going brothers if you're out there I want to do
00:46:25
this is really transferable advice to both me as a podcaster because I get to meet so many of the people that I've admired for so long especially being a
00:46:30
kid from the UK but also generally for people just going to to job interviews and trying out for things that you
00:46:37
really can inadvertently like lower your perceived value just by being impressed and not involved.
00:46:43
Probably won't get hired that way either. Yeah. What's what's the hiring person want to see?
00:46:48
someone who's respectful, but if you hold them re in reverence, they're like,
00:46:56
you know, there's so many ways to say it. I don't need my ass kissed, man. I want to hear I want to meet you. I want I don't agree with me on everything. You
00:47:02
know, I want to hear you. Ah ah buck back. And they had a reason behind it. They weren't, you know, being negative
00:47:09
for or cynical or they weren't just trying to be contrarian for contrary reason. They actually had thought about that and it was challenging. Huh. Think
00:47:16
that in relationships, girls, guys, what do we like? Not the one that's like, "Yeah, whatever you want to do." Want
00:47:22
someone goes like, "Oh, how about this? I got this other idea." Oh. Oh, interesting. He just reminded me of
00:47:30
a guy interviewed the other day called Jonah. And Jonah, at the very end of the call, young guy turned around to me and said, "You know, by the way, I think you
00:47:37
should completely change this particular company he was going to be joining of mine. Completely changed the branding. I don't think it's good enough." And I
00:47:43
paused and I said to him, I'll never forget what I said. I said, I want to say two things to you, Jonah. First, I
00:47:49
jokingly went, how dare you? And secondly, that is the best thing you have said in the last hour. Because for
00:47:56
me, he he did exactly what you did. He wasn't impressed. He was involved. And he challenged he told me to that
00:48:01
basically our entire brand for this particular company needed to be changed and redone. So like, how dare you? And
00:48:07
that is the best thing you have said cuz it did exactly what you said. It made me think, oh, okay, interesting.
00:48:12
This is who he is and he's of value. Yay. Because people that are impressed are much less value than those that are
00:48:18
able to, you know, picture here. I mean, this picture said a lot to me. Maybe it's just the the way
00:48:24
that you're all gathered around. Oh, yeah. And this picture. So, that's my oldest brother, Rooster on the right. That's
00:48:31
Pat Rooster's 10-year-old birthday present, adopted. Went to go meet his parents one time when he was 17. Check
00:48:38
his dad's hairline. Um, that's me.
00:48:44
reverentially looking down on my father who's holding court at the bar in the
00:48:50
house, Quail Valley, Houston, Texas. Looks like he just got off the golf
00:48:55
course. Uh I have a t-shirt on. They have golf shirts on. Looks like I didn't play with them at that time, but there
00:49:02
were stories probably going on right there about something that they had just experienced. And I'm probably a little
00:49:09
I'm trying to, you know, I'm I'm probably this conversation is probably more between those two. And I'm going like, "Oh, I wish I was there in the
00:49:15
stories." Which only happened for me once I turned 18. I had some stories before then, but that's what that look
00:49:21
at the reverence with which I'm looking on to my dad and he was old he was holding
00:49:27
court. He was a ham man. Him and him and Rooster were were best friends. Um Pat
00:49:34
worked for him. I've got to have a couple years with him before I went to
00:49:40
uh um Australia, a year with him. I know I had I remember
00:49:47
I had more than a full had a full summer with him, which later on I found out was their second divorce. I didn't know
00:49:55
it was I thought mom was on an extended vacation in Florida.
00:50:00
So, he and I had a summer where we got to hang out. And I got a story in green
00:50:05
lights about a night when I jumped the bouncer. A big right of passage to me.
00:50:11
Do you miss him? Yeah, I miss him
00:50:17
creatively the most because he he I found out later and I didn't know he was
00:50:22
doing this. Like I found out later in life, years after he passed away, we
00:50:28
found all these old paintings in the garage and we found this pottery that he made and he loved he had collected art
00:50:34
and he loved charcoal paintings in pencil black and white. I had no idea
00:50:40
he practiced art or or liked it. And so
00:50:46
when I'm reading a script or I'm interested in doing a film, I still think ah I would love to sh I would love
00:50:52
to have sent this to dad and go, "What do you think?" and talked about, "Hey, you know anybody like this? What do you think of this character? What do you
00:50:58
think of the scenario? Hey, you know any men like this?" Cuz I base a lot of my characters off of people that I met
00:51:03
through him. I a whole lot There's been many characters that are based on parts of my brother Pat who was my hero
00:51:08
growing up. And there's a lot of characters I've met through my older brother Rooster, but all those came through dad.
00:51:14
And I would love I miss having those. I wish I could have those conversations with him. I He would have loved the
00:51:22
other night we're at Toronto Film Festival Premier and Lost Bus. My mom was in it. She's 93. My little my son's
00:51:28
in it. That could have been He would have come to Santa Fe with mom,
00:51:36
you know. He didn't. Mom wanted Mom wants to be on the stage. Mom, every
00:51:42
performance I've ever done, she's like, "You did great, Matthew. I see where you
00:51:47
get it from." Right. Dad didn't want to be on the stage. He could take the stage, but he would have he would have
00:51:52
seen from the beginning me doing my thing from the front row and been like, "There you go, buddy."
00:51:59
So I miss him as a creative partner and in sharing the declarations when you
00:52:05
have a red carpet and and hearing what's your opinion on that. Hey watching movies with me we never watched movies.
00:52:14
I miss that. um
00:52:21
in his hands, man. He had these healing hands and we would have been buddies by
00:52:27
now, right? I would have philosophically wherever we had our
00:52:32
differences, he would have enjoyed the debates instead of looking at me at 16 going, "Who the hell do you think you
00:52:38
are talking bucking like that?" Which is what led
00:52:43
him to go, "You're a great debater. I want to be the family lawyer." But we'd have been buddies because at 18 was the
00:52:48
freedom right of passage. That's when he goes, "You ain't learned it by now, you ain't gonna learn it." So we would have
00:52:54
I wouldn't have had to hear. This is a time when I'm still hearing about the experiences of yesterday and last night,
00:53:02
yearning to one day be able to be there and be part of the stories. And we did get a year together where we got to be
00:53:09
part of the same stories, which meant so much to me. But I would have had years of that. Do you think he would have been
00:53:14
surprised by the life you've lived subsequently?
00:53:21
No. My family's got a got an odd thing.
00:53:28
They aren't surprised by [ __ ] man. Especially any of my success.
00:53:38
I mean, my brothers hadn't even seen all my movies.
00:53:45
If I invited them to the premiere in Toronto the other night, they'd have found every excuse they could not to go and wouldn't have come.
00:53:52
They don't disrespect or love me any less for it's just like, man, we know you little brother.
00:53:57
There's something beautiful in that. Do you remember these?
00:54:03
Yes. You wrote this roughly around the same time in '92. Roughly actually when I was born, funnily enough, I saw the date on the top and thought, "Oh, that's a few
00:54:09
days off after my birthday." Ah. And again, you put fatherhood number one, but there's a a series of other
00:54:14
things on this list of your 10 goals in life. Yeah. Which you wrote in 1992. As you reflect on those goals, do you
00:54:20
wish you hadn't written any of them? And is there anything else you wish you had written?
00:54:26
No. That that that I wouldn't change a thing about it. 10 goals in life. Become a father. Find and keep a woman for me. Keep my
00:54:32
relationship with God. Chase my best self. Be an egotistical utilitarian.
00:54:38
Take more risks. Stay close to mom and family. Win an Oscar for best actor. Look back and enjoy the view. Just keep
00:54:45
living. I don't know what I'd add to that. One of the things that you talk you've
00:54:51
talked a few times about is this idea of like you needing resistance. Yeah. You've said it two or three times and going back to what it is to be a man and
00:54:59
what it is to be a well orientated, stable man. Needing resistance.
00:55:05
Is that a goal to aim for? is that I think it's just a necessary necessity
00:55:12
for having more than just an individual
00:55:21
life the top of the high-rise with money if that's if you're successful to do that.
