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debuting for New Zealand I was like I
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don't know anything about this sport the
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first year of the black sticks I had
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these expectations it was going to be
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the best year of my life due to I guess
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a lot of different things that happened
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that year it was probably one of the
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hardest years in my life I was ready to
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quit really to be honest why all of my
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happiness is going to be come true like
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this is my dream and I have to act so
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grateful and I am so grateful but a
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couple of things happened so the first
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was I just had this inner critic in my
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head my voice was just saying like you
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don't deserve to be here you know you're
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not good enough for this you're going to
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make up you're going to make up again
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like my debut was incredible got
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presented my shirt I'm singing The
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Anthem tears streaming down my face I
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just remember it so vividly and then I
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just start making mistake after mistake
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that voice just got louder and louder
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and I just didn't know how to handle it