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My friends keep everything real with me. And I had a friend that said, "Stephen,
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mate, yeah, you might not be sleeping in bed. Yeah, you might not be drinking alcohol. Yeah, you might not be taking
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drugs. You're [ __ ] eating yourself to a grave." I've always had a problem with
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my weight. I've always been up and down. Is it diet or is it a genetic thing? You
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know what it is? I just love food, mate, because I feel like depression, my way of dealing with depression, one of the
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vices has been gluttony. >> Yeah. It's a form of self harm in a way. >> Yeah.
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>> What did you get from overeating? Was it eating comfortable food make made you
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feel good? like endorphins. >> I think food was the only thing that made that had my back. I think food was
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the only thing that never hurt me. I think I've been hurt my whole entire life. Every time I ate, I always had a
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release of endorphins and I felt happy and that was enough to get me through the night. That was enough for me to
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outlast the storm. But I want to be able to replace that with going to the gym, which I have recently. I've been going
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to the gym and exercising. >> What What did you weigh at your peak? >> 220.
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>> What are you now? I'm 190.