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Curry Gonzalez M M M M M M I've heard that everyone's been saying it wrong
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forever yeah yeah yeah you're okay you're okay with it it's just too hard
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for MC yeah they get the M Gonzalez should be normal but um I don't even know how to say MC is M or M I don't
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know even my mom doesn't know it's her name she doesn't even know but also um
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something I learned uh Corey is not is not your real name your your real name's
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um Enrique after your dead and and uh so who who calls you in R uh uh no one just
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the government right so and my passport is in Rico but um you know I uh when I was
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a baby I um got really sick and my medication was called Cory Don and my first words were trying to say that but
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I just called it Corey and my family just called me Cory from there on no one's ever call me in R but from my
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teachers or like when I go to ws and stuff that's so cool so if you ever like
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make the the New Zealand hero or stuff for drunk driving people be like oh this Enrique Guy must be related to Cory yeah
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oh my God older brother or something like yeah yeah and then when yeah man he's trouble like he's a the enri guy
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that's so cool so it's like a nickname that's become your official name and all
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yeah I I had no choice in it yeah yeah hey so um this year uh I don't know if you acknowledg this
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as a big year for you but it's your your 21st as a comedian oh is it yeah is that right
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have I got that right coming up 21 21 years stand up Comm yeah oh nice yeah um no doubt lots of highs lots of lows no
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doubt you've done your 10,000 hours best and worst shows uh best shows the best
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shows are always like the all the TV like the GS those are awesome um you've
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got like thousands of people watching you and you're getting paid a lot of money for it
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um the worst are just some like shitty towns like small towns that you go to like they
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just don't get you but even even but even those are like some of the best as
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well like I I love I love dying I don't think there's any better ones I I love
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dying is is that something that comes with confidence the longer you've been
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doing it I'm I'm I would imagine like I'm just projecting here but if it was
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me um like dying on stage you'd be in the in the early stages of your career
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it'd be the most mortifying thing ever struggle to get back on 100% yeah but
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yeah but now it's like yeah if I go to a like a I'm not going to name any towns
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but if I go somewhere and it dies I'm like I'm like I'm better than you guys
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so even though I'm I'm actually not but in my head I'm like like like I'm like
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you guys couldn't do this like yeah like go home and beat your wives like [ __ ]
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yeah but when you've been doing it for 21 years I I suppose you realize that um
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like dying on stage is not death either no no I've got other GS yeah that's not
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my last yeah yeah you talk so you mentioned the um the comedy G so I watched a whole lot of stuff on you
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Youtube including um one of the comedy G shows and there was a joke you told about um about people having their
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fingers in a lot of Pies yeah which is a saying that everyone says everyone's
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familiar with um but i' never ever thought of it framed that way what is the um what's the writing Pro process
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like how does something like that come about I don't know I just um literally
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just yeah I just I don't understand where sayings like weird statements like
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that like I always like i' got like very bad OCD and I just put everything into a
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little sense and like can you imagine someone just fingering pies it's the most absurd saying ever
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it's the worst like I don't get it like yeah I got fingers and pies I was like
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what what does that even mean yeah how did it get like mainstream popularity that say but um yeah the way you broke
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it down it's like it's a saying that's been around for hundreds of years and
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I'd never thought of it that way and I thought [ __ ] that is good yeah I don't
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get it what you got fingers and pies never a finger in an actual pie though hey that' be good here for a
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podcast fingers and pies yeah you just L you have to do it while you're fingering
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pies let's do it hey you brought some beers over thanks very much I I actually
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sent you a message like about half an hour ago saying um you know do you want to drink on arrival I can get you a
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coffee I can get you a bottled of water some beers you said a long black yeah then as soon as you turned up you said
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I'll go next door and get some beers I just I was driving I was driving here I
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saw a lot of people drinking outside in the sun and I was like oh man that be that's that looks quite nice yeah oh I
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appreciate it I appreciate trying to stop drinking but you I I heard um you've been on a few podcasts I listened
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to some of them in preparation um for this and um yeah one of them I think you you like a 4mth sober at the time yeah I
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did SP yeah I did uh I did a 100 days not drinking and um it was the best I've
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ever felt and I don't know why I haven't done it again I just can't I I just don't know
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how to do it why did you why did you start again after 100 days um cuz I gave myself that goal for 100
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days and then I went and I I just felt like I achieved something so I had to celebrate by drinking which is
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ridiculous I I had dry July last year and I I didn't find it I didn't find it
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overly challenging like I wasn't having physical withdrawals or anything like
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that but then for some reason like first of August yeah I had an absolute Bender
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oh yeah yeah what's why the next day I woke up and I was like full of self-loathing I was like why did why did
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you do that like that's literally every like I can go like I can go a week or
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two without drinking and then yeah at the end I reward myself by getting [ __ ] up and I I it's I I just don't
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know how to not do that yeah you've got to yeah yeah it's an interesting relationship with alcohol we
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we'll get to this we'll get to this later on but you you didn't drink until
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you in your early 20s anyway like you were fit spoker till I was uh uh yeah 2022 F started drinking yeah which I
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found hard to believe cuz the what are your Recollections with the first time we met cuz we've sort of I I haven't
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seen you for years but we've sort of been social friends on and off for a long time I think just through I don't
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know just through like industry [ __ ] right yeah like parties yeah you first time I metet you uh we can cut this out
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of the podcast if you want I don't know um there's a guy called um Duncan hide
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he does the afternoon this is by the way this is a long long time ago this is probably house yes probably 15 years ago
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maybe longer so we're at this house party maybe 15 20 people there and um a little puppy when he just got the puppy
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yeah like a little Bulldog thing um and you just uh like turn the turn the stereo down stood up said hey everybody
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um I'm catching up with my drug dealer in about 40 minutes so if anyone wants
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anything let me know and I thought this guy's [ __ ] H it was alarming because
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I I I I mean this is time stamping it I probably had an ecstasy pill in my pocket I think most people were going
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off to the bathroom and peers doing drugs but no one was going to be open about doing drugs and then [ __ ]
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stood up and offered to do like like it was Uber don't [ __ ] around like seriously um and that drug dealer is in
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jail at the moment so wow yeah yeah I thought that's um it's a weird sort of like brashness or
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confidence or I don't know I just don't I have no filters I don't think I just
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um yeah man like I I don't care yeah yeah I I like now what's that you get
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some drugs now no I don't do drugs anymore don't you uh no I don't no okay cool um any
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jokes from 21 years ago that you remember and that you crun at do you remember your original routine oh bro
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like my my first ever um comedy Set uh I won the raw comedy Quest like the um like the national like newcomers thing
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and uh my closing gag was just I used to work at a f SHP shop when I was young and it was me pretending to be um the
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Chinese man who I work for and that's just like the most look back I'm like
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how did I not get like cancelled from that like it's the most I'm glad No One
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filmed that because that's the most offensive thing I've ever done in my
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life like so bad but I nailed it yeah but it wasn't um it wasn't offensive at
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the time though no no it it was literally everyone like my the judges for my competion was it was like Mike
