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my grandpa died

April 27, 2026 / 16:35

This episode covers Jacob Cogan's personal life update, the passing of his grandfather, the show's return, and upcoming events for homeschoolers.

Jacob shares the difficult news of his grandfather's hospitalization and subsequent passing, reflecting on the complexities of grief and family connections. He discusses how this experience impacted his ability to produce the show.

He announces the show's return, scheduled for this Friday, with an interview featuring RB, a previous guest. Jacob expresses excitement about upcoming episodes and a return to a weekly schedule.

Additionally, Jacob highlights the Day of the Homeschool Kid event on April 30th, featuring Steven Merrill Block, and encourages listeners to participate in discussions about homeschooling.

Jacob also invites listeners to join a potential ex-homeschooler happy hour and a book club focused on the book "Homeschooled." He emphasizes the importance of sharing experiences and connecting with the audience.

TLDR

Jacob shares a personal update about his grandfather's passing and announces the show's return with new events for homeschoolers.

Episode

16:35
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Where the heck have I been? Is the show canceled? And did Jacob finally lose his
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mind? Uh all these questions and more going to be answered on this special edition of the X Homescholars Club.
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What is good my X Homies? It's your boy Jacob Cogan and uh if you hadn't noticed, the show's been
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pretty silent for the last almost 2 months. Um and there's good reason for that.
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But I'm going to tell you why. Um So, this episode a little bit different than usual. Uh
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it's going to be a little life update. We're going to do a show update as well
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as some special announcement type stuff. And so, let's just start with the life stuff um
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because that's really the catalyst for why I haven't been around. So, at the end of March um I got a phone
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call that nobody ever really wants to get. Um and that was that my grandfather uh we call him Poppy
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uh was in the hospital with some heart stuff. And you never want to hear that somebody's
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in the hospital. It's just never great news. But this was not this was really not great news. And um
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things were very complicated. Um and so, for about a week, things would kind of flop between there being hope for his
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recovery to it being very dire. Um he was sick with some other stuff in there as well. And so, it just was this very
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complicated um thing. And uh if you don't know, I don't live near my granddad. Um he lives
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in California. I live in Tennessee. Not the most convenient to just hop in a car um and drive all that way or even
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hop on a plane um because it's expensive and uh time-consuming. And so, anyway, so for
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about a week, I just kind of existed in this very question mark of what is going on in my
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life um and had to somewhat operate as if life was normal even though it very much
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was not and it was not in my head. So, I had decided I'm not going to put the
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show out that week. And cuz it was just too much to handle. And uh, later on that week I got a another
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phone call um, very early in the morning that he passed away. And he went peacefully and leading up to
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him dying he got to spend time with his kids. He got to spend time with uh, his siblings
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and um, us grandkids, we didn't get to go see him, but we got to send him messages
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um, of love and and remembering um, the good the good stuff. And um, and that's why we didn't get to
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go see him either was he didn't want us to see him be sick. He wanted us to remember him
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healthier and just who he was. The normal the normal Poppy. Um, and so anyway, um,
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but like every death uh, it's typically followed by a funeral and so um, so I ended up going out to California
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and was there for most of April. Um, I actually just I flew out on the 1st and I didn't get home until the 20th. And so
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um, just a lot of time spent with family doing funeral stuff uh, helping clean out his house
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dealing with with things um, doing a lot of like remembrance type stuff and just spending time with family honestly
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because even though that those times are like very sad, right? Because you just lost a loved
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one, there's also I think sometimes some joy that can be found in there, right? Remembering their
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life and the funny moments and the stupid moments and the the games and the adventures and the life lessons and all
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those types of things. So, we did a lot of that and um which is good. It's you know, it's healing.
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Um and then came home and it grief really hit. This has been a very interesting um
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experience um with grief. Uh I've lost all four of my grandparents now and I lost my first
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grandparent when I was 17 um and I'm 29 now. Uh each one hits so vastly different um
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from a grief perspective and I can't even like begin to describe uh the emotions
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surrounding it. And if you've lost loved ones, you probably know what I'm talking
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about how it's different uh every single time. This is both the most emotionally
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healthy I felt um losing a grandparent and also like the worst experience because I'm just
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insanely emotional uh around everything now. So, if you can't tell by me describing this, it's a little bit
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touchy still and overwhelming. Um and it's just been tough. And so, the whole month of April
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basically became a wash um and I decided I'm just going to put the show on pause.
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I kept telling myself, you need to like make an announcement. You need to you know, tell people and I just was like I
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couldn't even do that. Um And so, um yeah. So, April was basically a wash um
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for both good and bad reasons. Um But where does that put us today? Is the show canceled? No, absolutely not. Uh
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we're not going anywhere. Um in fact, very much the opposite. The show has been doing incredible things even while