00:55:27
I mean I'm supposing that in whether it's different words your friend went to
00:55:32
Christianity for this for a very similar reason. Yeah. It's like certain amount of guilt
00:55:38
is very healthy. It helps us keeps us. It's boundaries.
00:55:44
Boundaries without any shame, without any embarrassment, without any guilt. Tell
00:55:50
me it's all just four-dimensional. Where's the form? Where's the Where's the art? It's It's
00:55:55
four-dimensional. It has no form. You got to have gravity to have form. You got to have some resistance to have some
00:56:01
form. You got to push off of something to go somewhere. You got to be It's very
00:56:07
hard when you're just floating and no gravity and no resistance to actually pursue a north star. You have no
00:56:13
leverage. You're floating. Where's the art?
00:56:20
Probably more anarchy than art. So resistance gives form.
00:56:26
Heard a great artist say this. Limitations
00:56:32
reveal style.
00:56:39
resistance, something to go or else it's like green lights. If life's just
00:56:45
nothing but green lights, if you got no yellows and reds, no reasons to pause or crisises that stop you, resistance,
00:56:53
what do you just go in circles? Do you run out of gas, get dizzy?
00:57:00
I don't see that. How do we evolve or devolve
00:57:05
without resistance? Now, picking the right resistance is is an art in itself. It's
00:57:11
challenging. I've been clumsy with it in my life. When especially when I got
00:57:17
famous and got success and enough people telling me I love you and the caviar and
00:57:23
the champagne, I was like, "What the [ __ ] Why me? I don't deserve any of this. What? I I' I'd [ __ ] things up on
00:57:30
purpose just to say like I'd trip myself running downhill so I could bloody my own nose and go, "Ah, now I can feel."
00:57:38
Okay. Okay, now my heels are on the ground. I need It's clumsy.
00:57:43
So, I don't think we need the kind of resistance that we create that can harm us or get in our way for
00:57:51
getting in our way sake because I've come to learn and I think we all are. No, when things are going really well,
00:57:56
resistance is gonna come. If you stay if you stay with if you're if you have any ambition, resistance is going to come.
00:58:04
We often see resistance as a form of failure and something that we should endeavor to avoid. You think about the
00:58:09
avoidance of like people building families or even, you know, many people consider that
00:58:15
we're living in a bit of a comfort crisis. This is slightly a different sort of analogy but most of the diseases
00:58:20
that we have today whether they're diseases of I don't know the mind like you know people feeling lonely and
00:58:26
isolated or physical diseases 80% of Americans getting back pain but no one in the had a tribe in Africa getting
00:58:31
back pain they're all a consequence of us continually choosing comfort y which is a short-term friend but
00:58:36
long-term enemy and resistance I think is um is something increasingly we can choose
00:58:43
opt out of it's a choice too I Can I hit a little point that's on this subject?
00:58:50
It's called tips included. And I wrote this based on participation trophies. Uh
00:58:56
um entitlement. How too much of something can be just as harmful is not enough. Uh how we all need good fortune,
00:59:04
good fate, and charity sometimes. But we shouldn't rely on that.
00:59:11
Okay. Called tips included. All right. When extra credit's included, credit
00:59:16
doesn't get as due. When more gives us less, the exchange rates gone a skew.
00:59:22
When amnesty is offered going into the crime, we're more bound to commit it
00:59:28
because there is no fine. We start playing to tie instead of going for the win. When participation is the trophy
00:59:35
for every cow in the pin. If I stay on the porch because you picked up the slack. When you look over
00:59:42
your shoulder, I I can't have your back. If there is no curfew, we're going to stay out all night. No tab at our bar.
00:59:49
We're going to get drunk and start a fight. All these long lenses got us losing our sight. You keep lifting it
00:59:56
for me, I'm going to lose all my might. When a four-star duty suits a six-star
01:00:02
rate, we take our hands off the wheel and rely on fate. Eating all we can at
01:00:09
the all we can eat buffet gives us a 3.8 education and a 4.2 GPA.
01:00:16
We steal from ourselves and get away with the scam. What's the measure of merit with less give a damn? Hm. These
01:00:24
unlimited options sure have me confused. While all the conveniences are keeping
01:00:30
me properly lubed in this red light district with the [ __ ] of inflation, the ROI's math don't
01:00:38
pay for vacation. So, let's just admit it. This extra credit is quite a fluffer
01:00:44
because when the tips included, the service will suffer.
01:00:50
That's so good. But it's about that the conveniences, the long lenses, everything's like, "Oh,
01:00:57
and and we we've outconvenienced oursel." What's AI going to do to us?
01:01:03
Talk about convenience. How much, and I want to keep hearing studies. I wonder if you have an opinion on this. How much
01:01:10
of you coming up with an idea and then writing and rewriting it, thinking about
01:01:15
it, no, no, no, no. That's not ex Oh, no. This is what I really mean and how to get. How much of that is really valuable to get it beyond just an
01:01:22
intellectual idea? More valuable than just going, "Ah, there it is." Cuz what comes out of
01:01:30
it? Incredibly impressive. My hunch is that yeah, we can use it for
01:01:36
like uh signpost to help us. Oh, that's good or that help. Thank you for helping
01:01:41
me organize. But there's a value to us going through the sweat equity of learning something.
01:01:48
How you how do you feel about it? I mean ex exactly what you've said but the the studies have just that have just
01:01:53
come out using different things like chatbt have actually proven what you've just said to be true that when people use AI to produce a piece of work not
01:02:01
only can't they recall what they've made but they also start speaking in language
01:02:06
more like the AI. So they start to lose their own voice. But I mean yeah I mean for through history people like Richard
01:02:13
Fryman the physicist has said the best way to learn something is to learn it and then to go through the pain of
01:02:19
writing it condensing it down to a simple truth like you do so often in your new book poems and prayers and then
01:02:26
sharing it with the world and then getting the feedback and if if the world understood it like you meant it like that poem you just shared you
01:02:32
you you understand it that's evidence that you get it right. So I think AI is going to be great for me saying something to you but
01:02:39
not learning something myself. And I think if you know if you want to defend creativity and innovation and the
01:02:44
ability to think, you actually have a huge opportunity which is to go left when everyone's going right.
01:02:50
Right. And it goes to what you were saying there. You were talking about be careful when you mess mess with incentives. Like
01:02:57
be careful when you choose the easier road. Be careful of the unintended consequences. And AI is a prime example
01:03:03
of an unintended consequence of you taking the easier road today. Yeah. And you know, I just actually made a
01:03:09
video about this, funnily enough, just just warning my audience about when something appears to be like a
01:03:15
short-term friend, it's usually a long-term enemy. Like when you know, when you choose easy
01:03:21
today, you choose hard tomorrow. And there's always a trade-off, right?
01:03:27
Do you think if you choose hard today, you usually get easy tomorrow?
01:03:35
I mean, there's a there's obviously a ton of nuance to this, but um
01:03:42
in many contexts, yes. So, for example, my think of I was thinking of my father. My father would never have he would
01:03:49
avoid conflict at all costs. He would avoid the difficult conversation. And when I zoom out over the the decades
01:03:56
of his life and marriage, I go, "Man, that cost you big time." You caught up with him. Oh my god.
01:04:02
And me inverting that in my own life and continually just confronting it head on has had the complete opposite effect.
01:04:08
You never, you know, like when you were talking about being a young man and making that
01:04:14
decision cuz you had that voice in your head saying, "Law might not be my thing and you made that phone call to your father."
01:04:19
Yeah. Like what what I hear you did is like you realigned yourself to you. Now
01:04:24
if you hadn't made that call and you let a couple more of those bad habits, you would have got to 40 and been like, "Who
01:04:30
the [ __ ] is this guy? What is this life?" You would have looked around and said, "Who is she? Who are they? What is this job?"