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King like a f nickel like amazing UK comedian Scott from the classic and they they all watched it I was like yeah
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maybe I should [ __ ] should bring it back no no you can't bring it back down
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all you can do is sit and hope that no one had like a Nokia with a good camera that was um what about um you
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make lots of jokes about celebrities have you ever like um ran into one of the celebrities you've made jokes about
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uh funny thing that you should mention that I do a lot of stuff about uh Paul Henry I used to do and um he was on
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seven days last night and um yeah that that guy doesn't like me oh what happened I I had him he was sitting in
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that chair like two days ago we did a podcast I just I just actually I don't
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do that many maybe like posts about him he's just I don't know me just rich
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white [ __ ] I just [ __ ] like uh just so out of touch of everything yeah I HED up with his
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daughter so maybe that's why he doesn't like oh did you okay well there's
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there's history there what about um um criticism and bad reviews are you are
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you okay with them have have you been have have you had a conflicted relationship with them over the years
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and it's got better or I uh now I can kind of take it but it just depends who
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does it like who's who's doing the review um some some of them are just like critics by I mean the name speaks
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for itself isn't it they're critical it's the people who aren't uh like like
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comedy review they'll just be like someone who writes for [ __ ] like Metro or something and comes to your
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show and I'm like like you've never been to comedy show before like they
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criticized me for being having no no energy or uh being too offensive or whatever it's like that's just that's
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just what I'm like like what do you want me to be I'm not going to not everyone's
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[ __ ] like Jim Carrey or like Billy T or something you know like but then but then it's the ones that on like social
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media like just normal punters um yeah man I I I got uh cancel I got cut from TV3 for like 3 years I'm back there now
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um 3 years so I had a uh I did a a post on on Facebook saying about the America's Cup AG go um uh anything's
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possible if you're a rich white guy and um I don't hate white people by the way
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but and um I'm more fun right now and uh and this guy from uh Canterbury from
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Christ Church he like goes just went off at me he's like you know was I was like
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wasn't like reacting or anything and then he's like let's sort this out in in
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real life like real men and I I was like okay I found out where he lived and I was going to be in C that week and I um
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sent him my flight details and my hotel where I was staying at and I was like let's do us let's do this and then he
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called the police and he called TV3 and uh he got me fired from like three jobs I had and I dude I tried to call myself
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after that and um he um he yeah had 3 years not working on TV after that but now I'm back and yeah this [ __ ]
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his name's Dave something like I'd love to meet him I'd love to meet him person
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man like like that's one guy like I hope he watches this cuz [ __ ] yeah so yeah
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the impact it had on your life it was that detrimental dude like I I lost like I lost probably like maybe half a
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million bucks of work that year and um yeah when that happened uh the TV3 called the police to come to my house
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cuz I was going to jump off on balcony you serious yeah yeah yeah how long ago was this three years ago three
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and a bit years ago oh wow that's a lot yeah you yeah you're you're um you're you're I was going to
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say you're a dead but you're not just a dead you're you're a bloody great dead
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um yeah your daughter fry like she's she's everything to you we'll get into
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the fry part of the story um later but I've even heard you say in interviews
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that she saved your family yeah um yeah 100% And then there's the the your dad
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Enrique who will get into who who who took his own life um yeah so the I mean the impact that had on you personally as
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a as a son losing a parent and the impact that you saw it had on your white or family the fact that something could
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put you in that point where you do it to yourself it seems yeah y yeah it's funny there there's not
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a lot of um yeah there's not a lot of dudy aure with these things he like with
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um you know TV3 obviously they had to make a decision that they thought was right for them or whatever by you know
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um putting on the sidelines for three years but they still got to look after the people you can't just I mean they um
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can't just cast you aside like a BG trash they they just sided with this so This dude he was like a a racist canbury
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guy like full on Mega his profile is like Trump he loves [ __ ] E party he yeah and they just um they just C of him
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and like yeah I I don't get it like yeah but now yeah a few other the people who
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um who stopped me from working they just got fired in the new color from newth Hub so shame
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[ __ ] what what was it that um that stopped you from um taking your own life um I'm scared of
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heights I'm I'm I'm the same I'm not well I'm not scared of heights but I'm
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scared of falling from Heights it's no I'm scar Heights and yeah I live on the
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third floor it's quite a big balcony and um yeah I was like [ __ ] no I okay I'll
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do it another way but then but then I just got yeah I just I don't commit to
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[Music] things yeah um that's um that's a that would be a violent way to go I mean there's if you
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thing there's only going to be one outcome that's not a cry for help that's
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someone that wants a team yeah yeah it's a teen and yeah no if I did I'd just
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yeah I I got a Wy bar and just I don't know cut that drink yourself into Oblivion I'm I'm I'm
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pleased that work that okay and I'm pleased you're still here yeah thank you
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yeah um all right let's go um I've got a bunch of cards in different chapters yeah
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opra they got reallyand opra really um God I wouldn't mind wouldn't mind some
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of that open for money oh man yeah how do what how do you feel about rich brown people hey good on them but the same as
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I mean she's yeah all right um yeah the next C I had was about some of the screen stuff so
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you've been in heaps over the years um was your first um on screen experience
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being um Adrien Brody's body double yeah yeah on King Kong yeah so you're in
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Wellington at the time you're still at University or are you young yeah I was
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at Uni yeah yeah yeah um yeah I went to audition I don't know how you audition
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to be a body double just went on and uh they just take photos of you and um and I just watched him on the on the penist
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and he just won the Oscar that year and my whole family loved him and we were like he was coming to New Zealand to do
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we knew that he was coming to do kung Kong and everyone was like oh imagine if you can work with him and then I got the
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yeah got that part and um yeah it turned out to be a dick oh really really or did
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you have like much to do with him personally I I was with him whenever he was on set I was on set so we hang out
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every day for what like a year that we filmed it why was he a dick uh he's just
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real arrogant right yeah but um I don't know like I might be the same if I'm ever that
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famous if I w't Oscar I probably I wouldn't be here I know I don't know
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I've I've known you for a long time yeah yeah I've seen seen you through some
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like career highs and careers career lows and you never sort of change yeah I guess so yeah I know but yeah but he was
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um any any specific dickish moments or um just a general ER of arrogance or yeah just like stories that I heard from
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I was really good friends with um Jamie Bell who who used to be he was Billy Elliott and he was in the movie and um
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they went away apparently for a weekend in Queenstown and one of the guys uh Colin Hanks his mom had just died and um
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was a real like s moment and one of the uh other actors in it he was a opera singer and he set up and did like a
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apparently amazing like opera song for him and then everyone's like that's
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amazing everyone's crying and then out of nowhere ad b gets up and starts repping so that just sums it up he's not
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a com actor so there's no sense of timing maybe no no yeah exactly yeah yeah time fck your moments you know what
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about um Jack Black was in that movie you have anything to do with him oh he was the man yeah the nicest guy ever
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like seriously we um yeah awesome and um yeah he had time for everyone just I couldn't say anything more words about
