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Mike Chunn on Leaving Split Enz, Recruiting Neil Finn & Living with Agoraphobia

July 10, 202401:28:14
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Mike Chan welcome to my podcast thank
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you Dom good to be here mate the honor
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is absolutely all mine I'm um a massive
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massive fan of yours and your work as a
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as a matter of fact I went into my uh
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storage locker um yesterday in
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anticipation for this and I found
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something and I wasn't sure if I still
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had this but it's one of these things
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I've been hanging on to give me a look
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check this out uh that was the
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270 oh 93 anniversary tour no I wasn't
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on that tour no nigal great Ser is down
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there he was the guy that took over for
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me in 77 yeah how come how come you went
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on the reunion tour I had a phobic
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disorder which in the end I succumbed to
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so I had about 4 and 3/4 years in the
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band I used to deal with this problem by
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taking tranquilizers because I told my
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father I had stage right he's a
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doctor but I didn't have stage five at
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all I loved being on the stage Fact one
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place and I I have talked to other
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musicians about this when I opened out
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or opened up or spoke out is that the
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stages where you are safe but anyway I
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had about 3 years of tranquilizers and
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in the end I decided that I'd lo I was
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losing that battle so I left the band
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yeah well we we can get into that in um
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much more detail as much detail as you
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want actually later on but because um
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you and your book has sharli turn um you
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write about it and it's um got I I was
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reing reading your book last night and I
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like tears in my face it's hero just
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this um the hell that you lived in uh
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with this un unknown undiagnosed
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disorder for many years it was it was
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awful but I um I bring this poster out
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because I would have thought by
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1993 you would have had more of a grasp
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on it more of a more of a handle on it I
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did but by then the spin had been and
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gone so they broke up in '
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84 and Nigel you know Nigel is the
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official bass player for spines and I'm
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the guy that plays if Nigel can't be
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found uh but you know I love my time
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with that band and and so some people
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say You must regret leaving but I felt I
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had no choice so but it's still and as
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nol one said spin isn't something you
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can just leave and walk away from you
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it's always in you fact recently we we
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all met up at nilin studio and did some
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playing together of the old songs it was
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wonderful how good okay oh there is um
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so much in the rich tapestry of your
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life to talk about um I did a lot of
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reading and anticipation of this coming
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in and when when you're a man like
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yourself there's um a lot of Articles
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you've done and a lot of things you've
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said going back many many years so some
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of these um may have been correct at the
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time and they're incorrect now but let's
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run through them so you're a you're a 2m
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word guy you often wake up at 2: a.m.
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and do Wordle how ironic you are an
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investigative and I did it last night at
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12:30 a.m. and I did it in
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4: I in fact I waited till midnight I
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wonder how it works around the world but
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yeah midnight is a bang
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worldle W's great yeah surely a doctor
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would say to you like if you got you
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know if you wake up in the middle of the
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night it's not the best thing for you to
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have that bright screen in your face too
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bad um you're a lover of cream and jam
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Donuts but you only allow yourself to
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have like one every 5 years yeah well
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we live in Mount Eden Road now and
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there's a I call it kind of like a
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workman's canteen you know those
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cabinets all like yeah yeah yeah like an
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old they have these cream and cranberry
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Jam filled
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pancakes well so forget the donut now
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it's pancake time for me love them I
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reckon when you you have one more than
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one pancake every 5 years though oh sh
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you no I would have a pancake once or
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twice a week oh good on you um huge fan
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of Don mcglashan love Don mcgan I'm a
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lyric man so you know I've always P paid
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a lot of attention to lyrics and Don is
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the master of telling us about life in
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New Zealand I think they are quite
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focused on New Zealand not just humanity
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and human relationships and boy girls or
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familial
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stories it makes me really feel at home
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listening to them to him no matter how
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tragic his LCS get like no telling when
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was this song about a guy on a boat out
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in the ocean and something must have
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happened because I think the Mast is
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broken and he just sits there dreaming
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that the footprints he might see on the
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beach all those miles away has and he's
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going to get back but we suspect he
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never
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does he's do you have like a favorite
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era of mlan like is it from LA M Birds
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all they all have their wonderful Peak
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moments Andy is truly
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incredible Andy story about his
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brother yeah no muttonbird solo albums
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you know they're all wonderful yeah
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Andy's probably one of my favorite songs
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of all time and Inc what else uh Na n is
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great it's a beautiful song even
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tomorrow night some of the more
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light-hearted front lawn songs beautiful
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well that's something that's some common
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ground we've got we're both uh excellent
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um another you always have a
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tranquilizer in your pocket for an
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emergency is this still on flight only
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flying right it's the one place that you
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can't suddenly decide not to be in or on
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cuz you'd have to jump out of the plane
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window but on a boat you can say to
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yourself oh I can just dive off and swim
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back on a train I can just pull a cord
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in a car I can just stop walking I can
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just stop but the entrapment of an
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airplane a lot of people like when I
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came out and uh with that uh series on
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TV of I guess you'd call them
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advertisements or something like minees
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like
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mine and I talked about um
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agobia and quite a few not when I say
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quite a few maybe about five or six
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well-known musicians got hold of me
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quietly we went up and and they talked
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about how they have the same problem but
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the stage is the safe
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place uh and that airplane's terrify
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them yeah the I was going to say the
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funny thing about that but it's not
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really funny at all but the like for for
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um most new zealanders I think or most
