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Interview with Rashawn Brazell's Mother //////

March 06, 2024 / 46:59

This episode covers the brutal murder of Rashan, the investigation into his death, and the struggles faced by his mother, Desire, in seeking justice. Key topics include the police response, the emotional impact on the family, and the challenges in the legal system.

Desire shares memories of her son, describing him as a caring individual who helped others. She recounts the last time she saw him on Valentine's Day and the panic that ensued when he did not return home.

The episode discusses the initial police response, which left Desire feeling unsupported. She took it upon herself to keep her son's case alive, leading marches and raising funds for scholarships in his name.

Desire expresses her frustration with the legal system, particularly after the arrest of Gavon, the man connected to her son's murder. She describes the emotional turmoil of facing him in court and the disappointment when the case was ultimately dismissed due to lack of evidence.

Throughout the episode, Desire emphasizes the importance of not giving up in the fight for justice, encouraging others in similar situations to keep pushing for answers.

TLDR

Desire shares her painful journey seeking justice for her son Rashan's brutal murder and the failures of the legal system.

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life redeem your 50% off at rosettastone.com [Music] today this is one of the most brutal
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murders in the history of this city rashan's gruesome murder will forever trouble a dedicated detective
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who retired without solving it and will haunt rashan's mother who's had to live with it every
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[Music] day good good afternoon desire thank you for joining me here in the garage today
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to talk about your son's case could you tell thank you for having me you're most
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welcome could you tell me and the listeners a little bit about your son ran yes I can what can I
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say ran was the C type of kid where he always was there to give a helping hand I didn't find out how much of a help
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hand that my child was giving out until his passing I didn't know that my child was helping out one of the
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teachers that live in my building with her kids with a project of a earth project that he assist them with that
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she said he took the time out he came to the school they went on these little Park
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trails and he picked up things for the kids um my son used to take food out my refrigerator and give it to the people
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across the street my son was very how can I say it not into fashion but he liked old clothing like the
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fisherman hats and he was just a old soul and always made sure that if he could he was be he was willing to help
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anyone was he as smart as he was good-looking yes yes he was the smartness is I discovered that
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ran back then you know we had the video movies you know the movies that you put in the
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VCR he was renting them out for a dollar had his own little business going huh had his own little business
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going where he can you know get his little snacks or whatever his favorite snacks was chocolate chip cookies and
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milk could you tell us about the last time that you saw ran it was Valen time day morning and I was up getting ready
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to work he was a little concerned because Sean was the type of person where he always believed in having a job
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like it it it was a must for him I remember when he had this job and he was going to school and working at night and
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you know I didn't like it but I know he loved his independence so that morning he was up
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he was getting his clothes ready he had his little bag with his resume and you know he was a little concerned because
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he had been out of work not that long but a couple of months and it bothered him so I remember when I got to the
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train station I called him and I said listen your phone bill and if you have any other little bills you know mommy's
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here mommy's goingon to help you I don't want you stressing over the fact that no one has
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called you back yet from the few interviews that you went on you will get a job until then Mommy got you
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and I'll see you later because he was my Valentine date Mommy and son was supposed to get together that day and
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you know have lunch and everything ran doesn't show up for this date and what can you take us through the process of
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what prompted you to report him missing and how did you go about reporting him missing well I called him I didn't you
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know my call went straight to voicemail and you know I kept calling I kept calling I kept calling so I left work
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and I remember the last call I made to him I said can't believe you stood me up you got me worried I haven't spoken to
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you when I get home you better have a good excuse when I got home he was not there I started panicking a little bit
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because we talk maybe three or four times a day when I'm at work so at work I'm thinking
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maybe he didn't charge his phone maybe his phone died or whatever and I was going to get home and you know he's
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goingon to be like Mom this is what happened but he wasn't there and I had an issue with
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that I stayed up most of the night any little noise I heard I'm thinking it was him coming in the door when Ron didn't
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come home that night I immediately knew something was wrong I went to work I started calling the
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hospitals to see if anyone came in when I did call the police to make a report they came out but this is what I was
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told due to his age and he wasn't a special needs child there really wasn't much they can do I was
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told that maybe he was just hanging out with his friends and you know he'll be home soon and what I was trying to tell
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the officer was that no he wasn't that wasn't the type of child he was he didn't he didn't do that that that
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wasn't his thing and he would have contacted me if you know if that was the case so the police followup was just
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them coming out that day was did did you hear before the 17th of February did you
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hear anything back from the police other than them coming out no your ini no now
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of course it took several years with no answers with you really being the one to
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lead the charge with petitioning America's Most Wanted to cover the case and keeping
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tabs on even the detectives and who's working the case and and and what what if any progress they had because from an
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outsider looking in desire it appears to me like they had a lot of ideas early on
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they were working a lot of leads and talking to a lot of people that knew ran early on and then for a lack of better
