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I'm Paula Nixon I'm a recovering heroin addict and I'm 18 and this is around my eighth time that I've been in treatment
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for heroin and alcoholism first time I drank was when I was 14 I started really picking up use
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with alcohol marijuana when I was 15 I first started using heroin um when I was 16 I snorted it the first time and the
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second time I started shooting I started doing heroin like just like drinking on
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the weekends and it became a almost everyday thing and then it became an everyday
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thing I believe that the first time I was hooked I loved the feeling I loved what it did for me I loved what it took
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away I would say the strongest euphoria that you can possibly imagine the first high
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is the greatest it really is it's sounds like when I'm saying this all out loud it sounds so messed up I mean when
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you're an addict you want that feeling when I was worse in my heroin addiction I was shooting up about five
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times a day trying to chase the first highe I ever had I mean I didn't want to get up and do anything without
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it if I had not gotten incarcerated and taken into cussy on October 11th I think
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I'll be dead by now for sure I've been to co County Jail three times it will tear your life
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apart if I saw heroin in front of me right now I can't tell you that I wouldn't do it all of me doesn't want
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to but that addiction is so strong I was doing things I never thought I would ever do me and my friends would Rob
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people I would steal things pawn things I put myself in so many dangerous situations in all these different areas
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with all these different kind of people I missed my grandfather's funeral because I was getting high I
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know that I've caused so many people so much pain I mean I've I've not only hurt
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my own life and changed my own life I've changed all the other people's around me
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there are no words that I could say that would mean sorry enough