01:04:35
Right? And that's that course correction that I think requires you to do this the slightly harder thing today. What do you
01:04:42
think? I agree with you. That's the That's the resistance that you're choosing. You
01:04:48
know, look, I still got to learn how to take a vacation
01:04:55
because, you know, we there's sometimes when the wind's at our back
01:05:02
and we've earned it. Mhm. There's sometimes when it's easy street and it's like, "Yeah, don't interrupt
01:05:09
this, man. This is a sweet ass song. Trust that the hill's coming again.
01:05:16
Don't be so impressed with this and don't what I have to do is don't fall
01:05:21
into when things are going really well. I go, "Ah, there it is. That's the main."
01:05:28
No, it's not. Not with any ambition. It's not. Or not with life happening.
01:05:34
It's not. But my hunch, I want to see what you think about this theory is
01:05:42
rather you shoot for an A and make a C. It's rather better than shooting for a C
01:05:47
and making an F now. So go for perfection.
01:05:54
Reality always comes in under it.
01:06:00
But in that moment when you see the inevitable reality, the outcome, the result, how quickly can we go,
01:06:08
okay, but I got so much more out of it, the job,
01:06:14
the person, myself, because I went per for perfection than if I'd have just gone for no dude,
01:06:21
just I mean, you know, just pass class.
01:06:26
It's again that little that owner's renters mentality. Mhm. And but what can be hard for me
01:06:32
sometimes is it takes can take me too long to to to come down from when oh it didn't hit
01:06:38
perfection and maybe it takes me a week to go dude now do you finally realize that of course you weren't going to get
01:06:45
perfection but you got so much more out of it because you went for perfection. Yeah. So be pleased with reality because you
01:06:53
got a you got a good grade on it man. That war that was that was good. that piece of art was wouldn't have been that
01:06:58
true if you wouldn't have been I don't like I say this all the time and I never mean this in a in a in a in a
01:07:03
disrespectful way. I've never done a movie or a performance that lived up to what I thought it could be cuz I'm
01:07:11
thinking it can be divine
01:07:17
comes out maybe majorly inspiring may speak to masses
01:07:24
even have some magic to it but only it's divine
01:07:31
that's resist that's tension that yeah unclosed gap. And I think I think
01:07:37
everything that's ever been built that's great or creatively brilliant has come from someone who has a big a big
01:07:43
expectation gap. And of course the very definition of that, you're never going to close it. And actually the probably the reason you then are motivated to
01:07:49
move to the next thing and pursue divine again is because it wasn't divine last time. Maybe there's still something left
01:07:55
on the table and that's means you never arrive, right? You talk about arrival a lot in the
01:08:02
poems and prayers as well. I I also was reflecting on your mother's
01:08:07
words where she at a very young age to you positioned life as a dichotomy of
01:08:12
being humble but like know that you're the [ __ ] and all those things you went through and it's the same thing. It's
01:08:18
like strive for protect protection perfection but also know that nothing will ever get there and can you can you
01:08:24
be okay with that dissonance right and that and there's a moment and
01:08:30
it's I think it's where the one of the arts of living is if you if you are going to prescribe to go shoot for perfection there's that moment when
01:08:36
reality comes in when you had to declare and the cards speak for themselves and it's under
01:08:44
but you because you oversaw It theory I got called oversee because you
01:08:50
oversee and expect the best this this divinity out of people and and art and
01:08:56
of yourself and then it always comes in under. How quickly can you go ah
01:09:01
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Can I ask you a question about that then? If you had aimed for something to be perfect and then it delivered itself
01:10:11
as perfect exactly how you had imagined if if if at all possible,
01:10:16
would that have made you happy? Would you have been I don't know.
01:10:21
You're right. Um would it have made you scared? Both probably because look, I've had
01:10:30
moments. Let me let me let me tell you one. uh in in in Africa. I'm in Mali,
01:10:36
Africa, dogone country. Me and my guy who's a
01:10:42
buddy now, Issa. We're hiking from village to village in the Banjiagara. Each village is 10 to 15 miles away. I
01:10:48
went over there needing my anonymity under the name of David. And I said I
01:10:53
was a writer and a boxer. Well, they called me Da. Anyway, I uh um they
01:10:59
didn't give a damn about the writing part, but they were very interested in the wrestling part. So each village I would go to start to catch up to me.
01:11:05
Strong white men named Dota. You want to? And they love to wrestle over there. They love to wrestle. It's kind of a form of entertainment. The boys just
01:11:12
walk up and start wrestling. I get to this one uh village one night. Benji Matu
01:11:18
and uh I'm laying there. It's 14 mile hike to get there. I'm laying on the ground stretch and the village is all
01:11:23
kind of come up around and they're talking and chattering. And all of a sudden I hear this chatter and that's sort of at me. I can just hear it. And I
01:11:29
look up and it's these two boys. They're about 18 and they're boom boom boom popping at me and I can be like and I know enough in the tone I don't know
01:11:36
what they're saying because they're speaking in bombat. I'm like are they talking to me? And he goes yes. He goes
01:11:43
they uh uh they are the wrestlers of the village. They say they are the best wrestlers in
01:11:49
the village and they are challenging you to wrestling match. I was like oh they are. I was like
01:11:56
well they sure are talking a lot. I go I don't know if they mean it. Do y do y'all have this thing over here? We have
01:12:01
a thing in America where if someone talks too much, they really don't. Man, he goes, "Yes, we have this. We have this." And just as that happens, you
01:12:07
hear the crowd scream. And I look up and the two boys bam run off. Why?
01:12:14
Because the real champion wrestler of the village, Michelle, 5' n, tree trunk legs, about 220, burlap
01:12:24
bag wrapped with a rope around his waist. He showed up. He doesn't say a word. He just stands over me, points to
01:12:32
me, points to himself, and points over here. I look over where he's pointing, and there's a big dirt pit.
01:12:38
My heart starts racing. There's the challenge. As my heart's beating going, "Oh no." I start to get up because as
01:12:47
this ear saying, "Oh no," I'm hearing in this ear, "If you don't, you will regret this for the rest of your life. You've
01:12:54
got to go do it. This will at least be a great story to tell." So, I get up. Village goes crazy. About
01:13:00
80 people have gathered now. The chief comes out. I'm standing in the middle of the pit going, "I'm not sure how this is supposed to go. What are the rules?"
01:13:07
Chief puts his hands on our heads. Michelle grabs me by the waist, mimics to me. I grab him by the waist. Then he
01:13:12
burrows his forehead down into my clavicle here, and I burrow mine into his. So, now we're like two bulls like
01:13:18
this. And the chief puts his hands on our head and then raises him and goes, "Tot." And the crowd goes wild.
01:13:25
Ding ding is what? stop men. So, we start going around, man. And I'm thinking, okay, I got I get some
01:13:32
leverage on this guy. Legs are like tree trunks. I'm like, "Oh, I ain't getting him down low." So, we're scrappling,
01:13:37
grab him. Boom. I get him over. Bam. Flip him on his back. He flips me back over. I backflip him off my back at
01:13:44
some. He comes in, gets me in a freaking leg lock that I can barely breathe. I'm almost got to tap out from. I shimmy out
01:13:49
of that thing. All of a sudden, Chief comes in, separates us. I'm hyperventilating, man. Crowd's going
01:13:56
crazy. He's got a split. Michelle on this side, me on this side. I had these talismans that were in my beard. They
01:14:02
got two of them got torn out during the wrestle match. I got blood running down me here. My knees are bleeding. My ankles are bleeding. I'm
01:14:08
hyperventilating and covered in sweat. I look over at Michelle who's just
01:14:15
staring at me going barely a glisten on him. And that's when
01:14:21
the chief goes and I go, "Oh [ __ ] here we go." Boom, boom, boom. Grabs my
01:14:26
waist. Bop bop. Burls his head. I burl my head. We're off. Goes around again. Pretty damn good match. Strong. I
01:14:33
flipped him. Me, pin me. I We got up, got moving. All of a sudden, Chief comes in, separates us. Raises both our hands.
01:14:40
The crowd goes crazy. As soon as he loses our hands, Michelle runs off.