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term the case kind of went cold could you tell us a little bit about the kind of that down period in
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the investigation when they had kind of run out of leads it starts to get cold and and now it's just it's just Mom and
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family leading the charge I have to be honest in the beginning of my son case I did not
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feel that the detectives in the very beginning was really working my sun case I I have to
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be honest with that my son case didn't really start getting worked until detective aad took it over
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himself I'll never forget how this detective came to me and he said you know the people that I've talked to no
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one has had any bad thing to say about your son you know when it got called I decided to do a March you know to keep
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his name out there to let them know somebody knows something whatever you know you know I gave my email you know I
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gave numbers that you know people can reach out to I got together with this church and we used to go out on notion
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Avenue where he was found on the train tracks there and we would like candles and you know certain news reports would
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come out and you know I would say once again somebody knows something whatever little thing that you
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think is not important talk about it tell somebody about it I it I gave Gatherings you know I sold
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dinners just you know in his name there was a scholarship fund it was called the
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rashan memoral scholarship fund that was started with you know Larry lions and some of his other people we got together
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and we was able we we were so successful in raising money where we sent other kids to college you know with money that
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was donated I tried to do everything I possibly could to make sure that this his case just didn't go cold and nobody
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you know wasn't working on it and it just it just it was hard for me it was hard
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because I knew somebody out there had took my son's life and the way that they did it they
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didn't even allow me to look upon his face again so with all of that it just had me charg I mean in the beginning I
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was so angry you know I was hurt I was so many emotions I wanted to know why and you know how could this have
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happened and I even blamed myself for a while because I felt like maybe I led him to believe that you
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know everybody needs help and because of the work that I do you know I wanted my
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child to feel like you know the homeless the weak the people that you can help you can help maybe I made a
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mistake about that but I just kept going I just kept going detectives have a term
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for the category that that your son would be for an investigator and I don't know if anybody's ever shared this with
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you but some detectives use the term true innocence true innocent or absolute innocence and the persons that fall into
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that category you know because you you hear on the news and you see it in the newspapers oh this this person uh this
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senseless act of violence uh ended this innocent person's life but as far as detectives are concerned there are
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actually very small portion of the population that are true Innocents true Innocents and your son would fall into
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that category oftentimes it's someone that is too young you know like a young child who who doesn't have an extended
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Social Circle uh is too young to be up to anything uh that might put them In Harm's Way or running around with the
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wrong crowd and your son falls into that that category of a person a good person
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who was doing good things and was truly innocent and unfortunately what we did not know at the time in 2005 is that
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this this person who is at the complete opposite end of the spectrum who could only be categorized as a monster was
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living and had some association with your family living close and one of the most startling things and
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this is something that I I I picked up in the news so forgive me if this is wrong but you know there there's nothing
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easy about this case there's nothing comfortable to talk about with this case but one thing that stood out and made me
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incredibly angry and I wanted to to hear your thoughts on this and and maybe if there's a way that you can
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convey how you felt and what you experienced at the time after the arrest of gavon the the way that this
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was reported is you're in court and he's supposed to be paying attention facing the judge and did he turn to you and say
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something or or turn to you and Whisper or mouth something to you yes he mouthed
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to me I love you it took every fiber of my being to not run up and try to choke the
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life out of him but what I realized was this person was trying to victimize me MH and
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I wasn't going to allow that because I have already been through enough it shocked me to find out that this young
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man end up being connected to my son when detective model told me he was retiring I I said okay that's it it's
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over there's that where do I go and you know he said but I have someone that wants your son's
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case now I admit you know I was a little well why do this officer want my son's case and you know he introduced me to
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Jason and you know I asked Jason why did he want this case and I remember him telling me when your son case first hit
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I put that article on by my desk he said because I felt like if it did not end up
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getting solved and it do end up in the Cold Case unit I wanted it he said because I I you know
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I was always saying about something the family was doing you know talking to detective mod and him telling me how
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passionate you and your family was about trying to find out who did this he said
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I just refuse to allow this case to just go and nothing be done so with all the hard work I'll
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never forget it it was around Christmas time and I had finally decided to celebrate Christmas
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because Christmas was Sean's holiday and since I lost him I you know I just didn't do it and I'll never forget when
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they called me and I went to meet with them and you know when they gave me this information I lost it because this
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person lived right across the street from me I know this person's family when I say know the family I know the family