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him how nice he was yeah that was probably the peak of his Fame as well like you wanted to talk Adrian broy
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being a big star Jack Black was a big star like that was uh so School of Rock here he just come out and then he that
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and the Tenacious D stuff with yeah so they played they played uh we went to see them like yeah was awesome yeah that
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that would have been about the time of year tribute was a really big song and yeah just come out yeah actually that
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whole album like fucku gently is one of my favorite songs and Lee's like oh so
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good yeah that's King Kong and then um eagle versus shark in 2007 uh yeah oh actually yeah we it came
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out in 2007 but we filmed it in 2004 I think 2005 yeah is that is that where you and um Germaine Clement sort of
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became yeah so me and um uh tuer and Germaine they were and the the like the Concords were around and terer was he
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was one of the judges in the first go did um and they um asked me to be in this short film which turned out to be
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what we know Shadows um then after that um yeah I did eagle with a shark with tiger in Germain and yeah it was awesome
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awesome yeah that was a that was a fck Wellington was a hot of talent of Comedy Talent Jesus everyone's from there like
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dley Steve rley um me um Raybon everyone you can't I suppose um you can't help but have some
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of that sort of success rub off on your way if you're in that circle like it's
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going to it's going to drive you or you push you to be better and do better so
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that um but so when you came along 20 21 years ago had the Concords was that pre
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the HBO show or were they just about to do the HBO show pre so when I when I start they they just like cracked it in
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uh Edinburgh like Edinburgh festival and um they were huge in Wellington like every time they played it we me and Ben
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hully ran the comedy club there they every time they come it would just be Shu and pecked um and then they went to
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they went to America they did a pilot which they filmed at in Wellington at our Comedy Club um that didn't get
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picked up but then they did their HBO special like the year after that and then they became like M like massive
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like ridiculous how big they they be that series is so good oh so good it's just brilliant and they could have kept
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it going but they were like no do other stuff yeah I I love that and I hate it as well from a fan perspective I hate it
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but I can't so they did two seasons of that was it two I can't imagine how yeah
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I'm I'm in a of that second season the first season obviously they had like a
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like a backlog of songs which you could wedge into story lines but create writing new songs and writing story
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lines around it yeah exactly yeah can't imagine how how crazy a time that was um
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and then um what we doing in the shadows so that was like 2012 uh yeah we filmed in 2012 yeah yeah
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I I watched that last night it was I had to get on Apple and rent it for like $5.99 dude I've got a link oh no I
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wasn't going to I was going to DM you hey bro I can I can read it for 599 but
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do you have a Vimeo link there's enough YouTube clip that you can actually cut
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them together and probably get a idea about what it's about so the um the 5.99
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that I spent on April last night do you do you get a royalty or anything or did you just get a you just get a a
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check at the time we yeah I think we do like we I got a some royalties uh two years ago they meant to come every year
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so I don't know what's happening but yeah just [ __ ] all day uh no it wasn't
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too bad like it's it's it's become massive like over the world it's become
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massive so I wasn't to I think I think I got like n grand for one year and then
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nothing else since inide me oh [ __ ] on nine grand that's good [ __ ] it's it's a
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great movie I I forgot I haven't seen it since it came out I forgot how good it
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was yeah I haven't I watch it been watching with Freddy a little bit and to yeah it's I'm remembering it it's it's a
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good movie yeah so so you're one of the core cast you're Nick who plays like a a
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newly minted um young sort of cocky arrogant vampire you come in like 22 minutes into it um yep there'll be a lot
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of people that watching watching this or listening to this podcast that haven't
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seen it or haven't seen it in years but I got a couple of like geeky fan questions um some of the straet scenes
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are they are they extras or was it sort of like hidden camera style uh a lot of hidden camera and then a lot of the
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extras were people that were just when we went out we're like hey do you mind
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just being in this kind of in the shot it's amazing yeah oh there was no budget
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so like we couldn't pay for that many extras like we from like all the courney
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place in we can't yeah yeah yeah it's like massive C you know Jermaine and and
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taer but they weren't you know Jermaine and taer then they were yeah yeah you
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know um and when when you're filming a funny movie does it make it a funny set
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to be on or not necessarily that was uh the funniest um six weeks of my life like every day was just like ridiculous
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just the funniest moment like yeah but oh I don't I don't know of there like
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any sets that could have that ever like that was so good and and what was the like some of the scenes almost look
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um almost like I don't know if I'm phrasing this right but like ad lied rather than acted like so did you have
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like a strict script or like a loose script I never saw a script I never saw the script ever yeah
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no one did Tu and Germain had the script but I never showed it to anyone what do
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you mean the whole movie was improvised so so they had some like beat bullet points yeah bullet points but
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then yeah like um I think we filmed like 145 hours or something 125 hours and it's like 120 Minutes or something yeah
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um n script yeah all like um literally all [ __ ] so they they they literally just
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shot a whole lot of stuff and just P yeah have like three different visions of the movie from the stuff that they
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cut yeah and it's it's that's brilliant too it's really good and then um yeah
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something I forgot about completely or it just never occurred to me it was like a today I learned moment um Wellington
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paranormal which was also very successful that was like a spin-off of what we doing the Shadows yeah yeah it's
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um yeah it's it's my daughter's favorite TV show which is awesome um so I yeah I
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worked on it I was in it in the first season and then I wrote the second and third season and um yeah it's one of
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also one of the best jobs I've ever had yeah it's incredible how how did you how
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did you um get the job what we doing the shads we did you Did you sort of have to
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audition did tyer and Jermaine sort of like put you forward did they just invite you to be in it no so we did a we
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did a short film of it in 2004 uh that we sent to some festivals and um um then Taco's like oh this is kind of a lot of
00:24:01
people into this they want to make it into a movie um and we'll keep you on when it happens and then so for like 8
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years he's like every time I see him hey man it's going to happen we're going to
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do it and they just they kept everyone from the short film in the cast like they just put put us on into the main
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movie amazing and how's um how how's your relationship with taer change it
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can't be the same now it's like he's well he's hard to get in touch with but
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um you you're you're living in Eden ter he's got like a $20 million mans and in La as well um when he's here
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we we'll catch up but um he's not that hard like yeah we text and stuff and but when he's here we'll
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catch up but he's he's the buzziest guy in the world yeah he's got a million
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he's got so many fingers and so many pies every way he's literally the guy who's got
00:24:53
fingers in pie yeah like literally literally but you after he's had his finger in a pie you'd eat that pie yeah
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my God yeah and his fingers yeah um yeah that movie was so successful you ended up going like you had a free trip
00:25:06
around the world Alex Sundance Film Festival so what what's the Sundance Film Festival oh man it's uh so it's
00:25:11
like a like a kind of independent movie Showcase uh Robert rff started it um oh because of Butch castley in the Sundance
00:25:20
Kid maybe from that yeah right yeah yeah actually yeah okay and um yeah you just
00:25:25
we got flown over there we stayed there for like 2 weeks it was just like it wasn't real life like and then after
00:25:32
that we went to LA then Berlin like dude it was like it was a month of just not real
00:25:39
life like ridiculous what what do you do over there why do they fly all you guys
00:25:43
who F who flew over like the entire sort ofast everyone yeah yeah like us uh taer
00:25:50
Jermain Reby me Stu Johnny BR um Jackie like everyone and and what to do there like
00:25:59
are you working over there no we just went and did like interviews and we went to like like um like a swag meet where
00:26:05
you going in and they L just clothes and shoes everywhere and they they just swag
00:26:09
stuff we all get and they they yeah they tell you just pick what what you want and like we went and got like I've got