01:14:45
Everyone sees him go. And they come in and grab me and put Finny on their shoulders. Da da d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d
01:14:51
d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d d I go over now I'm a big man in the
01:14:56
village which means they give me the best chair that has the least broken sort of you know uh uh um straw on the
01:15:03
seat which means the village boy finds me the biggest chicken and plucks it and they cook it for dinner for me which
01:15:09
means they take me to the cleanest spot in the river and I come back that night we eat I get on the roof of the hut what
01:15:16
a magical day I lay back.
01:15:22
I see the Southern Cross for the first time in the sky. Like it was in neon lights on a black backdrop. It was you
01:15:28
couldn't not see it. It was so bright. Stare me right in the face. I laid there 30 minutes saw 29 shooting stars.
01:15:37
I'm going, I might have a direct line.
01:15:42
I might be the chosen one. Wow.
01:15:49
Just as I'm about to shut my eyes, I got a little in my throat. So, I sit up,
01:15:58
go to spit out over the off into the off the top of the roof.
01:16:06
Lugie plastered to my face. I forgot I had put my mosquito net on.
01:16:18
And I was like, "Oh, perfect." Just when I was thinking, "I might have the direct line." I just spit a lugie in my own
01:16:24
face. And there became the humor. Now, to finish off that story, the next morning when I left the village,
01:16:32
remember Michelle, who ran away. Mhm. I got to the edge of the village about to make the 14-mi walk to the next
01:16:37
village. And there, behind the first tree, passed off the property, popped out Michelle.
01:16:44
Not a word. looked at me, bowed, grabbed my hand. He walked me the 14 miles to
01:16:49
the next village, got to the village border, the next tribe, and walked home.
01:16:55
I went back unannounced six years later, did the same trip, ran into the same
01:17:01
people, the kids had grown six years old, everybody. We get to Benji Matu. There's Michelle. He's had five kids and
01:17:08
he broke his hip, so he's got a limp, right?
01:17:14
So, we all agree not another wrestling match. We have a great dinner that night. We
01:17:20
talk. We tell stories. They're speaking bombat. I'm speaking English, but we're just understanding each other's sort of
01:17:25
charades now. Get up the next morning. We go to leave.
01:17:31
Find that same tree. Out pops Michelle, bows, reaches out his hand, holds my
01:17:37
hand, and 14 miles
01:17:43
to the next village. Stop house. Turn around.
01:17:54
I asked Isa back then the first time in 99 after that night when I wrestled
01:18:01
Michelle and he walked me the first time and I got there. I was like, "What? Tell me about what happened last night. I do
01:18:06
all right." He goes, "Oh, no, no, no. You do very well." He said,
01:18:12
When you accept the challenge, that is when you were big men in this tribe. It
01:18:17
was not about the win or the lose. You accept the challenge and then you
01:18:24
wrestle Michelle who's not only champion of this village but of this village and tree village back and you handle
01:18:30
Michelle. Handled was the word. No one wants handled. He goes,
01:18:36
"You come back, we make money."
01:18:45
Yeah. That's what he told me. Then I went back six years later and had that experience. And that experience
01:18:52
with Michelle, the respect we had for each other. He walked me broken hip and all the 14 miles to the next village.
01:19:00
You accept the challenge. You accept the challenge. That is when you were a big man in this village cuz I
01:19:07
was like they put me on the shoulders man. What was it? He was like oh you were a big man when you accept the challenge. He said he said whole village
01:19:14
think Michelle going to have strong white men named Da on back in 10 seconds over.
01:19:21
But you handle Michelle not win or lose handled. But you were big man when you accepted
01:19:27
challenge. Beautiful.
01:19:32
And then he's there six years later and walks me the same way. I mean, I think
01:19:38
your question was on, you know, when we when we know or how confident when we're
01:19:46
feeling like we're on the right path, which that was a time when I thought I was so much I was I think I might be the
01:19:53
you know, Lugie in my face for that to me was God going, you're doing good, but
01:19:59
not that good, bud. There's so many young men that are struggling. When I looked at this the stats around suicidal ideation and
01:20:04
suicidality, the the biggest killer of men under I think the age of 45 is themselves. And it's funny you said
01:20:10
earlier on about um to to be a young man, you have to feel like someone
01:20:16
depends on you. And it reminded me of someone on the show that told me when they analyzed suicide letters, the the
01:20:23
prevailing sentiment across all of these suicide letters, I think it was an Australian study, was feeling like
01:20:30
people didn't need you or even worse, they were better off without you in in suicide letters from
01:20:37
Japanese almost and it goes it was when so when you said earlier that this you know we need
01:20:42
someone to depend upon us. It made me think about that. And then you talked about challenge. We need a resistance
01:20:48
and challenge to to aim for and life is removing that that challenge. It's it's removing the uh
01:20:55
Yeah. What are the new challenges being on the internet, Tik Tok, social
01:21:00
like social social media. So if those challenges though for now and I'm just
01:21:06
paraphrase this if those challenges may not be the ones that and we hopefully we find ways that they can actually pay us
01:21:12
back in a qualitative way. Don't we need a challenge that's a
01:21:17
that's immortal like belief in God or belief in our better
01:21:24
self and how we are as a human and our own character and our own dignity and our relationships in tomorrow in our past and our kids
01:21:32
that are not measured and paid for with a local mortal currency
01:21:38
but are a pursuit that keep us having qualitative and valuable
01:21:44
experiences that mean something to us and give our life meaning while we're doing whatever it else we're doing in
01:21:52
life that may not be giving us the meaning or making us feel I want to ask you something because as I
01:21:57
started to read poems and prayers you sort of confront a lot of my previous rebuttals to faith which I imagine a lot
01:22:03
of young people have which is around like the science of it like what what about the science what about proof and
01:22:08
evidence and you confront this head on and how do you think about that because you're you're someone that understands the science and the studies and all
01:22:15
those kinds of things. But I think one I think science is the practical pursuit of God and like we're
01:22:21
talking about perfection. It ain't never going to get there. But bravo for it. Believe God loves a scientist. I believe
01:22:26
he does. Going thank you again like hands on the wheel. Thank you for being agnostic and going you can only believe
01:22:32
in your science. Thank you. You're turning your way towards me. Not going to get here but thank you for that
01:22:37
pursuit, that independence. To bring up the word again. It's
01:22:44
I don't know. That's the point. I can't got conclude.
01:22:50
Those are nouns. Believe is a verb.
01:22:55
Faith is a verb in God or any of those other things that we were talking about. Our better
01:23:00
selves, each other. Those are a scientist doesn't necessarily doubt. A
01:23:07
scientist just says I can't believe in something that until it's proven. And if it's unproven, my craft says I cannot
01:23:13
believe. I believe that's what a scientist looks at it. So I cannot believe in
01:23:20
or maybe is I must doubt that which cannot be proven. I understand that
01:23:27
that does not again contradict a scientist or if that's your vocation. If
01:23:32
that is your philosophy and your life creed of how you behave and believe that
01:23:38
does not contradict belief in God even though you can't conclude
01:23:47
that God exists. I know plenty of scientists that are also believers.
01:23:55
I don't know. You know, it's it's it's I got a point
01:24:01
here and this is this is not a lowest common denominator but also just a
01:24:07
another practical way of thinking about it. If you're like, man,
01:24:13
I don't I'm not I'm not I'm not for it. Let's just go practical for a second. Heaven or not. All right, tomorrow is
01:24:20
not today's measurement when the misery is bad enough to the suffering.
01:24:26
Consideration is a privilege. And that's part of what faith and religion are for. To help those in
01:24:33
misery hang on to a hope that will most likely not be served them in this life.
01:24:38
to sell them belief and faith that they will be served in the next.
01:24:44
And what if there's nothing there, man? What if there's nothing to hope for? No next.
01:24:52
I don't know. Either way, in misery here or without a
01:25:00
heaven there, not having any hope or faith in anything is a certain way to
01:25:06
remain where you are forever. But if you can find something that can
01:25:12
keep you going, something no matter how small to look forward to and continually
01:25:18
have faith in and chase, well then your life here will be better
01:25:25
than it is now, heaven or not.
