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Life After Gold: Nico Porteous on Identity, Anxiety, and What’s Next

August 10, 202502:14:11
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>> Nico Portius, welcome to my podcast.
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>> Thank you for having me.
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>> This is an honor. This has been years in
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the I went back through our DMs. It's
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been years in the making. We've been
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going backwards and forwards for a
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couple of years on this.
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>> Yeah. Yeah, it's been Well, I guess
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yeah, a long time.
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>> Um, but yeah, found the time and and uh
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sort of figured that in previous time I
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didn't really think that I had much to
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talk about. like I was in the middle of
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my career and yeah I don't know was sort
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of still still making the memories and
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the experiences and and now um you know
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with recent decisions I I feel like it
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it was right to come on and talk.
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>> Yeah.
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>> You haven't done a lot e um I found I
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think maybe two or three long form
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podcasts that you've done previously and
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that that's maybe the extent of it.
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>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Um, and as we're
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talking about a second ago, it's very,
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um, I haven't done a lot and I kind of
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shy away from them. Um, in a way, part
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of it was that I didn't really think I
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had much to talk about other than
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competition and that sort of thing. And
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another thing was that I actually didn't
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really like I don't really trust opening
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up fully to like the long format of
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talking. I find that when you're in it
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like through competition and um you're
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doing media around comps, it's very you
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get very good at answering the same
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question over and over again or the same
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types of questions. And so I think you
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know part of it is is um being scared to
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branch out and actually talk in depth
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about these things rather than just one
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sentence answers and and that sort of
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thing. So yeah, I thought I' I'd trust
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you. So
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>> Oh, thank you. That's a huge compliment.
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Yeah. Sort of getting out of your
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comfort zone in a way.
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>> Yeah. Yeah. Exactly. Exactly. which
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seems um baffling to me because I've
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watched so many videos of you in the
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last week knowing that you're coming in
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today and um yeah, I couldn't think of
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many more many things more terrifying
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than what you've done over the last 10
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years.
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>> Oh, I don't know. It's all it's ah it's
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all
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>> dropping into one of those half pipes.
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[ __ ] me.
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>> Yeah. Yeah. It's it's pretty scary. It's
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pretty scary. But, you know, in saying
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that, it's like I haven't done many
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podcasts, so I'm scared to do this. You
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know what I mean? And and I've been
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skiing half pipes since I was
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>> like eight, you know what I mean? So, so
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it's like it's equivalent and and yeah,
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definitely look at it that way.
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>> Yeah. Well, I I appreciate that. That's
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really kind. I think have we only met
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the one one time before?
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>> Um, yeah, I think it might have been
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once.
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>> I think you came onto our radio show on
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the edge. How old were you at the time?
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>> 16. 16.
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>> Yeah, it would it would have been after
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I was with Zoe. Was it Zoe and I?
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>> No, I think it was Josie Wales.
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>> Oh, okay. True. Okay. So, it was
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>> You were You were a kid maybe.
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>> Yeah, maybe I was younger. Maybe I would
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have been like 14 cuz I remember around
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the Winter Games back in It would have
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been Yeah. 2015 we would have done uh
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Winter Games NZ media tour and it was
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sort of like Josie and myself on this
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media tour around Oakland and that was
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sort of the first time that I'd seen
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like media or been you know on the radio
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shows and that sort of thing and so I
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think that was the first and only time
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we've met. So
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>> yeah long time e
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>> you were a kid then now you're a man but
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you're still you're still very very
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young and there's so much to do. So, um,
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Nico Portius, two Olympic medals, two
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exgame gold medals, five world
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championships, um, and five World Cup
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medals. Also, yeah, New Zealand order of
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merit for services to snow sports and
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Hellburg Sportsman of the year in 2022.
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>> Yeah.
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>> Yeah. And that's that's sort of just
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scraping scraping the surface really of
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the achievements.
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>> Yeah. I mean that's like it's not very
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often that you hear it read out and so
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um yeah that's kind of brings a few
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memories flooding back and yeah a sense
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of pride to be honest.
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>> Yeah. So you messaged me um out of the
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blue on Instagram maybe a month ago
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saying hey I'm coming to talk you want
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to do a podcast. I was like
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>> [ __ ] yeah I do. And it was in this
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message that you you told me you were
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retiring. You hadn't announced it yet.
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So what does retirement mean exactly?
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>> Yeah I mean it's not it's not normal
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retirement. And I think retirement is um
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is the right word, but it's also not how
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I'm looking at it personally. I think um
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yeah, I I just thought that um yeah, I
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thought I'd message you and and come on
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and talk about it. I thought it was a
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cool story to tell because last year and
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um in August of last year, I made the
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decision to step back from um
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competitive skiing. And so um that's
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sort of why I wasn't really calling it
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retiring was because by no means am I
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like stopping skiing at a high level.
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I'm still working hard to be the best
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skier that I can be. But I just um I'd
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just been in the competitive environment
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since I was like 10 years old and and
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following the World Cup circuit since I
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was 14. Since I was like old enough to
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drop into a World Cup, I was following
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that circuit around the world which was
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incredible. And um it was yeah, such an
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amazing period of my life. But I just
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thought that, you know, yeah, I guess I
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just kind of lost that little
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competitive edge in a way and decided
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that it was time to step back and and
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move on to to new things in my life.
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>> Yes, that highlights rule that I
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mentioned a second ago. Um, all that
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success comes comes at a huge cost.
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>> So, what's the price been that you've
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had to pay? Yeah, I think it does come
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with a with a big cost, but it also
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comes with a lot of reward and and um
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but I think the the cost for me was that
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>> um
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one one my body my body's a little bit
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sore. Um and and only being 23 is kind
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of like you know having sore knees when
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you wake up in the morning that's pretty
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hard.
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Um yeah, and then I think that the the
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hardest thing was missing out on that um
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normal
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adolescence growing up like I was, you
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know, and and and it's sort of hard to
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talk about because I was like had these
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amazing opportunities that any other
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person that was in that age would be
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like, "Oh my goodness." And so was I. I
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was like, "Oh my goodness, I'm traveling
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the world and I'm able to do what I love
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and that's skiing." But at the same
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time, when things got tough, I was
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always thinking, "Oh man, it would be
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fun to to go to school and hang out with
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my friends every day that were my age
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and or oh, it would be fun to go to this
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party on the weekend and and chase girls
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with my mates, you know what I mean?
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Like or you know, it' be fun to go for a
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skate then or go surfing with them." And
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so that side of things I did miss out on
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and and um
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>> yeah, but at the same time it was like I
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was I was doing um
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so I had so many amazing opportunities
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and was around so many incredible people
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that I looking back on it I still
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wouldn't change it. Like I still
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wouldn't change missing out on that part
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of it. Um yeah.
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>> Yeah. It's a FOMO thing. It makes sense.
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Like um Yeah.
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>> Yeah. It makes perfect sense. I'm not
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surprised by that answer. I I actually
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had written down here in brackets.
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School balls.
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>> Yeah. Just as one example.
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>> Exactly. I never been to a prom or a
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school ball.
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>> Um there's a there's a Yeah. There's
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like a number of things that I
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>> just never never went to.
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>> Yeah.
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>> Yeah. And all this stuff is a sort of a
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right of a right I don't know a right of
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passage.
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>> Yeah. It is in a way. Yeah. Yeah. And I
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and um yeah didn't get to experience
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that.
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>> Yeah.
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>> How much thought went into the
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retirement?
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>> Um a lot. A lot. and
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it was sort of ticking away in the
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background um for a while, but maybe I
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was too scared to actually recognize
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that that was how I was feeling. Uh and
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so like I said, I made the decision in
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August last year. Um and yeah, I sat I
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didn't want to announce it. There was
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people around me asking me to when I was
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going to do the announcement and when I
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was going to talk to the media and that
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sort of thing. And I just said, "Look,
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I'm just going to hold off because
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making that decision being so young,
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it's not it's not really something that
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I want to go I want to say, oh, I'm
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retired." And then two years later, I
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come back, you know, going, "Oh, psych,
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I'm not retired." Like, I'm back. you
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know, and so and and so I think yeah, by
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by actually taking time to sit on it
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>> um and sort of make sure that I was
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comfortable with the decision and that
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it was the right decision was
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>> yeah was um really key for me.
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>> Yeah, I've got a bunch of names here.
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Michael Jordan, Mike Tyson, Tom Brady,
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Floyd Mayweather, Michael Schumarker,
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Martina Angus. Um you wouldn't be the
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first person that retires and then goes
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psych.
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>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
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>> But definitely absolutely unequivocally
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no return.
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>> No. No. Um um and and I think that's
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like yeah, I'm not going to return and
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and that's um that's you know why I took
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that time to before I announced it and
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before I talked about it publicly and uh
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was that make make sure that it's really
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what I wanted to and
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>> look the past year has been has been
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really tough. Like it's been
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>> how so? Well, just just like I'm 23 and
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I and I was at the top of my game and I
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personally I decided it wasn't a I
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decided to to you know to end it end the
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competitive side of things and that was
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like I don't know there was times where
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it's like oh my goodness is this the
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right decision and there was times and
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and yeah yeah there was there's been
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really hard times throughout the past
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year where I felt lost and I haven't
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really felt like I had a full direction
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and I feel as if I'm coming to the end
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of that now and I And I have a really um
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starting to formulate a really solid
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plan in my head of where I want to go
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and what I want to do. And and I guess
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that was sort of um the joy of it was
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that being being so young, it's sort of
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like starting your life all over again
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because competitive skiing is
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>> all that you've known. And whereas all
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your friends are graduating university,
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they're moving into jobs and it's like,
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>> well, I'm just sort of winding it back
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and now I'm just starting that journey,
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you know? And so
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yeah. Yeah, it's been a it's been a
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interesting year, but but something that
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I made the decision because I wanted a
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challenge and I wanted to switch it up
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and that's exactly what has happened.
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>> And you you got you got so much time as
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well.
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>> So much time.
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>> I I've had um I had Anna Moberry on the
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podcast. She's an entrepreneur. Her and
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her brother set up this toy company
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called Zuru.
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>> She sold out of that. She's a
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billionaire. Now she set up a new job
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recruitment app company. And I asked her
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about that and she said Zuru was a
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mountain, but there's more mountains
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that she wants to climb.
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>> Yeah.
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>> I feel like um Yeah. You're not an
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entrepreneur, but it's the same sort of
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thing. Yeah, I think it is. And and um I
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mean it's not the same, but I'm not
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starting a multi-billion dollar
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business, but um yeah, no, I I like
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challenging myself and I like achieving
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um achieving goals that I, you know,
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were maybe um
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>> you know, like a big reach. Um and and
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that's something I really really um
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>> chase, I guess. Yeah. Is that challenge.
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>> Your brother Miguel, a couple of years
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older than you, he retired about the
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same age. Did that play a part in it?
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like did you have conversations with him
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about retirement?
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>> Definitely talk to him about it. Um I
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mean he in my eyes I I don't think he's
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ever been happier in the place that he's
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in right now.
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>> Um and he's just absolutely thrived in
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in this life outside of skiing. Um he
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still loves skiing and he doesn't resent
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it. Um
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>> but yeah, just talking to him, I mean,
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he's like he's my biggest role model.
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like he's the biggest
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>> um my my family in general are the are
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the ones that
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>> you know give me the most advice and and
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um it's the it's the advice that I take
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the most seriously. Uh and so I and
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there was a talk there was a lot of
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talking with Miguel throughout that
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process and of making that decision and
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um look he just sort of he just he just
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backed me and it was just like look
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you've had an amazing competitive career
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and go and ski and film and enjoy it and
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then you know I know being your brother
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I know that you will work hard in
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whatever you do and and um
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>> yeah you'll you'll back yourself which
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is cool. So
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>> yeah, one thing I found from doing this
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podcast is um there's there's generally
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not something like a onetrick pony. Like
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if you're successful at something, uh
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you're going to be successful at
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something else you you apply yourself
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to.
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>> Yeah. And I think I think that might be
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because of I mean you're the same with
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radio and podcast. It's obviously
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>> transferable skills.
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>> Yeah. It's similar, but it's also
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different, you know, and
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>> and I think that's and and it's
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something that I think you from building
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something up or from from achieving
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something, you learn to overcome
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challenge and to and to work hard or um
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and you know and how you face those
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obstacles that come at you every day.
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And so I think that sort of um allows
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you to take those skills into other
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areas and and work on them. And so
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>> yeah, and I think a lot of it comes down
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to like work ethic as well.
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>> Yeah. You just going to apply yourself
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to whatever you do. What are you going
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to miss the most and the least?
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>> Um, you know what? What I'm actually
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going to miss the most, and it's
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something that is not, you know, isn't
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really talked about that much when
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athletes retire and um and athletes that
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have had success is that especially in
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our sport and and something that I
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missed the most in the past year is the
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external gratification. And I know that
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that sounds really like odd and like um
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I guess I don't know. Yeah, just really
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odd. And but it's when you do well, you
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have a score telling you that you've
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done well. You have people at the bottom
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telling you that you've done well. You
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post your run on social media. Social
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media tells you you've done well.
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and your coach is telling well sometimes
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you know depending on the day but and
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and you know you're you have all this
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external you've done well you're great
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you're amazing and then you stand on top
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of the podium at the end of the day and
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hold up a check and it's like
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>> yeah this is awesome you know and and
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that's something that I'm so glad I
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ditched like and so glad that that's not
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uh a thing that I have anymore because
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it's forced me whether I like it you
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know I like it sometimes and I
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absolutely hate it other times but it's
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forced me to um to start to just really
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enjoy what I do and and regardless of
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the outcome, regardless of the external
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>> um side of it. And yeah, that's been
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that's been a a learning process. I
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>> I think mo most people would think um
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that's what you want, that external
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gratification, but it's like um you
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you're in a you're in an unusual
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position where you've reached it and
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you've experienced it and you know that
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it's not bringing you the joy anymore
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that it should do.
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>> Yeah. Yeah. And I think it's I don't
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know that external gratification is such
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a weird thing
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>> because it's um you know it's really
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nice in the moment and it's amazing but
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at the same time it's like
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>> it's so uh I guess superficial in a way
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like it's it's
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>> an unhealthy addiction.
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>> It is it is an unhealthy addiction and I
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think a lot of athletes actually have
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that addiction and are scared to let go
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of it, you know, and
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>> understandable.
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>> Yeah. Yeah.
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>> Um Yeah. Has the sport been good to you
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financially?
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>> Yeah, it has. Yep. Yeah. And I've had um
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and I still have some amazing partners
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and sponsors that support me throughout
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the whole thing.
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>> Um and and yeah, they've been incredible
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uh in supporting me. So
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>> yeah.
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>> So yeah, the next um Olympics where
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you're the reigning champion is uh 2026
00:15:05
next year. Yeah.
00:15:06
>> So you you decided last August to
00:15:08
retire.
00:15:09
>> Did Yeah. Was was that looming over you
00:15:11
a little bit,
00:15:12
>> the Olympics or the thoughts?
00:15:14
>> Yeah. No, actually, yeah, it was. I
00:15:15
haven't really thought about this in in
00:15:16
a long time. Sorry, Dom.
00:15:18
Um, yeah, it was looming over me and it
00:15:21
was sort of like
00:15:23
yeah, the buildup to 2022 was was so
00:15:26
gnarly. Like it was um it was ruthless.
00:15:30
I was putting so much pressure on myself
00:15:32
but also telling myself that I didn't
00:15:34
have any pressure on me. And you know
00:15:36
seeing being 16 and winning bronze in in
00:15:38
Korea and then four years later going
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into
00:15:42
um China as world number one and you
00:15:46
know sort of expected to win gold and a
00:15:48
favorite. It was it was a pressure
00:15:50
cooker. Like it was hectic. And those
00:15:54
two weeks sort of in the buildup to
00:15:55
Olympics or no, sorry, longer than that.
00:15:57
That the two months in the buildup to
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the Olympics were just
00:16:01
>> oh my goodness. I don't I don't want to
00:16:02
live through that ever again. Like never
00:16:04
again. That was
00:16:06
>> hectic. So yes, 2026 was weighing on my
00:16:08
mind, but it was also not not a a major
00:16:12
factor into why I made the call. Yeah,
00:16:15
>> that's that's interesting. We're going
00:16:16
to get into both the Olympic camp
00:16:18
campaigns later on, but um I might as
00:16:20
well bring this up now that just an
00:16:21
observation from I I don't know when the
00:16:23
last time you've watched your runs from
00:16:25
those two Olympics or if you ever have
00:16:27
at all. Um but
00:16:29
>> um when you won the bronze in 20 20 2018
00:16:33
>> 2018
00:16:34
>> Yeah. You were ecstatic. You were over
00:16:37
the moon. 2022 you won gold.
00:16:40
>> It was like a five out of 10.
00:16:41
>> Yeah.
00:16:41
>> Was it just relief?
00:16:42
>> No. No. And that's the thing is that um
00:16:45
Yeah. I think um
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2018 was crazy cuz it was so like I was
00:16:50
just skiing on fire. Like I'd never
00:16:52
skied that good in my life and it
00:16:54
happened to be in an Olympic final and I
00:16:56
like didn't expect to get that score.
00:16:58
I'd never really had that good a score
00:16:59
in a World Cup and it was you know it
00:17:01
was just everything was just so crazy
00:17:03
that day. Whereas 2022 was sort of like
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it was a bit of a battle. like I came
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into it knowing that there was some
00:17:09
pressure on my shoulders and there was
00:17:12
um some yeah I guess some some pressure
00:17:15
and um woke up and it and it wasn't
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super good weather and um you know the
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conditions maybe weren't perfect and and
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so the reason why I didn't give a
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reaction on that winning run was that I
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still had two runs to go so I didn't
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know you know there was still everyone
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still had two runs left and so I didn't
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know that that was going to be the
00:17:36
winning run. If id known, I would have
00:17:38
been like, "Oh my goodness." You know,
00:17:40
like, "Thank goodness that's over." You
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know, like, "Wow, that's amazing." But I
00:17:44
I was still so focused and so locked in
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cuz I still had two/ird of a competition
00:17:48
to go and I was like, "Oh, here we go."
00:17:50
Like now, you know, I've done this run
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that's really hard and I'm like scared
00:17:54
and standing at the top and and I've
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done it, but now I have to go and
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>> do more because in case someone else
00:18:00
comes down and bids that, you know? So,
00:18:02
it's like
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>> Oh, that's interesting. Yeah. I wondered
00:18:04
if if it was because um in the first one
00:18:06
when you won the bronze like you were a
00:18:07
long shot or an underdog and in the
00:18:09
second one there was the the level of
00:18:10
expectation that you were going to
00:18:11
perform well so it was more a feeling of
00:18:13
relief.
00:18:14
>> Yeah. Yeah.
00:18:14
>> But no it was just that you had two more
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runs.
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>> It was just that I was still locked in.
00:18:18
>> Yeah. But at the end I can tell you what
00:18:20
there was there was a big relief.
00:18:22
>> Yeah. Yeah. Good.
00:18:23
>> Um the Yeah. This question might be a
00:18:26
bit weird. I'm probably projecting here.
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This is just like putting myself in your
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position.
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Is is like does part of you worry that
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there's going to be I mean you've you've
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done so so much at such a young age.
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>> Are you worried that nothing else in
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life is going to bring you the same sort
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of level of enjoyment or fun or
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>> excitement? Look, I think I think um
00:18:51
like we're talking about the external
00:18:53
gratification thing before and and I
00:18:55
think that that contributes to that
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thing of excitement and um that peak
00:19:00
moment of joy.
00:19:02
>> Um
00:19:03
>> and I kind of yeah I kind of know that
00:19:05
that there'll be nothing like that again
00:19:07
in my life. I think I don't know maybe
00:19:09
maybe the things that would come close
00:19:10
to that would be the birth of a child or
00:19:13
like marriage or you know those big
00:19:16
moments in life
00:19:18
>> for you personally. I think those will
00:19:20
definitely definitely come close but or
00:19:22
if not be way better.
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>> Um
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>> but that's kind of the point of it is
00:19:26
that I wanted to I wanted to
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not have that because
00:19:32
>> that's totally not normal. like that's
00:19:35
it feels amazing and it's awesome but
00:19:37
that's not normal at all and and that's
00:19:39
not going to be forever. that's gonna
00:19:40
stop at a certain point in time,
00:19:42
especially at our sport where your body
00:19:44
only has a, you know, a certain length
00:19:46
of time and
00:19:46
>> Yeah.
00:19:47
>> Yeah. So, um yeah, I don't know.
00:19:51
>> [ __ ] Your wise wise be on you, I
00:19:53
suppose. Um just doing this for such a
00:19:55
long time has forced you to grow up, eh?
00:19:57
>> Yeah, it has.
00:19:59
>> Um I mean, I've like
00:20:01
>> winding it back. Yeah. you know, further
00:20:03
to what we talked about at the start
00:20:04
about um missing that sort of like um
00:20:07
adolescence growing up. It I was
00:20:10
surrounded by people that were more
00:20:13
often than not double my age. you know,
00:20:15
my my group of friends that I would
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socialize with on a on a daily basis
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skiing up on the mountain was, you know,
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they were anywhere from 17 all the way
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through to 26, 27 and I was like 12, you
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know, so so I was like kind of forced to
00:20:30
grow up in a way because although I was
00:20:33
always the young, you know, grommet of
00:20:34
the group and and the young one and the
00:20:36
baby, but yeah, I was sort of forced to
00:20:38
to grow up and um had really good role
00:20:40
models around me throughout that time.
00:20:42
>> Yeah. Yeah, I mean I'm sure everyone was
00:20:43
really really nice to you and you know
00:20:44
treated treated you like the age you
00:20:46
were. But you you must have still been
00:20:47
exposed to some um ruthless
00:20:50
conversations that no there was some
00:20:53
ruthless chat. Yeah. And there was some
00:20:56
I mean yeah um I've always really had to
00:20:59
watch my mouth like my foul mouth and um
00:21:03
I think there there's actually a really
00:21:05
really funny uh when I got sponsored by
00:21:07
Red Bull the first time I got received
00:21:10
the helmet turned around and didn't
00:21:11
realize that the news cameras were there
00:21:12
and I said oh f off like and I this
00:21:17
little 13-year-old kid with braces and
00:21:19
just holding up this Red Bull helmet
00:21:21
just got sponsored like and here I was
00:21:24
swearing you know. And so I think yeah,
00:21:26
that like those that sort of stuff I was
00:21:28
definitely exposed to from a young age.