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now me and this young man did not have a good report with one another at all and
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when I discovered that there was a possibility of a connection when I sat in that court and he said that to me I
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was like okay no I said I see what you're doing you want me to act out you want to see my hurt I said but I'm G be
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better than you I'mma hold this and I'm going to let the system do what they need to do to get you off the street he
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tried to play the victim in the courtroom at times yes and he it seems like he liked the
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spotlight or to cause drama to draw attention to to himself I agree oh drama is not the word we was in the lobby when
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they brought him in it was ridiculous like me my son Sean's brother and one of my son friend we were standing there I
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had to hold them back because they was like look at him like look at the ass it it it it was it was something to see
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it really was but that I love you thing yeah that was it for me mind you though no one told him to turn around he got
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away with that the police a after the arrest it sounds like especially things that we heard from detective palamara
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that the police felt pretty good about their case against gavon and and we know that
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that many people felt good about the case against him because it goes to the grand jury and they
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decide that yes this these charges are warranted this should go to trial how and why do these charges get dropped
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against someone who has committed such heinous horrible acts and against more than one victim as well I'm confused as
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you are when they did the first trial with him with the young lady that he brutally
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killed and he was convicted I remember clearly what the da said to me he said now miss brazelle it's your turn
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and we're going to see to it that you get the justice that you deserve Reserve now
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remember Co hit then remember there was a disaster where all they evidence was and certain things they had was lost
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but you know what they had so much more when I say detector a model and his partner Jason and Evelyn when the Cold
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Case unit got together when I say they gave them so much more I was so angry I was angry because it was like a slap in
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Jason face it was a it was a slap in the whole Cold Case unit face because it kept on it kept adjourning it kept
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adjourning and I'mma tell you I'm going tell you I started getting the feeling and always ask the same question are we
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good are we good oh miss bazelle you have nothing to worry about we're good we good well finally Co ends finally
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we're getting court dates me and my family sat in that courtroom it was just one thing after
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another after another after another and then I remember the day I watch the da his lawyers go up to the bench
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there was a conversation I didn't share with my family but I said they're discussing to
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let this case go after the that day they set a date I asked to speak to her she took me and my sister in a room and lied
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directly to my face that this we was going to go to trial I asked her I said is everything good she said
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yes we're going to trial I said to her I want to thank you for allowing it to go
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to trial because even though you know y'all in the DA office feel like okay y'all lost whatever y'all lost in the
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evidence I appreciate the fact that you're going to allow a jury to decide his faith you're going to
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present what you have what you had that was strong enough for the grand jury to indict him
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without that evidence you had being presented to them and I said I appreciate that I said whatever happens
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at Tri I will accept the outcome well she called me I was getting off from work and she said to me oh miss
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brazelle I'm going to need you to come into the office cuz I need to speak with you I said wow I don't like the sound of
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this and she said well I just need for you to come in so her tone on the phone had already told me what was going to
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happen I went into their office and a friend of mine went with me it destroyed me to hear that they was going
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to dismiss the case but his his what they felt like was satisfactory for me oh but don't worry he's in jail for Life
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he's never going to get out and we will see to it every time he comes up for parole that he never makes parole and I
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said to her but what do that do for me because for me he didn't answer for my son's life I said and I'mma tell you
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something I feel like if my son was from a different background or a different area no matter how little evidence you
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had you still would have took this to trial but it sounds like to me you're saying my son case was in significant it
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doesn't matter I should be happy that you know y'all got through the first trial he's not worth the money for the
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second trial and he got life so there it is I left out of there disussed they had
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a therapist sitting there and I'm saying to my mom what is she supposed to do for
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me doing this meeting and what else all make me angry I said your boss didn't even have the audacity enough respect
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for me and my family to be here after he stood in my face and said to me Miss B don't worry we're going to take this all
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the way to trial no matter what I sat outside and cried for hours I couldn't believe that all the hard work that was
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done I'm sure they had so much more that they didn't felt the need to say let's take it the triout it's like I told her
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I've seen cases go with a little of nothing it all depends on how you present that evidence to the jury and
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how strong you are but I guess my son wasn't worth [Music] it planning an international trip and
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rosettastone.com today [Music] well and with in this case in particular with with the individual that would be
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on Tri gavon he's the type of individual you saw it play out right in front of you with your own eyes he's the type of
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individual if you put him on a stage and give him enough rope he will hang himself exactly
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the thing that's so aggravating here it's it's it's a double whammy situation right it's not only have they stopped
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fighting for ran they've almost handcuffed you and prevented you from continuing to fight for your son that's
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that's exactly what they did that's exactly what they did it was like yeah what's she going to