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people in general like being on a stage
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in front of people would be the most
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terrifying thing imaginable but I know
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it's
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weird okay we yeah we will get into that
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um uh later on in the chat because I
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feel like you don't necessarily get the
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credit not that you were ever about the
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credit but you know in terms of um
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high-profile people that spoke early
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about mental health you know you've got
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the Mike KS and the sjn Kuan feel like
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you don't necessarily get the you know
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the credit or the recognition you
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deserve for speaking so openly about it
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at a time when it wasn't spoken about
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openly I don't mind yeah the thing is
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I'm not embarrassed by it no and it's
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something it was all my own fault but I
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we I have in the 80s just by being aware
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of it and people asking questions about
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it it's pretty much in our
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genes my sister had phobic disorder and
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I won't go into all the others but I'm
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not the only one in the Chun family to
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have had a phobic disorder yeah didn't
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you have a a grandfather like Granddad
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bunny Uncle bunny Uncle
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Jack when I put came out with that book
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called uh [ __ ] what's it called uh
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Tales of M Madness and
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mirth it didn't sound any anything but I
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did do it because I my editor an
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Clifford said give a voice to agobia
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because in the spadin um story of
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spreadin which was my first book I don't
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call it anything I don't even talk about
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having a phobic disorder as to why I
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left the
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band but um yeah and I was sort of
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wavered there from the answer to
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whatever we were talking about where was
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I
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Dum um oh yeah what was the question
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um uh oh you're not getting the same
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sort of level of recognition as say um
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Mike King and John Ken yeah not that it
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was ever about that and then the thing
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is I'm never going to run away from it
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so if anyone wants to talk about it I
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will and people with it if they come
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across somebody like me who's done
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is can be seen to be talking about it
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they will get a hold of me you know so
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there probably have been about 20 30
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people who have met with me to talk
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about their problem and how you how I
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dealt with
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it that's cool uh yeah that must be very
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satisfying that that through your own
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harrowing experiences you can make life
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the journey a bit easier for some others
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it can be incredibly emotionally
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overwhelming I could tell you about that
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the
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bank you want to hear about the bank
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bank story I love the bank story I'm an
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a que to go to the teller at the bank
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remember tellers mhm and I got to her
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and she looked at me and said I want to
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thank you for going on television with
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the like M's like mine and I said are
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you
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okay and she said no I'm not well the
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queue Behind Me grew as we both cried
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and started talking in the bank
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I don't know what the bank manager
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thought but she I feel had spoken for
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the first time I am like you there's
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something wrong and now I've said it or
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shown it to be real and uh take it from
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there and I I felt really good about it
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didn't didn't cost me a cent all I had
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to do was just ask if she's
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okay oh that's wonderful isn't that
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powerful it's like a vulnerability
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exchange yeah exactly
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um okay a couple of light-hearted ones
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um you you met Michael Jackson yeah
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Mikey J I met him in 77 in a um a radio
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station Syndicate syndicated you know
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blah blah blah called The Magic Mountain
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I think it was AR of
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timin uh Linda Steiner the Crystalis
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record um PR minder that was trading
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with
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us Mikey and Jermaine were coming along
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the corridor and she stopped and said oh
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Michael Jermaine got to meet the boys
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from New Zealand so I shook his hand
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that's like shaking hand with
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water very strange I looked him in the
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eye he would have been 17 so he was
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about one or two years away from in fact
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he was two years away from don't stop
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till he get
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enough I should have asked him if I
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could join his
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band there was already
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enough um are you you won a $2 bit with
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Jinder did she ever pay up well she
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believes
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that part of that bet was I would give
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her this is a another criteria I would
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give her a bottle of lindow for
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something so she's waiting for the
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bottle of lindow before she's going to
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go off and give me the
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$2 so I it's all just fall to risk but
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it was a lot of fun at the time these
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are B Linda and $2 it's a very lowlevel
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bet what was the bet that you you
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thought she would be PR Minister before
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40 was yeah well she was a guest at our
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um award show the play at strange award
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show at the BackBeat bar and kroot and
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she she came along and she spoke
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presented the peace song award because
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we have a it's fact it's a whole
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competition now the peace song and she
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spoke and then I said before she took
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the
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stage okay we have a a new member of
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parliament today and I'm going to ask
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her to present this award her name is
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Jinder
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adun and she will be prime minister
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before she's 40 cuz I knew she was 38
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and she came up to me she
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said that's a big ass mic kind of trying
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to whisper it but it was ringing out
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through the PA system I said okay okay
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everybody please welcome Jinder ardun
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the new MP for labor and I betat you $2
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looking her in the eye that you will be
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the prime Minister before year 40 when I
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was
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announced when win he made his
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famous um decision I'm going with labor
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I sent her a text I saying you owe me
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$2 it was a lot of fun she was I had a
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lot of time for just we used to meet
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every Christmas at daa's wine bar and
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jvo Road and she was fantastic we talk
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about all sorts of things Mormon church
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all sorts of things you still in touch
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now no no it all fell off the sort of
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The Happening rails let's call them when
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she became prime minister and had to
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suffer the vibe in this country even
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people that I knew and believed
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in decided that she was this and she was
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that and she was this now they're