00:21:31
>> Oh, that's so cool though. That's just
00:21:32
like raw excitement. Eh, um, did your
00:21:35
your mom or dad tell you off of that?
00:21:37
>> Ah, nah. It was just it was like, you
00:21:41
know, that's not my fault. I didn't know
00:21:42
the news was going to be there. It was
00:21:43
just my pure reaction. But there was
00:21:45
some funny things like I remember going
00:21:46
up the mountain some days and having to
00:21:48
go wake up the people that we were
00:21:50
taking up. I'd be 13 or I'll be 12 or 13
00:21:53
sitting in the back of the car, maybe
00:21:54
even younger, and we'd have to go to
00:21:56
someone's house, wake up that person
00:21:58
because they were drunk from the night
00:22:00
before, and then drive them up the hill
00:22:03
or we'd go and pick someone up from a
00:22:05
hotel in town cuz he didn't make it home
00:22:07
and slept on the couch and would go up
00:22:09
skiing. Like, these are things that I
00:22:10
was just exposed from exposed to as a
00:22:12
young kid. And and they weren't like
00:22:14
they weren't in a in a bad way. They
00:22:16
were just like and you know these people
00:22:18
were amazing people but
00:22:20
>> yeah it was just funny being exposed to
00:22:22
that I think as a 12 and 13y old. Yeah.
00:22:24
>> Well if you hang out with adults you're
00:22:25
going to see adult things.
00:22:26
>> Yeah. Exactly. Exactly.
00:22:28
>> Um okay let's go all the way back. So
00:22:29
you're born in Hamilton in 2001.
00:22:31
>> Yep.
00:22:31
>> Yeah. What are your earliest memories?
00:22:34
>> Oh my earliest memories. That's a crazy
00:22:36
question. Um,
00:22:40
so I was born in Hamilton, uh, 2001 and
00:22:43
then sort of 6 weeks after I was born,
00:22:45
we moved down to Christ Church.
00:22:47
And I think some of my earliest memories
00:22:49
would be from around Christ Church. Um,
00:22:53
yeah,
00:22:55
probably.
00:22:57
Yeah, just whether it was playing
00:22:58
outside. I think that like my earliest
00:23:00
memories would just be playing with my
00:23:01
brother Miguel. M
00:23:02
>> um like yeah I think my one of my one of
00:23:06
my early memories was
00:23:09
yeah probably probably just playing with
00:23:10
Miguel like being outside on the
00:23:12
skateboards or on the trampoline or you
00:23:14
know him throwing me around on the
00:23:15
trampoline or Yeah. I don't know stand
00:23:18
here Nico and let me throw this at you
00:23:20
you know like Yeah. Yeah. Just classic
00:23:22
older younger brother stuff.
00:23:23
>> What's the age gap like two years or
00:23:24
something?
00:23:24
>> Two and a half years.
00:23:25
>> Two and a half years.
00:23:27
>> Yeah. It's quite funny like um it's
00:23:29
often a predictor of success if you've
00:23:30
got like an older sibling because the
00:23:32
competition level that you've got is um
00:23:34
so much higher. You're playing playing
00:23:35
with older kids all through your
00:23:37
childhood.
00:23:37
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
00:23:38
>> Setting the bar for you.
00:23:39
>> Yeah. Exactly. And um I was very lucky
00:23:42
to have that and and very lucky to have
00:23:43
such a cool brother.
00:23:45
>> Um and he just led the way. He he was
00:23:47
the one that got me into freestyle
00:23:48
skiing and um yeah, sort of just just uh
00:23:52
fell into it and and followed him um cuz
00:23:55
he was such a role model and such a
00:23:56
leader for me. And um yeah, we we were
00:23:59
lucky that the place we lived in Christ
00:24:01
Church, we actually had neighbors that
00:24:03
had two boys that were the same age. So
00:24:05
it's just Miguel and I and then it was
00:24:07
um yeah, two brothers next door. And um
00:24:12
we would just we would just cause
00:24:14
mischief on the street. Like they would
00:24:15
jump the fence and come hang out with us
00:24:16
and we would jump the fence, go hang out
00:24:17
with them. And it was just Yeah, it was
00:24:19
just epic. And so just being around that
00:24:20
like having the older brothers and
00:24:23
following them and um Yeah. And also
00:24:25
just having friends to play with from a
00:24:27
young age was really cool.
00:24:28
>> Yeah. Quite a tight family unit. Hey,
00:24:30
the Portious family. It's just the the
00:24:32
two brothers,
00:24:33
>> mom and dad. Your parents still
00:24:34
together?
00:24:34
>> Yep. Yep. And um from what I can gather,
00:24:37
I'm not sure what your dad did for a
00:24:38
job, but he spent time in the UK working
00:24:40
for Peugeot and
00:24:40
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yep. Yeah. Wow. You have
00:24:42
done deep research, haven't you? Um
00:24:44
Yeah. So, so uh yeah, mom and dad are
00:24:46
still together. They're um Yeah. Like
00:24:49
they're just mom and dad. They're
00:24:50
awesome. And um yeah, so we lived in the
00:24:53
UK for I think it was it was like 6
00:24:56
weeks. Oh, sorry, 6 months we did in the
00:24:59
UK. Um and dad was working at the
00:25:01
Peugeot factory in health and safety. So
00:25:03
he's um a doctor and studied as a doctor
00:25:06
and um then you know he left Peugeot
00:25:11
Peugeot and we decided that we wanted to
00:25:14
um I think our visas still had extra
00:25:16
time or something and and we decided
00:25:17
that we wanted to stay on and um in
00:25:19
France go to France for the winter and
00:25:21
cuz mom and dad and Miguel at the time
00:25:23
were keen skiers and um I was four and
00:25:26
hadn't skied yet but we went to France
00:25:28
in this little French village in the
00:25:29
Alps uh called Borg Sta Mary and mom and
00:25:32
dad rented um basement, one-bedroom
00:25:34
apartment off of um a family.
00:25:37
>> Sorry, excuse me. Um and yeah, they
00:25:39
rented that apartment and and all four
00:25:41
of us all four of us slept in that
00:25:43
little shoe box apartment. Um and we did
00:25:46
um six week skiing.
00:25:48
>> Do you remember that at all or
00:25:49
>> Yeah, I do. I do actually. Yeah, I do.
00:25:50
And and I went back there well a year
00:25:53
ago now. Um uh yeah, a year ago and and
00:25:57
um saw where it all started. And I
00:25:59
remember I remember being um you know
00:26:03
waking up and and opening the door and
00:26:05
there being snow outside and um or you
00:26:08
know I wasn't allowed to go skiing
00:26:09
because I wasn't very good at stopping.
00:26:11
And so I got dad dad told mom dad told
00:26:14
mom that we can't have Nico coming with
00:26:16
us. He's just out of control. And so he
00:26:18
made me stay at home and practice my
00:26:20
pizzas. So I stayed home with mom and
00:26:22
practice my pizzas and I got a gold star
00:26:24
on my skis every time I nailed it. and
00:26:26
and then um I specifically remember
00:26:29
making chocolate cake after that and um
00:26:31
yeah and then being able to go skiing
00:26:32
the next day with dad and and mom and
00:26:34
family. So
00:26:35
>> Oh yeah, I heard a story about that. So
00:26:36
yeah um this called snowplow
00:26:39
whatever but you you Yeah, your mom
00:26:41
called it chocolate cake.
00:26:42
>> Yeah. Yeah, that's right. You That's
00:26:45
weird that you Oh yeah. Yeah. Yeah. She
00:26:47
called it chocolate cake. That's right.
00:26:48
>> Get out. I'll finish off the story.
00:26:50
>> Yeah. Yeah. She did call it That's
00:26:53
funny. Yeah. Um she called it chocolate
00:26:55
cake and and that was what made sense to
00:26:57
me
00:26:57
>> as a child. Yeah. Yeah. And so um yeah
00:27:00
and then and then we you know we did
00:27:02
that 6 weeks and then um moved back to
00:27:04
to Christ Church. Um
00:27:06
>> when were you in Perth? You're in Perth
00:27:08
for a while
00:27:08
>> and then I was in Perth. Yeah. So
00:27:09
>> Christ back to Christ.
00:27:10
>> Back to Christ Church and and we lived
00:27:12
in Christ Church and um until I was
00:27:14
nine.
00:27:15
>> Uh and then when I was nine, dad uh got
00:27:18
a job uh over in the mines working in
00:27:20
Western Australia. And so that uh meant
00:27:22
that we were to relocate to Perth and um
00:27:25
dad would commute and do FIFO work out
00:27:27
of um yeah, northern Western Australia.
00:27:29
And um we would live in Perth around
00:27:32
that time skiing was really starting to
00:27:33
ramp up and so we would live in Perth
00:27:34
for
00:27:36
like I don't know I want to say 12 weeks
00:27:38
of the year uh maybe one school term or
00:27:41
sorry two school terms. Um and then we'd
00:27:44
go and do the New Zealand winter in
00:27:45
Wanuka. um in this tin there was a yeah
00:27:50
in this uh tiny little hotel and and um
00:27:53
it was mom, Miguel and myself and we
00:27:57
were on bunk beds and mom was on a
00:27:59
double bed and um we'd see dad every 6
00:28:02
weeks he'd come over and um so we did
00:28:04
that and then we go over to Northern
00:28:06
Hemisphere for um 6 weeks as well at
00:28:09
that time and um and the same dad would
00:28:12
come over for a week and
00:28:14
>> yeah so so the family was was pretty um
00:28:17
disjointed throughout that time and and
00:28:18
it was you know they made a decision and
00:28:21
um mom and dad to support Miguel and I
00:28:23
in skiing and that was something that um
00:28:25
had just started and and something that
00:28:26
really really wanted to chase and so
00:28:28
that involved yeah dad working and us
00:28:31
seeing him every five or six weeks
00:28:32
throughout that period. So that
00:28:34
>> um you know mom and dad didn't want to
00:28:36
send us away as two young kids and they
00:28:38
wanted mom to be there cuz we were in
00:28:40
school and stuff like that and so um
00:28:42
yeah. Oh, so that was why they bas they
00:28:44
basically did that cuz he had two kids
00:28:45
that were really really good at skiing
00:28:47
and they wanted you to pursue your
00:28:48
dreams.
00:28:49
>> Yeah, exactly. And and they said, well,
00:28:51
you know, let's give them let's give
00:28:52
them the opportunity on which I'm
00:28:53
incredibly thankful that they did. And
00:28:55
>> when they they worked their ass off like
00:28:58
>> mom was teaching us and um you know,
00:29:00
looking after a 10 and 12y old that were
00:29:02
going skiing all day and then coming
00:29:03
home and having to do school work and
00:29:04
then she'd cook us dinner and meanwhile
00:29:06
dad was you know, an Aussie working and
00:29:08
wouldn't see his family for you know. So
00:29:10
it was it was Yeah. the amount of
00:29:12
sacrifices that they that those two mom
00:29:14
and dad made uh in order for Miguel and
00:29:16
I to ski was incredible and
00:29:18
>> um that's something that I'm so so
00:29:20
grateful for and thankful for.
00:29:23
>> Yeah. And it seems like it there's more
00:29:25
chance it's not going to work out than
00:29:27
it working out like it has.
00:29:28
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. No, it is. And and you
00:29:30
never know. I mean, putting a
00:29:31
10-year-old and 12-year-old through
00:29:33
international skiing, you don't know
00:29:34
that it's going to work out. You know
00:29:35
what I mean? Like,
00:29:36
>> no. There's more chance of it not.
00:29:37
>> Yeah. Yeah. Exactly. And there is. And
00:29:38
there is. And there is. and and that's
00:29:40
you know they they supported us through
00:29:42
anything as long as we gave it our all
00:29:44
and we tried our best and
00:29:46
>> um we didn't waste an opportunity that
00:29:48
they were giving us and then yeah they
00:29:50
would support us the whole way through
00:29:51
and so
00:29:52
>> so they never had to push you push you
00:29:53
guys. Oh, there was definitely times
00:29:55
where they were like, "Oh, come on."
00:29:56
Like, "You should, you know, like go
00:29:58
skiing today or go to do school work
00:30:00
there or but it was never it was never
00:30:02
there was never any forcing or any um
00:30:06
Yeah. negative. Yeah. It was never
00:30:08
negative.
00:30:09
>> Yeah.
00:30:10
>> Yeah.
00:30:11
>> Um yeah, there's parallels there with
00:30:12
Taylor Swift like her family moved moved
00:30:14
to
00:30:16
never heard that her family moved all
00:30:18
the way to Nashville just to pursue her
00:30:19
dream. And again, it's the same sort of
00:30:21
thing. It's like massive sacrifice from
00:30:22
the whole family
00:30:24
>> for this shot at a dream. And there's
00:30:26
there's for every Taylor Swift or Nico,
00:30:29
there's
00:30:29
>> hundreds of thousands of others that you
00:30:31
know don't reach that level.
00:30:33
>> It's incredible a the sacrifice that
00:30:35
parents make in order to give their kids
00:30:37
an opportunity is and it's something
00:30:38
that I really want to give my kids is
00:30:40
that opportunity and um yeah. Yeah. And
00:30:43
it's yeah very very lucky and thankful.
00:30:45
>> With you guys, you and your brother, how
00:30:46
much of it was um natural talent versus
00:30:48
hard work? Um, I think
00:30:52
there was a lot of
00:30:57
for me there was there was natural
00:31:00
talent. Um, and for Miguel there maybe
00:31:03
wasn't as much natural talent. There was
00:31:05
still we were still very much both
00:31:06
naturally talented. Um, and I think this
00:31:10
is, you know, and I always had people
00:31:12
around me that were working their ass
00:31:13
off. Miguel was like my dad was a hard
00:31:16
worker. Miguel was a hard worker. My
00:31:18
mom's a hard worker. And so naturally,
00:31:20
even though maybe I had that little bit
00:31:22
of extra talent and I would pick up
00:31:24
things faster,
00:31:26
I was just always surrounded by hard
00:31:29
workers. And so I that was just normal
00:31:31
for me was to work hard. And um yeah, so
00:31:34
we worked hard together and and um as a
00:31:36
unit and and uh that was a really really
00:31:38
cool environment to be in.
00:31:40
>> Yeah.
00:31:40
>> Yeah. Natural talent is only going to
00:31:41
get you so far over. If you got someone
00:31:43
that's got natural talent and they put
00:31:45
in the work,
00:31:46
>> they're going to be unstoppable most of
00:31:47
the time. Yeah. Yeah. Um and that's
00:31:50
Yeah, that's something.
00:31:52
>> Yeah. I don't know. That was pretty
00:31:53
cool.
00:31:53
>> So, the um decision to turn pro when
00:31:55
when was that? Like 10 or 11?
00:31:57
>> Yeah. Um the the decision to chase the
00:32:01
professional skiing was around 10. Uh
00:32:04
and then I would say that I turned
00:32:07
professional when I was probably 14.
00:32:10
>> Right.
00:32:11
>> Yeah.
00:32:12
>> Um and there was no real decision. It
00:32:14
was it was just more like things are
00:32:16
getting better and better and better and
00:32:17
I'm um you know Miguel and I are
00:32:19
achieving results and uh we're moving
00:32:22
forward and so I guess you know from mom
00:32:24
and dad's perspective you're not really
00:32:26
going to pull a kid out if he's working
00:32:27
hard and he's driven in what he's doing
00:32:29
and he's keeping on moving up and and
00:32:32
getting better and what he and what he
00:32:33
does not you know you're not really
00:32:36
going to pull the the
00:32:38
um carpet from underneath that person
00:32:39
most of the time. So
00:32:41
>> yeah.
00:32:44
>> Yeah. But a lot of parents, they'll be
00:32:45
like, "Okay, well, as responsible
00:32:48
parents, we need you to finish school.
00:32:50
You know, when you get to 15, 16,
00:32:52
whatever, then you can make your own
00:32:53
decision." I I can't imagine the
00:32:54
discussions they had letting you guys
00:32:56
home.
00:32:57
>> There was actually um ah the there was
00:33:02
one of the headmasters, the headmaster
00:33:03
at our school in Australia. He then
00:33:05
moved on to become he's actually or he
00:33:07
was I don't know if he still is but he
00:33:09
was the headmaster at Christ College
00:33:10
down in um in Christ Church and and I
00:33:14
forget his name but he gave mom he had
00:33:17
his daughter was um uh pursuing pursuing
00:33:23
an athlete. I can't remember what but he
00:33:25
knew that Miguel and I were away skiing
00:33:27
obviously from our um attendance record
00:33:29
at school.
00:33:31
>> Got the goggle marks on your face.
00:33:32
>> Yeah. Yeah. when we came back looking
00:33:33
like pandas in Australia. So, so he knew
00:33:36
that we, you know, that something was up
00:33:38
and and he knew that we were chasing our
00:33:40
dreams and and and I think he said to
00:33:42
mom, he said, "Don't worry about school.
00:33:44
Just focus on maths and English,
00:33:48
focus on sport because it's one shot and
00:33:50
it's one opportunity. And if you don't
00:33:52
take advantage of that then you know
00:33:55
like you can always come back to school
00:33:56
and you not I'm you know like I'm not
00:33:58
I'm not saying that school you know like
00:34:00
focus on the basics maths English get
00:34:02
really good at that do what you have to
00:34:04
do but just give skiing and give sport
00:34:06
like the biggest shot that you can and I
00:34:08
think that was
00:34:10
>> I don't know mom even brings it up to
00:34:11
this day it's like that was yeah that
00:34:13
was so um I think she really took that
00:34:16
advice on board and um yeah made it
00:34:18
happen. M
00:34:20
>> do you remember like your last proper
00:34:21
day of school or anything? Oh
00:34:24
>> um
00:34:25
>> what was it like the third third form or
00:34:27
year?
00:34:27
>> I think my last day of school was
00:34:29
probably when I was like 14. I think it
00:34:31
was year nine. That would have been
00:34:32
Yeah. 14, year nine, I think. So
00:34:35
>> yeah, but I don't I don't really
00:34:36
remember it as being the last day of
00:34:37
school. I just
00:34:38
>> didn't go back to Well, you know, I just
00:34:40
stayed home school.
00:34:41
>> Yeah.
00:34:41
>> Yeah.
00:34:42
>> What was homeschooling like?
00:34:43
>> Hard.
00:34:44
>> Yeah. In what way?
00:34:45
>> Yeah. I found it really hard. Um cuz you
00:34:48
go skiing all day and and then you'd
00:34:50
come home and you'd have to do school
00:34:52
and you know focusing on
00:34:55
trying to focus on school when you've
00:34:56
put all your energy and and everything
00:34:58
you do into skiing that day
00:35:01
is Yeah. It's it's an uphill battle. But
00:35:03
I was so lucky to have mom there. Like
00:35:05
she's such a good teacher and
00:35:06
>> Oh, was she doing the teaching?
00:35:07
>> She was teaching Miguel. Yeah. And so
00:35:09
she would actually she would actually
00:35:11
study
00:35:13
>> throughout the later years when Miguel
00:35:14
was in year 13 and stuff like that. She
00:35:16
would study ahead of time and refresh
00:35:18
herself on, you know, the maths and
00:35:20
science and English on the curriculum so
00:35:22
that she could teach us like it was
00:35:25
incredible. Yeah.
00:35:26
>> And Yeah. And so it was it was really
00:35:28
hard but she got us through it which was
00:35:31
cool.
00:35:31
>> I can I can tell how grateful you are.
00:35:33
Um
00:35:34
>> Yeah. [ __ ] I'm just thinking like I
00:35:36
remember meeting you when you were 13,
00:35:38
14, whatever it was and you came to the
00:35:39
radio studio
00:35:40
>> and then yeah the still young man
00:35:42
sitting in front of me now. Um you're
00:35:44
impeccably well maned. And you always
00:35:46
have been.
00:35:46
>> Thank you.
00:35:47
>> Never been an [ __ ]
00:35:48
>> I hope not. I think that's like
00:35:50
>> well raised. Your parents must be
00:35:52
incredibly proud.
00:35:53
>> Yeah. Oh, I mean I don't know. They're
00:35:55
incredible people and they're they're
00:35:57
like my family is the biggest role
00:35:58
models of my life and Yeah, that's
00:36:00
really really cool. So, thank you.
00:36:02
>> And when did you team up with um Tommy
00:36:04
Patt?
00:36:05
>> Yeah, Tommy coach, right?
00:36:07
>> Yeah, he was. Yeah. Yeah. So, uh the
00:36:09
last year of my career he he wasn't
00:36:10
coaching me. Um but he coached me from
00:36:13
the age of
00:36:15
I think it was h we actually had our
00:36:17
first day coaching when I was six. So he
00:36:21
mom and dad we we were we would go down
00:36:23
to Wanuka for um a week of training
00:36:26
prior to the junior nationals of free
00:36:28
skiing in New Zealand down at Kadrona.
00:36:30
And um for that week we would get we got
00:36:33
freestyle lessons from someone and mom
00:36:37
chose this guy on the website and was
00:36:40
like right can you do a lesson with my
00:36:42
two boys and and that guy that that she
00:36:45
chose was Tommy. And so from that day it
00:36:49
became more and more frequent and you
00:36:51
know he was with us more and more and
00:36:52
then it got to the point where he was
00:36:54
traveling with us and and then it got to
00:36:56
the point that he was taking us on trips
00:36:58
without mom there and then all of a
00:37:00
sudden I'm standing next to him giving
00:37:01
him a hug before I drop into my Olympic
00:37:03
final and it's like you know like
00:37:05
>> what is life?
00:37:06
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And it and it was
00:37:08
crazy. It's like he's he's family. He's
00:37:10
part of the family. Um, and you know, I
00:37:13
would literally call him an uncle. And
00:37:15
>> yeah, he's uh it was pretty incredible
00:37:17
to have a 15-year bond with someone like
00:37:19
that. And and especially to grow up with
00:37:21
someone like him around me was
00:37:22
>> was um Yeah, very cool and pretty
00:37:25
special to be honest.