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do like okay yeah she can go on the news and say whatever and then they had a spokesperson after I did that
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interview on the news with Mary Murphy they had a spokesperson that lied and said oh well miss brazelle already knew
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that this was going to happen that's a lie no I did not know y'all waited till the very last
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minute to give me that information because I was still under the impression that no matter what you had lost that
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y'all was going to go to trial with whatever you had so I didn't get the opportunity to go back and say she's a
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liar no one I didn't I didn't know anything ahead of time I kept persisting that this goes to trial I kept
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persisting nothing but this is what I end up with and like you said I just felt trap my
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hands tied and I I I didn't frankly it's it's rude on their on their part because if they've decided
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that we're not going to do anything that we are not going to advance your son's case further through the courts then
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when you talk to the news when you talk to the media if they've already decided they they've given up they shouldn't
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even offer up a rebuttal they shouldn't even put spokesperson or woman up there to or man to to have a comment on what
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your comments are they've decided not to do anything so sit down and be quiet is
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is my feeling and and you dear if you want to shout out from the mountain tops you should and you you you had the
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unfortunate experience of of witnessing this firsthand and witnessing the action
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and then lack thereof action by their office you have every right to say what it is
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that you experience and what you feel and and what they did or didn't do in your son's case and I am so sure I am so
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sure I guarantee you that there's other cases that this da has done the same way
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you're in New York I'm in Ohio and unfortunately I've I've I've witnessed cases and and spoke to family members in
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cases that are similar here in Ohio where it just feels like there is a not just a lack of urgency to
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prosecute but but even in some cases a lack of effort to investigate further and unfortunately I've seen I can count
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him on up to two hands now the number of times that I've seen where we have an individual locked up for one thing and
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he's done a bunch of other horrible things and the powers that beego well that's that's good enough he's he's
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Behind Bars he's going to be there for a long time and that's going to have to be
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good enough and that's what this was here and I know we've we've we've talked about it already quite a bit but but in
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the early stages middle stages and how could your son's in your opinion from what you saw what you experienced how
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could your son's case have been handled differently and is there anything that can be done now I feel like whatever
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evidence that they lost whatever they needed off of that that should have been already handled that should have been
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already taken care of and on the side I felt like in the beginning when they was
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given certain information they should have followed through with that information in the
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beginning see the DA office don't realize how much I do know how much the people from the street have talked to me
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and I just feel like they didn't they didn't do it like they took everything that Jason did handed to them and said
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okay well yeah you gave us this but because we lost whatever it was there then the other things that you gave us
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and it's it's strong but we're just not going to do it it's like they had this attitude of well if we lose this case
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there'll be a loss on our record I everything that came into their office they should have followed through with
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it in the very beginning you allow Co to hit you sat back I remember reaching out
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to them and saying to them I feel like that my sun case is going to end up in your drawer in your file cabinet and
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forgotten and that's just how my son case ended up in they file cabinet filed under
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dismiss and that's that everything should have been done differently and like right now the only thing that I can
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hope for if we get a new DA and I can pre present once again my son case to a new DA that's sitting
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there and say look at this go back and read this go back and look at that and hopefully maybe something could be done
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being that it never went to trial and there was no verdict it was just dismissed but maybe with a new DA
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sitting there and that new da said no you know what we going to take the chance and we going to take this to
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trial with what we have right here because this was good detective work being that it was a cold case we're
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going to take all of this and we're going to use it and we're going to see what the jury comes back and like I said
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I would have appreciated appreciated that so much because I feel like if a jury had a setb back and heard
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everything other than this piece of in evidence that they lost I don't know why but I just feel like a jury would have
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been like no no we're GNA convict I I it it just goes back to like I said it all
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it's all about how you present what you have the passionate that you show and your determination when it came down
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this the lack of determination suck I can tell you though there was one person that was sitting in that room with us I
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can tell it hurt her to her soul that the person that was handling my sun case was sitting over from me telling me that
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they was going to dismiss it and to add insult to injury you know they ask me she emailed me to ask me oh I'm unsure
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are you going to be in court today why would I be in court why would why would I have been there for that if it it was
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just plain disrespect even the therapist was sitting there was looking like like this is all wrong this is so
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wrong but because of the person that had the case the person under her couldn't speak and like I told her you you let
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your boss send you in here to do this which me and and she told me she said well I agree with him we just didn't
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have enough and I was like wow so everything that Jason had gave y'all wasn't enough but
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you didn't have that evidence that you lost that's not what was presented to the grand jury