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actually even louder than she were with
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her it's a strange we're not going to
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talk politics no no it gets very very
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nasty with politics doesn't it I think
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the whole covid thing had a huge point
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to play yeah you could be right yeah um
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gez there's a couple more of these
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little sort of like fun trivial bits
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here let's go okay
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um uh there was a time where the Oakland
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Mir Band rock concerts because of you
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and your band yeah s some band played at
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the Oakland Town Hall in
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1979 and a lot of people said what are
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you doing booking the town hall you know
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it's hard enough to get a full house at
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the wind Castle Pub but I don't know we
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just we had done a lot of lunchtime
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concerts at
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schools and so at a lunchtime concert
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you get on stage everyone's got their
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sandwiches and they're rocking away but
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you only hear about six songs and
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they've all got to go back to class poor
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bastards and so the tickets just
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rocketed out of the box office because
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they wanted to see a whole show
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and there were 1,800 people in that room
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in a
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Flash and they just wouldn't stay in
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their seats it was such a joy to behold
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up there on that stage because I keep to
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me the town hall is all about the
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Beatles of 64 Rolling Stone 65 The Who
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66 I think 67 all these famous Feet
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Shoes had been on that stage and so I
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would stand on every imprint yeah it's a
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magical environment but yeah know uh
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Sally somebody at the herald took it on
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to really spread the word how the uh the
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council wasn't going to allow anyone to
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stand
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up what a laugh it's hilarious you look
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back now it's quite it's adorable really
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isn't it ad a great word for it it's
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adorable um split 's first ever
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recording session in early 1973 was to
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record a jingle for Suzuki motorbikes
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let Suzuki blow your mind let Suzuki
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blow your
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mind it's on it's on New Zealand on
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screen I don't tell anyone actually I'm
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probably telling everyone now and you
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can listen to it and look at it it's
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full of guys running motorcycles you
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know let Suzuki blowing and Tim sings it
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it's funny you got to see it actually uh
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but the best one was
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and we haven't had the
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heart for Tim's sake really to to let it
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go out I don't think it's out it's a
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radio a
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for um tiny tote
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eyeliner a real Eyota new from X
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Factor Eyes Are Made For Love try
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something that is
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new that song that that melody in ended
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up I think in the song Maybe on the
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first spin album yeah so we did an
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eyeliner ad thank you very
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much Dom's Fallen to the floor I might
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have to pick him
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up it's just amazing I suppose it's just
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you know you just young kids at this
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time and you didn't even know where unck
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Buck coming from so it's desperation we
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got $100 each we were just we were high
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we were in a studio steings on our
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mascot Studios yeah we just really
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wanted to make an album and go to
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England that was all we wanted to do and
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you're um you're a happy and frequent
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crier uh that's a quote I am a crier
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yeah I'm a big
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CER in fact
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one movie recently I almost felt I have
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to leave the theater because of
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the
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explosive outpouring of grief what was
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it oh it was um the one about you know
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thing me Bob the classical conductor who
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wrote the music to Westside Story
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Westside Story I don't know oh yes you
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do and so do I but I can't remember it
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you know ber bear h no it's not ber bear
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it's l Lenard Bernstein okay have you
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seen the movie about Lenard Bernstein
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it's called oh it's a one weird anyway
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it it just probably because of the life
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I've Liv it just completely T
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me it's a bit like Tim Finn was talking
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about the movie 20 steps from the front
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of the stage I think it's called you
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know about that one no it's
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features the lives of and and
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conversations with backing singers the
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ones who were 20 ft back oh okay he was
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talking about he just Bal and Bal and
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baled were you have you always been
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emotional or have you found as you got
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older
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uh no I think I always have been y I'm
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trying to remember if my father my
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father is a big cry but usually about
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cricket
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yeah true happy tears about Cricket or
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all you had to do was turn look at him
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and say Don Bradman he
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go don 298 against um Australia in
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1939 that's amazing oh one thing I
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noticed in in your book you you refer to
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your parents by their name you called
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them um vaugh and Jerry is is that what
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you you called them gr how come you call
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them volterian not Mom and Dad I don't
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know yeah
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unusual it just seemed normal I called
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Von Vonnie Vonnie and Jerry maybe I
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wanted a sort of know a sound that was
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similar for the two of them rather than
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Mom and
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Dad I don't I don't know the answer to
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that but you so a Vonnie and Jerry did
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you your kids call you like Dad or I'm m
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m yeah which which has spread around the
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family from uh my Dar Bridget my wife
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who calls me m m
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yeah wow 's okay with me Em's just all
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right with
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me um I read that you this is a quote
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from you you still are playing music and
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you play piano alone guitar after
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drinking and bass to Big crowds
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basically is yeah so I only really want
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to play the Bas guitar on a big stage
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with the huge crowd for me it's what my
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dream was when I
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first thought of being a famous pop star
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which was when I saw a h days night and
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I was
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12 and at the age of 12 you can have all
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the dreams you want and I was uh in a
00:21:11
picture theater in Wellington on a class
00:21:13
trip we went down there to see the All
00:21:15
Blacks play
00:21:17
Australia in fact I was sitting once
00:21:19
with sir me and I said and he I said
00:21:23
first time I saw you play was a 1964
00:21:25
athetic Park against aadia he looked at
00:21:28
me with the sort of strange look and I
00:21:30
said and I'm sorry you lost
00:21:33
228 he leaned forward quite close to my
00:21:36
face and said you're being very generous
00:21:38
M we lost 20 to5 wow he knew and I I I
00:21:43
don't know M anyway uh yeah um can't
00:21:46
remember what that was about but it was
00:21:48
very exciting to talk about it what was
00:21:50
I saying well we um oh you were talking
00:21:53
about yeah still up playing music piano
00:21:55
alone guitar after drinking piano I mean
00:21:59
the family hear
00:22:00
it but I've never really there was one
00:22:03
song Titus on mental notes where I
00:22:06
played the piano with the
00:22:07
