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Pawn was uh a very big part of my life especially growing up every waking moment I was next to my sister she
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always was the first one to show off her little brother I guess there was a lot of guilt
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in my feelings for my sister because any time I needed her she was there there was a time where um I was playing with a
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uh a beach ball and a swimming pool and you know as all kids do you reach for the ball and the ball spins as the ball
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spun I went right in the water and pretty much almost drown and all I can remember is her
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grabbing me and pulling me out of the water and making me all right well if she can do that for me
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back then when I was helpless why couldn't I be for her now why did I trust someone else to keep her safe and
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not myself I had to fight the anger because the first thing I wanted to do was to
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drive to her house and break the door down and tear him out of it I wanted answers my parents pleaded with me and
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pleaded with me just let it go and I had to hold back