00:37:26
>> What a ride. What a ride. Um yeah, you
00:37:28
said you you split up a year ago. Was
00:37:29
that just when you decided to retire?
00:37:32
>> So yeah, we split up um
00:37:35
when was it? It was the year after the
00:37:37
2022 Olympics. Um as yeah, you may or
00:37:41
may not have noticed, but China has made
00:37:43
a huge push in action sports
00:37:45
>> and um the Chinese national team
00:37:47
actually scouted him.
00:37:49
>> Um and yeah, made him an offer that he
00:37:52
couldn't refuse and and look, we just
00:37:53
supported him through that. He was he
00:37:55
was he was so nervous to tell us, you
00:37:57
know, that you know, this 15- year
00:37:59
relationship had come to an end. But at
00:38:01
the same time, it was like
00:38:02
>> like you got to go and you know, you got
00:38:04
to go and chase your dreams and you got
00:38:05
to go and do this. It's like if I if I
00:38:08
didn't accept that, well then, you know,
00:38:10
who am I? Cuz you've given up so much of
00:38:11
your time and life to come and focus on
00:38:13
me helping me achieve my dream that like
00:38:17
how could I say no to that? And so he
00:38:19
left and um then yeah I I went off and
00:38:23
and filmed for a year and didn't compete
00:38:25
and then came back and actually had um
00:38:27
Byron Wells as a coach for the last year
00:38:30
of my career of competitive career which
00:38:31
was pretty special having someone that
00:38:33
had sort of paved well had paved the way
00:38:35
within um New Zealand for halfpipe
00:38:37
skiing coaching me and so um yeah that
00:38:40
was really cool. So yeah, huge thank you
00:38:42
to both of them cuz they gave up so
00:38:44
much.
00:38:44
>> Yeah, what a what a relationship. So
00:38:46
losing losing Tommy's got nothing to do
00:38:48
with you?
00:38:49
>> No,
00:38:49
>> no,
00:38:50
>> no.
00:38:50
>> Let's relieve him from that guilt.
00:38:52
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. No, no. I
00:38:54
mean, he was even he was Yeah. Sorry,
00:38:56
Tommy. I don't Yeah. He was uh he was
00:38:58
actually nervous that Yeah. When when he
00:39:00
did uh tell me that he was stepping
00:39:03
away, he was he was like, "Well, don't
00:39:04
you know, don't go stopping or don't go
00:39:06
do this." And
00:39:07
>> and you know, even back then, he
00:39:09
probably had a slight inkling that he
00:39:10
knew that that was what I was going to
00:39:12
do. You know what I mean? Like
00:39:13
eventually. And so
00:39:14
>> that's why he said it. And um No, but it
00:39:17
had nothing to do with it. Absolutely
00:39:18
nothing.
00:39:19
>> Yeah.
00:39:19
>> [ __ ] What a ride together.
00:39:21
>> Yeah. Crazy ride.
00:39:22
>> Incredible.
00:39:22
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I don't um Yeah. Yeah,
00:39:24
I don't think, you know, there's there's
00:39:27
been,
00:39:28
you know, not every athlete has that
00:39:30
relationship with a coach and um and I
00:39:32
think what was really special about that
00:39:34
was yeah, all the highs and lows and the
00:39:36
wins and the losses and um yeah, just
00:39:40
everything we went to together, but like
00:39:42
spending that time cuz he was learning,
00:39:45
I was learning like he didn't have
00:39:47
experience. He had never stood at the
00:39:48
top of X Games or Olympics, you know
00:39:50
what I mean? And neither had I. So we
00:39:53
were fully in this ride together. Um
00:39:55
which I think was something that both of
00:39:58
us will never forget.
00:39:59
>> That's special. Yeah. It's a bond that
00:40:00
can never be
00:40:00
>> Yeah. Exactly. It is. Yeah. It really
00:40:02
is.
00:40:03
>> Um and Dave Collins, your sports
00:40:06
psychologist.
00:40:06
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Legend.
00:40:07
>> He's another another big um cog in the
00:40:10
world. Part of the Portas team.
00:40:11
>> When when did you first um engage with
00:40:13
the sports psych?
00:40:15
>> When I was
00:40:16
uh the first time I engaged with the
00:40:18
sports psych, this is actually
00:40:19
interesting. I was 10. Um, like that's
00:40:23
crazy that I had sports psychologist at
00:40:24
10, but I'm a piece of work. No,
00:40:29
from a young age I've been a piece of
00:40:30
work. No, but um I was I was 10 and I
00:40:33
was up skiing at Kadona and um I was
00:40:35
really really overcoming this I was
00:40:37
struggling to overcome this mental block
00:40:39
of doing a a right um an unnatural 720.
00:40:43
Um so back flip 360 pretty much. Um, and
00:40:46
I was having this mental block and um,
00:40:48
and I it got so so big that I went down
00:40:52
to the car, was in tears, was
00:40:56
it was just about to call it quits and
00:40:58
was just like like sitting there going,
00:41:00
"Do I really want to go ski or do I just
00:41:02
want to go to high school and be
00:41:03
normal?" And throughout that time and
00:41:06
and the weeks after, I wasn't really
00:41:07
sure and I was, you know, like really
00:41:09
scared of this trick. and and then I got
00:41:12
put in touch with Dave Collins and he
00:41:14
talked to me about, you know, the basic
00:41:16
fundamentals of of being an athlete and
00:41:19
and being a skier. And um I was told
00:41:23
that having a sport psychologist doesn't
00:41:25
mean or psychologist doesn't mean
00:41:26
they're just going to wave a magic wand
00:41:28
in one session and everything's going to
00:41:30
be back to normal. It's a journey that
00:41:31
you have to be you have to buy into and
00:41:33
you have to be willing to engage in and
00:41:35
and um yeah, I mean that's another
00:41:38
relationship that I have outside of my
00:41:40
family um is you know I still work with
00:41:43
him to this day. Like
00:41:44
>> what he he must have been um he must
00:41:46
have had a really good communication
00:41:48
style to be able to you know communicate
00:41:49
with a 10-year-old.
00:41:50
>> I know he's just a legend. Like he's an
00:41:52
absolute um
00:41:54
>> Yeah, he's an incredible person. He was
00:41:57
Yeah, I I really don't want to mess this
00:41:59
up, but he was uh I think it was Royal
00:42:01
Marines
00:42:02
>> and did a did a very high number of
00:42:04
missions with the Royal Marines in the
00:42:05
UK and um is a very very um respected
00:42:10
sport psychologist.
00:42:12
>> Uh and I think it I was just
00:42:16
like insanely lucky to be able to work
00:42:18
with someone like that and and that was
00:42:19
through the help of High Performance
00:42:20
Sport and Snow Sports New Zealand. So
00:42:22
them allowing me to have access to
00:42:24
someone someone like that was yeah at
00:42:26
the age of 10 is like that's incredible.
00:42:29
Like that is so so cool.
00:42:31
>> How did that relationship look? Like how
00:42:32
often did you see him? Was it just like
00:42:34
a case by case? You just jump on a Zoom
00:42:35
when needed or
00:42:36
>> It started it started off pretty mellow
00:42:38
like being a 10-year-old you don't
00:42:40
really have many issues in your life
00:42:41
other than you can't do a you can't do a
00:42:44
back flip 360. You know what I mean?
00:42:45
Like you know like Yeah. you're not you
00:42:47
don't uh you don't call them up going,
00:42:49
"Oh, I'm I'm lying in bed wide awake and
00:42:52
I can't sleep cuz I'm nervous or I feel
00:42:53
pressure or something like that." And so
00:42:56
yeah, it it it started off pretty chill
00:42:58
and then at a certain point in time
00:43:00
there was definitely like a fortnightly
00:43:01
catchup that was happening or he would
00:43:03
come on intensive blocks and I'd see him
00:43:05
every day for a week and we'd work on
00:43:07
stuff or
00:43:08
>> um yeah and then towards the back end
00:43:11
tail it off a little bit when things
00:43:13
were going well and I was winning a lot.
00:43:14
Then it sort of started to tailor off a
00:43:17
little bit and it would be once every
00:43:18
couple of months just to check in how
00:43:19
things are going and
00:43:20
>> yeah then he's really been a big part of
00:43:22
this last sort of year and um throughout
00:43:25
the last sort of two years he's he's
00:43:27
been um yeah really incredible.
00:43:30
>> So he'll still be a part of your life
00:43:31
now or
00:43:32
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yep. Yeah. I'm still I'm
00:43:34
still uh still working with him and
00:43:35
still um yeah, still talk to him every
00:43:37
now and again and just check in cuz you
00:43:40
know it's sort of been one of the it's
00:43:42
sort of been one of the more challenging
00:43:43
times of my life to be honest in the
00:43:44
past year and to have someone like him
00:43:46
that has seen me grow throughout the
00:43:48
whole process and has been there for
00:43:49
everything and sort of seen the inner
00:43:51
workings of my head um then yeah he's
00:43:54
he's one of the best people uh being in
00:43:57
the position that I have been in to give
00:43:58
me good advice.
00:44:00
Why has it been so challenging? Just
00:44:01
like letting go of part of your identity
00:44:03
or
00:44:04
>> Yeah, I think so. And I think it's I
00:44:05
think stepping into unknown has really
00:44:07
made it challenging. Um and um you know,
00:44:10
like I said earlier, it was my decision
00:44:11
to step into the unknown and being
00:44:12
comfortable with that and and
00:44:14
understanding, you know, the things that
00:44:16
are going to go away and the things that
00:44:17
are going to stay and the things that
00:44:18
are going to get better and the things
00:44:19
are going to get worse, you know, and
00:44:20
and understanding the it actually in in
00:44:23
depth what it means to step away and to
00:44:25
make that decision. And so, um, yeah, he
00:44:27
was really, really helpful.
00:44:29
>> Do you find some of the, um, some of the
00:44:31
some of the lessons and some of the
00:44:32
tools and stuff you've got from him, you
00:44:34
know, they are applicable in day-to-day
00:44:36
life?
00:44:36
>> Oh, yeah. Yeah, they and and a lot of
00:44:39
the time and to be honest, that's a kind
00:44:41
of a tricky question to ask answer
00:44:43
because
00:44:44
>> I feel like I'm so um
00:44:48
like it's so ingrained in me that I
00:44:50
wouldn't actually know I wouldn't be
00:44:51
able to tell you the parts that he has,
00:44:53
>> you know, and the skills that he has
00:44:55
given me sort of thing. Yeah. I don't
00:44:57
know. I think one of the biggest things
00:44:58
that he did tell me um was and and
00:45:03
something that I find comfort in is that
00:45:04
don't don't be worried about being
00:45:06
worried, you know, like you can be
00:45:07
worried about something and that's
00:45:08
totally normal and it's okay, but don't
00:45:11
worry about feeling like that. Like
00:45:12
don't be stressed about being stressed,
00:45:15
>> you know, and and just understand and
00:45:16
and trust that you're stressed or you're
00:45:18
worried and that you can't do anything
00:45:20
about that. And
00:45:22
>> all of the time it's for a reason. Um
00:45:24
whether that's you have something crazy
00:45:26
going on in your life or upcoming or you
00:45:29
maybe haven't had enough sleep in the
00:45:30
past four nights, you know, these things
00:45:31
sort of lead to, you know, and it's and
00:45:33
it's don't make that situation worse.
00:45:35
And that's something that he
00:45:37
>> like Yeah. That's one of his biggest
00:45:38
things that I've taken away.
00:45:40
>> Yeah. One thing I've um learned about
00:45:42
you while researching for this in the
00:45:44
past week is um just crippling anxiety,
00:45:47
right?
00:45:47
>> Yeah. Yeah.
00:45:48
>> Like terrible nerves.
00:45:49
>> Oh, yeah. Yeah. Gnarly.
00:45:50
>> They
00:45:52
Yeah. Yeah. Have they subsided or do
00:45:54
they just as you keep trying to raise
00:45:55
the bar? Does it just remain because
00:45:57
you're constantly pushing?
00:45:58
>> They come and go. They come and go. Um
00:46:00
they definitely have I've um
00:46:05
yeah, I've I've uh developed skills that
00:46:08
help me deal with them. But in sometimes
00:46:10
I'll have it'll just come on and I'll be
00:46:12
like, "Oh my goodness, like I'm nervous.
00:46:14
Like why why am I nervous right now?"
00:46:15
you know, and and then I just will, you
00:46:17
know, revert back to breath or I'll
00:46:19
start thinking about certain things or
00:46:22
Yeah. I don't know. I just use that that
00:46:24
technique to to help overcome that.
00:46:26
>> Um
00:46:27
>> Yeah.
00:46:28
>> Yeah. Well, thanks for sharing that.
00:46:29
>> Oh, it's all good.
00:46:30
>> Okay. Um you're I've done like almost
00:46:33
250 podcast episodes. This is the first
00:46:35
Winter Olympian I've ever had on.
00:46:37
>> So, um
00:46:39
>> Yeah. What are they like? I've had so
00:46:40
many summer Olympians on. Yeah, but
00:46:42
yeah, the winter Olympics, the the
00:46:44
village, like are there perks? Is there
00:46:46
free McDonald's? Is there a massive food
00:46:47
court?
00:46:48
>> Yeah, that stuff's good fun.
00:46:49
>> Is everyone going around shagging each
00:46:51
other like?
00:46:52
>> Um, kind of to be honest. It's like I
00:46:56
don't know. Yeah. Well, I mean, China
00:46:59
was a different story cuz it was co and
00:47:00
it's China so it's a little bit like
00:47:02
>> I know a little bit crazy to begin with.
00:47:04
Um, and then Korea when I was 16 was was
00:47:09
crazy. That was sick. Like it was so so
00:47:11
cool. and such a cool experience. And
00:47:13
they just I mean the same as the summer
00:47:15
I think and they just build apartment
00:47:17
blocks and we were living in an
00:47:19
apartment and
00:47:21
um just Miguel and I were sharing a room
00:47:22
which is like sharing a room with your
00:47:24
brother at the Olympics is pretty
00:47:26
special like not everyone gets to do
00:47:27
that and so having him there was really
00:47:30
cool and um yeah and then you know the
00:47:33
the New Zealand team at the time was
00:47:35
really young and and that was really
00:47:36
really um special but there was
00:47:38
McDonald's and there was there was a
00:47:41
dentist surgery and like you get full
00:47:44
dental work and haircuts and you know
00:47:46
phones and just all sorts of stuff. And
00:47:50
um then Red Bull had a nightclub. Red
00:47:52
Bull had like a pop-up nightclub that
00:47:53
they had going there for a while. And so
00:47:56
when you got a medal, you would Yeah.
00:47:58
You would go and um celebrate at the Red
00:48:00
Bull nightclub and you'd walk in and you
00:48:03
know there's videos. Yeah. There was
00:48:05
just good times. Like we'd walk in and
00:48:06
there'd be a bottle of Grey Goose and
00:48:08
surrounded by Red Bull and Red Bull
00:48:10
vodkas and like you just have all your
00:48:12
best friends around you at the Olympics
00:48:14
and it's like I mean that was you know
00:48:16
maybe maybe not what a 16-year-old
00:48:18
should be doing but it's sort of like
00:48:20
it's sort of like
00:48:22
>> you know come on that's a once in a
00:48:23
lifetime thing you know and that was
00:48:25
really Yeah.
00:48:27
>> Amazing. Oh were you on the Grey Goose
00:48:28
at 16 after the Olympics?
00:48:30
>> No no no of course not. Okay. Um
00:48:34
yeah, this this might seem like an odd
00:48:36
question. I don't even know if this is a
00:48:37
discussion you you've had, but so you're
00:48:39
both um your brother and yourself
00:48:40
ridiculously successful. Like as you
00:48:42
said, you know, sharing an apartment
00:48:43
together at the Olympics. Um but you
00:48:47
you've your level of success has has
00:48:49
been like a step higher than than him, I
00:48:51
suppose, in terms of um
00:48:52
>> the visible awards, you know, the H the
00:48:54
Hellburg award, sportsman of the year,
00:48:56
the medals.
00:48:57
>> Has it been hard on him?
00:49:01
M
00:49:04
>> I I know he's super proud
00:49:05
>> and I I don't actually know because he
00:49:08
even if it was hard he would never he
00:49:10
he's that type of person that he would
00:49:11
never express that to me and he would
00:49:14
never
00:49:14
>> he would never let me know that and the
00:49:18
only emotion that he would show towards
00:49:19
me would be
00:49:21
>> being proud. Yeah. and being having that
00:49:23
pride. Um,
00:49:26
and I think yeah, I was like I mean you
00:49:30
know that's that's some character to do
00:49:31
that you know when some there would be
00:49:33
some times where
00:49:36
>> you know he would crash and
00:49:38
>> well like at the first Olympics he he
00:49:40
was like skiing the best he ever had in
00:49:42
the buildup to it and then he crashed
00:49:44
both his runs in qualifying and didn't
00:49:46
make finals and that was like you know
00:49:48
like he'd made finals at every event
00:49:50
that season. And it was sort of like wo
00:49:51
and then his younger brother that had
00:49:53
only just come onto the scene
00:49:55
landed a run in qualifying and made
00:49:57
finals and then went on to win bronze.
00:49:58
It's like
00:49:59
>> that for anybody can't you know like
00:50:01
that can't not be hard you know and
00:50:04
>> I don't know but I know that he is an
00:50:07
incredible and incredible person has an
00:50:09
incredibly strong character that he
00:50:11
would never show that to me. he would
00:50:12
only just be proud of me and supportive
00:50:14
of that in that situation. And and and
00:50:16
and same goes the other way is that I
00:50:19
was always proud of him. And and in
00:50:20
fact, one of the one of my favorite
00:50:23
favorite two moments of my career was
00:50:26
the first one
00:50:29
being when he won XGame silver. Um I
00:50:32
think that was the year before 2018
00:50:35
Olympic 2017 he won X Games silver and
00:50:38
that was like oh my goodness like we've
00:50:41
achieve it felt like we have achieved
00:50:42
this goal you know like Miguel and
00:50:45
that's my brother he's he's standing on
00:50:47
the XG games podium like this is crazy
00:50:49
we've been together doing this from such
00:50:51
a young age and it's like we have
00:50:52
achieved this together and then yeah I
00:50:56
remember just standing looking at him on
00:50:57
the podium and just like being you know
00:51:01
total disbelief that this was happening
00:51:02
in front of me. And and the second
00:51:03
moment was not the the winning at the
00:51:08
2022 Olympics. It wasn't standing on the
00:51:10
podium. It was
00:51:12
>> the first person that I got to see at
00:51:14
the bottom of that event when I'd found
00:51:16
out everything was happening and you
00:51:18
know the result and stuff like that was
00:51:20
my brother.
00:51:21
>> The first person I got to say something
00:51:23
to
00:51:24
>> and hear something from was Miguel. And
00:51:26
that was us hugging each other and him
00:51:28
going, "Fuck yeah." like congrats. You
00:51:32
know what I mean? And it's like
00:51:33
goosebumps.
00:51:34
>> Yeah. Like that. Like that's more
00:51:36
important than anything else, you know?
00:51:38
Like
00:51:39
>> Yeah. I don't know. And and and
00:51:41
>> yeah, [ __ ] Miguel is such an incredible
00:51:44
person and I'm so lucky to have him as a
00:51:46
brother.
00:51:46
>> Yeah. So those those Olympics um 2018
00:51:49
Pon Chang, you were aged 16 years and 91
00:51:52
days.
00:51:53
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
00:51:53
>> Um, when you won the bronze medal, what
00:51:55
was what was the name of your winning
00:51:57
move or moves?
00:52:00
>> And what was it exactly? They have weird
00:52:02
names. Eh,
00:52:03
>> yeah, my the winning maneuvers I would
00:52:05
say at 2018 was what did I do then? I
00:52:10
think I did
00:52:12
Yeah, I would say that it was like um I
00:52:15
did a double c 1440 at the top. That was
00:52:18
like what's that? Two flips and
00:52:21
four full spins. Yeah, two flips, four
00:52:24
full spins, and then straight into the
00:52:25
next hit. Did a 900. And it was just a
00:52:29
lot of spinning. It was just a And
00:52:30
that's the thing is that the judges said
00:52:32
to me after is that they were like, you
00:52:34
know, cuz we always go and talk to the
00:52:35
judges after an event cuz, you know, how
00:52:37
else do you know what to improve on and
00:52:38
how to get better and stuff like that.
00:52:40
And um they said, you had gold medal
00:52:44
technicality, but everything else was
00:52:46
lacking. M
00:52:48
>> and so that's what I went and worked on
00:52:50
for the next like four years. Well,
00:52:52
yeah, four years. Yeah. I I kept working
00:52:54
the same rate um with the same, you
00:52:57
know, pace on the technicality, but
00:52:58
really put an emphasis on the other
00:53:00
sides of skiing and the judging and um
00:53:02
yeah, that paid off.
00:53:05
>> And I think it was this Olympics. I saw
00:53:07
an interview with your mom. Um she she
00:53:09
talked about how your nerves were so
00:53:10
intense like she that stayed up till
00:53:11
4:00 or 5:00 in the morning just like
00:53:13
>> So so were your parents in the apartment
00:53:15
with you in the Olympic village or just
00:53:16
you and your bro?
00:53:17
>> Yeah, just just Miguel and I and then
00:53:19
they're not actually allowed into the
00:53:20
village.
00:53:21
>> Um and so there was a time at 2018 where
00:53:24
it got so intense that and I got so um I
00:53:28
guess petrified of what I was where I
00:53:30
was and what I was doing that mom and
00:53:32
dad um were hanging out in Seoul at the
00:53:36
time. uh they had an apartment and was
00:53:38
sort of just there in case anything went
00:53:40
wrong in the buildup and sort of just
00:53:42
checking out Korea because you know they
00:53:43
had this opportunity to come over and um
00:53:46
yeah so I hopped on a bullet train and
00:53:48
went down and saw them and just
00:53:49
completely got out of the Olympic
00:53:50
environment and that was um that was
00:53:54
like the biggest thing that was so good.