01:25:35
It's not an argument for faith. It's it is saying though what I think is true, what I believe is true is that to
01:25:43
pursue that divinity even if you don't believe in the author
01:25:49
it's not anonymous but if you say no when you say that's
01:25:55
that's God I don't believe in that author fine okay find principles and ways of living and
01:26:01
approaching life yourself others your neighbor and self. There's call
01:26:08
them ethics, whatever, morals, whatever you want to call them, paradigms and sort of law markers out there that's
01:26:14
going to helps in this life. Now,
01:26:20
you know, get you out of the rut. That's what this the science and the studies show that people that are do have a faith are happier, healthier, and
01:26:28
people can argue as to why that is. name. Hey, that's what I'm I try to be clear
01:26:34
in this that I'm not I'm not trying to convert people to go, "No, you should believe in God." There's plenty of left
01:26:40
to go. I get it with religion that excludes a certain amount of people that I cannot go there. I cannot go with I I
01:26:46
cannot purchase the belief that some people of faith have, which is, well, if you don't believe Jesus is the only son
01:26:52
of God and that's it, then you're going to hell. I got too many friends, a lot of them over there in Mali and around the whole world. I'm like going, I can't
01:26:58
go as far to believe that they're all going to hell. Uh-uh. If there even is one. But it's when religion has become
01:27:04
exclusionary along the way that let's remember we bastardized it. You know,
01:27:10
religion comes from the word, you know, I love like I talk about sin earlier to miss the mark. Religion is from the
01:27:17
Latin root relear. Legar means to bind together.
01:27:26
re means again religion is about restoration.
01:27:32
Got a bunch of spiritual friends who say they're not religious and know what they're telling me is they want unity.
01:27:39
That's what religion means. We bastardized it along the way. We made it
01:27:44
a business. I don't believe that the original creators of religion and Muhammad and Jesus and God are going,
01:27:51
"Yeah, yeah, that's fine." No. There's even stories in the Bible about going, "No, that ain't fine.
01:27:56
But so we don't throw the baby out with the bathwater. I just pose the question to us to say
01:28:02
maybe it's not religion we're mad at. Maybe we need to restore what that means. Restore its original meaning and
01:28:09
live that way instead of just accepting what it's become in so many places in so many ways. Poems and prayers comes to me
01:28:16
because I started getting um a little cynical myself. I started to,
01:28:25
you know, default objectify, found myself objectifying people, kind
01:28:31
of looking down my nose at them upon on hello, thinking, "Ah, they're probably
01:28:37
not going to make the cut at what they do without any reason to be thinking that
01:28:42
way." Um, I started looking listening to the news and leadership and I'm going
01:28:51
wait a minute now. So, we're saying if success
01:28:57
is the key, if success is the measurement and you can get it by lying,
01:29:02
cheating, and stealing and still be rewarded the gold medal.
01:29:08
We That's what's happening. Are we Are we Are we ready to say that's okay? Are we ready to say that's just how it is?
01:29:14
We have leaders in positions now that are saying, "Yeah, just win.
01:29:19
Well, ju just just win. Just succeed." But yeah, I don't care how you get there, but you did it. Congratulations.
01:29:25
Come to the front of the line. So, what are the ethics? I don't know. What' the winner do? Well, but they
01:29:32
Wait, what about What about rules? Oh, yeah. By the way, the rules, if you follow them, you're a sucker.
01:29:38
Uh, I started to find myself going, "Wait a minute.
01:29:44
I'm not ready to say. That's just how it is.
01:29:49
I'm not ready to wave that white flag." Are we ready to wave that white flag and go,
01:29:56
"We can see that's what it is." Because there's many reasons to do so. And so I'm looking around at people and going,
01:30:02
I'm not finding things people to believe in and I'm finding it harder to believe myself.
01:30:08
One of the things that I I learned through your writing in poems and prayers, but also in greenlights is that
01:30:14
although those people might get to the front of the queue and be awarded the medal,
01:30:19
the medal it that you're awarded or the queue that you get to the front of might not actually give you what you want. And
01:30:26
you you start by sort of reframing success which I think is a really important thing especially for a young generation especially for men who are
01:30:32
you know the first to want to get to the top of the pyramid in certain pursuits in life and actually from thinking about
01:30:38
what your your goal was of being a father and how that's a lost pursuit if you look at you know the amount of
01:30:44
people that are having children and um I think that's a big question and actually that's what your writing does for me.
01:30:49
really confronts me in a way to go, okay, you can get to the top of the the pile or you can get the gold medal, but
01:30:56
be careful what that medal represents and a medal in what, right? What's relevant for what? We all want to
01:31:01
be relevant. Okay. Like relevant for what? We want to succeed, but when we succeed, do we act is it
01:31:07
worth it if we don't profit? Yeah. You said, yeah, you know what I mean? If more we we're we're trained to go the
01:31:14
quantity is the is the is the goal. That's it. Well, then if that's sacrificing quality
01:31:21
Yeah. or value, what we actually value what are you really winning? You're
01:31:27
winning one of the mortal games, you know. And mind you, I also think
01:31:33
it's worth talking about, and I don't know the answers, is I'm sitting over
01:31:38
here in a privileged place to be able to say that someone's in misery. You want to talk to
01:31:44
them about projecting and sacrificing today so you can have more tomorrow. Those people are looking at you going,
01:31:50
I'm trying to pay my rent, put food on the table. Well, lucky you, Matthew, you get to talk about that. I'm not saying
01:31:56
I'm not saying that I changing my mind, but I am conscious and I still need I
01:32:02
still have more to learn from talking with people that are going like, man, I'm don't I don't have the luxury to think about tomorrow. The the other
01:32:08
thing that I is particularly front of mind for me and has been for about three to six months now is just this idea of
01:32:14
independence which has increasingly been sold to people whether it's be your own boss. More people are lonely than ever
01:32:19
before. Less people are choosing to have families than ever before. This idea of independence might have failed us. And
01:32:25
like all of my friends that are most happy have the most dependence. And my friends that are struggling now are in
01:32:30
therapy are having what I would describe as an existential crisis have the most independence. No one depends upon them
01:32:36
and they depend upon no one. And the other sort of adjacent idea to this is I'm writing this book at the moment called I can't find God which is kind of
01:32:43
a reflection of my own religious curiosity that maybe we do need to
01:32:48
ladder up to something. So me, my family, my community, maybe the planet,
01:32:54
then something transcendent, something higher. And people that don't ladder up seem to be lost.
01:33:00
Yeah. If you go from who we are
01:33:07
and make the North Star God or the proclivity to imitate and be
01:33:12
more divine, those things happen
01:33:18
naturally through the humility, through the courage, through the
01:33:24
sort of peace of mind, wrong or right, that oh, this isn't all there is. Let's
01:33:31
play the immortal game. So therefore, risks are much easier to take. You're much more courageous down here because
01:33:37
you're like, I'm not looking forward to dying, but I ain't that afraid of it. that you know that's that's a very
01:33:42
lifeaffffirming feeling to have where I think selfishness and selflessness are
01:33:50
are in bed together in that place you know or humility and confidence
01:33:57
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When your children come to you, Matthew, and ask you, they say, "Dad, you know, I want to be as a success in my life
01:36:13
defined in whatever way I define it." You've been able to climb to the very
01:36:18
top of the mountain that you aim to climb in terms of your professional achievements. Is there anything transferable? you
01:36:24
talked about hard work earlier that people might miss um when they see such a remarkable
01:36:30
career because I I look at your career journey on paper and I go you've you you did it but then you did it again and
01:36:37
again and again and again and again and again and again at the very very highest level and I'm like is this was this
01:36:44
natural talent was were you given something in your DNA and I know it's hard to sometimes self analyze but what is it
01:36:50
what is that.