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and they still indicted him and it's all just comes down to like I said they decided okay we got a guilty verdict on
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the first trial Let It Be he's never getting out and that's was their main thing of comfort from them to me oh he's
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never getting out don't even worry about it go home relax forget it it's done well and the thing here is your your son
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was a good to say good upstanding citizen is just the tip of the iceberg and in some ways he was a night in
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shining armor for some of these people that he was trying to help and people in the area people that he knew the the
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only Heroes that you had seemed to come from the Cold Case Squad and that's it there
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was no night and shining armor for you or your family or for ran for that fact from the DA's office and to me all this
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says and and I want to be clear because somewhere there's going to be somebody listening and they're going to say Nick
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hang on pump the brakes a little bit buddy but I want to be clear this this is a situation that has end up as you
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said and as has been reported as dismissed your your son's case dismissed it's not they didn't come to you and say
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this is pending further Evidence or or we're going to continue to work this case and continue to build a case
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against gavon no it's it's we we can't do anything is we've we've we've put our hands up in the air and we go I don't
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know we can't do there's nothing left for us to do here and to me that that shows an extreme lack of character on
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behalf of the district attorney and it shows it's a big sign of weakness because as you said earlier a concern
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for having a loss on their record who cares if you have a loss on your record the general public the public that you
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represent the families that you represent the people that want bad people off of the streets violent
00:37:14
horrible people off of the streets and locked up and put away because they don't deserve to live in our society the
00:37:20
people that want that they don't care about your losses we yes we care about your wins rack up some wins we want wins
00:37:27
for the good people for the citizens we don't care about the losses as long as you try that's it every Sunday every
00:37:35
Sunday the worst team in in the NFL marches out on the field and they may play the best team in the NFL and you
00:37:41
know what secretly inside the locker room they might say themselves I don't think we have a very good chance of
00:37:45
winning today do they just pack up and get on the bus and go back home no they go out and they play the game and they
00:37:51
give it their all and they bust their butts to try to climb that mountain and David beat Goliath
00:37:57
and here I it's just to me it's just a lack of character it's a sign of weakness nobody cares man if you lose
00:38:04
just go out there and try and give it your all and instead no they closed the book and said we've we can't we can't do
00:38:11
anything here so if when when they when they seem to care about losses guess what this is a huge loss for them a huge
00:38:19
loss for them well I can honestly tell you clearly as a fact the case was dismissed due to lack of evidence or
00:38:31
however they want to put it no one came to me and say oh but we're GNA further investigate we're gonna keep digging we
00:38:41
none of that my son case ended up just where I didn't want it to end up in their foul cabinet shut done they've
00:38:55
moved on but they're moving on in their mind saying oh but we got that win that first
00:39:04
win he's in jail for life so that should cover everything Miss brazelle should feel comfortable and happy with the fact
00:39:15
that he was never getting out because that's what her words to me was oh but you don't have to worry just keep this
00:39:23
in mind he's never getting out he and I'm looking at her like wow so this is your way this is this is the Olive
00:39:35
Branch that you're handing to me right now this is I should be grateful I should be
00:39:42
thankful that he's never getting out and that every time he come up for parole y'all are gonna make sure he never
00:39:49
receives it okay okay I hope you sleep very well tonight okay all right right yeah it's dismiss as far as
00:40:00
they're concerned that was it they did they quit they did they quit on me they quit on my son it never crossed their
00:40:10
mind there was never a thought in their mind that they victimized me and my family just how it was when his life was
00:40:19
taken how we felt shattered lost no answers confused that's how I felt sitting at that table listening to that
00:40:33
that's how I felt when I read her email trying to find out am I going to court I
00:40:41
was so messed up to where I found myself it was no need me sitting at home sitting at home was going to do what
00:40:52
mess with my psyche I went to work I helped my client I cried coming home the next morning I
00:41:01
just repeated that process cried going into work help my clients cry coming back home talk to my husband here
00:41:13
who just talk it out just CED but how much talking can I do when I realize that I've been l out it's it's been shut
00:41:28
down now I just have to heal myself now every Valentine Day I have to go through
00:41:38
a little something on his birthday April 15th I have to go a little something you
00:41:46
know I do have bad days I I have days where I wake up and I'd be like wow what would he have been doing
00:41:57
in his life today like would he have still been working at the hospital because days after his death I got a
00:42:05
phone call from a woman that Sean had went through an interview in New York Presbyterian Hospital just serving
00:42:15
food he got the job I had to tell her what happened to him that woman had only met him on an interview and she cried
00:42:27
she said no that's that's that's that's not right that no and I said I'm sorry and she said I just met with him like we
00:42:39
she said after the interview they sat there and talked for hours she said like she had
00:42:46
to put like say okay I got to get back to work now and she already knew through her other interview she was going to
00:42:54
give him the job she just hung up that job was right across the street from the men's shelter
00:43:02
that I was working at at that time desire I'm so sorry for your loss I'm I'm so sorry that this that they didn't
00:43:10
that this wasn't handled differently I'm sorry that they the DA has given up the
00:43:16
fight when you never gave you you you had every look beaten down grieving the way that you you had to have been you
00:43:24
had every reason to give up the fight yourself you didn't you didn't give up the fight and they should have never
00:43:31
have done so either is is there any is there anything that we that we missed or that we didn't that we didn't talk about
00:43:39
that you want to express what I would like to make a statement is to anyone that lose a family
00:43:53
member to such a violent Act never give up just keep trying to fight the good fight and if it does come down
00:44:07
to where your hands are tied hopefully someone will reach out to you in order for you to be able to say
00:44:23
what you need to say remove some of the anger that you was holding on to because
00:44:38
you didn't get what you thought you was going to get seek therapy and maybe just start Jing down
00:44:50
some notes and you might look up and be surprised that you know you have a little book that you could put out there
00:44:58
for people that do go through this and just keep hoping and praying that our system our justice system in New
00:45:15
York get some [Music] guts this is one of the most brutal murders in the history of this
00:45:32
City rashan's gome murder will forever trouble a dedicated detective who retired without solving it and will
00:45:40
haunt rashan's mother who's had to live with it every [Music] day and if you'd like to hang out with
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  • 90
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  • 85
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  • 80
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Episode Highlights