00:53:55
I just went down with them and just ate
00:53:57
food and went and walked around Seoul
00:53:59
and just completely forgot about
00:54:01
Olympics and
00:54:02
>> just acted like a normal kid.
00:54:03
>> Yeah. Yeah. just acted like a kid on
00:54:04
holiday with his parents and that was
00:54:06
like
00:54:06
>> you were
00:54:08
>> Yeah, for those Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Like
00:54:11
it's you know it's crazy.
00:54:13
>> Um and I just Yeah. I don't know. So the
00:54:16
the fact that they they were like so
00:54:19
aware of the situation and they I don't
00:54:22
know whether I think I think it was
00:54:24
actually DC uh Dave Collins that that
00:54:26
gave him that advice was to just be
00:54:28
there and sort of get an apartment out
00:54:29
of it and
00:54:30
>> maybe you know give them space to come
00:54:33
and check out down and away from the
00:54:34
Olympic village and stuff like that and
00:54:36
and yeah I think like I'm so lucky that
00:54:38
I had people around me that were that
00:54:40
aware and and that um wise and to give
00:54:43
me that opportunity to do
00:54:45
Can you remember that? Can you remember
00:54:46
staying up all night talking to your
00:54:47
mom?
00:54:48
>> Yeah. Yeah. I mean, that wasn't just one
00:54:49
time. That was a lot. And And really?
00:54:51
Oh, yeah. Yeah. That was a lot. And And
00:54:54
um
00:54:54
>> what like are you like expressing your
00:54:57
nerves about the competition or you just
00:54:59
talking about anything but
00:55:00
>> Yeah. It would it would be I mean, I
00:55:04
would probably start off by talking
00:55:05
about the competition, but it but in
00:55:07
saying that, it wasn't actually just
00:55:08
competitions that would give me this. It
00:55:09
would be trying a new trick the next
00:55:10
day. It would be trying a new trick in
00:55:12
two days time. it would be the fact that
00:55:14
I'm at a training camp in order to learn
00:55:15
a new trick and that trick was stressing
00:55:17
me out. So, it was like it was I'm such
00:55:20
a worrier and such a stressful like
00:55:21
stress, you know, when I get stressed, I
00:55:23
get stressed and and um yeah, I would I
00:55:27
think the conversations that I had with
00:55:28
mom would start off with talking about
00:55:30
the trick and and that and then she
00:55:33
would be very good at distracting and
00:55:35
moving on to something else. And um
00:55:37
yeah, listening to I'd listen to
00:55:39
podcasts, listen to country life a lot.
00:55:41
Like I'd spend
00:55:42
>> country life um you know the radio New
00:55:44
Zealand country life that they do about
00:55:46
the farming the farming show.
00:55:47
>> I'd listen to that like
00:55:48
>> that's so random.
00:55:49
>> I know. I' because it would distract me.
00:55:51
It would be and it would be so nice cuz
00:55:53
I'd be on the road and and it would be
00:55:55
like you know sounds of home like you
00:55:57
know you'd hear they do interviews on
00:55:58
the farm and you'd hear the birds and
00:56:00
you know like it was just relaxing you
00:56:03
like I know that's so weird but it was
00:56:05
just so soothing. Yeah. And so I would
00:56:07
do that where I'd talk to mom and I'd
00:56:09
listen to podcast and eventually I'd get
00:56:10
to sleep and sometimes I wouldn't.
00:56:12
>> Yeah. There was one time where I didn't
00:56:13
get to sleep and I just stayed awake all
00:56:15
night
00:56:16
>> and that was actually the night before
00:56:19
Olympic qualifying in 2018. I I was up
00:56:21
uh all night because I couldn't sleep
00:56:23
cuz I was so nervous. And I spoke to DC
00:56:26
and Dave Collins in the morning and he
00:56:27
said, "Look, you know what you got to
00:56:30
do. You've practiced it. You've done it.
00:56:33
As soon as you get a little bit of
00:56:34
adrenaline in your body, you're not
00:56:36
going to know that you haven't slept."
00:56:37
>> Like, you're going to Yeah, you're not
00:56:38
going to be maybe as sharp as you could
00:56:41
be, but you've done all this before. You
00:56:43
know what's happening. Just just back
00:56:46
yourself and and trust yourself. And
00:56:48
that's something that I've always like
00:56:50
always utilized since then is knowing
00:56:52
that when you do get adrenaline in you,
00:56:54
if you trust that adrenaline and you
00:56:56
trust your preparation, well then you
00:56:58
know that you can do it.
00:56:59
>> Yeah. And muscle memory from the
00:57:00
thousands of hours of work went into it.
00:57:02
I had Louis Lewis Cleber, the swimmer on
00:57:04
the podcast, he said a similar sort of
00:57:05
thing
00:57:06
>> like sleepless nights before competition
00:57:07
and then his um his mental skills coach
00:57:10
maybe just his coach said to him like
00:57:12
you know one bad night's sleep's not
00:57:13
going to undo it's not going to do [ __ ]
00:57:15
all.
00:57:15
>> No. Exactly. And maybe, you know, maybe
00:57:17
if you're like an archer or something
00:57:18
and you get the shakes because, you
00:57:20
know, you're tired or something like
00:57:21
that. But even then, with the nerves and
00:57:23
like with nerves and and um excitement
00:57:26
and adrenaline, you're going to be
00:57:27
awake. So,
00:57:29
>> with that in mind though, with you
00:57:30
describing how um debilitating it's
00:57:32
been, it's it's um a miracle that you've
00:57:34
been in the sport for so long.
00:57:37
>> Yeah.
00:57:38
>> Like, it really is. It's a lot to go
00:57:39
through.
00:57:40
>> Yeah. No, it is a lot to go through. And
00:57:42
I think it's that those moments of those
00:57:44
high moments and those moments of
00:57:46
success um and those you know moments of
00:57:50
being proud of yourself for achieving
00:57:51
something sort of outweigh those
00:57:53
>> um those harder moments.
00:57:55
>> Yeah. Was that life-changing? And if so,
00:57:58
how?
00:57:58
>> The the bronze medal in 2018.
00:58:02
>> Yeah.
00:58:02
>> Yeah. I mean like
00:58:04
personally no. Like I like I mean I
00:58:07
don't think it changed who I was
00:58:08
personally. maybe people around me would
00:58:10
have a different story, but
00:58:12
>> I still I don't think so. And and so in
00:58:15
that way, no, it didn't change my life
00:58:17
at all. But in other ways, like, you
00:58:19
know, if that hadn't happened, I
00:58:20
probably wouldn't be sitting here
00:58:21
talking with you.
00:58:22
>> Um
00:58:22
>> on terms of like doors that open.
00:58:24
>> Yeah. Doors that open and opportunities
00:58:25
and and um situations that you find
00:58:28
yourself in because of these things. And
00:58:30
um
00:58:31
>> yeah, I don't know. It's uh it has
00:58:33
definitely changed my life, but also at
00:58:36
the same time, it hasn't like Yeah.
00:58:38
The 24 or 48 hours after that, what did
00:58:41
that look like? The
00:58:42
>> another couple of nights of no sleep.
00:58:44
>> Oh yeah, the the So the 48 hours after
00:58:48
2018 were crazy cuz that was the first
00:58:51
time in 26 years or 26 years or
00:58:53
something that New Zealand had won um a
00:58:56
medal at the Winter Olympics.
00:58:57
>> Who was it? Was it Analise Cober?
00:58:59
>> Yep. Yeah. In Slalam in 1980 or I don't
00:59:04
know 2018us 26 92 maybe. I don't know.
00:59:07
Yeah. Sorry for bad math, but um yeah,
00:59:09
so so Zoe um Saski Senate won bronze and
00:59:12
big air and um also being 16 and then a
00:59:15
week later I won bronze and half five
00:59:17
and those were the first two medals in
00:59:18
in a long time and so it was a big deal
00:59:21
in New Zealand and um we flew home from
00:59:24
Korea 24 hours or 48 hours later and we
00:59:28
just went into a 5day media
00:59:32
>> like circus. It was it was just every 5
00:59:36
minutes we were on another interview. We
00:59:37
had another phone. Then we were driving
00:59:38
to this studio. Then we're doing this
00:59:40
and then we were you know we were doing
00:59:42
a a meet and greet at High Performance
00:59:45
Sport. Then we're going to government
00:59:46
house and then we're going on the plane
00:59:48
down to Wanuker and having a welcoming
00:59:50
and hucker at Queenstown airport and
00:59:51
then onto a parade in Wanuka. It was it
00:59:53
was just like it was crazy and that was
00:59:58
that was like such a a whirlwind and um
01:00:02
yeah so that was the 24 hours after 2018
01:00:04
and then the 24 hours after 2022 were a
01:00:07
little bit different because it was co
01:00:08
and and I knew that those first the
01:00:12
first Olympics really took it out of me
01:00:13
and that really really wore me down
01:00:15
>> that period and um yeah it was it was
01:00:19
really really tough that time and uh
01:00:21
2022 I
01:00:23
was like, "Fuck this. Whatever happens,
01:00:26
I'm just going to
01:00:27
>> like I'm just going to go and enjoy it
01:00:30
and you know, like, yeah, I'm I'm just
01:00:32
going to hang out with my friends and
01:00:35
>> um my brother and yeah, that's what I
01:00:37
did." And so it was a bit more chill.
01:00:39
>> Still a lot of media, but
01:00:42
>> yeah, ju just thinking about those games
01:00:44
um you all the media and stuff that came
01:00:46
afterwards. You've sort of grown up in
01:00:48
the public eye. There's been no missteps
01:00:49
though. Are you comparing you to like
01:00:52
Justin Bieber like uh you know
01:00:55
a lot of people that have like like fame
01:00:56
or you profile at a young age they they
01:01:00
usually some push back at some point.
01:01:03
>> Um
01:01:03
>> yeah I've been very lucky to not have
01:01:05
any scrutiny like that. Um
01:01:09
>> I don't know. I guess
01:01:10
>> you just haven't done anything.
01:01:11
>> Yeah. I just I was just warranted that
01:01:12
scrutiny. I was just I think I was just
01:01:15
forced to be aware of it from so young.
01:01:16
Um, you know, the last thing that I'd
01:01:18
want to do would to be to
01:01:22
mess up and
01:01:24
put a bad name on my parents or my
01:01:27
family and
01:01:28
>> especially because they work so hard
01:01:30
>> for me, you know, they as mom and dad
01:01:31
work so hard and sacrificed so much to
01:01:33
get to me me to where I wanted to be
01:01:37
that if I were to go and do something
01:01:38
that were, you know, if I were to make a
01:01:41
mistake and you know, you know, stuff up
01:01:45
and and it be in the media or yeah, make
01:01:47
a mistake and then that would that would
01:01:49
um tarnish their name and and that's not
01:01:51
something that I ever wanted to do, but
01:01:52
at Yeah. Yeah.
01:01:55
>> Oh, good on you.
01:01:56
>> Yeah.
01:01:57
>> I mean, it'd be easy to like have an
01:01:58
inflated ego or go through a [ __ ]
01:02:00
phase or something. Feels like you you
01:02:02
avoided that completely.
01:02:04
>> Yeah. Um I think I did. I hope I did.
01:02:07
>> Yeah.
01:02:07
>> Yeah. So far, touchwood.
01:02:09
>> Yeah. Yeah. Touchwood. Um, so the uh
01:02:12
2022 Olympics at Beijing, um, that's
01:02:14
where you won gold. What changed between
01:02:17
2018 and 2022? Four years older, four
01:02:19
years more experience. What else?
01:02:23
>> Um,
01:02:24
four years more pressure,
01:02:26
>> I think. Way more pressure. Yeah. Way
01:02:28
more target on your back. Yeah. Yeah. I
01:02:29
had a target on my back in the two years
01:02:31
in the buildup, you know, from 20, what
01:02:33
was that? 2020 through to 2021.
01:02:37
Um, there was some good results in
01:02:39
there. I think 2021 I um became world
01:02:43
champion um and won X Games that year as
01:02:46
well. And um yeah, so I I sort of just I
01:02:50
guess I just continued to um to grow and
01:02:53
to get better and and I think um luckily
01:02:56
I didn't have any major injury at that
01:02:58
time and so I think that was just it was
01:02:59
all this perfect storm that just like
01:03:01
led up over four years. There was
01:03:04
obviously hardships in between and there
01:03:05
were really hard times and but
01:03:09
for the most part it was just a perfect
01:03:10
storm that led up to the perfect series
01:03:13
of events. Uh and that being on the day
01:03:15
of the Olympics I performed when it
01:03:17
counted.
01:03:18
>> Um and I think yeah I just I just kept
01:03:20
my head down and kept working hard and
01:03:22
chasing ambitions that
01:03:24
>> you know were were Yeah. big ambitions.
01:03:27
I think just having big ambitions and
01:03:28
and just working for them.
01:03:30
>> Yeah. in terms of I think most New
01:03:33
Zealanders like it's quite a niche
01:03:35
sport. So we'll see you on TV if you're
01:03:36
doing well like every four years or
01:03:38
whatever it happens to be. So we'll see
01:03:40
you on [ __ ] I don't know Seven Sharp,
01:03:42
Campbell Live, Breakfast, ZB, whatever
01:03:44
it happens to be.
01:03:46
>> Um what don't we see like what what is
01:03:49
the um what is the work that goes into
01:03:50
getting to that?
01:03:52
>> Uh it's the sacrifice like we talked
01:03:53
about. That was obviously a major
01:03:55
sacrifice period in my life and um so
01:03:58
that's one thing. the the physical side
01:04:01
of it. You have to be physically
01:04:02
conditioned to be at that level. Um the
01:04:06
mental side of things was was my biggest
01:04:08
challenge personally was the mental side
01:04:10
of things and and learning how to deal
01:04:11
with pressure and overcome nerves and um
01:04:14
you know deal with your own problems
01:04:15
going on especially throughout that time
01:04:17
when you're what do you know you're 17
01:04:19
through
01:04:20
>> 20 like that's like god there's a lot of
01:04:24
stuff going on in your head. Your
01:04:25
testosterone is peaking. You're like,
01:04:27
you know, you don't know really what's
01:04:29
going on. You don't Yeah. You know, you
01:04:30
don't know how to control those emotions
01:04:32
at all. You like I think what is your
01:04:34
frontal lobe's not even working at that
01:04:36
time.
01:04:37
>> I'm 52. I think my frontal lobe is still
01:04:40
sort of molding into place.
01:04:41
>> Yeah. Coming coming into play, but no,
01:04:44
like at that time, you're just like
01:04:46
you're so all over the show like
01:04:49
chemically as a person and and and um a
01:04:52
young adult. And so I think that
01:04:55
combined with everything else going on
01:04:58
like yeah it was it was difficult. It
01:05:00
was difficult but I like you know as
01:05:02
we've talked about I had an amazing
01:05:03
support network around me that helped me
01:05:06
you know manage that at least to the
01:05:07
point that I could go out and ski how I
01:05:09
wanted to ski. And
01:05:10
>> yeah there was some big learnings
01:05:11
throughout that time and and some things
01:05:13
that definitely led me to um being able
01:05:16
to formulate a way of thinking and
01:05:18
performing that worked for 2022. And
01:05:20
that was like I figured out that I I
01:05:24
couldn't set results result based goals.
01:05:26
So I couldn't be like, "Oh, I want to go
01:05:28
and win this event or I'm going to go
01:05:31
and win the Globe this year." It's like
01:05:33
that didn't work for me cuz I like I
01:05:36
don't know. You can't set you can't set
01:05:38
a goal of something at the end of the
01:05:39
day that you can't control. Like I
01:05:41
couldn't control the final outcome cuz
01:05:42
it's judged by other people. And like I
01:05:45
don't know, anything can happen. They're
01:05:46
human. They're not robots. our sports
01:05:48
judged by humans and humans make
01:05:50
mistakes and humans,
01:05:51
>> you know, don't aren't consistent. Um,
01:05:54
they try to be, but they're not. And I
01:05:57
put a lot of pressure on myself to
01:05:59
achieve those goals that were actually
01:06:01
not in my control. So, I had one year
01:06:03
where I had couple podiums the year
01:06:05
before. I think I got my first X Games
01:06:07
medal. Uh, and sorry, this was 2019, so
01:06:10
it was after the Olympic year, and I set
01:06:12
out to go and win the Globe, which was
01:06:13
the world title. like it was the top of
01:06:17
the standing. Um I guess it would be
01:06:19
yeah you you're like the highest ranking
01:06:21
from all the events and I set out to go
01:06:22
and win that and I had like the worst
01:06:27
year like I was like consistently like
01:06:30
10th 11th 12th um just I went from you
01:06:34
know being on podiums to then like
01:06:36
cooking it. And so I realized that that
01:06:39
was because I am not very good at being
01:06:43
results focused and outcome focused. I
01:06:44
was more around the process and and
01:06:47
being driven by, you know, how can I go
01:06:50
through the process in order to achieve
01:06:53
uh the goal, you know, you know, and
01:06:54
sort of like substituting them out.
01:06:56
>> Um does that make sense?
01:06:58
>> Yeah, makes perfect sense.
01:07:00
>> Um and in terms of the training and
01:07:02
stuff dayto-day,
01:07:04
>> like to get to that point, you know, to
01:07:05
get to the point where you're doing um a
01:07:07
backto-back 1620, so we'll get into that
01:07:09
soon.
01:07:10
>> Um yeah, what does training look like?
01:07:12
So, I suppose it very easy for people to
01:07:14
go, "Oh, yeah, he just skis all day and
01:07:16
then goes to the Olympics every four
01:07:17
years." But no, it's that's the reality
01:07:19
of it.
01:07:20
>> Yeah, it's not like that. Um, and I
01:07:22
think our focus was
01:07:26
>> when we started getting more into the
01:07:28
high end of things, I think it was like
01:07:30
very umh
01:07:33
I guess what it what's the saying? It's
01:07:34
like rather than doing lots of [ __ ] you
01:07:37
do a little bit of great of of perfect.
01:07:40
So it's like consistently doing little
01:07:41
amounts of really good and then in the
01:07:44
moments that you can do high repetition
01:07:46
without having an uh negative impact on
01:07:49
your body or your mental or your you
01:07:51
know like that side of things then you
01:07:53
do do a lot and so dayto-day for me
01:07:55
would sort of be like I just go skiing.
01:07:58
Oh, well, I say that I'd just go Yeah,
01:08:00
that's just Yeah, you just go skiing,
01:08:02
but No, I would I' I'd wake up and I'd
01:08:06
go up the mountain and um I would either
01:08:10
go and work on I'd go up there with a
01:08:12
goal every single day. Um and I'd make
01:08:15
that goal with my coach Tommy in the car
01:08:17
on the way up and we would then talk
01:08:20
about a plan on how we were going to
01:08:21
achieve that goal that day. And whether
01:08:23
that was, okay, go and do you need to go
01:08:25
and do four of this trick, then you need
01:08:28
to go and do three of this trick. Or it
01:08:30
might only just be you need to do four
01:08:31
of this trick today, or you need to do
01:08:33
two of this trick today. And it's like
01:08:36
you just that's your whole day. And once
01:08:38
you achieve that, done. You know, you
01:08:41
you just go and you can maybe go and
01:08:43
free ski for a little bit if you wanted
01:08:44
to because at the end of the day, I do
01:08:45
love skiing and I just love what I do.
01:08:47
And
01:08:48
>> um so I would just go and ski without a
01:08:49
coach.
01:08:50
>> Mh. but not drain the energy so that I
01:08:53
could come up and do it another three
01:08:55
again the next day. And so that just
01:08:57
kept going and going and progressing.
01:08:59
And then you know we had um the
01:09:02
facilities started to get better and
01:09:04
better with like the investment from
01:09:05
high performance sport and snow sports
01:09:07
and they supplied us with an airbag
01:09:10
setup that we had up Kadona and and that
01:09:12
was a huge part of my training
01:09:13
throughout that period. An airbag is
01:09:15
like a 20 m by 20 m vinyl cushion that
01:09:18
is blown up by like industrial fans and
01:09:20
you land on it and it cushions your your
01:09:22
impact and minimizes risks and injury
01:09:24
and stuff. And so I would go out. So
01:09:26
it's like working you take off on normal
01:09:28
snow and you can do the full trick
01:09:30
wearing, you know, your helmet, your
01:09:31
goggles, your gloves, your skis,
01:09:33
everything normal. But the thing is
01:09:35
you're landing on a big cushion so it
01:09:37
minimizes risk. And so I would go up and
01:09:40
drill in a certain number of tricks
01:09:43
every day. And so that being one of
01:09:45
those moments that you can go and do the
01:09:47
higher volume and the higher um amounts
01:09:50
because the risk is less.
01:09:52
>> So it was about managing that risk and
01:09:54
and so we go up and I'd do you know 10
01:09:57
to the left and 10 to the right you know
01:09:59
this was throughout the 16 process which
01:10:00
I'm sure we'll get to in a second. Mhm.
01:10:02
>> Um, I just go and get repetition on
01:10:04
those and then, yeah, I don't know. And
01:10:06
then maybe in the afternoon I'd work on
01:10:08
some technique and I'd go and maybe just
01:10:10
work on my edge control on my skis and
01:10:12
then go home. Uh, and then maybe three
01:10:16
days a week or two or three days a week
01:10:17
I'd go trampolining in the evenings. And
01:10:19
so that would be another opportunity
01:10:20
where I'd get those high repetition um
01:10:23
depending on what I was doing the next
01:10:25
day.
01:10:26
>> Trampolining to practice the somersault
01:10:28
tricks that you're going to do.
01:10:29
>> Yeah. I'd go down with my coach Tommy
01:10:30
and we'd go to the trampoline and
01:10:32
>> not just going to jump world.
01:10:33
>> No. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. No, no, no. I mean
01:10:35
that would be fun, but No. Yeah. I'd go
01:10:37
to a specialized trampoline, another
01:10:39
facility that um again high performance
01:10:41
sport and snow sports supplied and um
01:10:43
that was a quintessential part of my
01:10:44
training. And so like I would go and
01:10:47
yeah I would go and do repetition on
01:10:49
that and then yeah I would go to the gym
01:10:51
and I mean like listing this out it
01:10:54
sounds like I was doing huge days but I
01:10:56
had a really really good um as I've
01:10:59
mentioned I had a really good team
01:11:01
around me that would help me uh really
01:11:03
manage the load that I was taking on.