band but generally it's a perfect thing
00:22:10
to play alone what is it is it a
00:22:12
cathartic thing for you is it yeah yeah
00:22:15
I need to think about these things so I
00:22:17
said like I went into the school music
00:22:21
library at ockland University and looked
00:22:24
up Rak
00:22:25
manof and there was a two piano
00:22:29
score I thought ah I'll pick the bits
00:22:32
that I like and so I photocopied it and
00:22:34
ran out the door didn't pay for anything
00:22:36
and I I started playing bits of these
00:22:40
rack manof second piano canudo and seon
00:22:42
so that
00:22:43
Adventure is where the piano rests for
00:22:46
me to
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00:22:53
go uh the base is I just like that big
00:22:56
and loud and and for me the love I had
00:22:59
for the members of
00:23:00
spin is
00:23:03
all professed really in a way by my
00:23:07
playing of the Bas and I was also lucky
00:23:10
enough to be in
00:23:12
a in a band like that at a time when you
00:23:15
wrote your own part so no one ever came
00:23:18
up to me and said ah Stranger Than
00:23:20
Fiction I've got a good idea for what
00:23:21
you can play on the base I I would just
00:23:24
stick my hand over your mouth and say I
00:23:26
don't want to be told anything what to
00:23:28
play all of us were the same so at least
00:23:31
I had I felt I had a really strong
00:23:32
creative input in terms of what notes
00:23:35
and what motifs Etc I played on the Bas
00:23:37
and the acoustic guitar I love it but
00:23:39
I'm not very good at it but my son
00:23:41
Barney is fantastic on it so here and I
00:23:44
will sit down and play waterl Sunset The
00:23:47
Kinks song and if we have three or four
00:23:49
beers at the same time we'll move on to
00:23:52
other songs as well it's great it's a
00:23:54
great accompanyment instrument yeah
00:23:56
great sort of bonding thing yeah yeah
00:23:59
yeah it's funny funny you um I just
00:24:00
picked up on something you said before
00:24:01
about um you know everyone in Split Ends
00:24:04
just um sort of creating their own part
00:24:06
for each song um that seems to go all
00:24:08
the way back in your book you talk about
00:24:10
you know some of the early rehearsals
00:24:12
maybe even before it was called split
00:24:13
ends at your parents house and your dad
00:24:15
would sit at the top of the stairs and
00:24:17
watch sort of an amazement and uh wonder
00:24:19
how you could do this without
00:24:21
communicating with
00:24:23
words I know yeah uh he was very taken
00:24:27
with Phil judge
00:24:29
lyrics uh so when mental an came out he
00:24:32
wanted to copy straight away so he could
00:24:34
just have those lyrics in his possession
00:24:37
especially the song time for a change
00:24:38
you know you B so you were a blind man
00:24:40
he was crying he just how old was he
00:24:41
when he wrote that 18 or 19 [ __ ] that's
00:24:45
phenomenal I know like do you you look
00:24:47
back now as a man in your 70s and think
00:24:49
how did a teenage boy write that exactly
00:24:51
well at the time you want the story I'd
00:24:54
love it so we played at Levi Saloon the
00:24:57
rock and roll nightclub down the road
00:24:59
but this was a folk in Blues night so
00:25:02
somehow or other my brother Jeffrey got
00:25:04
us a gig and so we all turn up we've
00:25:08
learned um three songs and we hop up on
00:25:10
stage and play them we hop off the stage
00:25:14
and go back to the seats and Barry
00:25:16
Coburn God bless him who was running the
00:25:18
show later became our man well actually
00:25:21
and he said you only played three
00:25:24
songs oh we only know three songs he
00:25:27
said well play them again again so up we
00:25:30
go and play them again we just felt like
00:25:32
King Kong and we kept going back to
00:25:35
Levis to play in one show
00:25:38
Phil looked at us and said can you guys
00:25:41
leave the stage miles and I are going to
00:25:43
do a song that we've done we've written
00:25:46
and he sits there with his acusa guitar
00:25:48
playing all these strange Mo strange
00:25:51
formations miles Golding our violin
00:25:53
player had obviously written this long
00:25:56
beautiful outro to the thing
00:26:00
and it really really stunned the room MH
00:26:04
you act as though you were blind man
00:26:06
who's crying crying about all the
00:26:08
virgins that are dying it was a magical
00:26:11
moment luckily he didn't mind having the
00:26:15
band join him the next time around which
00:26:18
we did I mean strange uh time for change
00:26:22
would would be featured in every spin in
00:26:25
show in the last 40 50 years
00:26:28
yeah yeah it's really still the test of
00:26:30
time you know it's a so I wonder that as
00:26:33
someone that's doesn't have a musical
00:26:34
bone in his body I'm guessing there's a
00:26:36
lot of a lot of guys in their 70s that
00:26:38
wrote songs when they were in their
00:26:39
teens early 20s and they look back now
00:26:41
and sort of you know their toes probably
00:26:45
curl a bit of some of the lyrics they
00:26:46
wrote back then but that's a very mature
00:26:48
song I think Jazz was a
00:26:51
greaty yeah all right okay so let's go
00:26:54
let's go the way back so you're at
00:26:55
Sacred Heart Sacred Heart College um and
00:26:58
you you're you're not a music guy you're
00:26:59
a sports guy you and Tim fer and uh well
00:27:03
see the thing is life at Sacred Heart
00:27:05
College wasn't
00:27:07
really a means to an end in terms of
00:27:10
being in a band so Tim was a great
00:27:14
singer he killed it on the stage but he
00:27:16
never wrote a song I never well I did
00:27:19
write a song which I have never played
00:27:21
to anybody my brother Jeffrey was
00:27:23
writing some songs but in essence we
00:27:26
just played covers so Sacred Heart
00:27:28
College
00:27:30
was a adventure on the stage I called it
00:27:33
the magical playground there we were on
00:27:36
the
00:27:37
stage and we dreamed of being Beatles I
00:27:40
think we tried writing songs and we
00:27:42
realized that being being a beetle one
00:27:45
you can just buy the boots and buy the
00:27:47
suit and you can just grow your hair and
00:27:50
you can learn how to play that
00:27:51
instrument that's okay but writing a
00:27:54
song
00:27:55
Jesus and
00:27:58
if in fact if Phil Jud had turned around
00:28:00
in napia and gone to
00:28:03
vuni I don't think there ever would have
00:28:05
been a SP he walked in and just all this
00:28:09
stuff started to
00:28:11
happen so you you met Tim
00:28:14
Finn I I think the story goes that um he
00:28:16
was leaving the principal's office and
00:28:18
you were walking in is that when you
00:28:20
they called him the guy that our parents
00:28:23
gave money to what do you call that a
00:28:27
school okay the school Moneybags man the
00:28:29
school dean maybe or no he had a name he
00:28:32
had a probably in the Maris Maris
00:28:35
Brotherhood he had he was specific
00:28:37
anyway so uh brother
00:28:41
Alexis I'd gone in with Mom and Dad Von
00:28:43
and jery and as I came out Tim was going
00:28:46
in might be the other way
00:28:48
around but really there's nothing to
00:28:50
that although I knew of him because his
00:28:52
cousin Simon Downey was a close friend
00:28:54
of mine then we both this is we're still
00:28:59
in form two and we
00:29:01
both he sat next to me actually in the
00:29:04
assemblage of 12year olds setting a
00:29:08
scholarship exam to get free
00:29:11
boarding he bloody got it Tim got the
00:29:15
scholarship and I got
00:29:16
nothing maybe I've always felt insecure
00:29:19
next to him because of that no just
00:29:22
tricking but you so we we sort of had a
00:29:25
link yeah eye to ey from the first time
00:29:28
we walked in the school
00:29:30
Gates it's yeah it's amazing so you were
00:29:33
like 12 at the time when you first met
00:29:35
and then when did just when did you
00:29:36
realize when did you become like friends
00:29:38
or when did you realize there was some
00:29:39
well at at boarding school everyone's a
00:29:41
kind of friend yeah I don't remember
00:29:44
ever having an altercation or an enemy
00:29:46
or
00:29:47
anything but we were very much well I it
00:29:51
must have been a moment probably in
00:29:52
fourth form that's year 11 fourth was it
00:29:58
10 hopeless at the years it's year 10 14
00:30:01
years old
00:30:02
um
00:30:05
where they had the the government had
00:30:08
said we need more culture we need more
00:30:11
mus culture at schools but we're not
00:30:13
going to have it in the
00:30:14
curriculum every school basically has to
00:30:17
have an hour class in the week where
00:30:19
they listen to songs and get to know and
00:30:21
appreciate music wow so brother Ivan who
00:30:23
we called Guff would bring in okay boys
00:30:27
sit down keep quite I've got the new Bob
00:30:30
Dylan album and he would play three
00:30:32
songs of the new Bob Dylan album well in
00:30:35
late 66 my brother Jeffrey had been
00:30:38
given the revolver album by The
00:30:40
Beatles And it completely dominated
00:30:44
their lives over the summer holidays of
00:30:47
6667 when we got back I would negotiate
00:30:49
with brother rvan that he could have a
00:30:52
few songs but we had to have some too
00:30:55
and then I wonder if this was fifth film
00:30:59
probably was I said to brother Ian
00:31:02
listen instead of just listening to
00:31:04
records do you mind of Tim and I I call
00:31:08
him Tim even though his name's Bri Yeah
00:31:11
Tim and I go on stage and sing the boys
00:31:14
some songs he looked at me like oh you
00:31:17
precocious little twit but he was good
00:31:19
he was great and up we hopped and we did
00:31:21
to love somebody and probably yesterday
00:31:25
and we love the BS well Tim sing like a
00:31:28
bird I hadn't really heard him he was
00:31:31
kind of hiding behind the piano but it
00:31:34
was very very clear to everyone in the
00:31:37
hall that this guy was a beautiful
00:31:40
singer and that's when I thought oh I'm
00:31:42
going to hold on to his coattails and
00:31:44
never let go that's when that happened
00:31:47
1967 is is that um just being incredibly
00:31:50
modest on your part no yeah oh you must
00:31:53
something I play I play the piano with
00:31:56
the Bas yeah and you so you got into Bas
00:31:58
because of
00:31:59
um from what I can GA you love The
00:32:01
Beetles and you saw McCartney play that
00:32:03
and you I want to do that but also it
00:32:05
looked easy it's only
00:32:07
one it's only one note at the time one
00:32:12
note at the time so you could
00:32:14
[Music]
00:32:16
go anyone can do
00:32:20
that not anyone can do it exceptionally
00:32:22
well or to the level that you had so so
00:32:24
so then what so you and you and ter why
00:32:27
don't you end up just forming a
00:32:28
partnership with just the two of you how
00:32:30
how do you end up in a in a in a massive
00:32:32
band together probably because I was
00:32:36
quite strongly emotionally linked to my
00:32:38
brother MH Jeffrey who hopped on the
00:32:42
drums and became a a great drummer he
00:32:46
was in the first sort of 15 months of
00:32:50
spreadin and I think n kumby will tell
00:32:53
you that the best drummer sp's ever had
00:32:55
was Jeff Chan he was on that beginning
00:32:58
of the ends album It's Jeffrey's drum
00:33:00
playing and it's really really good so
00:33:02
there was Jeffrey on drums I was on Bas
00:33:05
Tim was either singing and one song he
00:33:07
played Bas get your motor
00:33:11
running uh it was mental um it's quite
00:33:15
isn't it quite funny it's probably like
00:33:16
a little um fun fact that not many
00:33:18
people know but before long before there
00:33:19
were two fins and splittin there were
00:33:21
two CHS that's quite true yeah yeah oh
00:33:25
yeah so um so your brother Jeffrey you
00:33:28
this is going further down the track now
00:33:29
it was you that suggested that Neil
00:33:32
joins the band I did and at the time so
00:33:35
Neil was how old at the time like he was
00:33:36
like 5 years younger than you guys six
00:33:38
years younger than he was six I think
00:33:39
because yeah six and at the time Neil
00:33:42
was um Neil was in your brother's band
00:33:45
yeah I know I still feel bad about it
00:33:47
how how award was I think I'd reached
00:33:50
almost the end of the line dealing with
00:33:54
agobia I had flown from Chicago
00:33:59
down to Oakland to ask alist Rell of
00:34:01
space walls if he would leave and or
00:34:04
just become the guitar player for
00:34:06
spinnings because Phil Jud had left the
00:34:09
band I was still in the band you know
00:34:12
and uh aliser said no he didn't want to
00:34:15
be our guitar player said oh [ __ ] it
00:34:17
this you know what are we going to do
00:34:19
with
00:34:20
then I saw Neil play with Jeffrey in
00:34:23
after hours so were called flew back and
00:34:25
I said you should get Neil he can sing
00:34:27
he can write
00:34:29
songs as my sort of plead to be let go
00:34:33
and so after ringing Neil and Neil said
00:34:36
I I think I should ask my mom and dad
00:34:39
first I then said I'm I have to leave
00:34:43
yeah and I wasn't sad to leave because
00:34:46
the a phobic disorder there'll be people
00:34:49
listening to me right now going I know
00:34:53
all about a phobic disorder I've got
00:34:55
this or I've got that and it's the most
00:34:59
grinding impossible thing to to deal
00:35:01
with and and to kind of stay happy yeah
00:35:06
um so yeah I left the B at the same time
00:35:09
that Neil joined in fact he arrived the
00:35:11
day after
00:35:12
me we should have waved in the
00:35:15
air
00:35:18
best CH guitar and there was um there
00:35:21
was a massive turning point for split
00:35:23
end so you had this band that was
00:35:24
already successful and they just like
00:35:26
raised another gear when did you first
00:35:28
meet Neil how was how old was Neil when
00:35:30
you first metet like 10 11 8 he would
00:35:32
have been it would have been a free
00:35:34
Sunday at Sac heart college and Tim and
00:35:38
I we actually it was a a Christmas gift
00:35:42