00:26:15
so much stuff from there I still have it like like I've got like thousands of
00:26:19
dollars worth of stuff like a Nintendo Wii like what the hell you know like who I'm who am I I'm I'm still on the
00:26:25
benefit of New Zealand what am I doing here like but also you I I was going to say why do they give all this free stuff
00:26:32
to people that can afford it but yeah I was like yeah everyone else was like cuz
00:26:36
yeah I think before us um who's it oh uh y McGregor was there before us and he's
00:26:43
just like just walks past and I'm like you didn't take any of it like I was like hey bro this is free
00:26:49
yeah that's all free you spot the newly minted sleep hey those shoes you can take those
00:26:56
for youy terer if you're not going to have a wake yeah yeah oh wow well were
00:27:01
you the were you the thirstiest person in the in the swag room 100% I took everything I brought stuff home for my
00:27:07
family like like girl stuff I was like yeah let's take it and you you um mentioned you and McGregor anyone else
00:27:13
did do you got any parties or anything what yeah went to a lot of parties uh we had Jak J hall came to our shadows party
00:27:21
um Selena Gomez Nick Cave wow Joy mangelo whatever his name is um yeah [ __ ] that's an impressive list and
00:27:31
do you um do you you manage to say stay chill around these people uh I don't
00:27:36
know yeah yeah I can't remember probably not that's cool and then um then you
00:27:42
where where else did you go Berlin from there we went to back to LA to just kind
00:27:46
of Jo I did some shows in LA and then we went to the Berlin festival and and that
00:27:51
was bit more lowkey but but but huge like in Berlin is my favorite city in the world now like
00:27:59
it's a cool place he yeah it's so cool I love it like yeah I'd love there [ __ ]
00:28:04
that's awesome memories for a lifetime eh yeah yeah so [ __ ] cool so how do
00:28:08
you um yeah how do you do that and then like you know come back to you know come
00:28:12
back to your flat in [ __ ] Kingsland no no I came back to when I was living in Wellington it was just s on my dad
00:28:17
died so I went it was just me and my mom living in an apartment and Wellington came back back on the
00:28:22
benefit um actually actually on the benefit yeah and uh I've been telling everyone how doing this movie and it's
00:28:29
coming out and everyone was like oh yeah whatever Cory whatever so I was like I've got this movie coming out and I've
00:28:34
got no money coming in but you know and did did you did you guys sense it was going to be a big movie or I mean going
00:28:41
to these festivals and stuff you must have felt like a sort of hum around it um yeah from there but even even then we
00:28:48
were like maybe it'll it'll come out at like Realto and newal like maybe it'll
00:28:53
be just like in a like Indie movie festival or something but yeah we had no idea that it would be like
00:28:58
like a massive worldwide success we had no idea that's so cool what a cool thing
00:29:03
to be a part of yeah okay so let's get back to the early years so you're um
00:29:07
you're Chilean so you're born in Chile you moved to New Zealand when you sex
00:29:10
what are you what do you remember from the I was trying to think about this when I was um pring for this interview
00:29:16
and my memories of my first six years and these like sort of like flashes of different buts and buts and pieces but
00:29:21
[ __ ] all really what are you remember from um [ __ ] so we grew up in a war so I
00:29:26
remember lot of heavy [ __ ] and um just my grandparents uh so my dad left Chile when I was four I think uh to
00:29:35
come come here to set up a life um so I remember him leaving that was real sad and um then it was just me my mom and my
00:29:42
little brother and my grandparents and um yeah there was just a big a war at the time and going like every time we
00:29:50
went out remember my uncle getting like arrested and tortured um us going out getting shot at when we like every time
00:29:56
we'd go out like te I got tear big ass when I was 4 years old um yeah like having family members get
00:30:03
like [ __ ] killed and stuff like yeah but apart from that uh from that a lot of
00:30:12
football but is is it is that terrifying as a kid or if you're born into a war is
00:30:16
it just like oh well you know it was it was just it literally was just life it's
00:30:21
like that's why like these days I'm like that's why I don't care about much cuz
00:30:25
like I grew up seeing horrible things and horrible things happening to my family and yeah I just I just I'm
00:30:33
reckless I just I just people are so lucky to live here M and and all your family lived in a a garage yeah or me
00:30:41
and my mom and my dad and my brother loved in the garage of my grandparents garage right yeah is this a Chilean
00:30:47
thing just family loves together family I went back there a few years ago and like my uncle who's like 60 he's still
00:30:53
living there like it just H as no one no one s moves no I don't like even like here in New
00:30:59
Zealand when I when I went flatting I think I was 21 at the time um I left home my dad didn't talk to me for a
00:31:06
month cuz he's like why would he leave us he literally stopped talking to me
00:31:10
for a month he was so angry at me that I went flatting like at that point your dead must have been thinking you know
00:31:15
okay moving to New Zealand was the best thing we did for our kids but also the worst thing CU now
00:31:21
learned he always just wanted us to be together the whole time and I was like man it's um
00:31:28
it's it's lovely though way it's really endearing I mean it's it's awesome and like like this
00:31:35
like if my mom lived I'd love yeah you s see that with um I don't know there's like parallels between that
00:31:43
the Chilean lifestyle in the you know a lot of the Pacifica um you families whereas um you know pakia like me like
00:31:51
we get to 178 then you start plotting your move then once you're done it's
00:31:55
like go to radio station or something yeah yeah did you start P me yeah yeah yeah [ __ ] it's funny I love that that's
00:32:02
that's really cool you're still really close with your mom now you call every
00:32:05
day twice my best friend yeah talk to her at least twice a day yeah one of the other days is yeah one of the so call in
00:32:11
the morning after I dropped Freddy off and then when I go pick Freddy up from school I I just call her so the other
00:32:17
parents won't talk to me you always on a phone yeah I yeah and even when she's busy I'll put them on
00:32:23
the phone oh that's cool what's she doing there she's she's doing Wellington so
00:32:28
Wellington so she uh was working at The Body Shop she worked there for like 30 years she got made redundant two years
00:32:34
ago um didn't know what was happening her dog died everything was tough but um
00:32:40
she got a new dog and she's got a new job working for the government she's
00:32:43
like she's calling it awesome yeah um and what are your memories of moving to
00:32:47
New Zealand at six uh I remember you couldn't speak any English eh no English yeah I FL into Wellington
00:32:54
just remember how windy it was um um and yeah remember Wy and gray but um yeah I I like I don't speak any
00:33:07
English but I just I don't remember the part where I didn't speak English like I
00:33:11
picked it up and like quite quickly I think and yeah so yeah things like that are easy for kids I guess what about
00:33:18
your parents did they struggle uh yeah they my mom's my mom's good my dad
00:33:24
struggled up until he died like but he was yeah he was just uh kind of like Antonio mandas had a really good accent
00:33:31
so he got away with it I see he sounds like Puss and Boots yeah literally literally pussing boots that's literally
00:33:39
what he talked like like amazing what what was his uh what was his career in Chile and what did he do so in Chile he
00:33:46
was uh he studied to be um agriculturist and uh an economist and then he came here and he couldn't get
00:33:56
job cuz he couldn't speak English um so he was just a he cleaned toilets for
00:34:00
like 15 years cleaned toilets painted houses and then finally he got a job from with his degree and he became like
00:34:07
a big Economist for um the New Zealand uh Meat Company meat Foundation meat and lamb
00:34:15
yeah [ __ ] you hear so many suc success stories like that about immigrants eh it's like they're starting completely on
00:34:23
Ground Zero like I can't imagine many things more challenging than moving to a
00:34:26
new country where you can't speak the language yeah and um basically being stripped of all ego all previous
00:34:31
identity everything like that he's like he was the smartest man in the world
00:34:34
like he was smarter than everyone like I just yeah was what were you like as a kid I know you were really good at
00:34:39
soccer or football were you were you funny or theatrical n not really um well that's thought was funny that's
00:34:49
that's a lie I I've heard that you um were obsessed with ins sync oh that was
00:34:54
when I was like 19 okay okay and I still wasn't haven't we canceled Justin Tim
00:35:01
Lake because he got done yeah yeah yeah yeah but apparently he only had he only had one drink have you seen that come
00:35:07
had one drink but he was like very aware of how his driving did he think he's he
00:35:11
was he was doing coke like he's just he was he was like I'm very aware of how
00:35:16
I'm driving like dude your eyes are like he's like talking about starting a
00:35:20
podcast he on cocaine so oh yeah so yeah so just sporty kid when you were little yeah
00:35:26
just Sports was all just football um you're real good he I I heard you real good yeah I played
00:35:32
for um yeah reps played for when overseas and played I was like uh junior all white stuff like that trials um yeah
00:35:42
that was that's why I never drank my whole life till I was like 22 um yeah still to this day I'm 42 now
00:35:49
I still think I could make the all whites well you could probably make the Phoenix at
00:35:55
least so what you why didn't you start um you why didn't you start drinking
00:36:01
like um you know when you were 17 18 19 when all you I was just focused on Sports like never yeah and yeah I just
00:36:08
want to yeah my friends were partying I went home before a game like I just yeah
00:36:13
never interested me and now complete opposite now but I tell myself that I'm
00:36:19
making up for not drinking when I was young oh you've more than made up for it
00:36:23
you're doing very well just goes to prove that whatever you apply yourself at you do very he well I'm very good at
00:36:28
drinking and um oh god oh no you're a good dude were you um did you were you
00:36:34
quite popular you have any friends or were you sort of a loner um don't know if I was a loner I
00:36:39
wasn't I was just kind of just not really anything I was just yeah I wasn't
00:36:44
definitely not one of the cool guys um yeah I just hang out with all the other immigrants M all my friends were all
00:36:51
like Iraqis or Filipinos and my school was very my school was very um I was probably the Wiest sky in my high school
00:36:59
so wow SS like a real diverse school though yeah St Pat town is [ __ ] yeah awesome a lot of good people came from
00:37:05
there like Jerry Collins [ __ ] rest in peace yeah um and no sort of no sort of like racism
00:37:12
or or comments about being an immigrant or anything oh when I was oh me yeah yeah definitely not not from school but
00:37:19
just just general life like and with my family as well like like getting told to
00:37:23
yeah go back home [ __ ] that's a that's a cheapest law I know like come on dude
00:37:29
growing up I was yeah and and especially in Primary School like me and my little
00:37:35
brother got hassled a lot for being immigrants and and then we um yeah we just we'd [ __ ] them
00:37:43
up like me and my my brother we love to fight when we growing up like we literally just
00:37:49
yeah when was the last well when was the last time you got in a fight um or at least got punched through
00:37:56
a punch I got kned out about um maybe a year and a half ago where abouts um Pon I don't really know what happened but
00:38:05
like by like three dudes I don't know what happened I probably said something I
00:38:10
don't know and then um yeah got um I don't get knocked out they just punch me
00:38:13
and I fell down there's um listen to some podcast there's um there's a story of H tell a
00:38:19
couple of times about going to Thailand and um there some like kickboxing competition where like it's almost like
00:38:26
an amateur amateur of a comedy show where open Mark for for kickboxing kickboxing yeah like a really high risk
00:38:33
G tonight and if you take P you get like a bucket of beers or something you get a
00:38:37
bucket of a like a cocktail which is just pretty much like ethanol with like a cucumber in it and