01:11:05
And so, yeah, I was doing all these
01:11:07
things, but you know, I would go to the
01:11:09
gym this day and I wouldn't ski as hard
01:11:11
on that day or then
01:11:13
>> I would go to the trampoline instead of
01:11:15
going to the gym or I would, you know,
01:11:16
and and we would just juggle around and
01:11:18
shuffle the schedule. And in a sport
01:11:20
like mine that's very weather dependent,
01:11:22
you know, you can't go skiing when it's
01:11:23
100k winds and wide out up the mountain.
01:11:25
And so then on top of all of that, you
01:11:27
have to fit it into the weather
01:11:28
schedule. And so if there were five good
01:11:31
weather days in a row, well, you just go
01:11:34
ski. Five weather days. You wouldn't you
01:11:36
wouldn't go and trampoline. You wouldn't
01:11:37
go to the gym. You just that would be
01:11:39
your focus would be skiing because the
01:11:41
weather's good and you might as well
01:11:42
take advantage of that. And so yeah,
01:11:44
that was sort of a long-winded way of
01:11:46
explaining, but that's sort of how
01:11:47
day-to-day training looked like.
01:11:49
>> No, it's it's good to know um how much
01:11:50
work goes into these things. Yeah. So
01:11:52
this gold medal performance in 2022 in
01:11:54
Beijing, it was um yeah, back to back
01:11:57
1620s. So what what does that mean?
01:11:59
>> Yeah. So the backto-back refers to in
01:12:02
halfight we have a left and right wall.
01:12:04
Wall being like you know Yeah. Um
01:12:08
halfight looks like a U and you have two
01:12:09
sides to a U. Left and right. And on the
01:12:12
left and right side you either spin left
01:12:14
or you either spin right. And um a 1620
01:12:19
is two flips and four and a half full
01:12:22
spins. And so I did one to the left and
01:12:26
then I think it would be like maybe what
01:12:29
two and a half seconds, three seconds
01:12:30
later I did one to the right. And so
01:12:33
that's the backto-back part. It's it's
01:12:35
one hit after the other. Um Yeah. And
01:12:39
that was pretty much like what gave me a
01:12:43
lot of my success was those two tricks.
01:12:45
>> Yeah.
01:12:46
>> Yeah. It's worth highlighting like
01:12:47
tricks aside, um that half pipe looks so
01:12:50
[ __ ] intimidating.
01:12:52
>> Yeah, it is. It's like for for most
01:12:53
people like me, it's it's a monster.
01:12:55
Like most normal people, 99% of the
01:12:58
population wouldn't wouldn't drop in or
01:12:59
wouldn't be able to drop in.
01:13:00
>> Yeah. And and um it is terrifying. Like
01:13:05
>> is it for you?
01:13:06
>> Yeah. Yeah. Like Well, okay, maybe not
01:13:08
for me, but brag,
01:13:10
>> but no, but there'll be there'll be
01:13:12
moments where I haven't skied it in a
01:13:14
long time and I'll drop in and I'd be
01:13:15
like, "Oh my goodness, this is scary."
01:13:16
And I'd have to start small and work my
01:13:17
way up and work my way up and get my
01:13:18
confidence back. But it is terrifying.
01:13:21
Like in general there's it's it's
01:13:23
bulletproof ice. Like it is just icy.
01:13:25
There's one event at X Games in Aspen
01:13:28
that's done at night. The final done at
01:13:30
night and there's actually times where
01:13:31
you can see the lights reflecting in the
01:13:34
wall on the halfpipe. So it's that icy
01:13:36
that it's like forming a mirror and it's
01:13:38
it is like you know if you fall on that
01:13:41
it it's it's sore.
01:13:43
>> Um it's really sore and sometimes it can
01:13:45
lead to some pretty funny stuff
01:13:46
happening but
01:13:49
>> what like it doesn't sound very funny.
01:13:50
Oh, you just tend to [ __ ] yourself quite
01:13:52
a lot when you land on your ass cuz it's
01:13:54
so hard.
01:13:55
>> Like literally [ __ ] yourself.
01:13:57
>> Yeah. Yeah.
01:13:58
>> No way.
01:13:58
>> Yeah. Like when you land on your
01:14:00
>> when you land on your ass hard enough,
01:14:02
it forces your your flatulence
01:14:06
to release. Um and so there was
01:14:09
definitely a few moments where there's
01:14:11
some uh some muddy undies happening.
01:14:14
>> Yeah. So So yeah, it's terrifying. Yeah.
01:14:18
And Yeah. Do you want me to go into
01:14:20
depth on that or no?
01:14:23
>> That's amazing.
01:14:24
>> Yeah. No, it's pretty funny.
01:14:26
>> Wow. I um Wow. And what about injuries
01:14:29
and stuff?
01:14:30
>> Yeah, I was pretty lucky in injuries and
01:14:32
touchwood that I didn't have heaps of
01:14:34
bad bad ones. um had the occasional um
01:14:38
[ __ ] myself moment, but um and then
01:14:42
yeah, I mean I had I had like some
01:14:45
some some minor ones like bruises and
01:14:49
slight tweaks of knees and stuff like
01:14:51
that and and I um and then I only had
01:14:54
luckily only had one major
01:14:56
>> um knee surgery and rupture of my ACL
01:14:58
and that was yeah that was pretty much
01:15:00
the the only um only injuries I really
01:15:03
had. Uh, and I think that was just
01:15:04
because we managed rest so well and
01:15:06
managed load and uh, and not being, you
01:15:08
know, not, you know, go go go. It was go
01:15:12
then rest then go then rest and rest was
01:15:14
super key.
01:15:15
>> Yeah.
01:15:17
>> So, going into those Olympics, um, how
01:15:19
do you know you're ready to do something
01:15:20
like the 1620? Like, did it get to the
01:15:22
point where you were just nailing it in
01:15:25
practice?
01:15:25
>> Yeah.
01:15:26
>> Yeah, it did. Yeah. So, I actually I
01:15:29
invented that trick in 2019. So it was
01:15:32
the year after the Olympics um and I was
01:15:34
like okay I could either go to triple
01:15:36
corks and our sport I could I could take
01:15:38
try and take the sport in um the
01:15:41
direction of triple corks which is three
01:15:42
flips or I could take the sport in the
01:15:45
direction of 1620s and I chose the 16s.
01:15:48
I just thought that it was not the time
01:15:50
to go to triple corks yet and that I
01:15:52
would take it down the avenue of 16s.
01:15:53
And so I started working on that in uh
01:15:56
March of 2019 and then April 2019 did
01:16:00
the first one to the left. So we have a
01:16:02
natural and unnatural way of spinning
01:16:03
and skiing and my natural way was left.
01:16:05
And so I did that one first and then um
01:16:09
since when I landed the first one to the
01:16:12
left
01:16:14
since that moment um for the next year
01:16:17
and a half I started working on the one
01:16:19
to the right and then you know so by the
01:16:23
time that I was doing the the right one
01:16:24
on snow I'd perfected the left one or
01:16:26
not perfected but my success rate was
01:16:28
high on the left one.
01:16:29
>> How high?
01:16:31
>> Like 80%
01:16:32
>> 80%. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. depending on the
01:16:34
conditions and depending on the
01:16:35
halfpipe, but I would, you know, do them
01:16:38
in as many different conditions as I as
01:16:40
I could and as many half pipes as I
01:16:41
could and um it would be at about 80 and
01:16:44
or 90% success. Uh and then, you know,
01:16:48
through working on the airbag um that
01:16:50
big vinyl cushion, I worked on my right
01:16:52
one uh and the right 1620 I did Yeah. a
01:16:55
year and a half. So, what would have
01:16:56
been 2020 uh November of 2021. And and
01:17:01
it was actually funny about that because
01:17:03
that year was co and no one could come
01:17:05
to New Zealand. So there was no
01:17:07
international people coming to New
01:17:09
Zealand to train and so I pretty much
01:17:11
had like a private facility in New
01:17:13
Zealand that you know I wasn't posting
01:17:15
about it on social media that I was
01:17:16
working on this trick or everyone knew I
01:17:18
had the left one but they didn't know I
01:17:20
was working on the right one in the
01:17:21
background.
01:17:22
And so then when the northern hemisphere
01:17:25
season started and and it came time to
01:17:26
rock up to X Games of 2021,
01:17:30
the week prior I did, we're at a
01:17:32
training camp and um everyone, you know,
01:17:34
the whole X Games competitive field was
01:17:36
there and I did a right did a right 16
01:17:40
and everyone was like, "What?" Like
01:17:43
everyone was so taken back. They were
01:17:44
like, "Oh my goodness." Like we thought
01:17:45
that he was just going to keep it at
01:17:47
left, but he's actually gone and done
01:17:48
the right and by that Yeah. And then I
01:17:51
don't know and then I just ran with it
01:17:52
and and um did them back to back and um
01:17:56
yeah was was a while before anyone else
01:17:58
was doing them.
01:18:00
>> Yeah,
01:18:02
>> that's fascinating. The whole the whole
01:18:04
doing it both sides thing. Is that a is
01:18:06
that a prerequisite? You have to be able
01:18:07
to do it both sides. You do. Okay.
01:18:08
>> No, it is. Well, it's not it's you don't
01:18:10
have to, but
01:18:11
>> you need um variety.
01:18:13
>> Variety is one of our um criteria in our
01:18:16
sport for you know what you're judged
01:18:18
on. Mhm.
01:18:18
>> Um without spinning forwards left,
01:18:21
forwards right, switch left, switch
01:18:24
right,
01:18:25
>> you know, like sorry, backwards, left,
01:18:27
backwards, right, then um you don't have
01:18:30
that variety and and um so it's you do
01:18:32
have to spin all directions.
01:18:34
>> Can't imagine the work that goes I mean
01:18:36
well well I can because you just told me
01:18:37
how much but like I'm something basic I
01:18:39
can do is like ride a skateboard and
01:18:41
have my right foot planted on the
01:18:42
skateboard and kick with my left board.
01:18:44
>> I don't know if I could do it the other
01:18:45
way around.
01:18:46
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. a simple task like
01:18:47
that.
01:18:48
>> Yeah, it's a it's a simple it's a Yeah,
01:18:50
it's like I mean it's like you do it so
01:18:52
much it's drilled into you from like
01:18:55
spinning both ways is drilled into you
01:18:57
from when you're young, you know, and so
01:18:59
>> it does sort of feel somewhat natural,
01:19:00
but it definitely takes longer for that
01:19:02
unnatural side to to come.
01:19:04
>> Um but yeah, it's it's like being able
01:19:06
to write with both hands or
01:19:08
>> um
01:19:08
>> Yeah, most people can't do that.
01:19:10
>> Yeah. Yeah. No, and and I guess yeah,
01:19:13
it's just if you just do little bits
01:19:14
here and there and you just tick away at
01:19:16
it, then you will eventually be able to
01:19:17
do it. And it's,
01:19:18
>> you know, it's like if you were to write
01:19:20
with your left hand and then write with
01:19:22
your right hand from the age of like
01:19:25
nine,
01:19:27
>> you know, you're probably going to be
01:19:28
able to write equally. You know what I
01:19:30
And it's kind of like although it seems
01:19:32
like this crazy thing sitting here
01:19:33
thinking about it now, it's like well
01:19:35
actually if you just chip away at it
01:19:37
over a period of like 8 years, you're
01:19:39
probably going to be able to do it, you
01:19:41
know? And so
01:19:42
>> so how how do you know you're ready to
01:19:43
do um the 1620 thing at Olympic level?
01:19:47
>> Yeah. So there's
01:19:50
filming and video review is a huge part
01:19:52
of skiing and and training and and I
01:19:55
think it is in all sport. Um it's kind
01:19:57
of like Yeah. Yeah. I don't know how
01:19:59
they did it back in the day when, you
01:20:00
know, like they didn't, you know, when
01:20:01
they wouldn't have cameras or anything
01:20:02
like you'd have to have, we have to have
01:20:04
trust in our coach, but back then you
01:20:06
would have to have an an insane level of
01:20:08
trust
01:20:09
>> and um you know, so video review was
01:20:14
huge and and it helped me see what I was
01:20:16
doing and we could film it and then talk
01:20:18
about it and adjust and you just do that
01:20:20
over and over and over and over again
01:20:21
and and so utilizing things like the
01:20:23
airbag or like the trampoline to be able
01:20:26
to get high repetition so you knew
01:20:27
exactly how it felt exactly where you
01:20:30
were um was key and and filming those
01:20:33
and understanding how it worked and okay
01:20:35
maybe slightly moving your hip there or
01:20:37
setting this 2 of a second earlier or
01:20:41
later how it would affect the spin or
01:20:43
going to the grab and like there's all
01:20:45
these different things that that come
01:20:47
together in order for it to work
01:20:48
perfectly and and so yeah I guess it's
01:20:52
just utilizing those facilities that we
01:20:54
had to um drill in repetition without um
01:20:58
having insane risk.
01:20:59
>> So by the time you get to the Olympics,
01:21:01
you're not even thinking about any of
01:21:02
that stuff. You're just doing it.
01:21:03
>> You are you are thinking about the the
01:21:05
thing that you're thinking about the
01:21:06
most is the pop. So when we say pop, so
01:21:09
a half bite, you take off from the wall
01:21:11
and you land in the wall. Um and if you
01:21:13
don't get your pop right, it's your pop
01:21:15
is how much you jump away from the wall.
01:21:17
>> So if you don't get that right or you're
01:21:18
too early or too late,
01:21:20
>> well then you're going to end up on the
01:21:22
deck, which is the flat part. And so
01:21:24
that was like big no no. like you're you
01:21:27
get seriously injured if you end up on
01:21:29
the deck. And so the the trick itself is
01:21:32
so dialed, but the thing that's not is
01:21:34
the pop. And that's because every
01:21:36
halfpipe is different and it changes
01:21:38
every single day. It's cut by a human
01:21:39
with a machine. It's a human operating
01:21:42
machine. You know, it's not like a robot
01:21:43
or a laser cutting it. And so there is
01:21:46
variation in the course. And and I think
01:21:48
that's the biggest thing that you're
01:21:50
adjusting to on a day-to-day basis is
01:21:52
that variation.
01:21:56
So, the Olympics looks like you're
01:21:57
listening to music.
01:21:58
>> Yeah.
01:21:59
>> Um, were you listening to music or were
01:22:00
you listening to Country Calendar? The
01:22:03
>> I was listening to music. Yeah.
01:22:05
>> Yeah. What were you What are you
01:22:06
listening to?
01:22:07
>> Oh, what was I listening to? Um,
01:22:11
I was at the Olympics in 2020.
01:22:15
The Olympics in 2018. I was listening to
01:22:17
Who Shot You by Biggie Smalls
01:22:20
>> and the Olympics in
01:22:24
2022, I was listening to a punk rock
01:22:31
um
01:22:32
track called Rage by
01:22:37
I think it's Blissar. It's B band of
01:22:39
Surfers. Um yeah, I don't know. Yeah,
01:22:41
very specific. So, yeah, it's just like
01:22:43
But yeah, I utilize music heaps. It
01:22:45
really just helps me.
01:22:46
>> So, you listening to this while you're
01:22:48
doing your competition run?
01:22:49
>> Yeah.
01:22:50
>> Right.
01:22:50
>> Yeah. Full noise, two headphones in.
01:22:52
Yeah.
01:22:54
>> So you can hear the um the announcer
01:22:55
saying uh yeah from New Zealand Nico or
01:22:59
>> a little bit. Not really.
01:23:00
>> Yeah. Yeah. I try and I mean like I
01:23:03
don't even hear my music like sometimes
01:23:05
at the end of events which is pretty
01:23:07
bad. And sometimes I actually see the um
01:23:09
negative side of it now is that I'd
01:23:11
actually get noise warnings on my phone
01:23:12
cuz I was listening to music too loud
01:23:14
which is like you know that's just
01:23:16
stupid. Like but yeah I don't know. It's
01:23:19
just what I was doing. I just slowly
01:23:20
turned it up all day and to the point
01:23:22
that it was on full volume and um but in
01:23:25
saying that when you actually drop into
01:23:27
something that you're nervous about or
01:23:28
an event run or or yeah, something like
01:23:31
that, you you just completely go in the
01:23:33
zone and you're completely in that flow
01:23:35
state. And when you're in that flow
01:23:36
state, you don't hear music. You don't
01:23:38
hear anything. you don't you're just so
01:23:41
in tune with what's going on around you
01:23:42
and you're so hyperfocused on everything
01:23:44
that
01:23:46
if it's not important like you're not
01:23:49
you know you're not thinking about it
01:23:51
it's not it's not being your brain isn't
01:23:54
>> um I guess I don't know
01:23:56
>> yeah registering it
01:23:58
>> what were your nerves like those
01:23:59
Olympics
01:24:01
>> 2022
01:24:02
>> the nerves pre-event oh ruthless
01:24:05
>> really worse than when you were 16 and
01:24:07
and to be honest I haven't actually I
01:24:09
haven't talked about this at all. Um but
01:24:11
something that really messed with me um
01:24:14
and it's and it's kind of like I don't
01:24:16
know Zoe and I were always paired as
01:24:18
like Zoe and Nico winter Olympic medals
01:24:21
that sort of thing. And
01:24:23
>> and in a way like we're we're really
01:24:25
good mates but that Olympics was like a
01:24:28
week prior she won gold. And it was sort
01:24:30
of like okay when she got her ex games
01:24:32
medal I got my ex games medal. When she
01:24:34
got her Olympic medal I got my Olympic
01:24:35
medal. And it was like when we both won
01:24:37
X game, when she won X games, I won X
01:24:39
games. And it was like everything had
01:24:41
happened at the same time for us in
01:24:42
terms of results in our careers. And a
01:24:44
week before the Olympics, she won gold
01:24:46
at the Olympics, you know. And so that
01:24:47
was like, oh no. Like now there's this
01:24:50
pressure on us. Like it's Zoe and Nico
01:24:52
and Zoe's gone and achieved something
01:24:54
amazing. And like I'm so incredibly
01:24:57
proud of her and and stoked for her and
01:24:59
and that's unbelievable what she's
01:25:01
achieved. But at the same time, I'm
01:25:03
like, "Oh no." Oh, like part of me is
01:25:05
like now I have to go and do this.
01:25:07
>> Your move.
01:25:08
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Exactly. It's like,
01:25:09
okay, Zoe and is Nico going to come join
01:25:12
or not? You know, like um so yeah, that
01:25:14
that that pressure really really freaked
01:25:16
me out. Um and it would keep me up and I
01:25:20
at the end of it I just shut off
01:25:22
everything and um kind of just let it
01:25:25
happen and
01:25:26
>> yeah, I Yeah, I don't really know how I
01:25:29
got through that. It was such a
01:25:30
whirlwind of time.
01:25:31
>> Yeah.
01:25:32
>> Yeah. So you had that dream run. This is
01:25:34
your first run in the final. Yeah.
01:25:35
>> Um you I talked about this before how
01:25:37
you didn't look at it as excited then as
01:25:38
what you did two years earlier and you
01:25:39
explained cuz you had two more runs to
01:25:41
do.
01:25:41
>> Um but you got like 93 or whatever out
01:25:44
of 100.
01:25:45
>> Yeah.
01:25:46
>> So
01:25:50
>> I mean surely you thought you had it in
01:25:51
the bag at that point. Uh there was a
01:25:54
slight inkling that I was going to do
01:25:55
good and there was I was sort of like,
01:25:58
okay,
01:26:00
I'm there's a very high chance that I'm
01:26:02
going to be on the podium here. It's
01:26:04
just what position on the podium is that
01:26:06
going to be? And um I mean when you're
01:26:08
in when you're standing in a Stargate
01:26:10
for an event like that and you
01:26:13
>> you just you're just all or nothing like
01:26:17
>> it's the same with X Games in the
01:26:18
Olympics. It's like I'm here in this
01:26:20
moment. I've got an opportunity in front
01:26:22
of me. I'm going to do everything that I
01:26:24
can to take advantage of this
01:26:25
opportunity. And if that means that it's
01:26:28
pretty unhealthy, but if that means I'm
01:26:29
in the hospital at the end of the day,
01:26:31
that's okay because I gave them my all.
01:26:33
And if that means that I
01:26:35
>> maybe I try as hard as I can. I don't
01:26:38
end up in the hospital, but I don't
01:26:39
achieve the result I wanted to.
01:26:42
>> That's okay because I gave it my best
01:26:43
and I tried my best. And if I do try my
01:26:46
best and I do achieve that goal or that
01:26:49
podium, then then it's a win-win. But
01:26:52
like before any of that comes,
01:26:55
it's you have to give it your best. You
01:26:58
know what I mean? And it's like
01:26:59
sometimes there is time to be strategic
01:27:01
strategic. But there's times like the
01:27:05
Olympics where kind of strategy just
01:27:06
goes out the window, you know?
01:27:08
>> Yeah. You're just like, well, everyone
01:27:10
else is just trying their hardest and so
01:27:12
and risking it for everything. So, I'm
01:27:14
going to do the same. And yeah.
01:27:16
>> Yeah. And you were up against um David
01:27:18
Weise who had won the previous two golds
01:27:20
and was up for a three Pete. Yeah.
01:27:22
>> He end up with silver.
01:27:23
>> Uh yes. Silver. Silver. Yep.
01:27:27
>> Yeah. And that was Yeah.
01:27:28
>> Yeah.
01:27:29
>> I mean, that was pretty funny. I was
01:27:30
standing on the Olympic podium with like
01:27:32
>> he was I think he's like 31 and Alex was
01:27:35
Alex Ferrer was 29 at the time. And so
01:27:39
>> yeah, that they had a lot of lot more
01:27:41
experience than I had. And
01:27:42
>> um yeah, that was it was I mean yeah,
01:27:45
growing up watching those two and so
01:27:46
yeah, it was pretty cool.
01:27:48
>> And standing on that podium with um the
01:27:50
gold medal, New Zealand anthems playing.