for my uncle Uncle John to go to steing
00:35:45
Studios for an hour and to record and so
00:35:48
we went there and we spent much longer
00:35:50
than an hour but my loving daddy paid
00:35:53
all the rest of the money but the
00:35:54
recordings that we did were bloody good
00:35:57
in fact they still exist they've been
00:35:59
mastered and now you can't hear them but
00:36:02
Neil had been part of that process in
00:36:04
listening and
00:36:05
absorbing the because they original
00:36:08
songs the creative life of his big
00:36:10
brother at Sacred Heart and you could
00:36:14
see it in his eyes that he wanted to do
00:36:16
that
00:36:17
too yeah and so that that's when I'm I
00:36:20
first properly saw him singing as a
00:36:24
support act for a New Zealand tour of
00:36:26
spins h
00:36:29
yeah he's you know we talked about time
00:36:30
for a change before um and then you
00:36:32
listen to like Neil's lyrics for message
00:36:34
to my girl so he would have been really
00:36:36
young when he wrote that and that's a
00:36:37
great song it's incredible lyrics
00:36:39
there's no denying he's a pretty good
00:36:41
song wrer The the McCartney of
00:36:44
inz I I can't say anything about anybody
00:36:47
I can about Don yeah um how was it with
00:36:51
your brother was it Frosty for a while
00:36:53
when you when you when you suggested NE
00:36:58
well I England I well the thing is I
00:37:02
landed back in
00:37:04
Oakland you know
00:37:07
um and Jeff said oh we why don't you and
00:37:10
I
00:37:11
play here has a tape a cassette and
00:37:15
there's a song on it with some French
00:37:16
lyrics and check that out and you know
00:37:19
so we form a band and the song with the
00:37:21
French lyrics is Julia
00:37:25
Julia hear me now you I thought [ __ ]
00:37:28
where's that song been okay we're former
00:37:30
band so Citizen band came to be we stole
00:37:33
Bren Eckles and Greg Clark of Vox pop
00:37:37
who were playing at the globe
00:37:40
hotel but again oh yeah well see it's
00:37:44
all it's not
00:37:46
complicated everybody with agobia has a
00:37:49
safe
00:37:50
place where it that
00:37:54
disorder can't touch you
00:37:57
for me it is either a stage or ockland
00:38:02
city I could be in Oakland City and live
00:38:05
a beautiful life and the minute I hopped
00:38:08
in the car and drove off downstair to
00:38:11
palon North to do a gig at the hour puny
00:38:14
I would be Frozen with fear unless I had
00:38:17
my daddy's tranquilizer
00:38:19
pills but yeah so Oakland in fact
00:38:22
everybody I've talked to that has come
00:38:24
out and asked to speak to me about
00:38:26
agobia has their own safe place some of
00:38:29
them it's the bedroom the other ones are
00:38:31
really fearful they they go to open the
00:38:34
door of their bedroom and they rush back
00:38:35
in it and if that's severe that means
00:38:37
your world is reduced to yeah so at
00:38:39
least I I didn't know that this was the
00:38:42
case that's why forming a band with je
00:38:45
of Citizen band was fine I felt good
00:38:48
playing at the all the different venues
00:38:51
but then we started to travel oh [ __ ] I
00:38:55
had one bad panic attack and pson
00:38:59
North people thought I was really out of
00:39:02
it little did they realize I was just
00:39:04
taking too many tranquilizer tablets
00:39:06
where were you where were you playing
00:39:07
was it the a pun the AL our
00:39:11
pun I'm from from palas North so yeah
00:39:14
the hour we love it love being down
00:39:16
there the guy there alen CIA can't
00:39:20
remember his name put us up in hotel
00:39:23
rooms you know we were
00:39:25
spoiled okay well let yeah let's talk
00:39:28
about this for um for is it hard for you
00:39:30
to talk about this stuff or not the
00:39:32
slightest no okay so um so there's a
00:39:35
reality TV show that you go on uh called
00:39:37
new faces and I believe you finish in
00:39:39
seventh place we were second to
00:39:43
last is it the irony of that like given
00:39:46
how successful split ends went on to be
00:39:48
so that's when the the that's do you
00:39:49
call them panic attacks or yeah yeah
00:39:52
that was a bad one that was with space
00:39:54
wall so yeah so so you were playing in
00:39:56
both space spots and split in this Eddie
00:39:59
and Eddie R and I we both played on a
00:40:03
national tour with Space Balls I don't
00:40:06
know how this came about someone paid
00:40:07
for me to fly I was at work working as
00:40:10
an
00:40:11
engineer at Fisher and parle I would fly
00:40:14
in the morning down do the show say at
00:40:16
the CR Town Hall fly back the next
00:40:18
morning go to work fly back down to
00:40:21
theen PL that denen town nor flyback
00:40:24
what a mental life it was no wonder I
00:40:27
was
00:40:28
ravaged um I don't know what that was an
00:40:31
answer to did you ask me something well
00:40:33
yes so so the new faces reality TV
00:40:37
show see I hadn't had a panic attack so
00:40:39
this is where it all started yeah I'd
00:40:41
been in
00:40:42
ockland and unbeknown to me I was safe
00:40:46
you know and spans was doing well
00:40:48
and we were playing with Spaceballs at
00:40:51
the his Majesty's theater and that and
00:40:53
we flew down to do the
00:40:55
final film
00:40:57
of beautiful boy which is going to be in
00:41:00
the final of new faces so we filmed it
00:41:04
it's on New Zealand on screen on tell
00:41:06
you if you want to see it I've got Brill
00:41:08
cream slick
00:41:11
here had chicken dinner with the
00:41:14
boys they stood up and said we're going
00:41:16
to the bar and I just got whacked with
00:41:19
the most
00:41:21
ferocious case of
00:41:24
Terror just unimaginably
00:41:27
just huge overwhelming yeah as I say in
00:41:30
the book I rush back to the bedroom the
00:41:33
hotel room that Eckles and I were in
00:41:37
they'd all gone to the house bar so I
00:41:39
was there alone and I vomited I had
00:41:41
diarrhea I had diarrhea and vomiting I
00:41:43
was just it was and but what do I say to
00:41:46
anybody do I say oh I'm really really
00:41:49
really really really really really
00:41:51
scared H come what's up I don't know far
00:41:56
out so somehow I fell asleep after some
00:42:00
hours of just pretending to be
00:42:03
asleep and that's when the
00:42:06
battle
00:42:07
started so you were how old at the time
00:42:11
like 20 mid 20s 21 21 and it's the first
00:42:14
time it's happened [ __ ] that must be so
00:42:16
did you initially think it might be like
00:42:17
a food poisoning or a viral bug or I
00:42:20
think I had a weak Link in my psychic
00:42:24
chain and I had a susceptibility for a
00:42:28
phobic disorder because of the ones in
00:42:30
the family going back you know like my
00:42:33
uncle and all that kind of
00:42:35
stuff that I if I was not taking care
00:42:41
with my brain you could snap that
00:42:44
psychic chain and I broke it one night
00:42:48
in August
00:42:49
74 and I think it was
00:42:53
um yes I had had LSD that night but it
00:42:57
was the tie sticks that the minute I
00:43:00
inhaled the tie stick I went into
00:43:03
a a disgustingly fearful state which
00:43:07
vanished of course cuz I was in Oakland
00:43:09
so being in Oakland wasn't enough to
00:43:12
defeat that that first time watching TV
00:43:17
the TV became a monster it just looked
00:43:20
at me like you having a panic attack you
00:43:23
stupid wi was some big black dude
00:43:26
singing old music songs on TV anyway oh
00:43:29
Isaac Hayes no yeah Isaac Hayes the sh
00:43:32
from that
00:43:35
man something like that sha that's right
00:43:39
I was dying up there so but so you you
00:43:41
just thought you were having like a bad
00:43:43
trip um and I thought I had um brought
00:43:47
on a case of
00:43:49
Madness undefined but very real and that
00:43:53
I would be like this for the rest of my
00:43:54
life you weren't you weren't you didn't
00:43:56
have a massive drug career though did
00:43:57
you you just sort of went and done at
00:43:58
your girlfriend's parents house yeah
00:44:00
basically yeah yeah uh okay so see I
00:44:03
couldn't get home I didn't have a car
00:44:05
that's another thing is is the feeling
00:44:07
of
00:44:09
entrapment I should have rung my father
00:44:11
and and told him Dad if you've got a um
00:44:15
what do you call that stuff puts you to
00:44:16
sleep oh like a like like a tranquilizer
00:44:20
no um they put it put you to sleep for
00:44:23
operations oh I'm not anesthetic I um
00:44:27
you're
00:44:28
not but anyway the stuff that puts you
00:44:30
to sleep the anst puts it in and and an
00:44:33
aesthetic yes yes I didn't I was just
00:44:37
yeah you just have to White Knuckle it
00:44:38
and absolute hell on Earth yeah so so
00:44:42
but that incident in Wellington before
00:44:43
you went on TV for new faces so you're
00:44:45
sharing a room with um Bren hles who's
00:44:47
who's um gone on to become one of New
00:44:49
Zealand's best concert promoters ever he
00:44:51
is still very busy still very active um
00:44:54
you must have had chats with him over
00:44:55
the years about it what are his
00:44:56
recollection of it nothing did he pick
00:44:58
up on anything or were you really good
00:44:59
at wearing a mask I'm brilliant at
00:45:02
wearing a mask I never talked to the
00:45:03
band about it I never talked to anybody
00:45:06
about it
00:45:09
um I think because I was probably just
00:45:12
plain
00:45:14
embarrassed that by a fool
00:45:18
hearty acid titics mix i' fallen down a
00:45:23
deep dark hole into the black of
00:45:27
Hades I thought I was
00:45:30
insane until my darling Daddy when I
00:45:35
told him I had stage fright it's a great
00:45:38
lie I could have lived on the stage for
00:45:40
the rest of my life um he said oh you
00:45:42
should have have the syex tranquilizers
00:45:46
they'll help you on
00:45:48
stage so I took one and I just
00:45:51
fell like in the van I felt normal so I
00:45:57
lasted two and a half years taking half
00:46:00
in the morning half at night half in the
00:46:02
morning half at half in the morning half
00:46:04
at
00:46:05
night and slowly but surely the wet
00:46:09
blanket weighed down on me until I had
00:46:11
to
00:46:13
leave wow so but having half morning
00:46:17
half at night of these these pills that
00:46:19
kept them that kept them at Bay you
00:46:21
didn't have I mean you never know it
00:46:23
might have been just the the power of
00:46:25
suggestion and that the fact that I
00:46:27
thought these are going to help me oh
00:46:28
like a placebo effect yeah I don't
00:46:31
know anyway but it sounds like they um
00:46:35
like they they kept on happening over a
00:46:37
course of like a decade 12 years like
00:46:40
the panic attacks yes yeah yeah yeah U
00:46:42
they became pretty rare after
00:46:46
that in fact I never really had
00:46:49
them but I took the the tranquilizers
00:46:53
for 18
00:46:54
years I when I was writing sharp left
00:46:59
turn the book I thought I better learn
00:47:02
something about this drug you know
00:47:04
because I it taking a little so I looked
00:47:07
it up on something like Oxford
00:47:10
encyclopedia or something syex usually
00:47:13
not taken for more than 3 weeks I
00:47:16
thought oh what about the other 17 years
00:47:18
and 3 weeks um am I insane
00:47:23
now I don't feel insane I think I'm okay
00:47:28
but yeah well how long can you talk
00:47:32
about this because of course then it
00:47:33
left me I felt it go as if have you seen
00:47:38
that movie Baymax you know Baymax the
00:47:41
Character cartoon
00:47:43
no so baymax is looks after this little
00:47:48
kid and and when the little kid decides
00:47:51
that Baymax has looked after him enough
00:47:53
he goes and so there's this scene talk
00:47:57
about
00:47:58
crying I was watching with my
00:48:01
granddaughter at Baymax have I done
00:48:05
enough to help you staring at the little
00:48:07
boy boy who goes no no this is not the
00:48:10
time you oh no you can't do please
00:48:13
please have I done enough to help
00:48:18
you pause long pause pauses are great I
00:48:21
do them on the Bas all the
00:48:23
time yes you have and Baymax floats off
00:48:28
into
00:48:29
space beautiful scene
00:48:32
agobia said have I done enough to help
00:48:35
you and after quite a big argument I
00:48:38
said yes you have and the disorder just
00:48:41
floated
00:48:42
away it's been mischievous now and then
00:48:46
and I've never had I did
00:48:50
have real trouble in New York in the
00:48:52
'90s but that was because I drunk far
00:48:55
too much on the plane and got my into a
00:48:57
right
00:48:58
State anyway look it's a complex world
00:49:01
having a brain yeah it it is and it
00:49:04
sounds like you I mean reading the book
00:49:06
like it's um I felt really bad for you
00:49:09
it's like harrowing just living in
00:49:10
almost this fear of these things
00:49:13
happening and just you the the
00:49:15
uncertainty of knowing if it's going to
00:49:16
happen is it not going to happen there's
00:49:18
one incident where you talk about where
00:49:20
you've got a layover at LAX you're
00:49:22
flying to London and uh your bag gets
00:49:24
checked all the way through again this
00:49:26
is like um 1970 so uh this is long
00:49:29
before like you know Aviation Security
00:49:31
is even a patch on what it is now but
00:49:34
your tranquilizers were in your luggage
00:49:36
that was checked all the way through and
00:49:37
you realized you had like half a pill
00:49:39
sitting in your pocket so you were it
00:49:41
sounded like you were a junkie almost
00:49:43
like trying to you know rashing out this
00:49:46
half a pill figuring out when to take it
00:49:48
or I'll never forget the GU saying you
00:49:50
haven't got a visa to stay here at all
00:49:54
so the bags have gone through it London
00:49:57
and I looked at him I thought that what
00:50:00
must have been what the look was like
00:50:02
when you went into oswit and hopped off
00:50:04
the train was something you knew that
00:50:07
all of hell was waiting for you but
00:50:10
luckily I had my half and I must have
00:50:12
sort of somehow talk myself into that