01:37:00
So I think that and what what I do try to say some version of this to my kids when we talk
01:37:06
about their futures is look and I talked to a lot of young people about this if
01:37:11
you first if start with what do you have an innate ability to what's in your DNA you
01:37:18
know I wanted to play basketball for years I wanted to dunk
01:37:24
it ain't my DNA bro I was I'm never going to dunk no matter how hard I worked at I was never going to dunk
01:37:29
That's what I wanted to do. So look at what do you have an innate ability for? I wanted to be Washington Redk running
01:37:35
back. No, it's too slow and not and not powerful enough. Well, I didn't have the
01:37:41
innate ability. So what do you have the innate ability for? Then what then are you willing to pursue
01:37:48
an education for, work for, hustle for
01:37:53
that for which you have an inability for? And if we're going to talk about
01:37:59
making a living, is that which you have an innate ability for and now have educated yourself, your
01:38:05
talent to have a talent for is that and how can that be something that the world
01:38:10
demands cuz it's supply and demand?
01:38:16
Boy, if you can end up doing something you got an innate ability for, plus you you become really good at it and you
01:38:21
learn the craft and the world demands it and you can sply it. There you go. But
01:38:28
we don't always some of us have innate ability but we're not willing to we don't work for it. We
01:38:35
don't improve our skills. We kind of rely on what we got and it kind of come middle of the field and it
01:38:40
sometimes I don't have the ability for it but I'm going to learn a new craft and I'm going to hustle at it and then
01:38:46
actually when we get good at something we kind of can start to go oh I didn't know I loved it. I didn't like this
01:38:51
anymore but I like it now. It starts to feel good to do over and over. and you aimed at becoming a you know it
01:38:59
it says it in here it says uh winning an Oscar for best actor etc etc you
01:39:05
accomplish so many of these goals that you had and then there comes this point in your life where you seem to step back
01:39:10
from being this romcom star and it's almost as if a dream you once had failed you and you reorientate
01:39:17
yourself once again to something of more substance so
01:39:25
the decision to make to maybe to answer a little more the last question. I
01:39:32
I've when something's not feeling like I'm completely
01:39:39
in the pocket on it on this getting it on the screws if it and also maybe I am
01:39:44
but it's not translating. We talked about earlier art that translates and you hear the same thing back you're like ah that's it. That's the communication
01:39:51
of good art. Maybe I'm feeling like I'm busting my tail at something, but I put
01:39:56
it out there and it just goes, "Huh?" I don't know. Sometimes it's bad timing. Sometimes just I was chasing the wrong
01:40:04
was chasing up the wrong tree there. At least maybe I chased it for me, but no one else gave a damn. That can that can happen.
01:40:12
I've been fortunate to if something's not sitting well in my
01:40:18
soul, even if I'm pulling it off and I'm like, "Dude, you're the romcom guy. You are
01:40:24
the You're the go-to guy, man. You're number one on the call. You're the you took the baton from Hugh Grant and ran
01:40:31
there. You love doing They're fun. Geez, they pay great, too. I can line them up.
01:40:39
I was getting quantity, but I wasn't getting the quality. I was like going kind of feel like I could do it
01:40:44
tomorrow. And I was like, "Oh, nothing wrong with that. You've worked to get to that point to where you feel like you
01:40:49
could do it tomorrow." I was like, "Yeah, but I don't I need some resistance. I need I want to find something that scares me.
01:40:56
Mind you, at that time, I've fallen in love with Camila and she's pregnant with her first child.
01:41:02
What's the thing I always want to be in life? Father. So my life is like, "Oh
01:41:08
yeah, the roof is raised and the basement is lowered and the width is wider, man. I'm
01:41:16
feeling more, crying more, laughing louder, feeling more painful, all of it. My emotions are life is vital."
01:41:24
And I said, "Okay, what I want to do is dramas, but Hollywood won't offer me one
01:41:29
no matter how big of a pay cut I take." So I said, "All right, if I can't do what I want to do, I'm going to quit doing what I've been doing." So chose to
01:41:36
boom go to the ranch in Texas. Camila's pregnant. Told my agent no more romcoms. Blah blah blah blah blah. Don't know how
01:41:43
long that's going to last. Made that decision with Camila. And we said, "Look, you know, going to make
01:41:49
this decision. There's no telling how long we're going to go without work. But if we're making the decision like
01:41:56
Australia, it's non-negotiable. We're not going back on it." And you get offered a lot of money in that time.
01:42:01
Yeah. There's a great story. So nothing comes in for months and I'm starting to think like, "Oh my gosh, I
01:42:08
might need to find become a teacher. Might need to go back to law school. Got to find a new vocation. I just wrote
01:42:14
myself a one-way ticket out of Hollywood." This offer comes in for this action comedy.
01:42:21
$8 million offer. I read it and I said, "No, thank you. That's the stuff I'm not
01:42:26
doing." I come back with a $10 million offer. I I'm not reading that again. No thank you. come back at a $12 million
01:42:33
offer. Guys, tell him I said no thanks. I come back at a $14.5 million offer.
01:42:40
I said, Let me read that again.
01:42:47
I'd read it again. It's the same words that were in the $8 million offer that I said no to, but it was better written.
01:42:54
It was funnier, man. I could see myself in it. This is could be I could make this work. Yeah. Anyway, I ultimately
01:43:01
said no. And I think in my theory, I don't have any proof of
01:43:06
it, but I think that me saying no to that $14.5 million offer
01:43:11
a year into me leaving and saying no more romcoms. I think me doing that sent
01:43:19
the message got around kind of through Hollywood. Oh, McConn is not bluffing. What the [ __ ] he up to? Something
01:43:26
about that was like, oh, he didn't just recede. He's got a plan, but he's just he
01:43:33
stepped out of Hollywood. He's turned out 145.
01:43:38
Oh, he's not rent. He's not for rent, which
01:43:44
interesting. Oh, maybe a little more attractive.
01:43:50
Well, you know what would be a who might be a novel? Great idea for this drama.
01:43:57
Lincoln lawyer for this killer killer Joe for Mud for Dallas Buyers Club Magic
01:44:06
Mike True Detective MC.
01:44:16
20 months after I stepped out. I didn't know how long it would go. That's how
01:44:23
long it went, all of a sudden those offers came in
01:44:29
and I was off and I grabbed a hold of all of them I could and did them and
01:44:34
love doing them and and uh yeah. Would I
01:44:40
would those have come if id have never stepped out? I can not even kind of say maybe. No. No, they wouldn't have.
01:44:49
So interesting how success can become a prison. It goes back to that sort of marginal slow.
01:44:55
[Music] Yeah. And then you had to do something drastic to realign.
01:45:00
Yeah. Turn down $14.5 million which and trust me my brothers were like most people going what is your major malfunction
01:45:07
little brother? You know, but I remembered how I felt that night when
01:45:12
I had when it came to me and it settled and it came up and I made the covenant and and and I prayed and swore on it
01:45:19
with Camila and we said that's the decisions made. No matter how long this goes, we're not going to go back on the
01:45:24
decision. So, a lot of these stories I think come out about endurance
01:45:31
in a way. The Australian story, this story are two that remind me of like I could have pulled the parachute at
01:45:38
sensibly at any time after the first three months in Australia. If I tell you the details
01:45:44
of that, you'd be like, "Dude, why didn't you come home after a year out of the business maybe
01:45:52
and my agents tell me, I haven't even heard your name in four months."
01:45:57
[ __ ] why go start a new job? Just go back. Those jobs are waiting for you. the romcom jobs. You were doing the waiting.
01:46:03
The through line for me as well is just you in these moments you knew who you
01:46:08
were and were not, which a lot of people don't. And you have to kind of know who you are and are not in order to turn
01:46:15
things down or to accept things that are for you, right? I'm going to go one step
01:46:22
previous to that. I don't know if I could say
01:46:28
I knew who I was.