01:27:52
Yeah. What are you feeling then? Is it
01:27:53
just like a sense? Is it elation or
01:27:55
relief or
01:27:55
>> it's it's relief? It's relation. It's
01:27:58
pride like you're wearing, you know,
01:28:00
you're wearing silver fern and Olympic
01:28:02
rings on your chest and representing
01:28:04
your country. And and I think that it's
01:28:06
not it's it's a different sort of like
01:28:10
um it's a different sort of celebration
01:28:12
in that moment. And I and I think um
01:28:15
what how it diff how it's different from
01:28:17
maybe other um situations similar is
01:28:20
that because it's every four years those
01:28:24
moments of hard work those um I guess
01:28:28
more the bad times that you've well
01:28:30
maybe not bad but the the tough times
01:28:32
that you've had in the past four years
01:28:33
really come to mind and and you think
01:28:36
you know how proud you are to overcome
01:28:38
those and to overcome those challenges
01:28:39
and and to be standing there knowing
01:28:42
that you have achieved something and and
01:28:44
that you gave it your absolute
01:28:45
everything and that you have yeah you've
01:28:48
you've like like I don't know it worked
01:28:51
all that hard work paid off all that
01:28:53
sacrifice from everyone around you not
01:28:55
just yourself has paid off
01:28:58
and it's like yeah it's incredible
01:29:01
everything clicks into place
01:29:02
>> yeah and it's not like a put your hands
01:29:04
up and jump up and down celebrating
01:29:05
kicking and screaming it's like for me
01:29:07
it was just like stand there and just
01:29:09
like
01:29:10
>> whoa like and be totally overcome with
01:29:12
that like I guess pride. Yeah. Yeah.
01:29:16
Yeah. And being proud of yourself and
01:29:18
>> Yeah. It's incredible.
01:29:20
>> Given the level of anxiety you
01:29:22
experienced leading up to these things
01:29:23
afterwards, do you sleep well or you
01:29:26
just out partying?
01:29:27
>> No, you definitely sleep pretty well for
01:29:30
the weeks following.
01:29:31
>> Finally, a good night's sleep.
01:29:32
>> Yeah. Honestly, it was like that.
01:29:34
There'd been some there'd been like a
01:29:35
couple months there of interrupted sleep
01:29:37
and so like to go after the Olympics
01:29:39
that you just lay on the pillow at night
01:29:41
and you're like, "Oh, I don't know. I
01:29:43
don't think I'll ever sleep that good
01:29:45
again." You know, you know what I mean?
01:29:46
You're just you're content. And I think
01:29:48
that's the best feeling better than any
01:29:50
other feeling is being content because
01:29:53
it's not very often that we're content
01:29:54
with what we're doing. And and I think
01:29:56
that's an opportunity where you can just
01:29:57
fully be content and and allow yourself
01:29:59
to
01:30:00
>> to
01:30:01
>> Yeah. just be happy with that.
01:30:03
>> Yeah. and so proud of yourself.
01:30:05
>> How long does that contentment and that
01:30:07
sense of pride and well-being last for?
01:30:12
>> I don't think it ever goes away.
01:30:13
>> Like it it um it it's something that
01:30:16
will always stay within you and will
01:30:17
always be um a part of you. It's just
01:30:22
>> you Yeah, it's maybe it is who you are
01:30:26
for two days and then it's not who you
01:30:29
are. you know, it's something that
01:30:30
you've done and it's something that
01:30:31
you've achieved and something you can
01:30:33
always be proud of and you always have
01:30:34
that feeling,
01:30:36
>> but it's not who you are. You know, it's
01:30:38
not it doesn't make you the person, you
01:30:40
know, it doesn't it doesn't make me Nico
01:30:42
like,
01:30:43
>> you know, it's just something that I've
01:30:44
achieved and I'm proud of that and
01:30:45
that's that. Yeah.
01:30:47
>> Yeah.
01:30:47
>> If the bronze at 16 opened some doors,
01:30:50
I'm guessing the the gold at 20 um Yeah.
01:30:53
doors were flying open.
01:30:55
>> Yeah, there was Yeah, there was
01:30:56
definitely some cool opportunities. Um
01:30:59
the one in particular that stands out
01:31:01
was uh actually a Red Bull opportunity
01:31:03
that um they put on a gold they put on a
01:31:07
gold medal celebration for their
01:31:09
athletes that had competed at the
01:31:10
Olympics and um this was one of many
01:31:13
doors that opened and and and one of the
01:31:15
experiences I was very lucky to to have
01:31:17
after the Olympics. But they they flew
01:31:19
me out to um the Monaco Grand Prix uh
01:31:23
which was pretty special and um flew
01:31:25
into Austria, flew Yeah. all the way
01:31:28
from New Zealand and um in business
01:31:30
class and then private jet from Austria
01:31:33
down to Monaco and or to to yeah was it
01:31:38
would it be nice and then Niss into
01:31:40
maybe not Nice but somewhere in goodness
01:31:43
um yeah close to Monaco then helicopter
01:31:45
into Monaco then boat into the harbor
01:31:48
and onto the Red Bull barge and watch
01:31:51
the race and then do it all again at
01:31:52
5:00 when the race finishes and you're
01:31:55
back in Austria that night. It's like,
01:31:56
>> "Oh my god."
01:31:57
>> Yeah. And then, yeah, it was it was
01:32:00
Yeah, that was one of those experiences
01:32:01
that was just that's something I'll
01:32:02
never forget. And it was incredible like
01:32:05
>> standing um we had our own
01:32:07
>> like VIP booth at the top of the Red
01:32:10
Bull energy station in the middle of
01:32:12
Monaco overlooking like the one of the
01:32:16
what's the uh chicane
01:32:18
>> and it was just like whoa crazy. Yeah.
01:32:20
>> Did you get to meet Max or Christian? We
01:32:24
didn't No, we didn't get to meet the
01:32:25
drivers. Um, we were going to, but um
01:32:28
because of a few delays or rain delays
01:32:29
or something that we couldn't um
01:32:31
>> but yeah, I don't know. It was it was uh
01:32:34
>> it was pretty special. What
01:32:35
>> an experience, but they seem like a good
01:32:36
company. Red Bull.
01:32:37
>> Yeah, they're amazing.
01:32:38
>> Do they How does that relationship work?
01:32:40
You don't have don't have to answer this
01:32:41
in details, but you like are you on a
01:32:43
salary or
01:32:44
>> Yeah. Um they do they they pay me a
01:32:47
salary um
01:32:49
>> and they just support me uh in my
01:32:52
ambition. I guess. And um
01:32:55
>> they're a company that if you go to them
01:32:58
with ideas and if you're driven and
01:33:00
motivated to make things happen, then
01:33:01
they will do their best as long as it's
01:33:03
feasible to them. You know, they will do
01:33:06
their best to make that happen. And
01:33:09
that's pretty unique. Like you can you
01:33:11
can sometimes it's crazy because you can
01:33:14
go to them with any idea that you want
01:33:15
and and if it's a good idea and um they
01:33:18
think it's a good idea and it's worth
01:33:20
doing well then in a year's time you
01:33:21
could find yourself doing that idea.
01:33:24
It's like, wo, you know, like and and
01:33:26
having the platform to like, you know, I
01:33:29
don't want to I I don't want to turn
01:33:30
this into an ad, but it's something that
01:33:31
I truly believe in. Like, they're
01:33:32
they're an incredible sponsor that um
01:33:36
you know, give you from rehab facilities
01:33:39
to um support and projects to just any
01:33:41
like it's Yeah, it's unbelievable to
01:33:44
have something like them behind me.
01:33:45
>> Yeah. I don't want to turn into an ad
01:33:47
either, but
01:33:49
>> Yeah. Yeah.
01:33:52
>> No. Um well I mean you didn't turn into
01:33:54
an ad. I I bought it up. I I had um do
01:33:56
you know Brook McDonald? Yeah. He's a a
01:33:59
Red Bull athlete mountain biker.
01:34:01
>> I had him on the podcast recently. He
01:34:03
talked about an injury that he had
01:34:04
overseas and Red Bull with you first to
01:34:06
cough up with some medical expenses and
01:34:08
support and
01:34:09
>> helped him get back on the bike again.
01:34:11
Um yeah, you you're still aligned with
01:34:13
them even though you're not competing.
01:34:14
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And I mean that just
01:34:15
shows their character as a brand is that
01:34:18
>> someone can take a completely unexpected
01:34:21
turn in their career and they still stay
01:34:23
with them. They could they could they
01:34:26
when I had told them they that I wasn't
01:34:27
going to be competing anymore. They
01:34:28
could have just left.
01:34:30
>> And you know that was something that in
01:34:31
making that decision I had to be open to
01:34:33
that happening.
01:34:34
>> But like they didn't you know they they
01:34:37
stayed supporting me and they stayed you
01:34:40
know opening doors in other ways. you
01:34:42
know, maybe it wasn't in the competition
01:34:43
realm or going to performance camps or
01:34:45
something like this. It's more, you
01:34:47
know, having a platform to be able to
01:34:49
create video projects that, you know, I
01:34:52
can push through their channels and
01:34:53
helping me um learn about that side of
01:34:55
things. And so, yeah, it is like um they
01:34:59
just help Yeah, they just help me and
01:35:00
and they stuck and they stuck with me
01:35:02
throughout everything. So,
01:35:03
>> Oh, that's wonderful. They deserve the
01:35:04
flowers.
01:35:05
>> Yeah, they really do. They really do.
01:35:06
And they're incredible. And they're more
01:35:07
than just like a they're more than just
01:35:09
a can or energy drink. like they're
01:35:11
actually like a brand that does things
01:35:12
for sport and yeah, it means a lot to um
01:35:15
us as athletes which is pretty cool.
01:35:18
>> Those two medals that we've talked about
01:35:19
at great length, where are they now?
01:35:21
>> Uh just in my undies draw. Yeah, they're
01:35:24
just sitting at home.
01:35:25
>> Skitted undies.
01:35:26
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Oh, no. Don't
01:35:28
keep the brown ones. They go in the bin.
01:35:31
Uh yeah, that would be
01:35:32
>> Are they really? Why Why are they in a
01:35:34
drawer?
01:35:34
>> Uh why aren't they framed? You've had a
01:35:37
long time.
01:35:37
>> My Olympic certificate is framed. Um,
01:35:40
but my medals aren't. I don't I don't
01:35:43
know.
01:35:44
>> Oh, cuz they're amazing and they're
01:35:46
incredible, but I don't need to show
01:35:47
them, you know, like the friends that
01:35:50
come around to my house, they're they're
01:35:51
friends not because I'm an Olympic gold
01:35:53
medalist, like or I'm an Olympic
01:35:55
medalist. Like, they're just friends
01:35:56
with me because I'm
01:35:57
>> me and it's like I don't need to
01:35:59
>> like Yeah, I don't need to flaunt that.
01:36:02
Like if someone asks, they want to see
01:36:04
it, then I'm I'm more than happy to get
01:36:06
it out and show it. But I'm not going to
01:36:07
be someone that brings it out and shows
01:36:09
it without someone asking or without,
01:36:11
you know, like cuz at the end of the
01:36:12
day, like,
01:36:13
>> yeah, that means the world to me. Um,
01:36:16
and I don't want to let that define who
01:36:18
I am. I want it to be a part of who I am
01:36:20
and and like, you know, something that
01:36:22
I'm proud of. Um, but I'm not Yeah. I'm
01:36:25
not going to let it be who I am. Yeah.
01:36:29
>> Yeah.
01:36:29
>> Yeah. the um the friend side of things.
01:36:32
Yeah. Have you found it interesting like
01:36:34
in terms of like knowing who to trust
01:36:35
and who who likes you for for for Nico
01:36:38
the person and who likes you for the you
01:36:40
the badass athlete?
01:36:42
>> Um yeah, I think there's there's
01:36:45
everyone has that in everyday life,
01:36:46
right? Like I'm sure you've experienced
01:36:48
that as well. Um, but I'm I'm so lucky
01:36:51
that like I've got the most real group
01:36:54
of friends and
01:36:56
>> we're like so tightknit and we're just
01:36:58
so passionate about what we do. And a
01:37:00
lot of the time that's skiing and um but
01:37:03
then I think what makes it special is
01:37:04
that we all ski and that we all bond
01:37:06
over skiing, but it's not what we talk
01:37:08
about 24/7. It's not,
01:37:10
>> you know, it's not they don't they're
01:37:12
not defined by skiing. They're not like,
01:37:15
yeah, they're skiers, but it's not all
01:37:16
they are. And I think that's what I
01:37:18
really enjoy and and like keeps it
01:37:21
refreshing.
01:37:22
>> Um
01:37:23
>> Yeah. Which is cool.
01:37:25
>> Yeah.
01:37:26
>> Um the New Zealand order New Zealand New
01:37:28
Year's honors list in 2023. So you've
01:37:30
got a New Zealand order of merit.
01:37:32
>> Yeah.
01:37:32
>> Um
01:37:33
>> Yeah. Did you know much about royal
01:37:35
titles? What was your
01:37:36
>> No, I I I No, I didn't. I just knew sir
01:37:39
and Dame.
01:37:40
>> Yeah.
01:37:40
>> And that was it. Yeah.
01:37:42
>> So you get an email or a letter?
01:37:44
>> Yeah. I got a I got a letter and it had
01:37:45
the crown on it and I was like, you
01:37:48
know, rocked up and I saw it and I was
01:37:49
like, "Oh my goodness, like what's
01:37:50
this?" And it was you've you've uh been
01:37:52
rewarded the um after the Olympics it
01:37:54
was, you know, you've been rewarded the
01:37:56
New Zealand Order of Merit. And that was
01:37:58
I was like, "Oh my goodness." You know,
01:37:59
like that's that's pretty crazy. Like,
01:38:01
you know, that's one of those major
01:38:02
doors that opens like Yeah. And and I
01:38:06
was like, "Oh, holy, you know, holy
01:38:08
shit." Like this is crazy. Um, and so
01:38:11
yeah, that's I mean it's not like I'm
01:38:13
not going to go and put on my driver's
01:38:15
license M N Z M O M, you know, like it's
01:38:20
not going to be
01:38:21
>> Oh, it's your email sign off though,
01:38:23
isn't it?
01:38:25
>> No.
01:38:27
>> Oh goodness. Um, but yeah, it's like I
01:38:31
like I'm not going to let it define me
01:38:32
and it's and but at the same time it's
01:38:34
something that's amazing and I'm
01:38:35
incredibly thankful and proud of it, you
01:38:37
know, that someone I don't know who
01:38:38
nominated me, but um I think from my
01:38:41
understanding it has to be a personal
01:38:42
nomination and so yeah, I guess a huge
01:38:46
thank you to that person for nominating
01:38:47
me and and um what an incredible honor
01:38:50
and opportunity. I guess it's Yeah,
01:38:52
crazy.
01:38:53
>> Yeah, it is crazy. And then um Oh, so
01:38:55
after those Olympics 2022. Oh, and the
01:38:57
um the Hellburg award as well.
01:38:59
>> Yeah,
01:38:59
>> this is something that never happens.
01:39:00
Like a skier winning sportsman of the
01:39:02
year.
01:39:03
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. That was
01:39:04
>> Did you go to the ceremony or
01:39:05
>> I wasn't there? Um I think it was
01:39:07
actually around the time of X Games.
01:39:10
>> Um or maybe I was overseas at at the Red
01:39:14
Bull Training Center rehabbing my ACL.
01:39:17
Um but it was accepted um on behalf of
01:39:20
me via my mom and my mom was there and
01:39:23
um yeah I mean she's just as worthy of
01:39:26
giving the speech as I am. You know
01:39:27
she's been there through
01:39:29
>> everything and um has seen it has seen
01:39:31
it all unfold and helped it unfold in a
01:39:34
huge way. And so um yeah that's that
01:39:37
that's also something that's pretty
01:39:39
special like have that in the closet as
01:39:41
well and sometimes you look at it and
01:39:43
you pick it up and oh it's pretty heavy
01:39:45
and
01:39:45
>> wait in the closet. Yeah. Come on.
01:39:48
>> But you you get to keep the um keep an
01:39:50
award or a version of
01:39:51
>> Yeah. Yeah. It's kind of like Yeah. It
01:39:54
looks like an Oscar. Like it's like
01:39:55
>> it's a statue of Yeah. Yeah. It's
01:39:57
amazing. And um
01:39:59
>> I don't know that that's like Yeah. That
01:40:02
that's incredible that award and
01:40:03
something
01:40:05
>> Yeah. I don't know. It was just like I
01:40:07
mean you don't really expect it and it's
01:40:09
it's
01:40:10
um there's obviously an an amazing um
01:40:14
group of athletes and people within New
01:40:15
Zealand that achieving lots of things on
01:40:18
a year-to-year basis and so to be chosen
01:40:20
to to have won that and to be the sports
01:40:24
person of the year was incredible like
01:40:26
or sportsman of the year. Yeah.
01:40:27
>> But yeah to do it in New Zealand where
01:40:29
it is like essentially like a niche
01:40:31
sport. Super niche sport. I think it was
01:40:33
the a couple of years before you when
01:40:34
Israelis won it.
01:40:36
>> Yeah. Yeah. I think it was the year
01:40:37
before that I did and he did that
01:40:39
incredible speech and um talking about
01:40:41
tall poppy syndrome and and um yeah that
01:40:45
was Yeah. Yeah. It was like, "Yeah,
01:40:47
we're in a niche sport." Like,
01:40:49
>> you know, in in a in a country that has
01:40:52
so many amazing athletes and rugby
01:40:54
players and race car drivers and, you
01:40:57
know, fighters and like it just the the
01:40:59
the level of talent within sport in New
01:41:02
Zealand is incredible. And um yeah, I
01:41:05
mean to win that is pretty cool.
01:41:07
>> What Why is it in the closet?
01:41:08
>> Well, what are you after?
01:41:10
>> I don't know. I don't know. Well, I'm
01:41:12
like I'm 23, you know, like Yeah. Okay.
01:41:14
when I'm older, they probably will come
01:41:16
out
01:41:16
>> and they probably will will
01:41:18
>> be there, but also at the same time then
01:41:20
they're they're amazing things
01:41:23
like
01:41:25
for me, you know, and and and for me and
01:41:28
my family and um I think yeah, at some
01:41:32
point in time they will like whether I
01:41:34
have them on display at some sort of a
01:41:36
public space or you know cuz at the same
01:41:39
time we we are a government funded sport
01:41:41
and I was government funded throughout
01:41:42
that whole process and having them on
01:41:44
display in the public eye would be
01:41:45
really really cool and
01:41:47
>> it's something that I'd love to do. But
01:41:49
>> for me personally, I don't need to wake
01:41:51
up and walk into the kitchen or walk,
01:41:54
you know, out of my bedroom and see
01:41:55
these things like Yeah. I don't know.
01:41:57
Sometimes when I Yeah. It's not like I I
01:41:59
need to see that every day.
01:42:01
>> Yeah. Cuz that's something that has
01:42:03
happened. It's not something that
01:42:05
>> drives me to do what I do every day.
01:42:07
It's just something that I understand
01:42:08
that I put in the work and achieve those
01:42:10
things. And
01:42:11
now that they're there, I can continue
01:42:13
to put in the work and move into the
01:42:15
next thing, you know. Yeah. And then
01:42:17
they'll always be there. They're not
01:42:18
going away. And that's what's special.
01:42:20
>> Yeah.
01:42:20
>> Yeah.
01:42:21
>> Well, they they're yours for life. No
01:42:22
one can take them away.
01:42:23
>> Yeah. Yeah. And sorry, just to add to
01:42:25
that, I just realized they're in the gun
01:42:27
safe now.
01:42:29
>> Well, well, because now that I'm
01:42:31
retired, you see, I'm probably, you
01:42:33
know, I'm not going to get another one.
01:42:35
You know what I mean? And so there's
01:42:36
there's zero chance of getting another
01:42:38
one. So I'm like, "Oh goodness, if the
01:42:40
house sets on fire, I don't want them
01:42:42
going anywhere." You know what I mean?
01:42:43
So
01:42:45
yeah. Yeah.
01:42:46
>> But the medals the medals are
01:42:47
>> No, no, everything's in I just remember
01:42:49
everything's in the gun safety.
01:42:50
>> So what's in there? So the the Hellburg
01:42:51
award, the two Olympic medals.
01:42:53
>> Yeah. I don't know if I can le guns. I
01:42:56
don't really know what the talk is about
01:42:58
guns, but they're in the gun. Yeah. Two
01:42:59
Olympic medals, the Hellberg and
01:43:01
>> um
01:43:04
>> Yeah. Well, as long as there's room for
01:43:05
the guns, it' be terrible if you're
01:43:07
like, "No, all the awards are in the gun
01:43:08
safe and the guns are in the wardrobe of
01:43:10
the underd drawer."
01:43:11
>> Yeah. Yeah. Goodness, that would be
01:43:12
wrong way around.
01:43:13
>> You mentioned um Izzy's speech before
01:43:15
about tall poppy. Yeah. What's What's
01:43:18
your experience or thoughts on tall
01:43:19
poppy?
01:43:21
>> Look, I don't like to be honest to be
01:43:24
honest, I don't really know much about
01:43:25
it and and it's not something that I've
01:43:29
um ever come across.
01:43:31
>> Yeah. And so I don't Yeah, I've been
01:43:34
I've been I mean I've seen it and I hear
01:43:36
it and and sometimes you know that
01:43:39
moments like that really made me more
01:43:40
aware of it and made me more aware of
01:43:45
you know you're in the pub watching the
01:43:46
rugby and someone you know even myself
01:43:48
like sometimes you've had a couple beers
01:43:50
and you go a that's stupid you know like
01:43:52
why did he do that or you hear someone
01:43:53
else say that and it's like moments like
01:43:55
that actually make you
01:43:57
>> it changes the way that we think and it
01:43:59
and it goes okay this is something that
01:44:01
is there and is something that is
01:44:02
happening and if I can be aware enough
01:44:05
to understand it when I am being someone
01:44:07
that is doing it because as Kiwis it is
01:44:09
in our blood and it is like so ingrained
01:44:12
in our culture to poppy syndrome and and
01:44:15
um
01:44:15
>> you know but if you can be aware and you
01:44:17
can change that the time after
01:44:19
>> then
01:44:20
>> I think that's a step forward and I
01:44:22
think that's um
01:44:24
>> yeah that's really going in the right
01:44:26
direction. Yeah
01:44:27
>> 100% good insights. Um, yes. So, after
01:44:30
those Olympics where you won the gold in
01:44:31
2022, you um you hurt your knee by piggy
01:44:34
backing a mate down the down a mountain.