  • Learning a New Language
    Planning an international trip? Now's the perfect time to learn a new language with Rosetta Stone!
    “Don't put off learning that language, there's no better time than right now!”
    @ 00m 12s
    March 06, 2024
  • A Mother's Pain
    A mother recounts the emotional turmoil after her son's murder and the challenges in seeking justice.
    “It took every fiber of my being to not run up and try to choke the life out of him.”
    @ 13m 58s
    March 06, 2024
  • Frustration with Justice
    A mother expresses her feelings about the legal system's handling of her son's case.
    “I felt like if my son was from a different background... you still would have took this to trial.”
    @ 23m 38s
    March 06, 2024
  • The Pain of Dismissal
    Describing the emotional impact of her son's case being dismissed due to lack of evidence. "It just goes back to how you present what you have."
    @ 33m 34s
    March 06, 2024
  • The Fight for Justice
    A mother reflects on the lack of urgency in her son's case and the emotional toll it has taken. "They quit on my son."
    @ 40m 02s
    March 06, 2024
  • A Call to Action
    Encouraging others who have lost family to violence to keep fighting for justice. "Never give up just keep trying to fight the good fight."
    @ 43m 53s
    March 06, 2024

Episode Quotes

  • Don't put off learning that language, there's no better time than right now!
    Interview with Rashawn Brazell's Mother //////
  • This is just plain disrespect.
    Interview with Rashawn Brazell's Mother //////
  • Never give up just keep trying to fight the good fight.
    Interview with Rashawn Brazell's Mother //////
  • Your hands are tied, but hopefully someone will reach out to you.
    Interview with Rashawn Brazell's Mother //////

Key Moments

  • Language Learning00:12
  • Mother's Grief13:58
  • Justice Denied23:38
  • Emotional Toll40:25
  • Hope and Healing45:00

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