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I love Chris I felt a special connection to him because uh he had such a special connection and
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desire and love for my brother John yeah so uh when he would see me he would light up and I'd be like Chris I'm not
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sure you knew him so great I know I know I know anyway uh he kept going on about John you know
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I said I know I know he was beautiful as beautiful as talented man I know I said
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I know you got to stop you got to stop chasing him Chris he's gone he's gone I know I know I love him so much
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Chris you can't follow John you can't follow his track the guy did drugs he's dead
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you can't follow him with the drugs to find out who he was I mean I did it myself right after John died I kind of
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increased my intake to try to get close to what John must have been feeling and then one day what the [ __ ] am I doing
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and then I just kind of cleaned up and stopped but I told him that story too and I said you've got to stop
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you gotta [ __ ] stop Chris I know yeah he's always nodding his head yeah I know I'm going to I'm going to
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but it was seems so beautiful he was so beautiful and I just kept repeating it Chris
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he's dead stop it you've got to stop I know I know I know it wasn't a very successful yeah so I'm
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so obsessed with John it's like he he wanted to be John yeah Jim I don't know if you knew that when
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he would get the Wardrobe once he figured one of his pants said Belushi in him uh because they're the same size
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that he would wear even if first it goes these Belushi's I go I know it's Chris it is very exciting to
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be on that show and see someone from the shows before that we all looked up to and uh and then he would wear them under
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his regular pants during the show and just for luck for magic yeah no I actually the first couple movies I did
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after after that I uh you know one movie so when I took a little hat of John's and I wore it in the movie Just to kind
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of bring him along and another movie I wore a belt of his just to kind of bring him along
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but uh yeah you know addiction is an obsessive behavior and it just extended into
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obsessing about John yeah true was it was it something you know obviously you'd think well maybe he
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admired John because John was could was a pretty big guy and very physical and very spontaneous and I mean was it
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just relating to him you think oh is there something deeper just about John's personality that that Chris admired you
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know and emulated I mean who knows why we have certain Idols but clearly John was his Idol comedically yeah I don't
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know I I don't know what it was I mean you know he died at the same age he you know I I don't I don't know he just uh
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he got obsessed with the guy maybe it's because he's Chicago they were the same size they were spontaneous yeah I think
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he saw himself like growing up going oh there's a guy like me and he's like and he's from Chicago you know he always
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talk about like and he Bob his head like Aykroyd and you know listen we all grew
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up loving uh volusion Aykroyd and uh that whole everybody you know and um and when you're in it you think you're
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shitty and they're great and then it takes years to someone to say oh Chris You're great and uh
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I said you're as good as Belushi toward the end I said I sound crazy but as great as he was you're up there dude
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he's like no don't no never say that yeah and uh but the truth was he was great and uh again cutting it short for
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a crowd that could have seen a lot more and you're right there's no telling him no and if you say it too much we would
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have problems because no no you know if he he he goes away from people to do that and uh
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that's just normal yeah that's normal that's normal addictive behavior I mean even John in
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the end Danny said something very interesting and that was you know when John died the people that
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were around him Danny didn't know any of those people yeah none of them so you know Alex kind
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of create a community that will support them you know indulge them in what they want to do same lifestyle
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yeah