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foreign you're happy I [Music] she looked in my eyes very warmly you're my mama she called you a mama she didn't
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from the very beginning my American mama she said foreign ly learned that we were going to
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be able to go over to Russia and pick up a little boy and girl of our own it was
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just a tremendous event how did the agency describe currently a wonderful outgoing intelligent little
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girl loved to be around all ages of children and desperately looking for parents
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she was a beautiful child after we returned home we would see her staring off into the distance blankly in
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a trance-like state she started to stand over our bed at night wake up and she'd
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be right over my face there was a coldness in her and an anger and just a distance she became someone I didn't
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know at all I mean at all our knives were disappearing she had him in her hands and was going
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to throw him over the deck she had him yes yes over the side here yes and I just started screaming put him down
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Carolee put him down doing chilling she started telling me you know I'm hearing voices
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and I'm saying things she says when the voices tell her to do something she has to do it or they'll
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hurt her and the voices she said told her to kill him doctor there is no question in your mind
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that Carolee is a very troubled little girl no there's no question in my mind about it at all
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this child I would consider to be a homicide risk what happened that day out on the deck
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you're trying to push him off the deck try to um call Joshua she is a danger to society but
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more than that she's a danger to our son we've been here every day loving her nurturing her helping her
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we couldn't save her they told me that it last night they love me and everything I tell them I
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loved them very much but I didn't know that didn't believe me I did not try to get my brother
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you didn't try to kill Joshua you're telling me the truth I just tried to him just pick him up
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that's all because he was too heavy crystal said I needed to go get Joshua trying to pick up a child that's really
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almost as big as you is kind of hard so I'm trying to walk down the steps just able to hold him so he doesn't fall
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Crystal looked and she said put him down Carolee put him down put him down I eventually put him down and she's like
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you try to kill him didn't you and I said no I was trying to pick him up so he doesn't fall because he was sliding
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off my hands and she's like no you were trying to kill him and she kept saying it and saying it and I said yes
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so I just I finally said yes I went to psychiatrist as a psychiatrist and I remember Chris to say just
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remember we wanted to kill Joshua I said okay I will tell him