01:44:36
>> Yeah. Yeah, I did.
01:44:37
>> Were you clowning or was it a like a
01:44:39
>> Oh, we were just skiing down at the end
01:44:40
of the day and and um one of the one of
01:44:42
the guys was um off the side he was
01:44:45
living off the side of the run and and
01:44:47
he went to get changed and then we had a
01:44:48
little bit of the run to go down and I
01:44:51
put him on my back and um had a p like a
01:44:54
patch of ice and I was doing chocolate
01:44:56
cake. I was doing the wedge, the basics
01:44:58
of basics.
01:44:59
>> Oh, you were skiing down the mountain
01:45:01
back cuz he got changed at his house and
01:45:03
then they were coming to meet us, you
01:45:05
know, cuz we were going to go and have a
01:45:06
beer after skiing at an appe and and um
01:45:09
I Yeah, I hit a patch of ice with him on
01:45:12
my back, an 80 kilo guy, and my bottom
01:45:15
Yeah, my bottom ski um slipped out and
01:45:18
and I fell over backwards. And that's,
01:45:21
you know, if you know about ACL's,
01:45:22
that's classic movement that blows them.
01:45:24
And um it's very common in skiing and um
01:45:28
yeah snapped my tore my ACL and um
01:45:31
luckily it wasn't under impact or
01:45:33
anything. It was just a perfect movement
01:45:34
that just caused my um ACL ligament to
01:45:38
snap. Nothing else. No miniscus, no
01:45:40
nothing. Um and so it was sort of the
01:45:42
perfect scenario to do it. I guess you
01:45:44
know better of the bad uh cases um to do
01:45:48
it in. and and it was already semi-tor
01:45:49
torn at that point and so to do it was
01:45:53
um sort of a relief. Uh there was
01:45:55
question whether I was actually going to
01:45:56
make it to the Olympics with my knee and
01:45:58
so um doing it 2 weeks after was a bit
01:46:01
of a relief and then you know I went
01:46:03
into a pretty um whirlwind of 9 months
01:46:06
rehabbing an ACL. It was um pretty
01:46:09
incredible to go from the highest of
01:46:11
high that you've ever felt and then you
01:46:14
know 2 weeks a month later you're in
01:46:15
like oh my goodness I can't even walk or
01:46:17
I'm going into surgery tomorrow. It's
01:46:19
like
01:46:19
>> did that sort of forced pause? Is that
01:46:22
where the seed was planted about
01:46:23
retiring? Like it gave you like a an
01:46:25
insight into how life could look
01:46:27
>> without skiing.
01:46:28
>> Yeah.
01:46:29
>> Yeah, it did. Um it was and it was
01:46:31
something that um I was yeah I sort of
01:46:35
had the mentality going throughout uh
01:46:37
you know rehab of that injury was like I
01:46:40
I was so thankful and so grateful
01:46:43
>> um for that injury to be honest because
01:46:45
it forced me to slow down and it forced
01:46:47
me to reassess things and and sort of
01:46:49
look at things differently. It wasn't
01:46:50
just full go
01:46:53
from podium to podium event to event or
01:46:55
loss and then podium and then you know
01:46:57
it wasn't just this like repetitive
01:46:58
cycle. but was a force stop to something
01:47:01
and and that really changed my
01:47:03
perspective on things and so
01:47:05
>> I think throughout that period it did
01:47:07
open up my eyes into different areas of
01:47:09
life and different areas of skiing when
01:47:11
I came back to the sport but um when I
01:47:15
came back I I almost did was like ah
01:47:17
maybe I don't want to go back to
01:47:18
competition maybe I just want to call it
01:47:20
here and this is another another um time
01:47:22
where my brother again has been an
01:47:25
incredible role model and some
01:47:27
incredible advice that he gave me was
01:47:29
you can't you can't do that like you
01:47:32
can't have a major injury be the last
01:47:34
thing or be the reason why you leave a
01:47:36
sport like go back go and do it and and
01:47:40
yeah and then and then I did and
01:47:43
>> yeah um got back onto the X Games podium
01:47:46
and then and then I was like okay I've
01:47:48
got back to a certain point where I'm
01:47:49
happy and I'm proud of you know I came
01:47:51
back from injury I went through that I
01:47:53
got back to the level and and in some
01:47:55
ways was better than I was
01:47:57
previously
01:47:59
Then it came on that I was like, "Right,
01:48:01
okay. This is actually clear that this
01:48:03
is not something that really sparks me
01:48:05
anymore, the competitive side of
01:48:06
things."
01:48:07
>> Well, there's no I mean, there's nothing
01:48:08
for you to prove anyway. Like there's
01:48:09
nothing. It's entirely you. And it's
01:48:11
kind of cool getting to do it on your
01:48:12
own on your own terms. A lot of people
01:48:14
don't.
01:48:14
>> Yeah. Yeah. No, I know. And that's
01:48:16
something that was um was pretty cool is
01:48:18
that um I had the opportunity to do it
01:48:21
on my own terms. It wasn't because of
01:48:22
injury. it wasn't because of any other
01:48:25
factor other than the fact that that was
01:48:26
my decision and it's what I wanted to do
01:48:29
>> and um I think that's like I think all I
01:48:33
mean I don't really know but I think a
01:48:35
lot of the times it's I think it's
01:48:36
pretty gnarly and sad to watch some
01:48:38
athletes carry on for so long
01:48:40
>> where it's sort of like like
01:48:43
>> yeah I don't know it's not really my
01:48:44
place to speak it's not really my place
01:48:46
to speak
01:48:46
>> I I I get it though it's hard like if
01:48:48
you've been really good at something and
01:48:49
you're sort of defined about it it can
01:48:51
become if you let it part of your
01:48:52
identity
01:48:53
Yeah. And I think um [ __ ] something that
01:48:56
I've learned in the past year is that
01:48:57
it's like
01:48:58
>> it's way more a part of your identity
01:49:00
than you think it is. Yeah.
01:49:02
>> And
01:49:04
like I couldn't imagine going through
01:49:06
the periods of feeling as I have in this
01:49:08
past year when I'm like 30 or 32 and be
01:49:13
you know like
01:49:15
>> trying to start a family in the next
01:49:17
couple years or like trying to figure
01:49:19
out what I'm going to do for a job as
01:49:20
the rest of my life cuz at some point
01:49:22
you know you're not always going to earn
01:49:23
money to ski
01:49:24
>> and that's something that you have to
01:49:25
accept and it's something that you have
01:49:27
to understand and
01:49:28
>> I can't imagine going through that at
01:49:30
that you know Even 10 years on from now,
01:49:32
it's like, whoa, crazy.
01:49:34
>> Yeah.
01:49:35
>> Um I had had this photo. Um [ __ ] it's a
01:49:39
good relationship with your brother,
01:49:40
right?
01:49:41
>> Yeah. Wow.
01:49:41
>> Photo after you win your gold medal. Um
01:49:44
for anyone that's um listening to this,
01:49:45
not watching it. Um still on the the
01:49:48
slopes. I'm guessing it's immediately
01:49:49
afterwards.
01:49:50
>> Yeah, that was straight after.
01:49:51
>> Yes. So that's before the medal
01:49:52
ceremony.
01:49:53
>> Yes.
01:49:53
>> Yeah.
01:49:54
>> Uh yes, it is.
01:49:55
>> It's you on your brother's shoulders.
01:49:57
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And you were
01:49:58
holding You're on his shoulders.
01:49:59
>> I'm on his shoulders. Yeah. Kiwi flag on
01:50:01
my back and
01:50:02
>> couple of Kiwis doing it.
01:50:04
>> Couple brothers. Yeah. I've actually got
01:50:05
this photo framed at home. Um and it's
01:50:08
in the gun safe.
01:50:08
>> No, this one's out. This one's out on
01:50:10
display, you know, cuz it's Yeah. Yeah.
01:50:13
It' be funny if it was. But no, this
01:50:14
this is a um Yeah. This is one of my
01:50:18
favorite photos uh that I've ever been
01:50:20
Yeah. ever. Like, [ __ ] that's cool. you
01:50:23
know, like
01:50:24
>> I asked that question before about, you
01:50:26
know, how he feels if he if there's a
01:50:27
part of him that's jealous of your
01:50:28
success, but that's just
01:50:30
>> Oh, you look at you look at his emotion
01:50:32
on his face and it's like
01:50:33
>> he is just so proud and is so stoked and
01:50:38
like he's got his little brother on top
01:50:40
of him
01:50:41
>> like you know like Yeah, that's
01:50:44
incredible.
01:50:45
>> Saying a picture says a thousand words
01:50:47
or whatever the saying is.
01:50:48
>> Yeah. And and I think that does say a
01:50:50
thousand words and if you understand a
01:50:52
little bit of the story then
01:50:54
>> yeah but for me it just
01:50:56
>> I don't know it says more than a
01:50:57
thousand says a whole book you know a
01:50:58
whole lifetime. Yeah.
01:50:59
>> Is there ever going to be a book?
01:51:04
>> Um
01:51:06
maybe
01:51:07
>> I don't know maybe
01:51:10
>> I'm not going to shut off the idea and
01:51:11
I'm not going to say yes. Um
01:51:15
yeah
01:51:17
>> I don't know. How's your how's your
01:51:19
mental health been in general? Like we
01:51:20
talking about the anxiety anxiety
01:51:22
earlier. Look, um
01:51:26
I wouldn't say that I've had mental
01:51:28
health issues,
01:51:30
>> but I have gone through some highs and I
01:51:32
have gone through some lows and I've
01:51:33
gone through some
01:51:35
um
01:51:37
big big lows. And that and that's like I
01:51:41
come out of those lows and and and um I
01:51:44
have people around me that help me come
01:51:45
out of those lows but there normally
01:51:49
when I go through those it's because of
01:51:52
something that has happened or
01:51:54
>> circumstantial.
01:51:55
>> Yeah. Yeah. It's maybe because I have
01:51:57
like it could be minor things like lack
01:51:59
of sleep or like you know or it could be
01:52:02
nothing and I just feel terrible for two
01:52:04
weeks
01:52:05
>> like
01:52:07
Yeah.
01:52:09
I I I'd say that my my mental health has
01:52:11
been good. Yeah. Yeah. And I'm and I'm
01:52:13
lucky to say that. But there has been
01:52:15
hard times and there has been some
01:52:16
really really difficult feelings. Um
01:52:20
and just like I don't know that there's
01:52:22
some you know for an example the lows
01:52:24
are uh a feeling of no direction a
01:52:28
feeling of
01:52:30
um you know anxiety is is a huge thing
01:52:33
and you know and and I think nowadays
01:52:35
something that really really really
01:52:37
messes me with me is social media like
01:52:40
it's like
01:52:41
>> social media is such a big part of our
01:52:44
job and it's such a you know as you know
01:52:46
it's such a huge part of of
01:52:50
athletes and what we do. And
01:52:52
I think yeah, social media, you're
01:52:57
constantly being compared to someone
01:52:59
else.
01:52:59
>> Yeah.
01:52:59
>> And that's not nice. You know, it's nice
01:53:02
when you're when you're doing well and
01:53:04
it's doing well, but when you get a bad
01:53:06
comment or you don't get a bad or you
01:53:08
get, you know, maybe it's not many likes
01:53:10
as you wanted or
01:53:12
it's just it's just content constant
01:53:14
like
01:53:16
um comparison
01:53:18
>> and and uh Yeah. So, I think that that
01:53:21
really sometimes makes me feel horrible.
01:53:23
>> Yeah.
01:53:24
>> Um
01:53:26
>> Yeah.
01:53:27
>> You you talked um before about the um
01:53:29
Oh, hello. about the external uh
01:53:31
validation and I suppose on a far far
01:53:33
far smaller scale this is what like kids
01:53:36
around New Zealand everyone around New
01:53:37
Zealand's dealing with with social
01:53:38
media.
01:53:39
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And it's and it's
01:53:40
something that I've actually you know
01:53:41
like there was a period throughout this
01:53:43
past year where I knew that I
01:53:45
transitioned into um the media side of
01:53:47
things but I hadn't announced it to
01:53:48
anyone else. And when I made that step,
01:53:50
I put a lot of pressure on myself to
01:53:52
perform in the same ways that I was in
01:53:54
the competitive side of skiing on social
01:53:56
media and in the media side of things.
01:53:57
And and and
01:54:00
it like it really confuses me because
01:54:02
social media is so out of your control.
01:54:04
You can't measure how you feel or your
01:54:05
success on something that you can't
01:54:07
control.
01:54:08
>> Like,
01:54:09
you know, you just have to be proud of
01:54:11
what you've done and and like I still,
01:54:13
you know, like I'm not I'm not good at
01:54:14
that. M I haven't mastered it by any
01:54:16
means, but
01:54:17
>> at least I'm aware of it and I know that
01:54:18
it's there and and yeah, um sometimes
01:54:21
that does bring up mental challenges. I
01:54:24
would say that I've had mental
01:54:25
challenges and but not mental health
01:54:28
problems. Yeah.
01:54:29
>> Well, it seems like you got a good
01:54:30
network around you and also a good um a
01:54:32
good sense of self-awareness to know
01:54:34
>> uh if um
01:54:36
>> yeah, if your mental health's not where
01:54:37
it should be if there's a reason for it
01:54:40
>> like lack of sleep or lack of exercise
01:54:43
>> or even Yeah. too much alcohol or yeah,
01:54:45
there's like all these things that you
01:54:46
just have to be honest with yourself.
01:54:47
And I'm really lucky that I do have
01:54:49
people around me that are honest with me
01:54:50
in those ways and they would tell me
01:54:52
>> straight up if I'm you know it could be
01:54:55
like you know you stayed up late three
01:54:57
nights in a row
01:54:58
>> or you like I don't know you're so
01:55:01
focused on that like you're so focused
01:55:03
on social media or you're so like yeah I
01:55:05
don't know I've got I've got a really
01:55:06
really good circle of people around me
01:55:08
that will um yeah help me get through
01:55:11
those challenges. Yeah. Who is who's in
01:55:14
your circle? Who's in your
01:55:15
>> My family, my Yeah. My brother, my mom,
01:55:17
my dad.
01:55:18
>> Yeah. Uh, and I also have some some
01:55:20
really really great friends that we
01:55:22
openly talk about this sort of stuff and
01:55:24
and that we can have this conversation
01:55:26
together and and whether that's, you
01:55:28
know, out on a walk uh in the hills
01:55:30
together or whether it's up skiing on a
01:55:31
chairlift or um yeah, we
01:55:36
don't have any of those um I guess what
01:55:39
would you say like the the stigma that
01:55:41
everything's okay. Like I have a really
01:55:44
really good group of friends that I'm
01:55:45
extremely grateful for that they
01:55:48
They understand that everything is not
01:55:51
okay all the time and they're not all
01:55:52
okay all the time. And some will open up
01:55:54
more than others and some I'll open up
01:55:56
to more than I will to others. But I
01:55:58
feel as if um I have a strong network of
01:56:02
people around me that I can talk to
01:56:03
about that stuff and and I'm very very
01:56:06
lucky to have that cuz I know a lot of
01:56:08
people don't.
01:56:08
>> So you're good at that vulnerability
01:56:09
piece having those. Yeah.
01:56:11
>> Yeah. And and I don't hard for a lot of
01:56:12
people.
01:56:13
>> Yeah. It is super hard for a lot of
01:56:14
people and and I see it in people around
01:56:16
me. It's like being I mean being
01:56:19
vulnerable is is hard like it's super
01:56:22
hard like you know it's it's like it's
01:56:25
um yeah I don't know but I think if you
01:56:28
can be selective on who you're
01:56:29
vulnerable to and if you trust those
01:56:31
people and then you know and um you've
01:56:34
known those people for a long time then
01:56:36
>> yeah being vulnerable I think is like
01:56:39
the sickest thing like it's so cool.
01:56:41
>> Yeah.
01:56:41
>> Oh it is. Do you know um Bnee Brown? Are
01:56:43
you familiar with that name?
01:56:44
>> I don't. Uh um I wouldn't expect you to,
01:56:47
but she's um she's an author. She's done
01:56:48
a podcast, but um and she's like the
01:56:50
queen of vulnerability.
01:56:51
>> Yeah. Okay.
01:56:52
>> And she says, "Vulner the quote someone
01:56:53
like vulnerability is the birthplace of
01:56:55
like creativity, deeper relationships,
01:56:57
and
01:56:58
>> just everything good. Nothing bad ever
01:57:00
comes from it." But it's [ __ ] it's hard.
01:57:02
>> Yeah, it is hard. It is really hard. And
01:57:04
and um
01:57:05
>> it is. Yeah, it's just challenging. Like
01:57:07
it's really challenging. It's like
01:57:09
>> um to to
01:57:11
speak your mind is one thing. And
01:57:13
especially in nowadays, like you feel
01:57:15
like you're going to get scrutinized by
01:57:16
anything that you say and and like
01:57:18
whether that's by your friends on social
01:57:19
media, you know, it's like it's it's
01:57:21
there. And and I think it's just about
01:57:24
having those people around you that you
01:57:26
trust and and that you do feel
01:57:27
comfortable to say how you're feeling
01:57:29
whether that's how like regardless of
01:57:33
how you think you should be feeling like
01:57:35
I guess what how can I say this like you
01:57:38
know like say for example if if you get
01:57:40
a something like an amazing thing
01:57:42
happens in your life and but you're
01:57:44
actually not feeling that good it's like
01:57:46
>> well like be vulnerable about that you
01:57:48
know and and have people that you can be
01:57:50
vulnerable about that like
01:57:52
>> and I Yes. Go against those
01:57:53
expectations, the society expectations
01:57:55
to,
01:57:56
>> you know, if you're in a good, something
01:57:57
good happens to you and you're expected
01:57:58
to be okay in a way, but you're kind of
01:58:00
not, you know, like if you're not, then
01:58:01
you're not and that's okay.
01:58:03
>> Yeah. So,
01:58:05
>> yeah.
01:58:05
>> [ __ ] you're impressive.
01:58:07
>> I don't know,
01:58:08
>> mate. Oh, you're you're such a good Do
01:58:10
you think you're a role model? Do you
01:58:12
see yourself as a role model?
01:58:13
>> No.
01:58:14
>> No, I don't. Um, I understand that times
01:58:17
I am a role model, but I don't see
01:58:19
myself as a role model. Um,
01:58:22
>> well, you you shouldn't be, but I think
01:58:23
you are a good one.
01:58:24
>> Oh, thank you. Thank you, Dom. And like,
01:58:26
yeah.
01:58:28
>> Yeah. I don't know. I I don't see myself
01:58:30
as a role model, but I understand that I
01:58:32
do have people looking up to me and and
01:58:34
if I can somehow have a positive impact
01:58:37
>> on their like life and their values,
01:58:40
then that's awesome.
01:58:41
>> Yeah. But at the same time, like I [ __ ]
01:58:44
up, you know, like human.
01:58:46
>> Yeah. And um and sometimes I'm not a
01:58:48
good role model like and and that's
01:58:50
okay.
01:58:51
>> Yeah. And and like you know I have to
01:58:53
tell myself that sometimes. Yeah. Yeah.
01:58:56
>> Do you when you [ __ ] up do you beat
01:58:57
yourself up about it?
01:58:59
>> Um no.
01:59:00
>> Hard on yourself?
01:59:01
>> No. No. Yeah. I am but I'm also not.
01:59:05
>> No I am. Sorry. I am I'm really hard on
01:59:07
myself.
01:59:08
>> Um and it takes me time to get over it.
01:59:11
>> But yeah I don't know. This is probably
01:59:14
not a question for me. This is probably
01:59:15
for question for people around me. You
01:59:17
know what I mean? Like cuz I can say all
01:59:19
I want but reality so how I feel and the
01:59:22
reality of how others look at me is
01:59:24
going to be completely different. You
01:59:25
know like
01:59:26
>> Yeah. Yeah. I don't know.
01:59:28
>> Yeah.
01:59:29
>> Um I've had Sir Steve Hansen on the
01:59:32
podcast um and he said something to me
01:59:33
which stuck with me. I found it really
01:59:35
interesting and made me think a lot. He
01:59:37
said with most people their biggest
01:59:38
strength is also their biggest weakness.
01:59:40
>> Yeah.
01:59:41
>> Yeah. I think that's I think that's
01:59:44
pretty bang on.
01:59:45
>> What's yours?
01:59:46
>> Yeah, I knew this was coming. Um, look,
01:59:49
biggest strength.
01:59:53
>> For example, me after Steve said it, I
01:59:55
thought I it got me thinking about it.
01:59:56
There's numerous things, but one of them
01:59:57
for me is definitely like a people
01:59:58
pleaser.
02:00:00
>> Yeah. Yeah.
02:00:00
>> I like pleasing people, but also it's
02:00:02
that's probably my most toxic trait as
02:00:04
well.
02:00:05
>> Yeah.
02:00:07
Um,
02:00:09
my biggest strength here. How about I
02:00:12
look at it? Maybe if I try and look at
02:00:13
it as a weakness, then I'll be able to
02:00:14
What's my biggest weakness?
02:00:17
>> Um,
02:00:19
ah, yeah, this is actually how it's it's
02:00:21
overthinking
02:00:22
>> and worrying. That's my biggest weakness
02:00:25
is overthinking things and worrying
02:00:26
about what people think. But I think
02:00:28
that's also my biggest strength is
02:00:31
thinking a lot about things and um
02:00:35
>> yeah just making sure that that um
02:00:38
there's no
02:00:40
like spontane there's no no um
02:00:43
everything has thought behind it and has
02:00:45
deep deep thought but then also that
02:00:47
bites me in the ass. And so I think I
02:00:49
think that's my uh
02:00:50
>> that's my strength and weakness.
02:00:53
>> Yeah that's yeah it's pretty true.