01:46:34
An easier place for us all to begin and I think where what's more true for me is that these were times when I go
01:46:43
I knew who I was not and I don't know what the I kind of know what I want to do roles that can
01:46:50
challenge the vitality of my life. you know, stereotype. We could say we call those a drama. But
01:46:56
wasn't like I had the script written. This is the one I want to do and no one let me do it. You know what I mean? So
01:47:01
it said no to that. In Australia, I knew that I couldn't be the guy who goes,
01:47:08
I'm out of here, man. Because I shook on it and was having a sneaky suspicion that
01:47:15
the longer this penance went on, the greater the gift would be on the other side. Did I trick myself on that?
01:47:20
probably. Did I was I telling myself that here as a was I posting that on my proverbial
01:47:28
fridge and repeating it like a mantra? Yes. It took a while to get down into
01:47:35
No, I actually believe that to be true. You have a good relationship with uncertainty with not having the branch
01:47:41
to swing to perfectly. I hope so. My wife's out there. If
01:47:47
you're seeing this, she's probably like he needs to work on his relationship with uncertainty, [Laughter]
01:47:56
at least in a professional context. I mean, most people end up stuck because they
01:48:01
just wait for 100% certainty about the escape plan or the the next Well, may maybe that's because
01:48:07
there are every role I've ever done, I went into it at some point and felt like I was 100% certain that this is going to
01:48:14
be great. And not all of them were great. So I've had been a part of things that
01:48:20
had the best laid plans and turned out to be like, "Oh [ __ ]
01:48:25
that's all we did to that." I've been part of things that had the best laid plans and turned out to be like, "Damn,
01:48:32
all right." I've been a part of things that were under financed and didn't seem to have
01:48:40
the foundation, but boy, we turned him into something. Dallas Buyers Club. $4.9 million in 25
01:48:47
days. Shot that movie.
01:48:53
Quality on the screen for that much money in that many days.
01:48:59
Jean Mark and all director, we turned it into that. We turned it into that.
01:49:05
We went into it. But even that, that's another fun story. That was never real.
01:49:12
I just we just said the producers and myself once John Mark came on the director and the producers and my we got
01:49:18
in a room and said we ought to just say we're doing this in October and so we left out of there and started telling me
01:49:24
yep doing it in October. There was no money. My agent was like you keep saying you're doing it in October. You're not
01:49:30
doing it in October. I was like yes we are yes we are dude there's no money. You're not buying it. Yes we are. She
01:49:36
kept saying it. Other scripts were coming in. He's like can you read this? It's going. When's it going? October. I'm not why I read it. I'm not doing I'm
01:49:41
doing Dallas. Dude, you're not doing Dallas Spires Club. There's no time. There's not a date set. There's no movie. Would you please read something
01:49:47
for that time slot? No, cuz we're doing Dallas Spires Club. Why were you so We just
01:49:52
we just kind of I'm not going to what's the word? We didn't manifest it. We just didn't flinch. Don't have we didn't stutter and we were all in
01:49:58
alliance and saying the same thing. So all of a sudden people started to believe it. Has that proven to be really important
01:50:04
to believe what you say and to say it with a conviction? Because it goes back to what you the phone call with your father. Yeah.
01:50:09
You didn't flinch. Something seems to happen when you don't flinch.
01:50:14
Yeah. I mean, it's different than fake it till you
01:50:20
make it. You know, words are momentary. Intent is
01:50:26
momentous. Amen on that. Yeah. Intent is momentous.
01:50:32
Yeah. There's a poem there on that same thing. And I think it's it's where I I I
01:50:39
I write that in response pushing off of where I think sort of a woke cancel
01:50:44
culture overcompensated where we bam hammered you for the word
01:50:51
and didn't give the people to go. Wait, do you understand my intent? Intent is such a lust.
01:50:57
Especially Especially with people who are ignorant.
01:51:03
Mhm. And didn't know better. They're right in here. I wish more not I don't want more crimes but I wish more of the crimes
01:51:08
were about from ignorance because it's the ones it's it's it's it's the bad agents that are going oh I know good
01:51:16
from evil and I'm going to do the evil well that son of a [ __ ] I'm sorry maybe we do need to go in an alley and work it out but the ones go I didn't I didn't
01:51:23
know that person needs some amnesty go well okay or given the a chance to talk
01:51:30
about it when we forgotten
01:51:35
how to say sorry dude I didn't that's what I me I
01:51:43
did not know that's how you were going to I didn't mean for it to land on you like that's not how I how I meant it
01:51:48
have we forgotten to do that and aren't we getting toolled by the
01:51:54
lawyers in the world to say just litigate it dude sue him whoa what happened to hey man my bad stuck my foot
01:52:01
in my mouth man I bogeied Sorry. Now,
01:52:07
if I come back and do it to you next week and the next week after, shame on me. Repeat offender, man. You can
01:52:14
forgive me, but don't trust me. Go. I need some I need some reparations. I got some work. I need some rehab. All right.
01:52:21
But my first job on talking about forgiveness and the words and intent, my
01:52:28
first job, if I've done you wrong and I've come asking for forgiveness, you've open if you're going to if you're going
01:52:33
to forgive me, you've opened it up first. And if you forgive me
01:52:39
and you believe that I mean I I I'm truly sorry,
01:52:45
I'm do my best not to ever do that again. If you believe that and then you forgive me, first order of business is
01:52:52
for me to change the behavior that I have so I don't have to come say sorry
01:52:58
to you again. That I think we miss sometimes that
01:53:04
sometimes people go, I'm sorry, forgiven. Oh, cool. We're even. All right, back to it. And all of a sudden you're like, you did it again, dude.
01:53:12
Have a little reward. I thought you were going to course correct. You know, I've got to course correct the offender for
01:53:17
the first order of business for the offender to go, I'm going to do what I can not to have say I'm sorry to you again. I think there's a more obvious incentive
01:53:24
to misunderstand people now, especially when you there's likes and follows and retweets and play. Misunderstanding
01:53:30
someone, there's huge incentive in that. And I think maybe that's created a culture of that being the default is to
01:53:36
mis trying to misunderstand you because trying to misunderstand. That's interesting because there's an incentive. I think all human behavior can be tracked to
01:53:42
incentives that and that's not the resistance we're talking about. No no you know that's
01:53:49
come on trying to misunderstand people
01:53:57
a real want and need. Yeah I think you're right. I'm asking this out to the world and myself trying to misunder to
01:54:04
be controversial. What? To be it makes me significant, right? Because you own something and you
01:54:12
Yeah. So you trumped my gesture. Yes. What about What about Yeah.
01:54:17
It proves, you know, I'm almost piggybacking. You talked about structure. I'm pushing off your Right. Right. Right. Right. Right. Dude,
01:54:23
comp. We We've got to compare before we contrast. Double down on somebody's
01:54:28
affirmation. Make a point there about make the point make the positives plural and the singular's negative. Block then
01:54:34
you can block evil and the negative's path to prophecy. If we can double down, I'm not saying be foolish and say
01:54:41
there's no negatives in the world. There's no pain. There's no evil. No, let's admit it's all out there and then choose to go. I'm going to talk about
01:54:48
bad [ __ ] in my past in the past hence because that's going to block its path
01:54:54
to prophecy and the positive things that are working the truths in my past. I'm going to talk about them in the present
01:54:59
and the future tense because we're going to keep that ball going. That's going to be a verb. Let's make those a verb.
01:55:05
What season of life are you in now, Matthew? Season of life.
01:55:14
Well, the last eight years, I've really come to love fall. I grew up, I was a summer guy.
01:55:21
No shirt, no shoes, bright lights, extrovert. It's all good. Everything.
01:55:28
Don't [ __ ] about no shoes cuz there's somebody out there with no feet. I've come to like fall because
01:55:36
I think I need I I I don't I'm interested in so many things
01:55:44
that my hunch is to not take on more campfires, but to keep putting logs on the fires that I've built.