00:38:45
you got stitched up like you they we ordered I was there like five of my mates and we we've heard about the
00:38:51
underground cook Boxing Club in PP Island and we have to do it and we all went and we' all we' all kind of done
00:38:57
some kind of like training or fighting before in New Zealand and we felt confident and then um they put us all up
00:39:03
against like actual Fighters and um and Me Against like a K1 fighter we find out
00:39:08
at the end afterwards and we all got knocked the [ __ ] out I got knocked out twice when you say you done training in
00:39:17
New Zealand yeah like not even training I just went to maybe AO class box classes yeah you do do that do
00:39:25
that that's out just let that happen it's crazy dude it's still going like
00:39:30
people still do it it's yeah but so was so fun but it's terrible but I yeah I
00:39:37
feel like even when I'm drinking irresponsibly I never sort of get myself in those sort of positions but you you
00:39:42
do and subsequently you end up with good stories for podcast 10 years later yeah
00:39:48
yeah I so what happened in pby a year and a half ago you just drun and you got smack to someone or yeah I think so yeah
00:39:54
yeah yeah not that not that VI ever the ever the way but yeah no yeah um oh yeah
00:40:01
I when did you get into the boy band stuff so yeah you loved Michael Jackson Michael Jackson uh so my top five uh
00:40:07
Michael Jackson Sublime Rob Zombie uh guns and roses and slipnot it's a real different ends of
00:40:19
the spe man I love everything yeah yeah and and Wast life as well which I he that's that's because your dad my dad
00:40:26
love W life yeah yeah um what did you want to do for a career back then uh I've always wanted to be a journalist
00:40:32
always be a writer or a journalist that would have worked out well for you a journalist there there's
00:40:38
a there's a real shortage of work I heard news Hub was hiring um and then when did you discover
00:40:48
like um yeah comedy and drinking and T what what Drew you to that um so my girlfriend's friend was dating uh Ben
00:41:00
Hurley when I was at Uni and um he had a like the the open m the uh newcomers competition happening and I told him
00:41:07
that I was like I was drunk I was like Hey Aran I'm funnier than all you guys
00:41:10
and um and he's like well come do the competition and then I won it so yeah that's it did how much were you scared
00:41:19
oh dude I I threw up so much beforehand and I never um smoked a cigarette before
00:41:25
in my life till that night I got a pack of cigarettes before smoked it and then went on stage and yeah it was awesome
00:41:32
the yeah how much how much preparation went into it uh quite a lot how many minutes uh I think we had to do five
00:41:40
right yeah that's a long that's a long yeah I mean a lot of people listen to
00:41:46
this the extent of the public speaking they've done is probably like the prepared speech that you have to do in
00:41:50
school for 1 minute 2 minutes 3 minutes whatever 5 minutes standing out there trying to make people laugh it's
00:41:55
terrifying yeah I was still Tero I do I do like one I've done an hour 20 before
00:42:00
that's that's yeah but you've got so many hours under your belt now like you
00:42:04
you know what's going to you know you know what's going to work first you've
00:42:09
got lines that you know are going to get you out of trouble and yeah but you you
00:42:13
must have I suppose like you're Style on stage now like um you like you so um
00:42:20
still like you could rest a book on your head yeah like um so I suppose even when
00:42:25
you're nervous you don't look nervous yeah it's just that's just it's my face
00:42:30
it's just yeah my whole style is what I'm like in real life I guess yeah I'm
00:42:35
always nous you be yeah I'm just trying to think of what you were like in that
00:42:37
first comedy G and I suppose it was quite captivating to watch was it sort of on liners or was it stories or one
00:42:42
liners always yeah I've never done stories really yeah all one lers and uh making fun of my girlfriend at the time
00:42:48
and she ran out crying Aya love you and uh and then we had so I had to go see her outside and she was
00:42:59
crying she's calling me a dick and then I get called from the bar saying Cory
00:43:03
You've Won I'm like got go inside did you well did you not um like rehearse in front of her or anything did
00:43:14
she not know she literally encouraged me to do that she she wrote half my set like you
00:43:21
knew I was going to do that oh was not Happ that when people laughed it's not that funny what was it what did
00:43:31
you say about it um I said I can't remember what it was I think I don't know I something
00:43:38
maybe I called her a [ __ ] or something I don't know it sounds like you had lived yeah
00:43:43
but no but she told me just say that she's like my girlfriend's here [ __ ]
00:43:47
something or my girlfriend wrote this [ __ ] something like that so is this the is this the the night where like M who
00:43:53
was the judge Mike King uh no that night was uh uh I think taer and Jesse Mulligan and Hy I
00:44:03
think wow yeah [ __ ] that three um three three people that have gone on to have
00:44:11
impressive careers yeah [ __ ] and that so um is that that the first time you met
00:44:18
tiger um y yeah first time met him was that Mar show yeah so I suppose from that time he
00:44:25
thought this this how do we the like 21 22 uh 21 right he must thought okay this
00:44:31
this guy's this guy's got something good did did they s sort of become like any
00:44:35
of those guys become so mentals at that point or not really uh definitely hully yeah um and Mulligan as well like we're
00:44:42
all like yeah us three maybe Wrigley Steve Wrigley um but definitely Hurley me and Hurley um he he's the reason I'm
00:44:50
I'm comedian we live together he's um yeah he's a piece of [ __ ] but I love him
00:44:58
yeah all all comedians are pieces of [ __ ] in their own everyone's a piece of
00:45:03
[ __ ] why why is he why would you say he's a piece of [ __ ] um it's just a way
00:45:06
of saying that I love them right yeah yeah you can't say it without say insult
00:45:11
insult the compliment no I got no no bad things to say but him he's um yeah he's
00:45:15
helped me out so much he's yeah yeah and so yes so it's around this time that you
00:45:20
started you started drinking um it's sort of R in the comedy scene a or at least it was then I suppose now it's
00:45:26
like right at the moment it's like yeah like so many people just don't drink
00:45:32
anymore yeah and yeah and the change in the last 21 years it seems more acceptable now like if um if someone
00:45:38
says to you uh I'm I'm not drinking um like 21 years ago the responsib be like
00:45:43
you you [ __ ] [ __ ] now now now you sort of applaud them like oh good for you good on you mate
00:45:51
yeah yeah oh you're looking after your mental health great yes it's been an
00:45:55
interesting transition eh yeah what's your relationship like with with alcohol
00:45:59
now is do do you need it to do you need a coule before you you go on stage or well that's yeah that's one thing one
00:46:05
area where I've cut down I don't really drink before I go on stage anymore I
00:46:08
used to like [ __ ] I remember doing a I did a bunch of shows in Queenstown hosting like an event there and I was
00:46:16
drinking uh a bottle of whiskey every night before I went on stage like every night a bottle of
00:46:22
whiskey and um you you're still functioning okay on stage yeah I can still do it yeah yeah um yeah but yeah I
00:46:30
maybe I'll have a red wine or something before I go on stage but if I'm doing
00:46:34
like a 1H hour show I um yeah I I can't do it yeah it's funny the their relationship with alol it's like I and I
00:46:46
know I can I can stop but I just yeah and it's it's strange and I suppose this is this is addiction like
00:46:53
you talked about your 100 days I'm an alcoholic I definitely am an alcohol look yeah you're not saying this is a
00:46:59
joking way no yeah I want I'm constantly reevaluating um my relationship with
00:47:04
alcohol cuz I think I've got an unhealthy relationship with it as well but what do you do when when you're
00:47:08
running like do you drink when doing your marathons and stuff yeah yeah when you when you're training for a marathon
00:47:13
like you have like um like a 12 week or 16 week block and you have hard runs or as like a long run like a three-hour run
00:47:20
on a say Saturday or Sunday um maybe just three hours or maybe like a like a speed a speed
00:47:29
session during the week not the nose speed the you know um so just I'll be like okay I won't drink before those
00:47:37
before Those runs or if I'm getting for dinner I'll just have a couple but the
00:47:40
other nights they yeah you know I'll drink or oh really yeah like I mean I'm
00:47:45
I'm not um I'm not an Olympic Olympic Athlete or anything like I'm just a guy
00:47:49
dude you're pretty [ __ ] good at what you do though like that's amazing well
00:47:53
thank you I appreciate really good yeah um how's your your mental health now you
00:47:58
you've you've yeah you've been through es and fls over the years eh at the
00:48:02
moment I'm good um I'm winning off my meds at the moment have I'm not too dosed up
00:48:12
um workers I've got some a bit of work happenings and um my daughter's good me
00:48:18
and my baby mama who's like my best friend she's awesome people say uh uh
00:48:25
what's it saying they go um happy wife happy life or again happy ex-wife happy
00:48:30
life that's that's cool yeah yeah I've read um was it Steve bronius that wrote
00:48:36
a big piece about about that the dynamic of that relationship might be a the article's online but it's a few years
00:48:41
old but um yeah it seems like a real special I mean she yeah she just uh yeah she's been she was loving with being
00:48:46
Fred for on and off for like maybe a year um well she was in between places and now yeah she's got a new place now
00:48:53
and yeah I'm I know I'm a pain of ass but um she's always stuck by me and uh
00:49:00
yeah she's I owe her so much like she's yeah so you were together for very you
00:49:06
were seeing each other very shortly into it you got pregnant yeah yeah like how long couple of months few months I think
00:49:12
so yeah maybe like 5 months five six months yeah so then and then you together through the pregnancy as a
00:49:19
couple yep and then we stayed together after that for another till Freddy was uh two yeah yeah okay right but the
00:49:28
relationship obviously wasn't perfect but you're like let's try and make it
00:49:31
work because we've got this this amazing well and Fred's young enough to not know
00:49:35
us breaking up yeah she'll just know us as being friends and that's what we did
00:49:40
yeah what happened is not ultimately not compatible as a couple or just didn't
00:49:44
have that sort of yeah and I'm just I'm I'm a terrible boyfriend um yeah I
00:49:51
um yeah she we could have done it but I'm I'm just I had a lot of issues mental issues
00:49:59
and just yeah yeah what yeah what does mental health look like excuse me what does mental health look like for you
00:50:07
like if if you know it's not where it should be um what do you do like do you
00:50:11
push people away do you drink more do you uh I definitely used to P push people away and drink more um
00:50:20
now it just hasn't been that bad lately so I I don't know but yeah I um I don't know yeah definitely push people
00:50:29
away even like my mom and stuff like everyone yeah I Y can resonate I I'm the
00:50:34
same like I sort of like self-isolate which is probably the worst thing you should be doing but you just literally
00:50:39
yeah I just don't want to talk to anyone like yeah you make your world smaller
00:50:42
and smaller I'll do a school pickup and that's my only interaction of humans yeah it's [ __ ] it sucks hey um
00:50:52
how's your mental health today it's all right it's quite funny like chatting chatting to you and
00:50:57
hearing about the you the guy in chist that you wanted to be um want to [ __ ] up I I could um I can
00:51:05
see parallels like I yeah I sort of self-isolate and sort of just don't want
00:51:09
to don't want to be with anyone just want to be by myself which is you know like distancing yourself from everyone
00:51:14
else is probably the worst thing you could be doing but it's just what you feel like doing um and then same same as
00:51:19
me like it it can be like something like that like an event that can that can you know it's
00:51:25
like a like a domino yeah totally yeah um which you shouldn't be you you know
00:51:29
if your mental Health's in a good place you you should be resilient enough that
00:51:33
one thing's not going to topple you over no but no I don't know man like I'm good
00:51:38
