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No, I'm not scared of dying
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>> at all. Like I don't what I don't want
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the thing that frightens me, the thing I
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don't like thinking about is is is
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leaving Natalie alone,
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>> but I'm not scared of dying. I hate the
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idea of her being alone when she won't
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be. She's got lots of friends and stuff
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and but I don't like the idea of of not
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being there, of her missing me and not
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being able to help and all of that. So
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that's the that's the that's the one bit
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of all of this that is the that's the
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intolerably painful part of it for