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John Fiday, she would be, we were talking about this earlier, too, like she would be almost my age right now.
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>> Yes, I realized that. >> What is that like? Like is she What is she when you picture her? She's stuck at
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six, I would imagine. >> Oh, absolutely. She's still my little girl and I can't imagine what she would
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be like as an adult. >> Do you feel like you're ever stuck in 1996? [sighs and gasps]
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>> No. Um, I mean, I've learned two things. One, life's not easy. all the time and
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life's not always fair. And it's like, okay, those are the game rules. Let's keep keep at it. And one of the things
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I've noticed with families who have lost a child, and I've looked at this in some
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detail, I don't know what the percentage is, is a majority percentage end up in a
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divorce. >> And for Paty and I, we fortunately, what really got us up off the floor was
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a realization we have three other children now that need us desperately to be strong. They're hurt. They're
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crushed. They've lost. At their age, they shouldn't have to deal with the loss and death of a family member.
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>> Do you feel like you're still in shock? [sighs and gasps] >> You don't get over the murder, the loss
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of a child. You get you move beyond