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I've had bouts with depression throughout my career, but man, when it hits me, it's bad. Which kind of brings
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us to the airport incident. >> Yeah. >> I really messed up. >> What happened? >> So, it's Father's Day, and I felt good
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in the morning. I spent the morning with my kids, but then as I was traveling to
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work, I felt that feeling again. It's like a cloud in my head that I just can't get out from under. So, I started
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drinking. >> I'll fight you right now. >> No, I don't want to fight, bro. >> And my emotions got the best of me.
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>> Bro, relax. Relax. Relax, bro. Relax. >> Got arrested. >> This guy is a nuisance. [ __ ] that.
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>> Did I just ruin everything that I was working for? You know, I don't know yet.
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And it could have been so much worse. >> What was going on in your mind? >> I was angry at the world, and I just
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couldn't stop thinking about my father. You know, he's actually homeless right now.
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And I try to help him out, and he's back out on the street. Not that anything's an excuse, but I wasn't myself. And I
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never really spoke about it until right now, but I'm back in therapy. [music] And when you sit down with somebody and
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start opening things up, you realize this could be linked to my childhood. >> And when I think about your earliest
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contacts, you got a father that's an alcoholic, violence in the home, and your mom said that you were an alcoholic
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kid. >> I started drinking at 12, 13. >> Expelled from school as well. >> And got arrested, and I didn't have any
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goals. >> So, it was a the roller coaster. But what happened? You rose. >> One of the best lightweights in the
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world. >> I was on top of the world. >> But the roller coasters go down, too. And this was the moment.
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>> Yeah, man. >> July 30th, you retired. How does it feel looking at that photo?
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>> Yeah, I'm trying not to tear up, dude. It was my life, man. Those gloves, me putting them on the mat is a piece of
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myself I left. But a wise man said, "If a man's lucky, he gets to die twice." That part of me that every day wake up,
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push yourself to be the best fighter you can be is dead. I'm retired, Dustin. I'm
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businessman Dustin now. You know, it's just I'm trying to figure it all out. Cuz for 20 years I was dreaming about
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being the best. I just want to dream again, you know? >> Has there ever been anything that
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compared? >> No, nothing fills that void of what fighting was. And fighting was a part of
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therapy for me. And some days I wake up and I'm like, these top guys that are winning now on these upcoming cards, I
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can beat them still. >> So, is there any possibility that you ever return [music] to the UFC?