02:00:54
>> Thanks for that [ __ ] You've got an
02:00:55
anxious mind don't you? Yeah, I really
02:00:57
do. Yeah, I do. I do. I'm a big worrier
02:00:59
and yeah, I'm a big uh Yeah, I'm
02:01:02
constantly constantly think about um you
02:01:06
know what other people think and and
02:01:07
yeah, that's something that I like, man,
02:01:10
I just wish it would go away sometimes,
02:01:11
you know.
02:01:11
>> Are you a nail biter or anything or no?
02:01:13
>> No, no, I'm not a nail bitter. I may
02:01:15
look like it right now, but that's just
02:01:16
from rock climbing.
02:01:17
>> Oh, no. They're good nails. They're good
02:01:18
nails.
02:01:19
>> Um when was when was the last time you
02:01:21
cried? Oh. Um, last time I cried,
02:01:29
>> probably a couple weeks ago. Week 10
02:01:30
days ago, two weeks ago.
02:01:31
>> Yeah. Are you an emotional guy or one?
02:01:33
>> Um, not particularly.
02:01:34
>> I wear my heart on my sleeve. Um, I
02:01:36
wouldn't say that I'm an emotional
02:01:38
person and that I can just cry on the
02:01:39
spot at anything,
02:01:40
>> but I wear my heart on my sleeve and and
02:01:42
I'm definitely um my emotions
02:01:47
uh they're not hard to see like Yeah,
02:01:50
you can sort of see them
02:01:52
>> pretty easily. Um,
02:01:54
but yeah, I would say that yeah, I would
02:01:57
say I'm emotional person for sure. Yeah,
02:01:59
>> it's a great quality. Don't don't lose
02:02:01
it. through through my 20ies, I I could
02:02:04
probably tell you the amount of times I
02:02:05
cried on like a a hand and it would have
02:02:07
only been like funerals, like
02:02:08
grandparents funerals or something and I
02:02:09
sort of wore that as a badge of honor.
02:02:11
But um I'm leaning into it now. Like
02:02:14
it's a it's a wonderful emotion.
02:02:15
>> Yeah, it is. It is. I mean, it's like
02:02:17
it's
02:02:18
>> um
02:02:19
>> you're not living a full life if you're
02:02:20
not crying on a regular.
02:02:21
>> I think tears are tears are a uh
02:02:26
>> they're a boiling point whether that's
02:02:27
happy or whether it's sad. Mh.
02:02:29
>> Um, and I think it's just a natural
02:02:31
thing, you know, and and
02:02:34
>> sometimes you want to fight it and
02:02:35
sometimes you don't want to fight it and
02:02:36
it's totally fine to not fight it and
02:02:38
it's totally fine to fight it, you know.
02:02:40
It's like
02:02:40
>> 100%.
02:02:41
>> Yeah. Yeah. It's like this balance. It's
02:02:42
like again it comes back to the like
02:02:44
don't like the biggest thing that I was
02:02:46
always taught is don't worry about being
02:02:48
worried. It's like
02:02:49
>> don't don't cry about crying. You know
02:02:52
what I mean? It's like totally okay to
02:02:54
cry,
02:02:54
>> you know? And and but
02:02:56
>> like Yeah. You know. Yeah. just don't
02:02:58
stress out of it. Like it is such a good
02:03:00
thing and it's such a natural thing and
02:03:02
it happens because for a reason. Um
02:03:04
whether that's good or bad.
02:03:06
>> Yeah. I was listening to a podcast the
02:03:08
other week with um Jimmy Carr the
02:03:09
comedian.
02:03:10
>> Oh yeah. Yeah. Um
02:03:10
>> has laugh something I'll say.
02:03:14
>> Um he had an interesting quote which
02:03:16
which got me thinking. I know mental
02:03:18
health isn't as simple as this but he
02:03:19
said depression is basically thinking
02:03:21
about something that's happened.
02:03:22
>> Anxiety is thinking about something that
02:03:24
is in the future. So the best place to
02:03:26
be is in the present. Are you quite I
02:03:28
mean when you when you're doing what
02:03:29
you've done as a sport your entire life
02:03:30
like you have to be in the moment.
02:03:32
>> Um but are you good are you good like in
02:03:34
just dayto-day living and being in the
02:03:35
moment being in the present?
02:03:38
>> Um
02:03:40
I would say yes and no.
02:03:42
>> I would also say yeah. I don't know. It
02:03:45
depends on the situation. Sometimes no.
02:03:46
Sometimes I'm terrible. Sometimes I'm
02:03:48
always looking forward to the future or
02:03:50
thinking about the future and that gives
02:03:51
me a lot of anxiety. Um, and sometimes
02:03:55
I'm just really neutral. Um,
02:03:59
I would say more so often than not, I'm
02:04:01
thinking in the future.
02:04:02
>> And I think that's part of me that's
02:04:04
been drilled into me from a young age is
02:04:06
what's next? What's next? What's next?
02:04:07
And, you know, mindset.
02:04:08
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And something that
02:04:10
I've kind of grown up with. And
02:04:12
>> um,
02:04:14
yeah. Yeah. I would say that
02:04:17
>> Oh, yeah.
02:04:17
>> It's It's hard. Like, it's really hard.
02:04:19
Like Yeah. I think for most people, you
02:04:21
have to constantly remind yourself to
02:04:23
try and be in the moment.
02:04:24
>> Yeah. Yeah, you do. You really do. And
02:04:26
it's so like, you know, you open your
02:04:28
phone and you're scrolling up and down
02:04:30
and it's like, you know what I mean?
02:04:32
It's like, how can you be in the moment
02:04:33
when you're looking at something that,
02:04:35
you know, like ah, it's frustrating, you
02:04:38
know? It's so frustrating. Um, and I
02:04:41
think that's why I really and and I
02:04:43
think a lot of people take to sport and
02:04:46
I know that you're a runner. I don't
02:04:47
know, you still running.
02:04:47
>> Yeah. Yeah.
02:04:48
>> Yeah. Yeah. And and I think like maybe
02:04:50
running's not not quite as much, but you
02:04:52
get in the flow and you get in the
02:04:53
moment and all of a sudden you're forced
02:04:55
to be in the present. And that's what's
02:04:56
so sick about sport is that it gives you
02:04:59
an escape from that. Say if you're
02:05:00
someone that's not very good at being in
02:05:02
the present and and you might find that
02:05:04
as a work on or a challenge, well then
02:05:07
>> sport is awesome because it gives you an
02:05:09
outlet to be able to go and think about
02:05:12
one thing for that long, you know, and
02:05:15
for however long you do it. And um I
02:05:18
think that's something that's really
02:05:19
helped me to stay present is to either
02:05:20
go and play sport or do sport.
02:05:22
>> Yeah.
02:05:24
>> Um yeah, trail running is definitely one
02:05:26
of those things. If I'm going for a long
02:05:27
run on the roads, then my mind wanders.
02:05:28
But
02:05:29
>> if you're doing if you're running the
02:05:31
root burn track or something, you need
02:05:32
to look at every step.
02:05:34
>> Yeah. And then you're completely in the
02:05:35
flow.
02:05:36
>> Yeah. You're having to you're having to
02:05:37
really have that connection between your
02:05:39
body and your mind and it's like forcing
02:05:40
you to occ it's like occupying your mind
02:05:42
in a way. It's like something that I do
02:05:44
when I'm competing is I'll as I've as
02:05:47
I've got older I've learned how to deal
02:05:48
with that staying in the moment. And one
02:05:50
of those things is that I'll just put
02:05:51
headphones in and pace back and forward
02:05:53
in my ski boots and and reciting the
02:05:55
lyrics to these songs. So, it's
02:05:56
something that is not um making me
02:05:59
think. It's something that's happening
02:06:00
without like much thinking, but it's
02:06:02
just a a task that distracts my mind and
02:06:05
and forces me to stay present in what's
02:06:07
happening at that moment.
02:06:09
>> And I think that's like that's something
02:06:10
that I use when I go to sleep as well.
02:06:12
or like I don't know if you're um like
02:06:15
um what is it called? Um Headspace user
02:06:18
or something, you know what I mean? But
02:06:19
like I use all these things when I'm
02:06:20
going to sleep, right? And and one of
02:06:22
the things that they do is they make you
02:06:24
count back from 10,000. And the first
02:06:25
time you hear it, you're like, "What the
02:06:27
[ __ ] Why am I going to count back from
02:06:28
10,000 right now?" Like I'm trying to go
02:06:29
to sleep. And it's because it's that
02:06:31
like that little task.
02:06:33
>> Same with sport. Same with counting.
02:06:34
Same with doing this. It forces you to
02:06:36
stay in the present without like, you
02:06:38
know, it doesn't consume your brain, but
02:06:40
it just stops you from overthinking and
02:06:42
thinking too much and keeps you present.
02:06:44
And
02:06:45
>> yeah, so it's having those little things
02:06:46
and um but yeah, I would say that I'm
02:06:48
not very good at being present and that
02:06:49
I've learned to
02:06:51
>> Yeah. Well, when you when you can
02:06:52
recognize you're not good at something,
02:06:54
that's when you can start working on it
02:06:56
>> and be mindful about it and pull
02:06:57
yourself in when you realize you're not
02:06:59
doing it.
02:06:59
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And and I think
02:07:02
uh Yeah. [ __ ] It's hard. It is hard.
02:07:04
What about future goals? Where where do
02:07:07
you see yourself at 305?
02:07:10
>> To be honest, I've been toying
02:07:12
at the idea of studying architecture.
02:07:15
>> Um, so
02:07:17
>> that's the thing like you you are still
02:07:19
so young. Whatever you want to do, you
02:07:21
can.
02:07:22
>> But it's also that's the gnarly thing is
02:07:24
that like now I'm like sitting here in
02:07:26
this position with, you know, had this
02:07:28
competitive career and now moved into
02:07:29
something else, but I'm not really sure
02:07:32
what that else is. And so like I kind of
02:07:36
in recent time have just felt like a big
02:07:38
weight off my shoulders cuz it feels
02:07:40
like I have come to a decision of a path
02:07:42
that I want to go and and like look I've
02:07:44
got a lot of work to do to to become an
02:07:46
architect like
02:07:47
>> that is so far down the track but at
02:07:49
least it gives me a long-term goal and
02:07:50
something to work towards or something
02:07:51
to go through dayto-day life with a
02:07:54
goal. And whether that's studying a
02:07:57
certain paper, it may not be anything to
02:07:59
do with architecture, but I know that
02:08:00
it's going to get me towards the end
02:08:01
goal. And it's like,
02:08:03
>> yeah, now that I have that there feels
02:08:06
like really, really good.
02:08:07
>> Yeah. But shortterm wise, I just like I
02:08:10
just want to ski hard out and I just
02:08:12
want to ski with my friends and film
02:08:13
stuff and yeah, enjoy it.
02:08:15
>> Just ski for joy.
02:08:16
>> Yeah, just ski for joy.
02:08:17
>> Oh, that's wonderful.
02:08:18
>> Yeah, that's wonderful.
02:08:20
>> Um, any regrets?
02:08:24
Nah, not that I can think of to be
02:08:26
honest. Um, not yet. Yeah, at least. Um,
02:08:30
>> yeah, I don't know.
02:08:31
>> Life so far, mate.
02:08:32
>> Yeah. Well, yeah, it has, Dom, to be
02:08:35
honest. It has and it's been incredible
02:08:36
and it's been something that I'm forever
02:08:38
grateful for and um,
02:08:40
>> yeah, I don't think I regret anything
02:08:42
because at the end of the day, it's like
02:08:44
it's made me who I am now. And, um,
02:08:47
yeah, there's been times where I didn't
02:08:48
like it and but I don't regret it.
02:08:51
>> Yeah.
02:08:52
I've got a photo of um a little boy here
02:08:55
with a
02:08:55
>> photo. What's this?
02:08:57
>> It's a a little boy with um a yellow um
02:09:00
yellow goggles on. Um I don't know,
02:09:03
maybe 5 years old. Yeah.
02:09:07
>> Holy [ __ ] What? Um
02:09:10
>> so I don't know what I can say. I got
02:09:11
man boobs from a young age.
02:09:14
>> That's a hell of a ring.
02:09:15
>> Yeah. Look at the motor on me as well.
02:09:17
>> What would um Yeah. What would you say
02:09:18
to him?
02:09:20
stay present
02:09:23
on the calves.
02:09:24
>> He's in the present day. Like he's not
02:09:26
worrying about a thing. You know what I
02:09:28
mean? Like he's so in the moment
02:09:32
>> like Yeah. And I think that like
02:09:35
>> I don't know. I don't like Yeah.
02:09:36
Sometimes I struggle to get all deep and
02:09:38
sentimental and stuff, but it's like
02:09:39
that's like the childhood thing, right?
02:09:40
Is that you don't have like that person
02:09:42
there doesn't have any worries on their
02:09:43
mind at all. like apart from oh my sand
02:09:46
castle's getting washed away by the tide
02:09:48
or you know like it's so simple
02:09:51
>> and so parents telling you to have an
02:09:52
afternoon nap where you don't want to
02:09:53
miss out on what's going on.
02:09:55
>> Yeah yeah yeah and so it's like
02:09:58
>> yeah I don't know keep doing what you're
02:10:00
doing.
02:10:01
>> Um are there three words that your
02:10:03
family and friends would use to describe
02:10:04
you? What would they say? What would you
02:10:06
like them to say? Oh,
02:10:09
um
02:10:13
um what would I like them to say? I
02:10:16
don't really know what they would say
02:10:17
>> and I can't answer that.
02:10:20
>> Um
02:10:22
>> I like asking that question though
02:10:23
because if you put some thought into it,
02:10:24
you can sort of almost reverse engineer
02:10:26
your life and live in a way where
02:10:28
>> Goodness, it's a big question though,
02:10:29
isn't it?
02:10:30
>> Yeah.
02:10:30
>> Um
02:10:37
Well, I think like
02:10:40
I think the first the first one that I
02:10:43
would probably say would be
02:10:45
um
02:10:47
like just caring
02:10:49
>> like just a nice person, you know, like
02:10:52
um
02:10:54
that and that that encompasses a lot of
02:10:56
things like you know being welcoming,
02:10:58
being supportive, being you know just
02:11:00
like caring and like
02:11:02
>> um I guess not self-centered. Um
02:11:08
yeah just just thinking about others and
02:11:10
being respectful of them. Yeah I think
02:11:11
so so like the caring side of things I
02:11:14
would then I would say respectful
02:11:17
and then I would say
02:11:21
driven
02:11:23
>> caring respectful and driven. And I
02:11:26
think it's not just those three words,
02:11:28
you know, they encompass a whole whole
02:11:31
big pool of some things. But
02:11:33
>> um
02:11:35
>> Yeah.
02:11:35
>> Interesting. Interesting. We've been
02:11:37
sitting here for just over two hours.
02:11:39
>> Yeah. Goodness.
02:11:40
>> It's kind of the first time we've met. I
02:11:41
would have said um
02:11:43
>> Yeah. What would you say
02:11:44
>> for you? Kind, thoughtful, um and yeah,
02:11:48
driven or a variation of driven.
02:11:50
>> I was thinking that throughout this
02:11:52
chat. Yeah,
02:11:53
>> that's definitely um Yeah, that's
02:11:55
definitely what you're putting out in
02:11:56
the world.
02:11:57
>> That's nice. Thanks, Tom. Yeah, I
02:11:58
appreciate that.
02:11:59
>> Nico Pius, are you proud of yourself?
02:12:01
>> Yes, I'm proud of myself.
02:12:03
>> Yeah.
02:12:03
>> Yeah.
02:12:04
>> Have you always been?
02:12:07
>> Yeah.
02:12:07
>> Yeah. I mean, obviously there's times
02:12:09
where you doubt it, but Yeah. And yeah,
02:12:11
I have always been proud of myself. And
02:12:12
you know, there's been moments where
02:12:14
I've like you [ __ ] up and you're not
02:12:16
going to be proud of yourself or like
02:12:18
you make mistakes and you're not going
02:12:19
to be proud of yourself. But I would say
02:12:20
sitting here today right now, I'm proud
02:12:23
of who I am and Yeah. Yeah. That's it.
02:12:26
>> Yeah. I'm proud of you, too.
02:12:28
>> Oh, thanks, Tom.
02:12:28
>> You're a great New Zealander.
02:12:30
>> I sent you a message saying, "Is there
02:12:31
anything in particular that you wanted
02:12:32
to take off?" And you were like, "No,
02:12:33
I'm just keen to see where it goes."
02:12:35
>> Yeah.
02:12:35
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Um because it's not,
02:12:37
you know, like it's not very often that
02:12:38
you get to just sit down and have a two
02:12:40
almost two and a half hour chat with
02:12:41
someone. You know what I mean? Like
02:12:43
especially someone that's so like
02:12:45
experienced in the world of interviewing
02:12:46
and asking questions and being so
02:12:48
in-depth. It's like sort of like, you
02:12:50
know, it feels like you're at a um like
02:12:53
sitting down with a mate, you know, and
02:12:55
catching up for a long time and
02:12:56
something that you just, you know, it's
02:12:57
it's
02:12:58
>> Yeah, it's it's nice. Yeah. I sort of
02:13:00
just wanted to trust the process a
02:13:01
little bit and just see like
02:13:03
>> where is this going to go? Where is this
02:13:04
going to go and what's going to happen
02:13:06
and what's going to come out and
02:13:08
>> goodness.
02:13:09
>> Yeah. Are you happy with how it's gone?
02:13:11
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
02:13:11
>> I'm very happy. I think this is a great
02:13:13
chat. It'sful.
02:13:14
>> Yeah. It's been really cool. It's been
02:13:16
really cool and so thank you for um
02:13:18
having me on and yeah, it's been really
02:13:19
really really nice,
02:13:20
>> mate. I appreciate it and I uh genuinely
02:13:22
um cannot wait to see what you do next.
02:13:24
>> Maybe it's not even something we'll
02:13:26
>> Oh, yeah.
02:13:27
>> hear hear about in the public domain,
02:13:28
you know, maybe uh
02:13:30
>> maybe I'll stumbled across your name on
02:13:31
an architecture website one day or maybe
02:13:33
not and I'll be like, "Oh, [ __ ] That's
02:13:34
>> Nico." Yeah. Yeah. And uh I guess that's
02:13:37
something that I had to be willing when
02:13:39
I made the decision to leave competing.
02:13:40
It's something I had to willing to
02:13:42
accept. And yeah, I think if I just stay
02:13:45
driven in what I'm doing and then yeah,
02:13:48
who knows? Hopefully that will bring me
02:13:50
joy.
02:13:51
>> Yeah. Oh, you're a great New Zealander,
02:13:52
mate. And this has been wonderful.
02:13:53
Thanks so much.
02:13:53
>> Appreciate it. Cheers.
02:13:54
>> Cheers.

Podspun Insights

In this captivating episode, the conversation dives deep into the world of competitive skiing with Nico Portius, a two-time Olympic medalist. Nico opens up about his journey, from the exhilarating highs of winning gold and bronze medals to the emotional challenges of stepping back from competition. The discussion is filled with candid reflections on the sacrifices made by his family, the pressure of expectations, and the mental health struggles that accompany elite sports. Nico shares his thoughts on the importance of vulnerability, the impact of social media, and the joy of skiing for fun rather than competition. Listeners will find themselves rooting for Nico as he navigates life beyond the slopes, contemplating a future in architecture while cherishing the memories of his athletic achievements. This episode is a heartfelt exploration of identity, ambition, and the pursuit of happiness, making it a must-listen for anyone interested in the human side of sports.

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Episode Highlights

  • The Cost of Success
    Nico Portius opens up about the sacrifices made for his skiing career.
    “Success comes at a huge cost.”
    @ 05m 16s
    August 10, 2025
  • Skiing on Fire
    In 2018, I skied better than ever before during an Olympic final.
    “I was just skiing on fire.”
    @ 16m 50s
    August 10, 2025
  • Gratitude for Sacrifice
    Reflecting on his parents' sacrifices for his skiing career, Nico expresses deep gratitude.
    “The amount of sacrifices they made was incredible.”
    @ 29m 18s
    August 10, 2025
  • The Bond with Tommy
    A reflection on a 15-year relationship with a coach who became family.
    “What a ride together.”
    @ 39m 21s
    August 10, 2025
  • Sibling Support in Competition
    The bond between the athlete and his brother shines through during challenging moments.
    “The first person I got to say something to was Miguel. And it was us hugging each other and him going, 'Fuck yeah.'”
    @ 51m 21s
    August 10, 2025
  • The Pressure of Expectations
    The athlete reflects on the increased pressure leading up to the 2022 Olympics.
    “I had a target on my back in the two years in the buildup.”
    @ 01h 02m 28s
    August 10, 2025
  • The Back-to-Back 1620s
    Achieving back-to-back 1620s was key to Olympic success.
    “That’s what gave me a lot of my success was those two tricks.”
    @ 01h 12m 43s
    August 10, 2025
  • The Pressure of the Olympics
    Nico reflects on the pressure he felt after his friend Zoe won gold.
    “Oh no. Like now there’s this pressure on us.”
    @ 01h 24m 50s
    August 10, 2025
  • Recognition and Identity
    Nico discusses receiving the New Zealand Order of Merit and how it impacts his identity.
    “I want it to be a part of who I am.”
    @ 01h 36m 18s
    August 10, 2025
  • The Impact of Injury
    An injury forced him to reassess his life and career, leading to a new perspective.
    “I was so thankful and so grateful for that injury to be honest.”
    @ 01h 46m 45s
    August 10, 2025
  • The Challenge of Vulnerability
    Speaking your mind can feel risky in today's world. It's important to have trusted people around you.
    “It's just about having those people around you that you trust.”
    @ 01h 57m 24s
    August 10, 2025
  • Future Aspirations
    Having a long-term goal, like studying architecture, can provide direction and motivation.
    “At least it gives me a long-term goal and something to work towards.”
    @ 02h 07m 49s
    August 10, 2025

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Key Moments

  • Decision to Retire04:27
  • Pursuing Dreams33:42
  • Mental Health Lessons45:15
  • Pressure of Expectations1:02:28
  • Identity and Achievement1:36:18
  • Vulnerability1:57:52
  • Strengths & Weaknesses1:59:46
  • Being Present2:05:00

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