01:55:51
And to do that, the clouds that come with fall
01:55:56
just nip ambition in the bud just a little bit. They put a little bit of a roof. I kind of like I'm not as big of a
01:56:04
fan of the 30- foot vault ceiling right now. I I like that 10-footer, that 8-footer. I feel ambitious looking
01:56:11
laterally instead of my god the four dimensionally. I'm
01:56:18
looking for the dreams and the poems and the prayers to become the reality and I'm I like a
01:56:25
little bit of shade. Matthew, we have a closing tradition on this podcast where the last guest leaves a question for the next guest not
01:56:31
knowing who they're going to be leaving it for. And the question that has been left for you is, "What is your greatest
01:56:39
weakness? What is your greatest strength?" Well, let me talk on this wall cuz a lot
01:56:46
of times they seem to be the same damn thing. A lot of times people are like, "Dude, your greatest asset is risk."
01:56:53
And I'm like, I think that's why I got to work all more. I think I need to be taking a lot more risks.
01:56:59
You think you need to be taking a lot more risks? Yeah, that'll surprise a lot of people. Give me the context though and the color.
01:57:08
I'm successful. I got a home.
01:57:14
It's got a gate. I got a security guard. I got three kids. Got a wife.
01:57:23
All right. Secure this. Keep that log on those fires going. That's the main
01:57:28
thing, man. If you do that, if you do that, there's nothing better you can do.
01:57:36
Well, hang on a minute. You can do that, but you still need to engage. What are you going to become a live-in father?
01:57:43
No. Kids need to see you go to work. Need to come with you go to work. Need to see you and your mom going places
01:57:48
without them. Engage in the world. Go find out some new
01:57:54
things. Learn some new things. Whether that's the physical frontier or
01:58:01
the mental frontier. take more risk there to learn. As Mark
01:58:09
Waters, director of Ghost Girlfriend's Past, told me one time, "Oh, MC, you're never wrong." I was like, "Thank you."
01:58:14
He goes, "But there's more than one way to be right." My
01:58:21
my greatest one of my greatest assets is that when I am certain on something,
01:58:27
I can commit to it. It can be an engine and a momentum to take me a long way. At
01:58:32
the same time, I can leave unnecessary shrapnel
01:58:37
with people I care about from my own certainty because I'm so committed and obsessed
01:58:45
with this truth that I've crossed that I can block out an alter alternative
01:58:50
approach to it because I don't have the confidence to go, "Oh, yeah, let me see that." Because I still think, "Oh, if I
01:58:56
see that, I'm going to lose some of this." And I'm still working on that.
01:59:02
It was so beautiful to read poems and prayers. It was surprising and beautiful
01:59:07
at the same time. And uh I said to you before we started recording, it's one of the first times that I felt like I went
01:59:12
somewhere else in a while. And I It's funny cuz it was three or four days ago that I read the first um couple of poems
01:59:18
and then I went back a couple of days later. And I think in part because things had changed in my life in those
01:59:24
couple of days. The meaning of the poems were different. The meanings of the prayers seemed to be entirely different. You also have this
01:59:30
incredible book which has been one of those smash hit bestsellers of the last decade, Greenlights. And I know that one
01:59:36
of your good friends, Bill McRaven. Yeah, Admiral Bill. Admiral Bill McRaven. I always make you call him Bill, but I
01:59:43
always go Admiral. Yeah, Bill McRaven. And he was somewhat part of the inspiration or he inspired or was a
01:59:48
catalyst moment you seeing him speak. It's a friendship that he and I have started to build and
01:59:56
as is at a at a time when I was seeking out
02:00:02
male mentors after your dad had passed. Well, this is more in the last five
02:00:08
years, six years, seven years. I think I wrote that four years ago, something like that. And he always took my call,
02:00:16
always took time with me, always just without judgment shared great
02:00:21
wisdom with me. And without even knowing he shared it, I think just if you ever get a chance to speak with him and spend
02:00:28
time, he's a he's really got it going on. He's got it he's he's he's really
02:00:34
got a wonderful perspective. Um, are you able to share what you were seeking guidance from him about?
02:00:41
No, the main thing I would keep private, but then it was also we we we talked about, you know,
02:00:48
fatherhood, husbandry, you know, um he's and he's got a great
02:00:54
sense of humor and all that stuff, too. And and how, you know, making plans and
02:01:00
seasons of our life and how much to rely on those and how much are they just like, "No, that's just an old parable, man. Doesn't really go like that." You
02:01:06
know what I mean? Um, and I'd give details, but I wouldn't I feel like I might be speaking out of school if I did.
02:01:11
I actually, um, we reached out to Bill McRaven. Oh, you did? And he wrote this wonderful letter for
02:01:18
you. He said, "Dear Matthew, I remember clearly the first time we met. I'd been
02:01:23
told that Matthew McConnA was going to be in the audience at my talk. I'd long been a fan of your movies, but candidly,
02:01:30
I wondered more about the man than the movie star. The man I met that day, the person I've come to know over the past
02:01:36
10 years, has exceeded all my expectations. You are as genuine as any
02:01:42
person I know. There are no heirs about you. There is no pretense. There is no Hollywood ego. There is just McConnA.
02:01:49
You treat everyone with respect. I have watched you with your league of fans and
02:01:55
never once have you failed to shake a hand, give a hug, take a picture, and thank them for their kindness. I have
02:02:01
watched you on the sidelines with your beloved look horns. When you are there,
02:02:06
the entire burnt orange nation feels better than the game. In victory, your enthusiasm is infectious. And in defeat,
02:02:13
you are gracious and respectful, representing all that is good about the university and about Texas. I've watched
02:02:21
you give back to your school, teaching the next generation of actors, writers, and poets. I've seen your work as the
02:02:26
minister of culture, bringing fun and a Texas flare to everything you touch.
02:02:32
I've watched you after the tragedy in Yaldi. It tore your heart out. And while
02:02:37
others stood on the sidelines wondering how to deal with those unspeakable horrors, you headed straight to Washington. Few people I know could have
02:02:44
brought both Democrats and Republicans together to make a difference. But you did. And then you stood in front of the
02:02:50
entire nation and pleaded for s sanity. Through your compassion, your determination, and your love, you have
02:02:57
truly made a difference in so, so many lives. I have watched you with Camila
02:03:03
and your children. You're as fine a father and a husband as any man I know.
02:03:10
Every child should be as lucky as your kids. I know your mother is exceedingly
02:03:15
proud of the man you have become. Finally, I want to thank you for your friendship, your unwavering support, and
02:03:21
for making my hometown of Austin some place special to live.
02:03:27
Take care, Bill McRaven. Wow.
02:03:36
Thank you, Bill. A that's that's that's something else.
02:03:43
You know, I did speak to him before I went to DC after Ualdi
02:03:52
and just the wisdom with
02:04:00
the context, the setting, do you see politics,
02:04:07
but also in that
02:04:13
being aware aware and understand those things.
02:04:19
Go your line, man. Go your line.
02:04:24
And um that's that's that's beautiful to hear.
02:04:31
You know, I did not know that he that he uh thought all those
02:04:37
things about me, and that makes me feel good. But I look forward to giving him a a hug over our next cup of coffee or sip
02:04:43
of tequila, whatever it is. Good man. Good, good, good, good man.
02:04:49
Bill McCraven, thank you. And everything he says in that letter is what I've had reflected to me by everybody you've met
02:04:54
and know. We've got some mutual contacts and those words ring true. And this is why I think you're a great um role model
02:05:01
for for me, but also for young men like me who are aspiring to figure out all this stuff with all the modern temptations and you know different paths
02:05:08
we can pursue and all the options more options than ever and a
02:05:14
less clear clarity on why we should pursue resistance and family and faith
02:05:19
and all the things described in this letter of the the empathy, the grace and the kindness and the respect of others.
02:05:25
But you stand forth as an example for why all those things are the most important things. And thank you for that, Matthew. Thank you for being a
02:05:32
role model to me and so many young men like me and so many people, not just men like me. And thank you for writing a brilliant book, poems and prayers, which
02:05:38
everybody can go and get now. Um, and just like me when I read it, it might just take you to somewhere else.
02:05:43
Somewhere else you might rather be and somewhere else you need to go. Thank you. Beautiful.
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