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Grief in many ways is like psychosis. In the first couple of weeks after Robin's
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body was taken away, the morning after he died, I would wake up in the morning and I would be absolutely freezing cold,
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like shaking and shivering. And it was October. It wasn't like mid-inter. I would blast up the heating. When someone
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else was in the house, I would realize it it was like a sauna. It was actually a bit embarrassing and had to like, you
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know, turn it down and like open some windows. Robin actually hated being cold. He would have been in the morg in
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a refrigerated drawer that whole time. I think it was my sense of temperature on
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the same wavelength where I didn't consciously think of where he was, but I was feeling freezing cold. It was things
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like that that were coincidences. Absolutely. But then over time, and I'm talking a couple of years, I could ask
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for specific signs and get them that day. I was experiencing something called thought insertion, which in psychiatry
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is one of the symptoms of schizophrenia. It's when you have a thought in your head that you know isn't yours. Can you
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imagine experiencing that and at the same time being a psychiatrist that is is saying right Tara you do realize you
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are having a psychotic symptom. If you're going through grief and you don't know the things that I know you can't
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articulate to yourself that grief in many ways is like psychosis. It's changing the levels of neurotransmitters
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in your head. It's changing the electric and chemical like signaling in your head. I just have so much empathy for
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people that that have to go through that and don't have the wherewithal or the resources that that I