00:50:15
half will be okay so I just pretended to
00:50:18
be asleep for like s or eight on a
00:50:21
whatever the time it takes to fly to
00:50:23
London from New York and I got through m
00:50:26
in a Shabby State mind you
00:50:29
yeah do you like from where you are now
00:50:32
do you look back and you regret not hard
00:50:34
like not talking to your bandmates about
00:50:36
it or not seeking some more professional
00:50:37
help well I think they probably would
00:50:39
have asked me or let me go I was scared
00:50:44
they were going to let me go because I
00:50:45
was
00:50:46
mad but you weren't you weren't mad
00:50:48
though no I had a phobic disorder and
00:50:51
lots of people got them there are people
00:50:54
right now probably sending you a text or
00:50:57
something about well he's he's got what
00:50:59
I want yeah but um there it's it's
00:51:04
important to know who is part of your
00:51:09
saving process so my wife
00:51:12
Bridget flying with her this is back in
00:51:15
the days when I was still taking the
00:51:18
pills in theory but if if I had
00:51:20
forgotten to bring
00:51:22
it I possibly could board a plane with
00:51:25
her with me you know having people like
00:51:28
that and maybe even my father I never
00:51:30
flew with him ever like kind of weird
00:51:33
like an anchor thing or a comfort thing
00:51:35
or a security thing security I think you
00:51:37
know cuz she's very important in my life
00:51:40
and
00:51:40
so she's my wife did I say that yeah and
00:51:45
um yeah but in
00:51:48
yeah I mean it was a it was it was a
00:51:51
different time like um yeah water it was
00:51:54
uh it was a time where you didn't talk
00:51:57
about that sort of stuff um was that for
00:51:59
stigma reasons you think or well I just
00:52:01
didn't know what to say yeah I didn't
00:52:03
want say okay guys it started in August
00:52:06
and uh someone was singing what's what
00:52:11
was the song on TV and I had this
00:52:13
massive dose of Terror overcome me uh
00:52:17
which I presume was to do with the drugs
00:52:19
I'd taken and I'm now quite
00:52:22
insane uh and so what shall I do about
00:52:26
it and they were going oh well go to
00:52:28
hospital and psychiatric ward or
00:52:30
something I thought people would put me
00:52:32
in a
00:52:34
ward like one flow of the cucko in this
00:52:36
style yeah I I could have been
00:52:39
um McMurphy or the chief I could m m
00:52:43
that would have been good it's got a
00:52:44
rain yeah
00:52:47
oh sh it's um it's heartbreaking it's
00:52:50
heartbreaking what you went through it
00:52:52
was awful and you went through it for
00:52:53
such a long period of time yeah but when
00:52:57
I think about all I did everything in
00:52:59
like a 10-year block just by chance so I
00:53:03
played Bas in a professional band for 10
00:53:07
years then when I got mushroom records I
00:53:10
rang Michael ginsky beautiful man and I
00:53:13
said you need a New Zealand mushroom he
00:53:15
said you're right I do hold hold fire
00:53:19
two days later he turns up with a big
00:53:22
image he's done in his art Department of
00:53:24
mushroom New Zealand in the first alum
00:53:26
was cool bananas and that was number one
00:53:29
second album was P Bean dance exponents
00:53:31
that sold double Platinum so I had a
00:53:34
great time and all of a sudden I was
00:53:35
distracted from life on the road in a
00:53:40
band um and then I went to Appa for 11
00:53:43
years I love that because I would meet
00:53:45
songwriters by the truckload you know
00:53:48
Don mcglashan would come in to have a
00:53:49
meeting how's this SE work I explain it
00:53:52
to done looking at him like I'm in the
00:53:54
same room as Dum GL that's really cool M
00:53:58
and
00:54:00
then why did I leave ail well that's a
00:54:02
very good question and maybe I'm just a
00:54:05
lever anyway and then I went to PL
00:54:07
strange where I still am 21 years later
00:54:10
well you're you're accelerating some
00:54:11
very very big um chunks of the Mike Chan
00:54:14
story here well how many hours do you
00:54:15
want
00:54:16
to bringing some
00:54:19
beer it's it's quite early we I can get
00:54:21
a couple of beers in if you want though
00:54:23
no fine um okay so first of all um
00:54:25
Michael G you mentioned uh his name I
00:54:28
had the fortune of meeting him like a
00:54:29
few years ago I went to Detroit for um
00:54:32
Taylor Swift concert and he was bringing
00:54:34
Taylor and ID to New Zealand and
00:54:36
Australia so we went out for had a
00:54:37
lovely dinner how um yeah you were quite
00:54:40
close with him did you are you familiar
00:54:42
with the Ed Shan song visiting hours no
00:54:45
oh you got to check it out promise me
00:54:46
you check it out it's a song that he
00:54:47
wrote as a tribute to Michael excellent
00:54:50
Fant talks about If Heaven had visiting
00:54:52
hours and just how much he misses his
00:54:53
mate visiting hours you'll love it um
00:54:56
yeah what was what was your relationship
00:54:58
like with Michael gadinsky well it was
00:54:59
it was professional you know um tough
00:55:02
guy right he never went out
00:55:04
yeah well later when I was running the
00:55:08
anr for CVS records which was a short
00:55:12
period of
00:55:13
time but I had
00:55:17
produced I'm looking at you in a funny
00:55:19
way com I'm as much a producer as dog
00:55:23
outside that's prob having
00:55:25
asleep but Phil Jud signed a little
00:55:27
piece of paper that says the next
00:55:29
swingers I produced the swingers One
00:55:31
Good Reason the next swingers song uh
00:55:35
that we record you can have the rights
00:55:38
to it here in you know yeah in New
00:55:42
Zealand so the next thing they go and
00:55:44
record is counting the beat [ __ ] with
00:55:49
tickle whatever his first name
00:55:52
is well I get a copy take it down to
00:55:55
John M pry at CBS records he says okay
00:55:58
this is our new swinger single we're
00:56:01
going to release
00:56:03
it the phone rings at about 2
00:56:06
a.m. Chan you
00:56:09
[ __ ] I thought oh no can he knows I've
00:56:13
taken it down to CBS and that it hasn't
00:56:15
gone off the festival records or
00:56:17
wherever he wanted it to
00:56:18
go it was extremely precocious of
00:56:22
me and his was I'm I was listening to
00:56:27
like oh man he's good at giving me heaps
00:56:31
he's really telling me off I can't do
00:56:33
that what I want lessons from him on how
00:56:35
to make someone feel deeply regretful
00:56:39
but I'm not going to and that song came
00:56:41
out it was number one second week or
00:56:43
something oh it's a massive song it
00:56:45
still gets used on ads for Kmart to this
00:56:48
day it was only in New Zealand that CBS
00:56:51
had the rights but you know and uh so
00:56:57
he immediately that was before I rang
00:57:01
him to say you should have a mushroom in
00:57:02
New Zealand he called me chinny yeah
00:57:05
chny what's up you should have a
00:57:06
mushroom I thought what happened to the
00:57:08
swingers we w't mention the swingers uh
00:57:12
just business eh
00:57:14
and mushroom New Zealand I think
00:57:17
actually did a fantastic job anr wise
00:57:21
and Festival sold a lot of
00:57:24
albums yeah yeah a lot of a lot of
00:57:26
people won't know what we're talking
00:57:27
about mushroom was a very successful
00:57:29
record label you were the head of it you
00:57:30
signed um a young Dave Dobbin with his
00:57:33
band DD smash yep yeah incredible band
00:57:36
yeah what what are what are your
00:57:38
Recollections of a young a young Dobbin
00:57:40
what didn't he have um just terrible
00:57:41
stage flight like played with us back to
00:57:43
the crowd in the early days I well
00:57:47
my
00:57:49
cognizance of Dave was when I played
00:57:52
bass in a band called The Party Boys
00:57:54
everyone had sort of left bands or
00:57:56
whatever so there was there were two
00:57:59
party boy tours the second one is the
00:58:01
one
00:58:02
really that was the most
00:58:04
exciting Pete Warren on drums Neil Fen
00:58:07
on guitar and vocals Dave doin on guitar
00:58:09
and vocals and me on Bas wow but he
00:58:13
would quite often vomit before going on
00:58:15
stage and you could tell he
00:58:19
was tense before he
00:58:22
so he was scared of going on the stage I
00:58:25
don't I never actually asked him we
00:58:27
would just notice that he had Yet to
00:58:29
Come On Stage because he was having a
00:58:31
puke what why did you never think to
00:58:34
talk about it and think maybe he's got a
00:58:36
similar thing to what I've got if the
00:58:37
guys from the spin happen to hear what
00:58:40
we're talking about they'd be laughing
00:58:42
and that we were the band that never
00:58:45
spoke to each other let alone anybody
00:58:48
else we were socially
00:58:50
pathetic just a product of the time I've
00:58:53
got no I don't
00:58:55
know I mean maybe if Tim was sitting
00:58:57
over there he'd say was boarding school
00:58:59
Mike remember did we learn how to
00:59:02
communicate at boarding school did the
00:59:03
brothers ever talk to us like did you
00:59:06
have a good holiday over Christmas Chun
00:59:08
blah blah blah no it was a deathly kind
00:59:12
of Silent world that we grew up
00:59:15
in very strange just the I think it's
00:59:18
just the generational thing right the
00:59:20
generation you grew up in the
00:59:22
time yeah yeah like like stiff upper lip
00:59:25
sort of thing um keep com and carry on
00:59:27
don't show any sort of weakness or
00:59:29
vulnerability yeah well there was well
00:59:33
we didn't have a name for my disorder I
00:59:35
think Phil God bless him had a kind of
00:59:38
social disorder social phobia cuz he
00:59:41
would walk off the stage especially the
00:59:43
American tour he would just not be there
00:59:46
he couldn't do
00:59:49
it did you did you have some sort of
00:59:52
um fom fomo I guess you know fear of
00:59:54
missing out like after you I mean you
00:59:57
you made you made the decision that you
00:59:59
had to make for your own health to to
01:00:01
leave the band and to stay in Oakland um
01:00:03
but when the the band had all that
01:00:04
success after that um you know starting
01:00:06
with I got you and then everything else
01:00:08
that followed was there a bit of you
01:00:10
that felt like bummed out or you know
01:00:13
not at all I think
01:00:16
because having it
01:00:19
was it it presented such a I call it
01:00:23
almost evil front that here we go again
01:00:27
like that they got on planes all the
01:00:29
time all of a sudden they got on all
01:00:32
sorts of stuff and the traveling they
01:00:35
did would have killed me no I I have
01:00:38
never but also if you look
01:00:42
back I could never regret any step
01:00:47
forward that I made because I so want to
01:00:51
be where I am
01:00:53
[Music]
01:00:54
today yeah
01:00:57
I love that
01:00:59
um yeah yeah I notic in your book that
01:01:02
you're you're in a voice that's quite
01:01:03
you're quite mean to yourself at times
01:01:05
aren't you just the way you sort of
01:01:07
speak to yourself like calling yourself
01:01:08
a buffoon
01:01:10
and
01:01:13
yeah yeah yeah I'm not sure where that
01:01:17
well self-deprecating
01:01:22
or I don't I wonder if I have an ego
01:01:26
i' I'd say if anything you got the
01:01:27
reverse of of an ego like there's been a
01:01:29
couple of times uh today where you
01:01:30
talked about playing guitar because it's
01:01:32
the easiest instrument to play um I've
01:01:34
read that you you you say you can't sing
01:01:36
or can't write
01:01:38
songs that's true though although I've
01:01:40
got I've got a theory on that and
01:01:42
correct me if I'm wrong but um okay um
01:01:45
let's use the beetles as as an example
01:01:47
because it's your your favorite band
01:01:49
George Harrison right fantastic
01:01:51
songwriter but put him next to Lyon and
01:01:53
McCartney and he he looks pretty average
01:01:55
by compar
01:01:56
you've just been surrounded by like the
01:01:58
tallest trees imaginable in New Zealand
01:02:00
music you know luck Dobbin the fins
01:02:04
andert name here and by comparison
01:02:07
whatever you write is going to look
01:02:08
pretty ordinary that's true and I'm an a
01:02:11
of those people as as creative minds so
01:02:15
I was very happy just to be in a band
01:02:17
with them yeah
01:02:19
yeah yeah okay so yeah so you worked at
01:02:23
mashman for a while then you went to era
01:02:24
which is the AUST Asian performing
01:02:27
Rights Association so you you've been
01:02:30
your whole life it's been deeply
01:02:31
entrenched in the music industry both on
01:02:33
stage and um behind the scenes yeah and
01:02:37
with the foundation of every step of
01:02:41
those career moves being the songs that
01:02:44
are written in New Zealand it's about
01:02:47
songs yeah it's not about the best leag
01:02:49
guitarist or how loud you know it's not
01:02:53
the loudest band so that's where
01:02:56
having D Smash and dance exponents me
01:02:59
Jordan luck as a songwriter is just
01:03:01
profoundly good so he would come through
01:03:04
with new
01:03:05
songs um with this crazy bunch of boys
01:03:09
do you do you have um are you more of a
01:03:12
fan of the dance exponents or the
01:03:14
exponents in terms of Music
01:03:16
output oh that's a really really
01:03:18
interesting
01:03:20
question I'm going to go 5050 oh that's
01:03:23
a copout you're sitting on the fence
01:03:25
I've got a I've got a mate do you know
01:03:27
do you know my my friend Robert Scott
01:03:28
he's been in radio know Robert Scott
01:03:30
heer he loves was he uh in the bats no
01:03:35
oh no there is a Robert Scott in the
01:03:37
bats he he's a radio guy works works at
01:03:39
the Bree but he he drags me along to
01:03:41
exponents concerts all the time and a
01:03:43
couple of years ago they did um a double
01:03:45
a double night thing night one was the
01:03:46
dance exponents night two was the
01:03:48
exponents um so I went along to the
01:03:50
dance experence night with him then he
01:03:51
went the next night as well he goes to
01:03:53
all of them but I yeah I mean you were
