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in your prison records you repeatedly tell your therapist you cannot remember the offense is that
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true uh that's what I've told him but it's not true why would you say that because I haven't wanted to
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remember it why not because it was unbelievably horri iic and horrendous and it's hard
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for me to even wrap my mind around how I could have done something that awful and I
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guess I've just been afraid to actually face that so here he is saying I no longer
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have those feelings or those fantasies and I can't even go back to thinking about it your reaction I think he's
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trying to manipulate the judge to making him seem better than he really is those
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things just just don't disappear um on their own without intensive therapy and really dealing with it and you can see
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that the blank emotion behind his words that there's there's really no empathy there um and he's not wanting to talk
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about it because he knows that if he talks about it he's going to have some cues to show that he still really gets
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Joy from them but if you get up close to him you can see his eye twitching the whole time as I would approach he would
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get very defensive during defense questioning he kind of drank water and was very loose but he crushed a cup in
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his hand during my cross examination that I didn't even see so I don't believe any of those thoughts or
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feelings are gone I think he's just gotten better at masking them