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we've been on break and just seeing uh numbers continue like go up and I know
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not everything is numbers, but it is nice to know that people are listening um to back catalog stuff and um I've
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received messages and people wanting to be on the show and opportunities and the
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and things that I am just very excited for uh the future of where the show is going. So,
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that being said, when is it actually coming back? Well, it's coming back this
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Friday. Um, I've got an interview with RB. If you guys don't remember RB, he
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was on previously. He's back. We're going to talk about some very cool things, but I'll let you find out on
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Friday uh all of those things. So, So, we're back. We're coming back. Um,
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and not only are we coming back, but I'm also going to try to put out an episode
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every week in the month of May and get back on a weekly schedule. Uh because I've got just a nice back
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catalog right now of people and I got a nice plethora of guests coming on. And so,
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there's that. We are headed in a good direction, I guess, is what I'm trying
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to say with the show. So, in addition to the show coming back, I've also got some
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special announcements. The first one being something that's actually happening this week, specifically on
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April 30th. And um that is that April 30th is day of the homeschool kid, the homeschool child. And um
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did you know that? I didn't know that until last month uh sometime, but the Coalition for
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Responsible Home uh Education is putting on a great conversation with um Steven Merrill Block. And if you're not
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familiar with Steven, um he just wrote a book called Homeschooled. If you haven't
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read this, it's a great book. Um I actually would love to reread it with maybe some of you. More on that in a
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minute. Um but yeah, he's going to be talking about his homeschool experience. He's going to
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talk about what the coalition does. It's just going to be a really cool time. So,
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that's happening on Thursday at 2:00 Eastern time. I'm going to put a link
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down in the description um of how you can sign up to attend um or you can just go to crhe.org
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{dot} org uh /dothc day of the homeschooled child. Um again, that's crhe.org
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/dothc. I know, a lot of letters. It's going to be linked down below as well, but go get
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on that list. They'll send you an update. Get on their newsletter list, too. If you're not familiar with the
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Coalition for Responsible Home Education, specifically a lot of what they do is work with homeschool alumni
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to help kind of shape uh some of the direction that uh legislation can can take to to help
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homeschool kids down the line um and protect homeschool kids. So, it's a lot
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about giving homeschool kids rights um and access to things and stuff like that. So, very cool organization. She's
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going to come back on at some point. We've got potentially some other stuff in the works with them, as well. But,
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very cool organization. Again, go sign up. Day of the Homeschool Kid. It's going to be a lot of fun. Um you can ask
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Stephen questions um as well as hear more about his story and hopefully he'll
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come on the show at some point. I would love to have him on. So, here's a little
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plug for that. Um second special announcement, also kind of just like an ask in general, is that
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I want to do a ex-homeschooler happy hour type of thing and I want to hang out with a bunch of
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you guys all at the same time. Play games, be stupid, tell stories, that kind of a thing. And so, I'm going
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to post more about that on Instagram um and get kind of some feedback on potential days we could do it, as well
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as like maybe things you guys would want to do. but I'm thinking play some games, maybe like bingo,
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trivia, I I don't really know. Um but hang out, have some conversation around our home school experiences and
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and how that shaped us maybe. And so, anyway, so if you're interested in that,
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let me know. Um I'm thinking somewhere between May 11th and the 24th. I know
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that's a big wide window, but if you are interested in that and have some feedback or something, you can drop a
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comment down below or shoot me an email [email protected]. And yeah, would love to like hear your
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thoughts on it. But uh I'm also going to be posting more about it, I think, on
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Instagram, trying to pull you guys a little bit and figure out some some good info, hopefully. So, there's that.
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Additionally, I kind of had mentioned book club. I know in the past I had brought up doing a book club and reading
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a different book, and then I just totally dropped the ball. It's something I would like to do again, and I would
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like to read Homeschooled, um Stuff and Stuff's book. And I have read this already, um but I would I would like to
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reread it and maybe do some discussion on it. And so, if that's something you're interested in, also
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leave a comment down below, send me an email [email protected]. I'm thinking start it sometime in May,
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mid-May, maybe around the 15th-ish, maybe just call it right there, smack dab in the middle. Um and so, I'm
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currently working on figuring out what that would look like and then do some discussion around
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that as well. And so, anyway, so if you're interested in that and haven't
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picked up this book, gives you about 2 weeks to like grab a copy, and gives me 2 weeks to figure out
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how we split that up. Um so yeah. If that's something you're interested in, shoot me an email, a DM, comment
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down below, any of that kind of stuff. Um next up, I've gotten a lot of requests um for