01:03:56
with Jordan in the in in between the two
01:03:58
right you were over in the UK with him
01:04:01
well obviously R
01:04:02
company when they were the dance
01:04:06
exponents then it all fell apart and
01:04:08
they went to England and I went to
01:04:10
England too to run
01:04:12
away after mushroom and I went around to
01:04:17
visit them and times were real
01:04:21
tough and I know what that's like and
01:04:24
then they said oh
01:04:26
we've been asked to play at the
01:04:27
Leicester Ballroom for a New Zealand TV
01:04:30
in
01:04:32
ton and the footage will go south you
01:04:34
know to New Zealand they were just one
01:04:37
of the ex and they hopped up there and
01:04:39
they played this song called why does
01:04:41
love do this to me oh and I rushed
01:04:44
backstage and I said well Buzz reckons I
01:04:49
said who who is that what song is that
01:04:53
that you've covered I wouldn't have did
01:04:56
that and if I did I feel terrible but I
01:04:59
believe I in backst and said what an
01:05:02
amazing song where'd that come from so
01:05:04
they go back to New Zealand get a deal
01:05:06
with Adam Hal at Universal and why does
01:05:09
love do this to minut comes out and it
01:05:11
may as well be the national anthem every
01:05:13
single New Zealander sings that
01:05:16
song yeah the familiarity level is just
01:05:20
and that's what a good song does it
01:05:21
sticks with you till pretty much the day
01:05:24
you die m
01:05:26
yeah as the exponents the the songs they
01:05:29
came back with in the second half of
01:05:30
their career just phenomenal phenomenal
01:05:31
pop songs it's incredible he's an
01:05:33
interesting guy like he hasn't drunk
01:05:35
drunk in a few years has he no yeah well
01:05:38
I saw a lot of them when I was mushroom
01:05:40
with them
01:05:41
and he just kept throwing these songs at
01:05:44
them here's this one here's that one
01:05:47
here yeah no they're are very special
01:05:50
group of people um one thing I really
01:05:52
like about uh your story from the age
01:05:55
I'm at now cuz I'm I'm 51 that's ex the
01:05:58
exact same age you were when you started
01:06:00
play at strange so you finish your
01:06:02
corporate career you're at this place
01:06:04
called AA austral Asian performing
01:06:05
Rights Association you have a 5 Monon
01:06:07
break in Europe and you decide to to um
01:06:09
stop it and the the funny thing is 51 a
01:06:13
lot of people I know when I was 30 I
01:06:14
thought 51 you were dead life was over
01:06:17
now I'm here I realize it's it's not the
01:06:19
case but the fact that you started this
01:06:21
thing which has become I don't know part
01:06:22
of your legacy I think at 51 I think
01:06:24
that's kind of cool so how was um what
01:06:26
was the what was the birth of Play It
01:06:28
Strange how do you describe play it
01:06:30
strange for anyone that doesn't know
01:06:32
well I I'll talk about what it does so
01:06:35
what it what became very clear to me is
01:06:41
that you had bands like
01:06:44
um oh [ __ ] give me some Spencer day was
01:06:48
grp that that had songwriters in them
01:06:51
that were
01:06:52
teenagers and New Zealand and in New
01:06:56
Zealand schools I wasn't aware of
01:06:59
anyone writing songs except for the odd
01:07:02
one like Dave Dobbin or
01:07:05
something and I thought why not why
01:07:08
aren't they and I met Professor pet pson
01:07:11
from Berkeley College of Music in
01:07:14
Boston we got on like a house off and I
01:07:18
said to him okay so you're the professor
01:07:20
of songw writing and lyric writing at um
01:07:23
in
01:07:24
Boston do you ever come across teenage
01:07:27
school age songwriters that are really
01:07:30
really good he
01:07:32
said
01:07:34
no and I said why not is there anywhere
01:07:37
in the world you'd think England and
01:07:39
America as the two Fountain heads of
01:07:43
class pop songs would have teenagers and
01:07:46
he said well the only country I know
01:07:48
that has a structure for them to have
01:07:50
their songs heard as New
01:07:52
Zealand so that actually is the end the
01:07:55
story so yeah
01:07:58
um yeah why I thought there aren't any
01:08:01
songs being written in schools why
01:08:04
not do they play rugby in schools MH uh
01:08:08
do they have people learning all about
01:08:10
science to become scientists do they
01:08:12
learn languages to become linguists or
01:08:14
whatever they want to do with them
01:08:19
songwriting I think it's
01:08:21
because music teachers always think I'm
01:08:24
beating beating them up but anyway I'm
01:08:26
not I'm not today please I'm not I'm not
01:08:29
uh they they aren't songwriters you know
01:08:33
they do JS or they they do serious
01:08:36
musical concert B and stuff like you
01:08:38
know 76 drum bones led the big parade
01:08:42
and
01:08:44
that so A A friend of mine Bill Moran
01:08:49
who was
01:08:50
a a finance was in the government but
01:08:54
also Phil Jud freak he rang me when he
01:08:57
heard I was leaving and said you're
01:08:58
leaving eper and I said yeah I am B know
01:09:02
the time's
01:09:03
come he said do you know what gaming
01:09:06
societies
01:09:08
are I said no I've never heard of them
01:09:11
what are they he said
01:09:12
well we should form a charitable trust
01:09:16
and get money off a gaming society and
01:09:19
what would it
01:09:20
do I'm standing on the footpath outside
01:09:23
benediction Cafe in Norland
01:09:26
uh songwriting competitions he says
01:09:28
great idea great what
01:09:31
else ukulele orchestras that's great
01:09:34
I'll be in Oakland tomorrow or something
01:09:35
and we'll start the whole thing well in
01:09:37
about two weeks play it he said I've got
01:09:40
a name for it I said what is it Bill he
01:09:42
said play at
01:09:44
strange and I said H that makes sense
01:09:46
because he was such a Phil Jud fan of
01:09:48
play at strange is the song written by
01:09:50
Phil Jud that was never recorded
01:09:54
properly I I could tell also at the same
01:09:56
time he wanted to fly Phil J back from
01:09:58
Australia to be a judge on it which
01:10:02
happened uh so PL strange came to be and
01:10:05
we just threw
01:10:07
out come on get get your songwriting
01:10:11
students get your music students get
01:10:14
students get creative writing people to
01:10:17
write lyrics just all write songs and
01:10:19
see them to us here at plat strange Neil
01:10:22
Finn God bless him had given us a room
01:10:24
at the top of his building building so I
01:10:26
would sit there with a
01:10:28
phone we'd send out a little booklet to
01:10:30
all the music teachers we're running a
01:10:32
songwriting competition get your
01:10:34
students to
01:10:36
join we're running a songwriting
01:10:38
competition get the students to join
01:10:40
come on come
01:10:41
on then one day the phone
01:10:45
rang it's like a scene out of u a horror
01:10:52
movie Mike here at Planet strange Mike
01:10:55
it's Sharon Hollis here at the scotwood
01:10:57
trust in
01:10:59
Hamilton I've got your a little book
01:11:01
here about your songwriting competitions
01:11:04
and I think I can get my board of
01:11:06
directors
01:11:08
what to give you some funds to start it
01:11:12
well I've been told since that she got
01:11:14
beaten up at the board meeting like what
01:11:17
are you talking about player strange
01:11:18
what a stupid name what a song writing
01:11:20
what the [ __ ] said all about but she won
01:11:23
she got the money we and on the first
01:11:25
first album we did in 19 uh sorry
01:11:29
2004 a little 14-year-old from Hamilton
01:11:33
called kimra had a song and it just
01:11:37
smashed all the windows when we played
01:11:39
it and so I just thought there are
01:11:41
songwriters out there at the schools
01:11:44
they just need to be heard and so we
01:11:46
started with one album of 20
01:11:50
songs this year I think we're going to
01:11:52
reach about 650 songs
01:11:55
yeah and you just start down as as CEO
01:11:58
at the end of last year after 20 years
01:11:59
yeah well Bill said you can be the CEO I
01:12:02
actually didn't really know what that
01:12:03
inail I'll be the CEO
01:12:06
sure he said yeah
01:12:08
okay yeah I I went to the second slot
01:12:12
really
01:12:14
uh a CEO can't go on
01:12:17
forever so what you what are you doing
01:12:19
now you still s of I'm the creative
01:12:21
director so and I'm a Founder yeah geez
01:12:25
it's it's so cool what a legacy eh I've
01:12:28
had a ball best job I've ever had even
01:12:30
better than expence expence was riddled
01:12:33
with problems of my own doing but play
01:12:37
strange it's you know when I go into a
01:12:39
studio and someone like Bill Engish
01:12:41
daughter Maria English is sitting there
01:12:44
singing her song about this
01:12:47
girl I hope she doesn't hear this this
01:12:50
girl which is about a girl that she
01:12:52
doesn't like and make the lyrics in the
01:12:56
in the
01:12:57
songwriting of the songs from schools
01:13:00
are
01:13:01
incredibly cathartic the pouring of the
01:13:04
heart out whether it's to a father
01:13:09
that's left them on Father's Day that's
01:13:11
an incredibly terrible song um the
01:13:15
mother who's beaten up by the Father the
01:13:17
fathers are actually [ __ ] most of
01:13:19
the songs but there are mothers and then
01:13:21
the boy girl relationship one guy was
01:13:24
and his the first year it was all about
01:13:26
how wonderful this girl was the next
01:13:28
year it was about a girl and how
01:13:30
terrible she was and I said to him so we
01:13:32
got a new girlfriend sort of he said no
01:13:35
she's dropped
01:13:36
me they're all healing themselves with
01:13:39
songs you know that's a short summation
01:13:42
of what it's all about yeah I like that
01:13:44
God you must be incredibly proud of play
01:13:46
it strange it's really cool right it's
01:13:47
it had to be there somewhere in the
01:13:50
passage of time a play Strange a
01:13:53
songwriting environment had to so school
01:13:56
kids can send them in cuz go back to Pat
01:14:00
Patterson again we were sitting in my
01:14:02
car going to Hamilton and I was playing
01:14:04
a PL strange CD of songs that have been
01:14:07
entered and he said you know what the
01:14:10
best thing is about plat strange he said
01:14:12
are you are you playing these songs I
01:14:14
said yeah I am he said that someone not
01:14:17
only decides to write the song Not only
01:14:21
starts to write the song but then horror
01:14:24
of all Horrors finds the energy to
01:14:27
finish the song that apparently is the
01:14:29
high part and then sends it to Australia
01:14:32
with a whole set of lyrics which are
01:14:33
part of the heaing process so it doesn't
01:14:36
really matter who wins it doesn't even
01:14:39
really matter who goes on the album it's
01:14:42
the fact that how many this year I think
01:14:44
this was a few years ago I said
01:14:46
something like 420 he said that 420
01:14:49
songs were started and finished whereas
01:14:51
without PL strange they probably would
01:14:53
have been two
01:14:56
H [ __ ] I can tell you're proud just the
01:14:59
way you talk about it I yeah I just love
01:15:03
it yeah has it did it give you a new Lis
01:15:06
of life where do you think you would
01:15:07
have been now at the age of 71 if you
01:15:08
hadn't been busy with us for the last 20
01:15:10
years oh well I did love AA why did I
01:15:12
leave
01:15:13
era yeah cuz I read in your book when
01:15:15
you got know the answer when you got the
01:15:17
job at era that's uh that was the moment
01:15:20
when you had that security that your um
01:15:22
AGR phobia left like you can pinpoint
01:15:24
the ex moment I felt it yeah it sort of
01:15:28
went aming like a weight leaving your
01:15:30
body I've been opening a glove box to
01:15:32
take out the tranquilizer to catch the
01:15:34
flight back to
01:15:36
Oakland and I picked up the bottle and
01:15:38
then
01:15:41
this happened and I put it back in the
01:15:43
glove box shut it and caught the flight
01:15:46
what's going on so you haven't you
01:15:48
haven't had any of those pills for how
01:15:50
many years years years I carry them now
01:15:52
I do carry them do you as
01:15:55
i't been I haven't been traveling enough
01:15:58
Yeah you sort of need to keep beating it
01:16:00
down right like sort of face your fears
01:16:02
sort of thing yeah in a way and and
01:16:05
there have been quite long periods of
01:16:07
time where I haven't flown it's all
01:16:09
about the
01:16:12
flight God the brain's a complex [ __ ]
01:16:14
thing isn't it um oh a couple of other
01:16:18
things so you yeah you made Royal honors
01:16:20
uh in 2002 for music and again in 2015
01:16:23
for your services to Mental Health what
01:16:25
are you like a companion of the what's
01:16:28
yeah I'm a friendly guy I'm a
01:16:31
companion companion of the order of the
01:16:34
a companion of the New Zealand order of
01:16:36
Merit yeah are they are they something
01:16:39
you're proud of do they mean a lot to
01:16:40
you yeah and especially my mom dad had
01:16:43
gone but Mom was very proud and and so
01:16:46
with my family you know that we were all
01:16:48
at the government house luncheon for
01:16:50
those who had received the
01:16:53
companion and it was a great vibe in the
01:16:56
room
01:16:57
yeah that's good I mean well it's an
01:17:01
honor isn't it yeah well if someone
01:17:04
wants to give you one I think why
01:17:06
not 100% and well well deserved do does
01:17:09
one mean more than the other like the
01:17:10
the one first Serv yes yes it does d
01:17:13
yeah it starts with queen service or
01:17:16
something then it goes to a member of
01:17:19
the order of Merit then you're an
01:17:20
officer of the order of Merit which was
01:17:22
my first one then you're a companion of
01:17:25
the New Zealand order of mar and then
01:17:27
you go on to be a KN no I mean does does
01:17:30
one mean more than the other to you in
01:17:31
terms of um no services to music versus
01:17:34
services to mental health no no both
01:17:37
equal yeah yeah um how do you how do you
01:17:39
