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it's been a learning curve um no one tells you that there isn't a book I guess for when somebody is charged with
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a crime and no one tells you what direction to go or what you're supposed to do or how you're supposed to handle
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things and so you immediately find yourself in this fight or flight mode and you stay there um we're still there
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um for Kurt he tells me that he stay strong with god um he has a wonderful relationship with God and he is very
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prayerful and devoted um and he stays strong with our kids and myself he um focuses on
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positive he tries as much as he can from where he's at behind the glass and the concrete cinder blocks to help advocate
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for himself it's very very difficult he's in a a small County Jail um so there aren't resour ources for him to do
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that even though he's being held on Bond and he isn't an you know a criminal or hasn't been convicted um he's still
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housed the same way so he doesn't have access to a computer he doesn't have access to just the tools that anyone
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would when trying to Advocate on their own behalf so that's a little that's not a little that's very very tough for him
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um so he has to rely on me his attorneys um our close Circle to help with whatever it is that he needs for the
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boys and myself we too rely on God strongly to get us through each day we are very prayerful we eat dinner
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together every night we um we love being a family we we love our family and we spend as much time together as we
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possibly can whether we are having a lunch on a Sunday with my grandmother or we're sitting in our family room
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watching a movie to try to take our mind off things we know that every day the focus is bringing their father and my
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husband home while at the same time balancing them to get into a successful future for themselves it it's there's
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it's so cumbersome to to be raising a family while we're still doing all that we're doing but we're managing it's
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difficult but we're managing