now but I know that there could be one thing that will trigger me like like even like when I leave here something
00:51:43
might trigger me and I'll be like [ __ ] it like yeah it's a weird way to live
00:51:49
but yeah so while we're on this um well yeah uh the 2nd of August 2013 day that changed your life forever day
00:51:59
that changed the life of your family forever yeah um you've done a TED talk about this which I watched online it's
00:52:05
it's an amazing talk you make a couple of jokes in there that don't land
00:52:07
because I think they don't land at all I feel like humor is your way of like like coping with it and break
00:52:15
breaking up which is a what is no doubt the the hardest story in the world to tell talking about this stuff now about
00:52:21
your dad Enrique um do yeah first of all I want to know so it's almost 11 years
00:52:26
ago does it get easier to talk about uh yeah I think so yeah yeah even like at the start it was easy to talk
00:52:36
about I mean it's still it's hard but it's know I I like talking about it I
00:52:43
like talking about him yeah yeah to sort of keep his memory alive yeah yeah even
00:52:49
though he's a he's a [ __ ] but [ __ ] is he he's he's a he's a c because
00:52:54
of what he did yeah yeah he was aming human when he was alive but [ __ ] what a [ __ ] dick yeah I've got a couple of
00:53:02
photos here oh yeah yeah a he was so handsome yeah it's funny you say so handsome he's he's got the same name as
00:53:11
you uh well the name you were given at Birth can I keep this yeah yeah of course and um you want to hold it up to
00:53:18
the the camera he it's you I know it's [ __ ] you and there's um there's this one as
00:53:28
well I don't know what he's wearing is it maybe it's the shadow but it almost
00:53:31
looks like an old kiwi League top or something uh that'll be like a football
00:53:37
shirt and chili so and it's you in the front yeah little my little brother oh
00:53:43
my God he's going to be so angry you said that oh my God we got to cut that out he's going to be so
00:53:50
angry show me that's my brother pabl you're at the very front well that's me
00:53:55
in the back oh you're in the back oh so you f under oh I just I didn't to be honest when I
00:54:03
when I printed it out um I was just looking at your dad yeah yeah sorry someone got to say who
00:54:12
the [ __ ] calling me and uh oh baby Mom is calling me oh you can get that get that if you
00:54:22
want that sounds important hey I'm just doing uh a podcast um you definitely have her cutting
00:54:36
[Laughter] bag so so that's um Freddy's mom yeah and I've noticed just when you took that
00:54:44
call noticed you've got her name on your own yeah yeah yeah it's cool I um yeah
00:54:48
we had a we had a big fight and uh I went to Christ Church to do some shows and one of my tattoist is down there and
00:54:55
I got to tattoo her name just I can make it up to her for I don't regret any of my tattoos
00:55:03
from the seld ones but he the what the Seinfeld ones what you got I got seren now from Seinfeld
00:55:10
right oh um yeah that's a great photo I'm Sor sorry for confusing you for
00:55:16
being um a girl um how do you think those are girls like what I don't know I
00:55:20
didn't really think I was focusing on your dad yeah so um yeah so yeah do you want to talk about that D
00:55:28
yeah [ __ ] you yeah okay yeah um yeah so I um him and my mom were breaking up and
00:55:38
he so I was I so I just finished filming what do Shadows came back I was on the doll
00:55:44
living with my parents and uh I was finishing my degree at Uni as well and um living with them they were fighting
00:55:50
every night um yeah my dad was hard to read he was just a very he never wanted to have
00:55:57
friends he was just ready to stay at home like my family's that's what all I
00:56:01
want all I have um they got into arguments and um I didn't think much of it I was like
00:56:08
okay they're going to break up it was tough um but then I they had a mess of
00:56:14
fight and uh my mom left she went to like woman's Refuge he wasn't like beating her up but he um he was just
00:56:21
like mentally abusive and I I was like [ __ ] I'm I'm going to leave I'm leaving
00:56:26
the Health as well so I left and he like tried to get me to stay there he tried to find me in the train station he's
00:56:32
like why are you leaving I'm like I can't be here when you're doing this so
00:56:36
I left um went to um do you know Josh M no I think he might not he's like used to working he's
00:56:46
he's my best mate and um went to hang out with him and my friend JY Virginia
00:56:51
Conor who's amazing um had a big night uh then the next day I went on a date to
00:57:00
the mall in low Hut and um SE and we're walking around I'm trying to get hold of my dad no one can get
00:57:07
hold of him my my sister's calling me saying heavy hooded Dad I'm like no I
00:57:11
don't know he's probably just at work they're calling his work the work hasn't
00:57:14
heard from him and then we're okay something's up then my date drops me off
00:57:19
at um at my house and the lights are all on the keys aren't in the mailbox where they should
00:57:25
be but the lights are on and I break through I break into my place through uh my brother's room
00:57:30
window um I like walk I'm like [ __ ] okay my Dad's here he's he's killed himself and
00:57:40
I I just scream I try to see him he's he's done he's cold he's [ __ ]
00:57:48
blue um tried to call call 111 but my phone's about to die um call them tell them just hurry up then I
00:57:58
hang up with them to call my mom she's like okay she kind of I think she kind of knew it was going to happen
00:58:08
and um she called another ambulance cuz she thought I was going to kill myself and I
00:58:14
literally went to the to the kitchen to get a knife to kill myself U then I called my sister she just start
00:58:20
screaming um then I just go wait outside and the police comes ambulance comes um yeah then uh we're all everyone just
00:58:32
Josh and Virginia show up all just waiting outside just sitting outside and the ambulance guy comes out
00:58:38
and he's like um yeah sorry to tell you but he's dead I'm like yeah I know like I found
00:58:46
him and yeah then after that we went to Josh Josh's house we he put us up there for
00:58:55
like 2 weeks my whole family um was actually like a sounds weird but it was actually like a really nice time
00:59:04
like I had so many people come together and suuck that what happened but like yeah like caught up with so many people
00:59:12
I hadn't seen in a while and yeah and then I was filming while we're doing Shadows we're doing pickups
00:59:17
for it as well so I had to go and film like we had to cancel shooting for one day I think um and yeah then we kep fing
00:59:26
and yeah I've heard um yeah I've heard people sort of say that before it's like when you when this
00:59:35
happens yeah everyone's dropping off meals and everyone's real supportive and
00:59:39
people really ra um you know rally around gather around then even on the first anniversary apparently it's the
00:59:44
same sort of thing it's a lot of support apparently it's like year two year three
00:59:47
year four that you have to worry because it's like people just forget and they
00:59:50
move on apart from the the family of course yeah um [ __ ] [ __ ] so you were the last last person to
00:59:59
potentially last person to speak to him I literally was he he when I left he he goes um why does everyone leave me and I
01:00:07
said to him you got to you have to chill out stop Dr like pushing people away and
01:00:12
I literally left him and then I was literally the last person that left him and we emailed together that
01:00:19
morning I so I just got like signed by like an agency and I um I sent him the email and he goes oh this this is very
01:00:29
good that's what he said something real subtle not even excited about it he's
01:00:33
like okay cool I was like that's weird usually he's very excited about that
01:00:36
kind of stuff and they so yeah we emailed um so I know he didn't kill himself before 9:00 a.m. that
01:00:45
day oh no I'm sure this is something You' thought about a million times since
01:00:50
then um yeah um is there anything you could have done differently oh I got have stayed with
01:00:58
him that night and everyone says you know he might have still done it but like he wouldn't have done it that day
01:01:04
like I still so would have got him through that moment and mate like still to the St I have night tars every night
01:01:09
like literally have nightmares probably every night of my life since then that I
01:01:13
should have stayed with him cuz if I stayed with him he wouldn't have killed
01:01:16
himself that night and then who knows what happens the next day maybe he would have done it but maybe maybe he wouldn't
01:01:20
have you know so I could have I if I'd stayed that night I could have changed
01:01:25
everything you know you you must have had therapy about this yeah yeah yeah what do they say
01:01:34
like you can't you can't you can't hold any blame for this have you got do you
01:01:38
think you got survivors guilt in a way yeah but I I don't even know survivor's
01:01:43
guil I just like I literally if i' stayed that night I would have changed maybe he
01:01:51
would have he would have done it he would have like come to his like own senses and just been like me and your
01:01:56
mom are going to break up or go and move away together and they' just be a divorced couple right now you
01:02:03
know but in saying that that um that weekend he booked a getaway with my mom to go to um like Greymouth like in like
01:02:12
the in water rapper somewhere mhm and um after all that happened I go to Mom like
01:02:19
derck and he was going to take you there to kill you and she's like yep he's going to do a m of suicide I
01:02:25
reckon yeah you just don't know [ __ ] that's a big burden to carry yeah so at least I save my mom I
01:02:38
guess you so when you reflect on um andri now your dad yeah what do you think is it just fun memories now fun
01:02:47
memories but also at the same time I'm like you're Ming out on so much you know
01:02:52
like you've got a granddaughter yes as does it sort of fluctuate between like sadness and anger
01:02:58
yeah yeah literally sadness sometimes I'm like I mean he he was amazing he got
01:03:03
to a point where he just had enough but he was the most amazing human being that
01:03:07
ever lived like he was a genius he was the best dad he was an amazing footballer he was so intelligent
01:03:16
um he was so sentimental to everyone that he met he had time for everyone but um at the same time I'm
01:03:23
like dude like and you put for that like you you knew I was going to find you like he did that on purpose me and him
01:03:30
were arguing a lot during up like leading up to that so he did that on purpose you reckon yeah 100% yeah 100%
01:03:38
[ __ ] that's a massive burden yeah yeah I mean um yeah no no no one yeah no one deserves
01:03:48
to to to see that like let alone a son with his father yeah that's heavy hey
01:03:53
thanks for sharing that how how often do you think about it now is it like hourly
01:03:59
daily every 10 minutes probably everything I do I'm like it's either just him like what happened
01:04:07
or sometimes I'm like oh [ __ ] want to like there's a like a football game
01:04:11
going on I'm like I literally go to text him and oh he's not around I like still
01:04:16
now like 11 years later I still go to message him or email him like how have you changed as a person since then um I
01:04:25
don't know I think definitely use it as an excuse to be a piece of [ __ ] yeah I don't think you're a piece of
01:04:34
[ __ ] I know but you know what I mean like it's def like out yeah it's just
01:04:38
even if I if I don't think if I'm not thinking about it if I do something bad
01:04:42
I'm like oh it's because my my dad killed himself like have you ever seen a dead body [ __ ]
01:04:52
oh know but and and and fearness like um yeah you have like it's it's all facts
01:04:58
like Mo most people listening to this or hearing this myself included like haven't haven't had to deal with this
01:05:03
and you don't know how [ __ ] traumatic it would be it's a lot yeah all right
01:05:08
I'll keep doing it then I haven't done it for a while I actually like Dom like actually have
01:05:13
been like the last year I think I've been pretty good like yeah yeah like um no suicidal
01:05:21
faults um Everything's Awesome with my daughter baby mama everything's good
01:05:26
um workers kind of picking up now so yeah actually yeah I haven't been for a
01:05:32
while yeah it is um I probably first had like um Suicidal Thoughts maybe 5 years
01:05:38
ago when you first start having them when you when you start doing this um get creative like creative ways to do it
01:05:45
no no no I never got to the point of like um uh like like like planning it um but you uh for me I found out I I'd come
01:05:54