feel about aging oh I'm into it yeah
01:17:43
yeah I'm fine and there are things I
01:17:44
can't do anymore I can't run because my
01:17:48
I've got a sort
01:17:50
of rheumatoid arthletic problem with my
01:17:54
legs
01:17:55
I don't know if you notice me wobbling
01:17:56
in here but um I I work away chip away
01:18:01
but I you know so
01:18:05
um yeah I don't think about it if I
01:18:09
can't walk properly I don't walk
01:18:11
properly I don't sit around brooding
01:18:13
about anything to do with health yeah
01:18:17
you're in good shape good health I think
01:18:19
so yeah what what are the most
01:18:20
frustrating or annoying aspects of
01:18:23
Aging just the
01:18:26
arthritis well even that I don't care
01:18:28
about I have no crims at the moment
01:18:31
about anything yeah you seem happy and
01:18:33
relaxed it's a good place to be um are
01:18:35
there still things you want to learn or
01:18:41
achieve I I'd like to have a go uh well
01:18:46
see I I basically don't think I can can
01:18:48
do it I'd like to write a
01:18:51
book of course you can how many of you
01:18:53
written so far they're just like you
01:18:55
know pages of a diary oh like a novel or
01:18:59
yeah like those sort of stream of
01:19:02
Consciousness things like I've just
01:19:03
finished Jame uh Janet
01:19:07
frames faces in the water which is Al so
01:19:11
part biography things like that hugely
01:19:15
in it's I love Dickens so I would have
01:19:17
read seven Dickens books and it's how he
01:19:20
says things not what he's
01:19:23
saying so
01:19:26
it needs you need a lot of time
01:19:28
uh no actually I having said that I'm
01:19:32
speaking to myself here you're talking
01:19:35
[ __ ] really just thinking out so I don't
01:19:37
really want to write a
01:19:38
book I feel like you like the idea of
01:19:41
writing a book and when you think about
01:19:42
how much Works sit down and look at it
01:19:44
this
01:19:47
like I want to make sure I don't forget
01:19:50
how to play for example
01:19:53
the um the piano bits that I love
01:19:56
playing you know like the girl with the
01:19:58
flex in here by
01:20:01
deusi you know if I forget that so I
01:20:04
need to keep my memory alert yeah is and
01:20:07
playing the piano actually is a really
01:20:09
good thing for exercising the brain is
01:20:12
it just a case of use it or lose it with
01:20:14
the yeah I think so yeah um what are
01:20:17
your thoughts of um the the current
01:20:19
music landscape like what what current
01:20:21
artists do you like who are you a big
01:20:22
fan of oh um well I know it sounds like
01:20:25
fob or stupid really
01:20:28
but all I listen to at the moment are
01:20:30
songs from schools so you could say yeah
01:20:34
but what
01:20:35
about blue blue Billy ey it wouldn't
01:20:38
have a clue wouldn't have I don't listen
01:20:40
to them right uh I have very active uh
01:20:46
children
01:20:47
that you know like I'm going to see Voom
01:20:50
on Sunday night with my daughter and my
01:20:54
my son Barney and
01:20:56
I we play songs together really
01:20:59
well Ruby can play the lead solid
01:21:01
wonderful
01:21:04
tonight and Johnny learned how to play
01:21:07
something by Passenger so there's all
01:21:09
this sense of involvement
01:21:13
and I don't really set high standards
01:21:15
for myself you know I can get myself
01:21:18
through part of the second movement of R
01:21:21
manof yeah that's cool
01:21:24
um what about
01:21:27
um what what about how how old are your
01:21:30
grandkids Alie is about 20 months
01:21:36
yeah Alfred my father's name was Alfred
01:21:40
actually no it wasn't my grandfather's
01:21:42
name and Lyra l y r a Lyra is five any
01:21:48
day she's called Lyra because that's the
01:21:51
lead character in the trilogy by Philip
01:21:54
pman of the northern
01:21:58
lights and there's one in the oven wow
01:22:02
you're enjoying this new chapter of your
01:22:04
life being a grandparent what are you
01:22:06
what are you um maybe that maybe they're
01:22:07
too young to go down this track yet but
01:22:09
what are you what are you play to them
01:22:11
what do you sing to them do you make up
01:22:12
you make up funny songs or Bary does
01:22:14
that with
01:22:15
Alfie um
01:22:17
Lyra no she's more into reading books in
01:22:20
fact what she can sort of do which is
01:22:22
kind of really strange and etheric
01:22:25
is that she can you read her the
01:22:28
book actually her mother used to do this
01:22:30
too
01:22:32
like um brussels sprouts are aliens I
01:22:35
know this to be
01:22:37
true and then you might go to read it
01:22:40
again and she's sitting here and I go
01:22:42
someone says something I go what what
01:22:44
and she goes Brussels that Ence I know
01:22:48
that to be
01:22:49
through she knows it she reads the whole
01:22:52
book wow she can't read so
01:22:54
I love that sort of stuff the
01:22:56
advancement of the
01:22:59
intellect it's and but it's done very
01:23:02
much to their enjoyment and what they
01:23:05
want to do never going
01:23:07
to we're not a disciplinarian
01:23:11
environment yeah what was your
01:23:13
upbringing like was it a disciplinary
01:23:15
environment I couldn't stand the
01:23:16
education discipline you know
01:23:20
I like caning on the knuckles and I
01:23:23
didn't get caned on in fact I had the
01:23:25
best music teacher on the planet Mrs
01:23:27
Beasley but and she would buy me sheet
01:23:31
music and and I would learn how to play
01:23:32
what should we do with a drink and S
01:23:34
where the other poor suckers in my class
01:23:36
were having to do things like Fair
01:23:41
release made to play songs that they
01:23:44
would never listen to to me the whole
01:23:46
world of learning an instrument as you
01:23:49
learn to play pieces of music or songs
01:23:52
or whatever they are that you like to
01:23:55
listen
01:23:56
to does that sound like I'm emphasizing
01:23:59
it yeah 100% it's common sense right
01:24:01
it's common sense it's like um oh hello
01:24:05
I'd like to play rugby I'm dreaming of
01:24:07
being in the ph5 brother no no rugby you
01:24:11
can hurt yourself the only thing we have
01:24:14
that's competitive is
01:24:22
chess that probably happens yeah
01:24:24
um do do you have any
01:24:26
regrets uh well I could say yes that
01:24:30
that and that this and this
01:24:32
but all of them if they weren't to
01:24:37
happen or didn't happen would find me
01:24:40
not where I am
01:24:42
today yeah and it's good to have an
01:24:44
understanding of that day how everything
01:24:46
fits in together but [ __ ] it would have
01:24:47
saved you a lot of um a lot of pain a
01:24:49
lot of Anguish to um address the agrop
01:24:52
phobia earlier
01:24:56
yeah but then there are you
01:24:59
know there's a woman I wouldn't have met
01:25:03
and there
01:25:04
uh yeah I never would have been an AA
01:25:08
and I mean my time in AA and in plant
01:25:11
strange have in Ence been as enjoyable
01:25:14
and
01:25:16
rewarding as in the
01:25:19
bands yeah life's been good everything's
01:25:21
worked out everything works out for a
01:25:23
reason I'm okay yeah um are you proud of
01:25:26
are you proud of yourself oh I like
01:25:29
asking my guest this question because
01:25:31
it's just I feel like it's an awkward
01:25:32
one for us New Zealand am I proud of
01:25:37
myself well I've heard that I
01:25:41
am Bridget when we went for lunch at
01:25:45
government house for the
01:25:47
companion bronze you know thing she said
01:25:51
that to me and I thought oh that's
01:25:53
really
01:25:55
you know because that's not not the sort
01:25:56
of thing people throw around like I'm
01:25:58
really really proud of
01:26:02
you sh that's wonderful isn't it and my
01:26:07
mom she said it too I don't need to hear
01:26:10
it
01:26:11
often uh what do I think I'm proud of
01:26:16
the genes that I was given which mean
01:26:19
that I will talk to any stranger in the
01:26:23
world I will assist any old lady
01:26:26
crossing the road I will
01:26:30
give time to a band at a school down the
01:26:34
road that I happen to have seen or met
01:26:37
that could do the leg up all that kind
01:26:39
of stuff yeah I've got
01:26:41
time and
01:26:44
space to help
01:26:47
people and if you anyone you speak to
01:26:49
says that about you through any sort of
01:26:52
chapter or period of your life this
01:26:53
isn't just um
01:26:54
you and your senior years where you've
01:26:56
got more time on your hands like no one
01:26:57
will say a bad word about you everyone
01:26:59
always talks about um you know how
01:27:01
generous you've been you know with your
01:27:03
time and your experiences o over the
01:27:05
years thank you which I think is a huge
01:27:08
compliment right thank you yeah yeah and
01:27:11
um yeah did we just about see some of
01:27:13
those happy tears a second ago when you
01:27:14
were reflecting on your mom and your
01:27:17
wife that's cool I think it's a gift day
01:27:19
to be to about a cry crying is good yeah
01:27:23
crying is great uh yeah crying is good
01:27:27
yeah why not oh 100% yeah it's just um
01:27:30
well I feel like uh I'm a little bit
01:27:34
younger than you but it's just the way
01:27:35
we were sort of bought up where your
01:27:37
guys don't sort of cry or show any
01:27:38
emotion but leaning into that I think
01:27:40
especially as you get older is a really
01:27:41
good thing cool yeah all right hey Mike
01:27:44
Chan thank you so much for your time
01:27:46
today I really appreciate it um you're a
01:27:49
great New Zealander and it's been an
01:27:51
absolute honor for me uh to have you on
01:27:53
my podcast like thank you yeah
01:27:55
unbelievable it's great being here
01:27:57
thanks for the invitation
01:27:58
[Music]

Podspun Insights

In this captivating episode, Mike Chan and his guest delve into the intricate tapestry of life as a musician, exploring the highs and lows of a career intertwined with mental health struggles. The conversation kicks off with a nostalgic look back at the past, as Mike shares a cherished poster from a reunion tour, revealing his personal battles with a phobic disorder that once kept him from the stage he loved. The emotional weight of these experiences is palpable, as Mike recounts the challenges of performing while grappling with anxiety, and the solace he found in music.

As they navigate through memories, the duo discusses the transformative power of songwriting and how it serves as a healing tool for both artists and listeners. Mike reflects on his journey from band member to a pivotal figure in the music industry, emphasizing the importance of vulnerability in addressing mental health. Their light-hearted banter about donuts, Wordle, and even a humorous bet with Jacinda Ardern adds a delightful contrast to the deeper themes of the episode.

Listeners are treated to a rich exploration of the music scene, with anecdotes about iconic New Zealand artists and the evolution of songwriting in schools through Mike's initiative, Play It Strange. The episode culminates in a heartfelt acknowledgment of the power of connection, both in music and in life, leaving audiences inspired to embrace their own stories and the healing that comes with sharing them.

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This episode stands out for the following:

  • 95
    Most inspiring
  • 92
    Most heartbreaking
  • 92
    Most timeless
  • 90
    Most emotional

Episode Highlights

  • Facing Phobic Disorder
    An open discussion about living with a phobic disorder and its impact on life and career.
    “The stage is where you are safe.”
    @ 01m 37s
    July 10, 2024
  • The Power of Vulnerability
    A heartfelt exchange in a bank leads to a powerful moment of connection about mental health.
    “I felt really good about it, didn’t cost me a cent.”
    @ 10m 47s
    July 10, 2024
  • Emotional Reflections
    A candid admission about being a crier and how emotions play a role in life.
    “I am a crier.”
    @ 18m 06s
    July 10, 2024
  • The Magical Playground
    Sacred Heart College was a stage for dreams, where they aspired to be like The Beatles.
    “We dreamed of being Beatles.”
    @ 27m 37s
    July 10, 2024
  • Meeting Tim Finn
    A chance encounter at school led to a lifelong musical partnership.
    “We sort of had a link, eye to eye from the first time.”
    @ 29m 25s
    July 10, 2024
  • The Birth of Split Ends
    The band transformed after Neil joined, marking a turning point in their success.
    “That was a massive turning point for Split Ends.”
    @ 35m 23s
    July 10, 2024
  • The Power of Suggestion
    The speaker reflects on the impact of tranquilizers and the placebo effect.
    “You never know, it might have been just the power of suggestion.”
    @ 46m 23s
    July 10, 2024
  • A Heartbreaking Journey
    Discussing the struggles with panic attacks and the stigma of mental health.
    “It’s heartbreaking what you went through.”
    @ 52m 50s
    July 10, 2024
  • Legacy of Play It Strange
    The speaker shares the inspiration behind starting Play It Strange at 51.
    “At 51, I think that’s kind of cool.”
    @ 01h 06m 24s
    July 10, 2024
  • Play It Strange: A Songwriting Revolution
    A friend suggested forming a charitable trust to support songwriting competitions for students, leading to the creation of Play It Strange.
    “Great idea!”
    @ 01h 09m 31s
    July 10, 2024
  • The Power of Songwriting
    Songwriting helps students heal and express their emotions, creating a cathartic experience.
    “They're all healing themselves with songs.”
    @ 01h 13m 39s
    July 10, 2024
  • Honors and Legacy
    Reflecting on his achievements, he expresses pride in receiving honors for music and mental health.
    “I’m proud of the genes that I was given.”
    @ 01h 26m 16s
    July 10, 2024

Episode Quotes

Key Moments

  • Mental Health Awareness07:44
  • Bonding Over Music23:56
  • Inspiration from Dad24:15
  • Meeting Tim Finn29:25
  • Panic Attacks46:42
  • Songwriting Competition1:09:31
  • Healing Through Music1:13:39
  • Proud of Achievements1:26:16

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