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when I learned that Nicole had been murdered the first thing that I thought was that he did it my opinion quickly
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changed um my opinion went to I can't imagine him doing that because like I said he wasn't a violent person never
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spoke violently so then my opinion changed and I was kind of conflicted from what we've we saw in the trial
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there were a lot of things that he lied about um he said whatever he thought he needed to say to anybody to myself to
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Nikki to any woman that he was ever after I mean I to this day I can't understand why Nikki was still with him
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it seemed to me he didn't want to be married he was lying seeing other women behind her back you know he he got what
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he wanted they called me a mistress and I I did not like that word although I guess ultimately that would have been
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what I was um what I'd like people to know about me was that I I wasn't trying to
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steal him from Nikki I didn't have any harsh feelings towards her ironically her death actually humanized her for me
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made her real for me and it did make me feel very bad for what I did but I was 20 years old I guess what I would want
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people to know about me is that um I made a very big mistake and I know I've made a very big
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mistake and I'm not the same person that I was I've I've grown a lot since then when I hear of people having
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Affairs I feel horrible about them and that's very conflicting for me considering I had seen somebody who was
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who was married so I have constant reminders of of what I've done but I've tried very hard to put that in the past
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and just try to be a better person since then