up with like pros and cons Less in my in my head yeah let you weigh things up um
01:05:58
you think about like who would miss you and the impact would have and I suppose if you're doing that you're not you're a
01:06:03
long way away from and who's going to come to your funeral like dude I've got
01:06:08
this everyone's like um Cory you should write a will you're 42 WR a will I don't
01:06:12
have a will but I've got a list of people who I know will come to my funeral who I hate yeah and I have a
01:06:19
list of them so the security will be like no you can't he hated you like you
01:06:22
can't come to here he doesn't like you guys that' be amazing like get some
01:06:27
bouncers from Poss Central Poss Social Club are you uh yeah not on those shoes bro and uh actually
01:06:35
Cory said that he you [ __ ] his misses so no you can't get I had a made a few
01:06:41
years ago a dear mate um Michael cou who died of cancer and and in his um in his
01:06:47
final six months he he was all over the place like he he was dealing with um you
01:06:52
his mortality and a whole lot of other stuff he he had some like like Rants and TI rides online where he was talking
01:06:58
about you know [ __ ] that he didn't want his funeral and he talked about having like bouncers in a guest list and
01:07:04
then when the end came like the last couple of weeks and he talked about having a fabulous flamboyant thing at
01:07:08
the Civic or somewhere then the last couple of weeks he he said to his mom no I just want I want a religious ceremony
01:07:14
I want to reconnect with God and anyone's welcome and he just sort of gave up gave up the fight but it' be um
01:07:20
yeah so I suppose in a way like he ended up dying with you know at peace yeah it
01:07:25
be nice to be like no [ __ ] you I want to yeah it's a gig yeah don't don't don't
01:07:30
don't try and use my funeral as clout for your social media yeah we we'll get
01:07:34
Dane Rumble to play [ __ ] maybe day Haro open for him we going run hey you can you can M see it
01:07:41
you can even see yeah um okay for for anyone that's um like watching this or listening to this
01:07:48
that's dealing with grief now maybe a similar situation or maybe just like a I know a breakup or some personal
01:07:55
thing which you know you can't you know you go through those moments where you're like I can't see the I can't see
01:08:00
how the storm's ever going to end I can't see the light at the end of the
01:08:02
tunnel what would your advice me um have a daughter but I know that's hard to say but but
01:08:11
um I don't know yeah I I literally I'm I don't think I'm the person to that
01:08:17
people should go to for advice at the moment like I'm I contradict myself so
01:08:22
many times um yeah I'll say I'll say to people stop drinking or [ __ ] go on medication but
01:08:31
yeah like I do those things and I stop those things and I'm all over the show
01:08:36
so I don't know man yeah yeah you're just I mean you're yeah you're Yeah Yeah it's you're just trying
01:08:44
to [ __ ] survive I can't help anyone yeah once I sort myself out then I'll
01:08:48
try and sort other people out oh no that's fair enough um I guess well so when so um this must be kind of
01:08:55
contradictory cuz like what we do in the shadows it's one of the one of the high
01:08:58
points of your life and career so many good memories around it but also yeah how does it how does it feel when you
01:09:03
see it now like does it bring back memories of your of your dad or are there certain scenes in it or moments
01:09:08
that were filming around that time that yeah yeah there yeah but um the only time i' I've watched it recently is with
01:09:14
Freddy so um I love her watching it yeah so that takes it away like that's like I
01:09:20
know I was like that scene I was like oh my God I showed up [ __ ] that didn't probably didn't have
01:09:26
to put makeup on me I just looked like a vampire anyway um yeah that's Freddy like Freddy loves
01:09:33
it so watch watching it and yeah making making um making jokes or trying to make
01:09:39
jokes about um this really [ __ ] Bleak stuff is this just like your coping mechanism yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
01:09:48
I think it be the same way do you do you love that it makes people feel uncomfortable yeah there's nothing I
01:09:53
love more than making people feel uncomfortable I love it I love I love people hating me I love
01:10:00
it I don't think no one hates you though I know some people dude dude go online
01:10:05
these I mean all these [ __ ] racists they [ __ ] hate me people uh I'm very
01:10:09
like I don't know if I'm leftwing but I'm very political um dude you should
01:10:14
like I've been banned from Twitter three times like I've been [ __ ] like I love
01:10:20
it like if someone says they don't like me I want to make I want to go harder to
01:10:25
make them hate me even more you double down yeah I'll never like if you like me
01:10:31
great but I'd rather people hate me so I can just build on that you know yeah where does that come from cuz
01:10:38
I think I'm probably the opposite end of the spectrum whereas I'm you know you
01:10:42
want to be liked oh yeah I got people people pleasing Tendencies but I think I think I'm I'm in a wrong position I
01:10:48
think you're in the wrong position too I think the care position would be to be
01:10:51
indifferent about it you know what I mean like to yeah just not be bothered not be bothered if
01:10:56
someone likes you or hates you yeah um I mean isn't that me just wanting people
01:11:03
people to hate me that I'm not bothered I youed say but but by Nature what you do for a job you that you want
01:11:10
people to like you at the same time it's like a going on stage people having
01:11:14
people laugh at you it almost is like a desperate need to be to be loved I guess
01:11:18
I oh yeah I mean is it or no this this i' I've never done stand-up comedy in my
01:11:25
life I don't know it's just something that I know that I'm good at and I like to do
01:11:31
it and I know that it'll work and then when it doesn't I just laugh at it I'm
01:11:38
like like could you cun do this like yeah yeah you are you are very good like anyone that's um checking this
01:11:48
podcast out you just have to YouTube you know and find some clips there's some
01:11:50
bloody great stuff there um how how confident are you that that you'll never you know reach
01:11:58
the point that your dad did or have that that that moment of weakness yeah that moment where you make a a you know a
01:12:05
permanent decision for a temporary problem um yeah like way more now than ever like
01:12:13
I'm yeah I've come close so many times I'm yeah I'm terrible at killing
01:12:19
myself but um yeah now that like Freddy's growing up she's 9 next week um yeah I um I hate that I even had
01:12:32
those thoughts but in saying that who knows if they will come again but um yeah right now I'm I'm good I'm here
01:12:41
doing a podcast with dom HBY from The Edge Dom H from the the Dom H podcast now yeah yeah we've been going backwards
01:12:49
and forwards for a while I I think you you even asked to come on which I was super honored about I was flatter yeah
01:12:55
man I watched the your interview of the lady who uh eaned herself like that oh yeah Tracy
01:13:02
Hickman that was what a what a good interview and what a lovely lady like [ __ ] yeah just really really cool and I
01:13:11
was really pleased the uh that that episode could come out before she died and she she wasn't even on Tik Tok but
01:13:16
some of her friends were and nieces and stuff and they could be like you know auntie Tracy over a million people have
01:13:21
seen you and that was really cool like that's that like that killed me [ __ ]
01:13:25
yeah oh thanks mate and um what's what's your in a voice like these days are you
01:13:31
mostly kind to yourself or uh no oh not really no I'm quite you know I I think I could do a
01:13:42
lot better than what I'm doing right now but um it's hard he it's an ongoing
01:13:47
[ __ ] thing yeah and this industry it's like I wish I just be a journalist you know
01:13:57
yeah it is um it's a very special skill you've got to make to make light of you
01:14:02
know absolutely anything yeah it's cool okay well let's let's talk about fatherhood so um yeah
01:14:09
so Anna we talked about her before yeah um [ __ ] that's a special relationship he
01:14:14
that's really cool yeah um yeah what do you think it is that sh that she sees a
01:14:19
new where she has this just sort of unwavering unwavering like oh you had to ask her about it but um
01:14:26
she um uh she hates me and loves me at the same as much the same amounts um but I think she knows I'm I'm
01:14:37
a really good dad and um and a good person yeah I think I'm I'm a good person I think yeah know yeah you are so
01:14:46
maybe she just she maybe it's a case of I I feel like this is the similar sort
01:14:50
of thing we don't have we don't have a but me and JJ yeah it's like um
01:14:56
sometimes when I'm when I'm down on myself um yeah she she'll God maybe it's
01:15:01
the beers um but she she you know can see in me the person that I can't sometimes see in myself yeah um which is
01:15:08
really touching 100% like and will call me maybe once every once a month and just have a breakdown about my life he's
01:15:15
like Cory you got you do this right do this you're doing this bad blah blah blah and yeah she knows that like she
01:15:21
she would have left me a long time ago with like I wouldn't have Freddy if she
01:15:25
wasn't that um invested in trying to make me be a better person yeah that's really cool um yeah
01:15:33
one thing and my current partner a she's exactly the same like if I'm like oh
01:15:38
[ __ ] podcast is [ __ ] I'm not making enough money she'll she'll she'll she'll
01:15:44
do the same sort of thing you know 12 months ago you said you wanted to be here and you're here you wanted to be
01:15:49
here and you've done this um so she tell me to sort of pull my head in um I sometimes wonder wonder if you have the
01:15:55
same thing if I like add any sort of like reciprocal value to their lives yeah I'm like I think she could she
01:16:02
could do this Freddy without me but um I just love my daughter too much but like
01:16:07
yeah if I was a piece of [ __ ] dad then I'd leave but um oh she's she's got together she's
01:16:14
she's so good [ __ ] that's so cool eh yeah that's so cool yeah what do you do
01:16:19
to um nurture and protect that relationship with Anna that you've got now um
01:16:26
keep my apartment tidy um or do she have like some sort of expectations like well she was living
01:16:33
with us and she she like sorted the whole apartment out she like remodeled it like [ __ ] so I've kept it
01:16:39
literally it's the same as when she left um we moving out in two weeks though so
01:16:44
but um and uh yeah I don't know like just be awesome with Freddy yeah oh that's cool yeah yeah yeah I just trying
01:16:54
yeah I try to add value to their life like where where I can it's like [ __ ]
01:16:58
what what can I do to make their life easier or better so my girlfriend as she she like loves having like a weat pack
01:17:04
which is like a oh so wity back like the it's like a we we pack yeah so I hit
01:17:09
that up in the microwave the other day she left at work so I went uh to New World and bought her a hot water bottle
01:17:14
instead um she she's 30 she didn't know what a hot water bottle was how old are you 51 oh
01:17:21
my god um how old are you 42 42 you look 43 I don't look 43 you do man oh thank you
01:17:29
um she didn't know what it was I I said I she know what this is cold I'm like oh
01:17:35
she said I'm going to go heat it up in the microwave I'm like no no no no no no
01:17:39
I said I said what's what's it called she's like it's a hottie and I'm like no
01:17:43
but like what is it what and she's like she didn't know hot water bottle so I
01:17:48
explained to her that you drain it and you fill it up with hot water she didn't
01:17:51
know that but anyway so that's just just little of service like that and JJ when
01:17:56
I drop the dog off I'll get her a coffee and stuff I really appreciate those
01:18:02
relationships so after feeling like um and you guys are so best friends yeah the best so um yeah yeah yeah I I just
01:18:12
look for ways she adds so much value to my life so I just look for ways that I can add value to hers even though did
01:18:16
she leave the radio yesterday or something she announced she was leaving yeah and she's finishing in like a
01:18:20
week's time she's been doing it a long time it's a it's a long long time to
01:18:25
come up with you you have to do a lot of content on radio like each voice breaks
01:18:29
as like a bit a piece of content and yeah I kind and it's so much [ __ ] content you have to do because you as as
01:18:35
a result of doing so much of it yeah yeah so I I read a quot in an article or maybe I maybe it was on a podcast but um
01:18:43