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guesting on the show. And so, if you want to be a guest, I want to talk about it. Uh
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you can shoot me an email, [email protected]. Uh how many times can I say that in this
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in this uh episode? Um but, shoot me an email. Let me know a little bit about yourself, like just like a paragraph or
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two about your homeschool experience. Um And maybe some topics you would be interested in. If there's something
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specific you've either heard on the show that you want to expand on, something
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you haven't heard on the show that you would like to talk about. Um specifically things that like I've been
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very interested in lately, um aside from just like hearing your experiences, is talking about the role that religion has
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played in homeschooling. Um I'm interested in obviously talk about if you have something like ADHD, if you're
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autistic, um and maybe you got diagnosed later in life, or if you got diagnosed when you were a homeschool kid, or just
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as a kid in general, um how that's kind of shaped into your homeschool experience, or you know, made you think
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about those things. Um Obviously, we talk about big homeschool family versus small homeschool family.
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I'm one of two kids. Um so, small homeschool family over here. Um I very much I'm interested in that dynamic
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along the religion aspect, like purity culture played a huge role for me. Um and just like unpacking the good, the
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bad, and the ugly. Um right? We don't necessarily want to just do If your experience was bad, like that's okay. Um
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I still believe that there's always good things that can be pulled out of those
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experiences. And so, hopefully, if you want to come on the show and you want to have a conversation, like I hope that
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you can like view it the same way of just like there are good things that we can talk about mixed in with the bad and
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the ugly. Um it's about providing commentary around homeschooling and what the experience really was like,
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right? And so, if it's all bad, it's all bad. That's okay. Um if it's all good,
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it's all good. That's okay. So, if you've got a story and you want to share it, shoot me an email. Again,
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[email protected]. I think that's the sixth time I've said it now. Um, but yeah, what you can kind of expect
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like following that email would be a request to do like pre-interview call with me. Typically, they're 30 minutes.
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Sometimes they go up to an hour long if we really hit it off. Um, and it's just a chance
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to like for me to kind of like further vet you, get to know you a little bit, um, and figure out
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kind of what a show would look like. Um, and also ease your mind if you're at all
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nervous about coming on the show. Um, you know, I can answer questions around those types of things. Um, what is kind
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of like required of you? One, the ability to share your story. Um, but secondly, you need to be able to
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record audio and video. Um, if you've got a microphone, awesome. If not, that's okay. We can work around
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that. Um, and typically, it's best to be able to record on a computer if you've
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got it. Um, I have done stuff on phones and iPads and things like that, but it does change the dynamic. So,
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you know, um, keep that in mind as well if you want to do this. Like, it's best
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if you've got like a laptop or a computer with a webcam and some kind of audio device, even just
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headphones. Um, is is helpful. And so, um, yeah. And then, last thing I want to touch on
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is the newsletter, right? Um, I'm going to put a link on the screen, also down
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in the description below if you want to get on the email newsletter. I send it out basically whenever an
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episode comes out. Um, I know I was kind of doing every 2 weeks uh, an episode comes out and then kind
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of fill in the gaps with some other stuff. We'll see. The newsletter might be shifting a little bit, but it
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typically comes out between one one time a week to uh, every 2 weeks. And it's
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just kind of updates like episodes that came out, resources I found, books I'm reading.
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Who knows? There's been other stuff that feeds in there as well. Um, in addition to that, I'm also like
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trying very hard to build a website on the back of it uh where all of those posts as well as like
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stuff about books I read, resources, that kind of thing is going to live as well. And so, all that going to be
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linked down below. Um, and I would love for you to like get on there. That's going to be ultimately
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the best way to like stay connected with the show would be through through email
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um the email newsletter itself. So, all that being said, I'm okay. Life sucks sometimes.
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Uh, the show is coming back, which is a great thing and um I'm looking forward to seeing you guys
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on Friday. Okay. I'm going to go. I'll see you later. Peace.

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Episode Highlights

  • Life Update: Jacob's Journey
    Jacob shares a heartfelt update about his grandfather's passing and its impact on his life.
    “You never want to hear that somebody's in the hospital.”
    @ 01m 03s
    April 27, 2026
  • The Show is Not Canceled
    Despite a break, the show is thriving and set to return soon with exciting content.
    “The show has been doing incredible things even while we've been on break.”
    @ 05m 49s
    April 27, 2026

Episode Quotes

  • You never want to hear that somebody's in the hospital.
    my grandpa died
  • This is both the most emotionally healthy I felt and the worst experience.
    my grandpa died
  • Where does that put us today? Is the show canceled? No, absolutely not.
    my grandpa died
  • The show has been doing incredible things even while we've been on break.
    my grandpa died
  • Life sucks sometimes.
    my grandpa died

Key Moments

  • Life Update00:41
  • Loss of Grandfather02:18
  • Show Return Announcement06:17
  • Special Announcements07:04
  • Community Engagement09:16

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