you used the line Freddy saved our family yeah what do you mean like she was just glue at a time when you needed
01:18:49
it or yeah pretty much um Iron was still so she was born what like a year less than a year after my
01:18:56
dad died no no sorry not we got pregnant a year after that um yeah almost 2 years
01:19:02
after he died and um yeah she was the glue that kept everyone together kept everyone kind of Sig for a bit and yeah
01:19:11
and she tell us like she's the best thing in the world yeah and you're um this is a big word to use
01:19:19
but I'd say you're boted like you're a [ __ ] great dad I'm OB sess like
01:19:24
literally I will I will call for here you we were going to do this podcast at 1:00 and you're like just to
01:19:31
make sure we've got enough time I need to pick fry up from school at 3: or go
01:19:35
to boxing classes or something so you got kickboxing yeah yeah kickboxing she's so good
01:19:41
you yeah so we rescheduled and made it a little bit earlier just to make sure we
01:19:45
had enough enough time she's such a good C boxer so she's 9 years old why did she
01:20:04
um she's spinning around doing a oh [ __ ] an a kick onto some kids pads yeah [ __ ] Israel little son you look out
01:20:13
[ __ ] yeah Freddy's coming for you no no she's not she's not what why
01:20:19
did she why did she gravitate towards kickboxing by the way it looks like it's
01:20:22
a kid's kickboxing class it's a yeah it's it's like under twelves um I don't
01:20:28
know me just want she likes watching UFC with me and um she's quite athletic
01:20:34
she's very good at sports and I thought she'd be awesome at [ __ ] shut up you is
01:20:41
your your ultimate girl one day that she goes to Thailand and gets a free drink by you try maybe maybe a different
01:20:48
Island don't go to pee PE actually no no I'll take it with me you're not yet
01:20:52
that's the guy that's the guy right there like 70 at the time um oh yeah so that's so um yeah as
01:21:03
a father do do you sort of model what you do on your own dad or do you think you're dude my dad was the um when our
01:21:11
daughter was born my sister was born he's he's the best I've never seen a man
01:21:15
around a little baby girl like that in my entire life he was the best dead ever um and I I just I've always from that I
01:21:25
always want to have a little girl and we had a little girl and I'm like yeah like
01:21:29
he was the best dad ever like to my sister like [Music] amazing you can see the impact he had
01:21:37
and they they actually went to Thailand together to for a trip I don't think
01:21:41
they go to a fight but yeah oh that's special um yes so so Freddy's nine now if you're next week
01:21:52
yeah if you're experiencing poor meal he like do you do you address it with her
01:21:56
or do you try and like Shield her from she knows yeah we've uh just actually
01:22:00
just maybe in the last couple of months we told her about what happened with my dad how do you [ __ ] how do you do
01:22:06
that we just said that he from suicide and yeah um and she knows it and she gets it she's just she's a genius she
01:22:15
gets it she's more on to it than all of us um yeah and she knows I'll tell her
01:22:21
sometimes I'm like we have to go do something if we cancel it I'm like I'm too anxious to go
01:22:26
there and she's like okay I understand Daddy I understand like yeah she knows
01:22:30
all about yeah you what gives you anxiety it's called pickups oh that's a cop out you can't
01:22:39
get away with that oh P interviews interviews um um going on dates talking to people
01:22:47
doing podcasts [Laughter] um no we no what what makes what makes it obviously like um you're a performer
01:22:57
so well is being on stage to like you comfortable place yeah it's the only place I actually feel
01:23:02
safe do do you get anxiety like doing podcast or is that just sort of a no oh actually no yeah I was quite anxious
01:23:10
yeah yeah yeah so I I thought you might get anxious for things like this CU you know like you going to have to talk
01:23:14
about your dad and I'm sure it's not a you know not a I mean it's not a fun
01:23:18
thing to talk about it's bloody Bleak and it's hard do you do you did um do
01:23:23
you get emot when we spoke about it earlier like and you have to take yourself back there do you you know is
01:23:28
it emotional is it draining it's emotional but dude I haven't cried in the last time I cried was when I
01:23:35
heard about uh D getting cancer so like two years ago whatever and since then I haven't cried since the day that my dad
01:23:44
died since then I I don't cry about him anymore are you are you quite are you an
01:23:48
emotional person or I'm dramatic but yeah I don't what does that mean is is that like a a Chilean thing
01:23:56
or yeah I'm very passionate yeah yeah um but yeah I don't um yeah I don't after after all happened
01:24:05
like before that before my dad died I'd cry all the time M when that happened
01:24:09
like since then I'm just like I just yeah yeah and what a um what a Chilean mean like and tibs are like talking
01:24:19
about you know like I suppose their feelings or you know showing ability and stuff like that are they sort like kiwi
01:24:26
men or yeah well but it's like yeah like but in a flamboyant way of saying stop
01:24:32
being a gay pretty much stop being I thought um like South South maybe this is more argentinians but I
01:24:39
thought South Americans were like quite quite expressive and quite oh very expressive but yeah yeah but but that's
01:24:44
why I said they'll be very expressive don't be gay oh so what about you what's the
01:24:52
future going to bring um um don't know got um got pretty that's it or to be a gang member on Short
01:25:03
Street yesterday so see what happens with that my third audition for short Street playing a gang member don't you
01:25:08
make jokes about shorties all the talk dude that's I thing all the time like
01:25:13
I'm like are they taking the piss like I I'm not a fan of your show like why you
01:25:17
why are you getting me to do this are you just making fun of me like maybe that like trolling you like oh oh yes he
01:25:23
takes the piss out of us but we'll take our [ __ ] money if it's yeah d i I'll
01:25:27
take anything I reckon I'll be good I'll be a good game member like I've been I
01:25:31
mean but you know you you you've got a lot of a lot of tattoos for a late starter so you got your first tattoo at
01:25:39
age um like 26 maybe right yeah yeah yeah now you're like a full sleeve and you you
01:25:50
don't regret any of them you're happy with all of them what are the most
01:25:53
meaningful on what are you my brother did a lot of them when he was he was a tattoist and he was like signing out he
01:25:59
did a lot of them on me um that's the first one I got which is the uh inan god
01:26:05
of war and entertainment we're all like inan bloodline um and then I don't
01:26:15
know yeah Anna's name your ex is good it's a good one but I might change I'm
01:26:20
waiting to meet someone called henna yeah are you are you dating at the moment or you are you on the apps what
01:26:27
are you uh yeah been on the apps I'm kind of just yeah dating a little bit but yeah I'm I don't I'm I'm not a good
01:26:38
boyfriend yeah yeah do you feel like you need to um yeah feel like you need to sort of do
01:26:45
some do some more work on yourself before you're ready to like fully lean into someone else but even that bro like
01:26:51
I'd be happy just being by myself like I like me so I've got Freddy probably we
01:26:57
probably 50/50 half of the week I've got Freddy half of the week I don't I love
01:27:00
being by myself and then I love being with Freddy and that's enough like I don't like something comes up that's
01:27:06
great then sure but I'm yeah I'm just I'm not a good boyfriend and that's too much of a
01:27:13
stress like to try and be someone's boyfriend well what do what do you need to do better what what are your what are
01:27:20
your like recognizable flaws um I don't know I just I'm lazy and [Laughter]
01:27:30
uh and like don't like being told what to do I don't like being told what to do I don't
01:27:37
like being told anything and um I just think I'm smarter than everyone it's funny hey [ __ ] um yeah
01:27:48
like you and I we like we're very different people but there's there's
01:27:52
still a lot of parallels it's probably the same with with a lot of people um
01:27:55
you're quite you you're you're quite good at being open and talking about
01:27:58
[ __ ] now I feel and have you got some good friends that you talk to about stuff yeah yeah yeah yeah like real deep
01:28:03
[ __ ] yeah yeah yeah like Josh Mullen who I mentioned before um he's um you've
01:28:08
been we we've hang out with one before you know okay um yeah he's my best
01:28:12
friend he yeah knows everything about me um Anna as well yeah how are my two best
01:28:20
friends yeah like you're s ride or D people you're doing anything yeah it's cool it's good to have those
01:28:26
people in your life yeah hey this has been a bloody great chat today dude love it it's been really cool I really
01:28:32
appreciate it appreciate you yeah anyone that comes when I first started doing this podcast um people be like oh I'd
01:28:40
love to be on your podcast I I found it a bit weird and then the longer I've got
01:28:43
into it I've realized that's more a me problem than them and now I applaud it
01:28:47
so I figure a if someone's prepared to come on it means they're prepared to
01:28:51
talk but also yeah Uncle LL how how cool oh yeah um that was yeah I was did he come by himself or with other
01:28:59
people he he came came with us oh bro this yeah embarrassing story so he he came with his wife and their baby yeah
01:29:06
so he he pressed the end to come downstairs like you did I was like oh come down and meet you so I went
01:29:11
downstairs and in the Foy year he was there Uncle lingling um gang member with his with his um vest on and his big gold
01:29:18
chain next to him this lady in her in her early 30s with a Prem so immediately he this Aura of intimidation
01:29:28
so I turned to her CU I thought I thought she was here being l in by someone else waiting for her friend to
01:29:33
come back so I didn't hear and I say it's okay he's with me and and then
01:29:43
she then she said um no he's with me suddenly I realized just every sort of prejudice yeah it's like it was like
01:29:55
a they weren't sitting a trap but I I set myself a trap and I fell into it and
01:30:00
it's um fny I don't know Michelle Obama had a quote saying something like um
01:30:04
it's hard to hard to dis I'm going to [ __ ] this up but it something like it's
01:30:08
most people are hard to dislike up close yeah um yeah I I fully agree with that like he's he's a flawed human being but
01:30:15
I am you are I think David Bane would be quite hard to hey you should get him he's living in
01:30:22
Cambridge right now is he not with his family with his wife she's a teacher um
01:30:28
you should get him on the show like literally get David Bane I don't know if
01:30:32
he'd want to do anything did you listen to that podcast um called black hands
01:30:36
yeah I love it yeah he he did it yeah he he must have got to like the last five minutes of the last episode and just
01:30:43
like quietly like put his laptop down pushed it away like yeah he like yeah not for
01:30:52
me lot of lot of plot holes lot of plot holes yeah know I'm going back to I'm
01:30:57
watching just uh True Detective yeah yeah so um what's next for you still just grinding away it's a [ __ ]
01:31:07
it's a tough industry eh grinding away um yeah just GS and I've got a lot of ideas for like
01:31:14
shows that I'm going to try and PCH I've tried I've ped a bunch recently so see
01:31:19
what happens with that but yeah I don't know man are are you are you you financially secure you like you've no of
01:31:26
course not yeah no no yeah [ __ ] it's it's not a it's not an industry for the
01:31:33
faint is it it's bloody H AB I I got paid today for for a gig and I have money for like 2 weeks but then after
01:31:40
that I'll have I don't know what's happening after that you know it's like
01:31:43
that all done but you've stuck at it you've been doing it for two decades now yeah but I
01:31:49
should be like a journalist you know yeah I've got I've got a degree I've got
01:31:53
a you need degree like I should be [ __ ] doing something you know what was your degree in in film so not really
01:31:59
a degree well I mean yeah money's yeah money's not everything but it's when
01:32:06
people say that they have money it's like oh you know get the [ __ ] out of here you like cuz you do need money to
01:32:11
live D money is everything I recomend but you're doing yeah I mean you're
01:32:15
doing what you love and you're very good at it too it's been great to connect
01:32:19
today man dude love you D I really appreciate it I love you too Cory good with everything cheers bro yeah